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Grappling With Burnout; Warning - This is An Epic Blog

Sunday, March 27, 2011

Seriously, I think Tolstoy may have spent less time on War and Peace. So I won't fault anyone for not slogging through it; this is mostly to help me get my own head together. But I will be truly grateful to anyone who manages to get through it and/or has advice.

Friday I melted down, and I have the blog to prove it. So this weekend I did some research on burnout because I think that's the problem. http://www.helpguide.org had some incredibly useful information. This is how the site defines burnout:

Burnout is a state of emotional, mental, and physical exhaustion caused by excessive and prolonged stress. It occurs when you feel overwhelmed and unable to meet constant demands. As the stress continues, you begin to lose the interest or motivation that led you to take on a certain role in the first place.

Burnout reduces your productivity and saps your energy, leaving you feeling increasingly helpless, hopeless, cynical, and resentful. Eventually, you may feel like you have nothing more to give.

Uh, yeah. That perfectly describes how I'm feeling.

The site offered the following symptoms of burnout:

* Every day is a bad day.
Only when I'm at work.

* Caring about your work or home life seems like a total waste of energy.
I seem to spin my wheels all the time at work, without much by way of results.

* You’re exhausted all the time.
Umm, yeah. Most days it's all I can do to get through the day.

* The majority of your day is spent on tasks you find either mind-numbingly dull or overwhelming.
Yeah, they're either one or the other most of the time.

* You feel like nothing you do makes a difference or is appreciated.
The program I'm working on is falling apart at the seams and there's nothing my coworkers and I can do about it. Events and poor management leadership are destroying everything we work for.

* Feeling like you have little or no control over your work.
See above.

* Lack of recognition or rewards for good work.
Bizarrely, no. I got a promotion and an exceptional performance award in the past year, and management routinely compliments my work.

* Unclear or overly demanding job expectations.
My mentee described me as Super Woman last week. Nuff said.

* Doing work that’s monotonous or unchallenging.
Uh, no. That would be a nice change, though.

* Working in a chaotic or high-pressure environment
Bingo!

* Working too much, without enough time for relaxing and socializing
10-12 hours a day, 4 days a week = 40-44 hours a week, which isn't obscene but leaves no time during the week. Weekends have been devoted to travel so I haven't had any Jentime. Adding introvert overload to burnout makes for one cranky Jen.

* Being expected to be too many things to too many people.
I'm Super Woman, remember?

* Taking on too many responsibilities, without enough help from others
Still Super Woman. And we're drastically short handed. As the most experienced member of the team, guess who gets to pick up the slack...

* Not getting enough sleep
7-8 hours a night isn't enough to keep up this pace.

* Lack of close, supportive relationships
Nope. I couldn't ask for a better husband, family, or friends - including those of you brave enough to make it this far into this blog, lol.

* Perfectionistic tendencies; nothing is ever good enough
Oooh yeah. That'd be me.

* Pessimistic view of yourself and the world
I'm optimistic towards the world but way too hard on myself.

* The need to be in control; reluctance to delegate to others
No way, Jose. I push off as much as I can. But management reserves the toughest tasks for me, so I delegate the easier stuff to others.

* High-achieving, Type A personality
One doesn't graduate first in her college class or get called Super Woman without it...

Okay, so clearly burnout is the problem. And obviously it's work-related. The sad thing is that I know it's going to get worse; we're reorganizing and my new boss is an idiot. He's rough, rude, micromanaging, and incompetent. To the point where we call him Max Power. For you non-Simpsons fanatics, there are 2 ways to do things: the right way and the Max Power way, which is wrong but faster. Knowing this guy as I do, I know he'll ask me to keep performing the same duties - but with way more meddling and screwing things up as we go along, so I'll have to spend a lot of my time and energy fixing the problems he creates. Makes me want to put my head through a wall just thinking about it.

Sooooo...what to do about this? HelpGuide suggests getting a new job. Well, yeah, I'm working on it. That's easier said than done in this economy, even in DC, which is relatively recession-proof. My problem is that I work for the government, so finding a new position will involve a lot of red tape and patience. The private sector is a real challenge due to the economy, but I'm looking there, too.

But I can't go on like this in the meantime. HelpGuide offers four strategies:

1. Maintain a healthy lifestyle, as this will help manage stress;
2. Slow down;
3. Get support;
4. Reevaluate your goals and priorities.

1 is relatively easy; I just have to maintain what I'm already doing thanks to SP. Workouts are often the highlight of my day, and I refuse to give them up. Healthy eating gets harder as the week goes on and I feel more ground down. I spent a lot of time this weekend planning, shopping for, and prepping food. I bought good, healthy stuff and went a bit nuts on the veggies and yogurt. Monday through Thursday are crock pot suppers, and the weekend evenings are lighter versions of classic comfort foods (thank goodness for Cooking Light magazine and cookbooks!). I baked lots of healthy, hearty muffins for breakfast and cut up fruits and veggies for snacks. I also made lighter, healthier versions of brownies and chocolate muffins so I can indulge my PMS-induced chocolate cravings and stress-induced comfort food cravings without breaking the calorie bank. So I'm good to go there.

2 is the absolute hardest. Slowing down doesn't feel like an option. But I have to find a way to do it or I'm going to explode. This weekend I put away the to-do list and did things as I felt like doing them, focusing on one task at a time. That helped a lot. Cooking and gardening helped a lot too - I really enjoy them and haven't had the time for them. I feel refreshed and recharged. I think that I'll need to just take things one step at a time at work and refuse to go into overdrive. This is going to be tough, but I can't see another way to keep from losing it altogether.

3. My support structure is great. The trouble is that I haven't been using it as much as I should. I talked through a lot of this with DH this weekend, and he's ready to serve as a sounding board whenever I need it. And I always have my SparkFriends; you guys are awesome.

4. Reevaluating goals and priorities will need to be the subject of another blog; this one is already too long. But I know that I need to do it. In the meantime, I'm going to KISS this problem: keep it simple, stupid. Don't worry about the big goals, just keep moving forward as best I can. That should help.

The other two things I'm going to do are be gentle with myself and fake it til I make it. No fussing or fuming for what I do or don't get done. Do what I can, y ya. Try to do one or two things I genuinely enjoy every day and take as much pleasure as I can from them.

If any brave soul as managed to make it to the bottom of this blog, send me a message with the word "puffball" in it and I'll give you a goodie!

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LOTUSFLOWER 3/31/2011 3:59PM

    emoticon You know what you need to do, and I do think you are burnt out. But you have a plan to get out of that fire and get into some peaceful water.

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KRAZYKATT 3/29/2011 7:29AM

    Being the over-achiever that you are, you WILL get through this. No other options are there? But seriously, you have a wonderful attitude for enduring this impossible situation. You'll emerge from the other side all the stronger. BUT. You know what you need to do to take care of you - even if you must take some unscheduled days off (mental health days). I waited too long last year, melted down and took 3 weeks off work. Everyone stepped up, the world didn't end, and while it was embarrassing (I felt like I failed), it was absolutely necessary.

By refusing to give up your exercise, taking the opportunity to regroup and working hard to get Jen time you've taken those oh so important steps in coping. We're all proud of you!

Oh, yeah, I understand the desire to do something more mundane - does it really have to always be so damn hard? Everything you pick up shouldn't demand everything you've got!

Hang in there Puffball!
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KITHKINCAID 3/29/2011 12:30AM

    Puffball. Haha. You're going to be fine. I think you're on the right track and you know what's bothering you. Knowing is half the battle, because now you can stop it. Good job for doing the work lady!

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JMUCKINHOUPT 3/27/2011 10:15PM

    A great definition of burnout... At least you have identified what is going on and that gives you a start to making a change. The boss is out of your hands so you'll have to deal with the aspects that you can. Stay healthy and persevere. You can do it especially with a supportive husband and family. emoticon

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MERRIKATE 3/27/2011 8:43PM

    Ahem, Jen: Revision recommended -- "KISS" actually means "Keep it Simple, Sweetheart" -- only because we perfectionists respond better to positive terminology, being already wayyyy too masterful at beating ourselves up!

Your clarity has made it easy for us to read your epic breakdown (mild pun, huh) of Burnout Markers, and to enjoy both your insight and realism about this present plight. GREAT that you're already seeking ways to shift out of the toxic job situation, as that is soul-killing to endure day after day (duh). By taking those wise, restful, remedial steps right away, you're sure to prevent the damage that martyed 'hangin'-in' could cause your mind and body. VERY cool.

Also fab to see your beautiful strong tally of positives. To a signif degree, it's clear, they cushion the ordeal as you make your way through, stepping stone by stepping stone.

In case it's a while since you heard the mantra of the Serenity Prayer, here it is in brief -- a fine anytime-invocation (especially coupled with some calming breaths):

Grant me Serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
Courage to change the things I can, and
Wisdom to know the difference.

The biggie for SuperWomen can be that 'acceptance' factor -- to learn to relax and 'trust the process' while doing only what we sensibly can, serenely and bravely -- as you're doing here in this superb blog. Your remedies rock, Girl!!

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MEGANBY2011 3/27/2011 6:05PM

    I like your blog. You have identified the problem and some points that will help relieve it. I try and do two things every day just for me and that, somehow, gives me the energy to do what I need to do. I got that from the Official Stress Busting Challenge. You will get this under control. Sparkpeople is the perfect place for you to get some of that "me" time.

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DITZYCHICK 3/27/2011 5:39PM

    Take a deep breath...

Sorry that your work is continuing to be an ongoing emotional issue for you. It's too bad that it has to be that way. I think you're doing the right thing though because you can only handle so much until you hit your breaking point and right now most of your energy is going towards getting you from Monday to Friday. Feel free to lean as much as you need to...we're all here to support and feel supported, right?
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AUTUMNPOTTER 3/27/2011 5:01PM

    It sounds like you need to make time for you and enjoy it. I hope you feel better soon.

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ELLYFINT 3/27/2011 4:55PM

    Wow, this really is a classic case of burnout!!! I sincerely hope you feel less stressed and overwhelmed very soon, though! emoticon

I have say, though, that it's no surprise that you have also found remedies for the problem and have already evaluated which ones you can use and how much! That's impressive, Jen. "Superwoman"-like would be another way to describe it ;-)

Please take care of yourself, and your SparkFriends are always around, so just give a holler!!!

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PARAMAGIC66 3/27/2011 4:42PM

    Hang in there and just remember that we are all here for you and always will be. Take each day one step at a time. Pray to God every morning to not give you more than you can handle. And then thank him every night for bringing you through another tough day. In the mean time, always take that little bit of time for yourself. Sounds like it is extremely important right now. Love and hugs. emoticon

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Anybody Seen My Energy or Motivation?

Friday, March 25, 2011

The past few weeks have been rough. Travel on the weekends, a constantly-changing schedule and utter insanity at work have led to fatigue, very few workouts, strength training lapsing altogether, less than perfect nutrition and general crankiness. I am on track to achieve very few of my goals this month and it's too late to do anything about it. For example, I am not going to do 430 fitness minutes in the next six days. Ain't gonna happen.

Not only do I lack motivation, but I'm also incredibly apathetic. I don't wanna, and I don't care that I don't wanna. And this doesn't apply to just fitness or nutrition, either. It applies to work and household chores. All I want to do is rest. (Knitting and reading goals are the only ones I'm set to meet this month.) Yeah, talk about a bad attitude...

I have GOT to snap out of it. I'm trying to just take it one step at a time and do things to keep moving forward. I can knock small things off my to-do list at work and catch up on my reading. Just a few well-placed tasks will achieve a few of my monthly goals. Small things around the house make a big difference. I worked out 2 of the past 3 days, so one cardio and ST session would put the exercise back on track.

But man, it's an uphill battle to find the energy or motivation. Yesterday was a good day; I was back on a regular schedule in every way and was feeling my oats. I was looking forward to a productive, fun weekend. This morning I felt great, too, but a later than usual bedtime last night and two crises at work have utterly drained me. Knowing that I'm heavier than I wanted to be at this point in the year and that I fluffed most of my March goals is frustrating and demoralizing. But not enough to actually spur me into action. Oh wait, I think that's actually the definition of "demoralizing"...

Ugh. Here's hoping a relaxing evening, good food, and a full night's rest - and no alarm tomorrow! - fix me up. If not, I'm asking each and every one of you to stop by my SparkPage on Monday and kick my butt.

  
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MERRIKATE 3/26/2011 2:46PM

    PLEASE be kind to yourself, Jen, and desist from adding to the stress with beating yourself up for being worn out -- the latter state is sending you a plea for rest, recovery and a span of time to recuperate from sheer exhaustion. All the active fitness tools will wait patiently for that. I mean, this may be a passing influenza bug that sneaks back until you rest it into oblivion!

Believe me and my experience, pushing too hard when truly tired to the point of depressive not-caring can be counter productive. It can lead to health problems more grave than a few pounds and inches. If a week or two of Taking It Easy on Purpose (tell the world and make it a Project -- it's vital) doesn't improve how you feel, then it's time for a check-up to rule out physical issues.

Your current fix echoes my own at age 28 (nearly 40 yrs ago) when a chronic manageable condition was finally diagnosed, leading me on into GOOD times!!

Thinking of you, hoping to find you treating your physical and emotional fatigue with what it needs: gentleness, patience, and rest. You will literally BOUNCE back!

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DITZYCHICK 3/26/2011 11:13AM

    You're sounding so frustrated and disappointed. I'm thinking you need to just let go of yesterday, because thinking about what you should have done is only making it worse. Set those goals aside "for now" too, because at this point they're only causing you more frustration. Break it down week by week for a little while until life in general calms down. There's no need to overwhelm yourself on top of everything else. Start today...make a new list of attainable goals...for the week. Goals that will help you relieve some of the stresses and allow you to get back on track. One day at a time girl!!!
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NZMARIA 3/26/2011 5:43AM

    I have an unconventional idea.... Don't set your self any weight goals until you FEEL better. Keep in your calorie range, try and keep up the exercise but throw numbers out of the window for a while. If you're down on yourself for not meeting a certain goal it can derail you completely- that's what happened to me last time on SP and I came back 32 pounds heavier!! Maybe for a few weeks try measurements instead of scales, or just don;t measure at all and refocus on the healthy lifestyle changes that just seem too hard right now.

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SAMMYSWEETPEA 3/26/2011 1:32AM

    Only you know if you need a kick in the butt or a few rest days to regain your energy. Do what you need to, but don't be too hard on yourself. We can't be ON all the time. Everything in life goes in cycles.

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IMJUSTDUCKIE 3/25/2011 11:46PM

   
Your motivation playin Hide-n-Seek with mine?!

I was saying just about the same things about 5 days ago!

Have your day or two of "I don't wannas" and then get back to it!!!

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KITHKINCAID 3/25/2011 8:23PM

    When I was feeling like this, my therapist asked me to make out a full list of ALL the things I "Don't Wanna" do. Sometimes it helps just to get it all out there. Absolutely everything that you don't want to do - put it on the list, no matter how ridiculous it looks or sounds. "I don't want to put on socks in the morning!"

Then go back and read the list and you might see a bigger issue with some distance that is causing all of the small "I Don't Wannas" - with me it was an issue at work that once I got help with, made everything else so much better.

Maybe blog your list and we can help pin point what's really wrong?

Hope that helps!

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SLIMSOLO10 3/25/2011 7:48PM

    Jen, sometimes you just have to get your rest and energy back before tackling big goals. It will happen- for now just take care of you and spoil yourself abit- with some non food rewards. you are worth every bit of it Remember that!!! emoticon

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TRAVELGRRL 3/25/2011 7:32PM

    OMG, you have it bad!!!

But is this where you kick your OWN butt and say, "I'm gonna fake it til I make it!!??!!??

I'll be by on Monday to see if you can find your motivation and energy this weekend. Hang in there!

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BONJI40 3/25/2011 7:31PM

    Hey, I totally understand! We have all been there at one point or another on this long journey. These motivation burn outs come and go. So be gentle on yourself, and remember that you don't have to be perfect. Don't feel bad that you aren't meeting all your goals this month...they are "goals", they are not do or die. Move them into next month and try again. Nothing wrong with that! You stated in your blog the perfect thing to remember....you have to just take it a step at a time and keep going. That has been my mantra, and I'm telling you, it works. Sometimes we feel like giving up, but the next day, we just start over again and keep moving forward. That's the way to keep on this journey. You can do it! I have faith in you!!
~Carrie

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KATHIERAE 3/25/2011 7:28PM

    Oh, the UN-joy of messed up schedules, stress and travel! emoticon And apathy--my friend that one is dangerous! Please, please ask for help if you find that apathy doesn't let up because depression is real but is treatable. But if all you need is a kick in the butt, that I can do IF you kick back! emoticon
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JMUCKINHOUPT 3/25/2011 7:21PM

    I really understand. I am doing 'ok' with my fitness, but not at all with nutrition, and I am having trouble pulling it back together. So, this is a kick in the butt to you and me. We CAN both do this. A lapse is not the end. It is just a way to re-examine our goals and get back on the healthy journey wagon. You can do it!!!! emoticon We can stop and then continue on the right path.

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Pushed the "Reset" Button

Sunday, March 06, 2011

Over the past two weeks I have slowly, gradually slid off the SparkWagon. So slowly that I didn't really notice it until this Thursday or Friday. I let one or two things slide a day until eventually I wasn't tracking my food, exercising, or Sparking. And I know that I was eating above my calorie range.

I have the usual excuses: work was crazy, I was tired. I've been working very hard at my healthy lifestyle for two months and I was a little burned out. The most troubling thing, though, is that I always seem to do this right after a big success. I dropped 10 pounds in January and February, to halfway to my overall goal. My fitness test revealed spectacular success - I raised 4 of the 5 indicators that needed work to fair and made good progress on the fifth, plus I raised my bicep strength from fair to excellent. Rather than energize me to work harder, I rested on my laurels. And I'm certain I've gained weight because of it; tomorrow's weigh in will tell the tale. The less I did, the worse I felt. The worse I felt, the less I did. What a vicious circle.

Yesterday I decided to break it, although cautiously. I was careful about food, although I didn't track it, and worked out for 20 minutes. Today I'm tracking everything, and a Vinyasa yoga workout is on my to do list. A rainy Sunday feels like the perfect time to start over gently and let myself off the hook.

The larger problem is finding a way to avoid this cycle next time I have a big success. I'm honestly not sure where to start and would appreciate any advice you lovely Sparklers have to offer.

Also, I want to apologize to YOOVIE and the Mega B2W team for not participating in Mission 4 or 5. I'll get back at it tomorrow.

  
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TRAVELGRRL 3/11/2011 6:20PM

    This is the best advice I've ever heard:

"Ask yourself every day if what you're doing is sustainable. If the answer is no, then don't do it. Find other ways to make it work instead of push, push, push and then stopping when you get there. Lifestyle change, one SMALL step at a time."

I know your reset button will get you back on track!

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LIMENADE2011 3/8/2011 10:29AM

    Everyone needs a reset every now and again. Thinking of ya! emoticon

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LOTUSFLOWER 3/7/2011 12:10PM

    Sometimes we all need to hit that "reset" button. I LOVE Jenn's advice for you about ditching the diet mentality, too. You are amazing and awesome, and I think that our bodies and brains just need a little break sometimes. You will reach your goals, I have no doubt of that.

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SAMMYSWEETPEA 3/6/2011 10:17PM

    Good for you! You didn't get too far off track, and you're starting again gently. I think you'll be just fine emoticon

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CARLY9578 3/6/2011 8:00PM

    The sooner a person pushes that button, hopefully the less progress lost. I always remember that it's changes over a period of time that make a difference. Overall I have a much healthier diet and am more fit with Sparkpeople. What a great program!
Carly

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YOGINI18 3/6/2011 6:45PM

    Everyone stalls from time-to-time on a journey. It's great that you are being gentle on yourself and taking easy steps back into things.

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KITHKINCAID 3/6/2011 6:23PM

    Hey babe - sounds like you still have a bit of "diet syndrome" - i.e. you do really well and hit a big goal, then your brain decides you're "done with the diet" and you resume normal activity. You need to find the happy medium between dieting and not dieting and get rid of that normal activity that you keep reverting to - which means, ditch the diet mentality all together. Ask yourself every day if what you're doing is sustainable. If the answer is no, then don't do it. Find other ways to make it work instead of push, push, push and then stopping when you get there. Lifestyle change, one SMALL step at a time.

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DITZYCHICK 3/6/2011 1:10PM

    GREAT JOB realizing what is happening and not being afraid to admit it and to reach for that "reset" button. I've been finding myself in that same cycle for the last three weeks, and yes...I too have various excuses for it. Last week I didn't weigh in and just this morning was thinking about skipping yet another week of it because I'm not happy with what I'm going to see. But, after reading your blog, I know I'm only cheating myself by not facing up to it and taking responsibility for my actions.

I'm going to hit the "reset" button with you!!! Today starts with awareness of my food choices and tomorrow I will get back on that scale. We can get back on track together...no excuses, only success and happiness!!!
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ADYLEIGH 3/6/2011 11:02AM

    Good for you! You've convienced me to locate and push that restart button too. You'll do great.

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BETTERJULIA 3/6/2011 10:26AM

    It is so easy to especially if you feel like you've reached a goal - but keep trucking and setting your eyes on something and stick to it! Great job on coming back here - you'll make it for sure!

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UCANTTAKETHESKY 3/6/2011 10:18AM

    Good job on pushing the reset button! I'd say the fact that you recognized that it needed to be pushed is a good sign. You learn from what's happened and you keep moving forward! emoticon

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JMUCKINHOUPT 3/6/2011 9:54AM

    Congrats on pushing the reset button. The only problem we have is when we don't push the button. I am resetting today, too. emoticon

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TINY67 3/6/2011 9:50AM

    We all have to push the reset, ever so often.

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DUMBELLE 3/6/2011 9:32AM

    Our mistakes always teach us something. The fact that you want to get back on the Spark wagon is a good thing.

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March Goals

Wednesday, March 02, 2011

This month, I want to:

emoticon Drop to 173 pounds, a 5 pound loss.

emoticon Do 1,000 fitness minutes.

emoticon Continue bootcamp strength training program.

emoticon Blog once a week.

emoticon Participate in D&A fitness and weigh-in challenge.

emoticon Make significant progress on a UFO.

emoticon Read one book.

emoticon Knit GrandMary's scarf.

emoticon Wear lingerie once.

emoticon Do a monthly goal check-in blog.

emoticon Start making a wedding photo book.

emoticon Plan and prep the garden.

emoticon Start a job search.

  
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RUNWITHMICHELE 3/2/2011 1:51PM

    Nice, I think you accomplish all of this!

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KT-NICHOLS-13 3/2/2011 12:38PM

    Great goal list.
I also want to Continue bootcamp strength training program and have. emoticon


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February Progress Report

Tuesday, March 01, 2011

Here's a recap of my February goals and how I did towards them.

emoticon Drop to 177 pounds, a 5 pound loss.
I got to 178, one pound off. Actually, I dropped to 175 and then gained 3 pounds. emoticon I'm pretty sure a lot of that is water weight, though. Either way, I came out all right compared to where I wanted to be.

emoticon Do 1,000 fitness minutes.
1,333, to be exact.

emoticon Continue bootcamp strength training program.
I modified this one a bit by trying different videos, including ones with resistance bands. I kept to the rotation, so it totally counts. I just don't want my muscles to get too complacent!

emoticon Blog once a week.
Done and done.

emoticon Huddle with the Determination and Accountability Team every day.
Well, mostly. I skipped a day here and there when I barely had time for SP - but I neglected everything else on SP on those days, not singling out D&A. So close enough is good enough. emoticon

emoticon Participate in the monthly Determination and Accountability fitness and weigh-in challenge.

emoticon Make significant progress on an UFO.
I knitted and felted an oven mitt and potholder set that's been languishing for a long time.

emoticon Knit my grandpa's hat.
It's so cute and stripey!

emoticon Find a pattern and yarn for a wedding afghan.
A lovely lace pattern in washable eggplant-colored wool.

emoticon Read one book.
"Emma" by Jane Austen.


emoticon Wear a special garment for DH once.

emoticon Do a monthly goal check-in blog.
Here it is!

emoticon Type up my bucket list.
Posted it in a blog on February 13.

emoticon Burn CDs of wedding photos.
The CDs are ready to go to family birthday parties this month.

Overall I give myself an A for effort this month. The weight yo-yo is a little frustrating, but I know why it happened and I'm taking steps to fix it. I'm keeping it simple by tracking my food, eating more freggies, and upping the intensity of my cardio. That oughtta do the trick.

The bigger problem is that every time I hit a milestone I immediately backslide. Specifically, I eat poorly for a few days. That has got to stop. As fun as milestones are, repeating them isn't fun. I need to keep pushing every time I pass one.

This month I'm very proud of the progress I made on fitness. I pushed myself very hard and gotten out of my comfort zone. I'm working harder than ever and trying new things, which is very cool. And I'm appreciating how strong I really am. My overall fitness goal is for my physical strength to mirror my inner strength, and I'm getting closer all the time.

  
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LIMENADE2011 3/2/2011 9:29AM

    Loved what you said about your physical strength mirroring your inner strength - very very cool! You totally rocked those goals! emoticon

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LOTUSFLOWER 3/1/2011 5:57PM

    You are doing AWESOME!!! Congrats Jenn!!!!!

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KT-NICHOLS-13 3/1/2011 5:53PM

    You had an awesome month! You must feel fantastic.

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