Monday, February 14, 2011
No, this doesn't mean that I've gotten to my goal size. Or that my BMI is in the so-called "healthy" range. What it means is that I suddenly realized that I am the size of the "average American woman."
Saturday DH and I ran errands and made weekly purchases. At Costco I saw a coat that I really liked. Because I no longer have a spring coat that fits, I grabbed one and tried it on. The coat was too big. Slightly confused, I reached for a medium. Two ladies standing nearby spontaneously commented that the medium fit me much better. So I bought it. It's a sassy red trench coat and makes me feel like a million bucks.
While we continued shopping, etc., I looked around at the other women and realized that I'm pretty much dead median for size. And I realized that even at my heaviest I was not nearly as big as some of the women we saw. Body image distortion has been an issue for me since, oh, middle school, so being able to put things into proper perspective is hard for me.
Sunday afternoon I dragged two boxes of smaller clothes upstairs and tried them all one. 75% of them fit - including some 12s and even a size 10 blouse. My size 16 pants have all been retired, although a couple of sheath dresses that size remain. I continue to insist that they run small, lol. Gotta love the inconsistency of women's clothes... Anyway, my clothes are now mostly a mix of 14s and 12s, instead of 16s and 14s. The "average" American woman is 5'5" and a size 12. That's me! I'm now officially "average size!"
This is an absolute revelation. I'm used to thinking of myself as "big," "fat," "plus sized," etc. Learning to think of myself as "fit," "normal," or even - dare I say it? - "hot" is a giant adjustment. But one I will happily make!
Monday, February 07, 2011
Yesterday I read a blog here on SP about commitment versus motivation that really got me thinking. The nugget that I took with me, and have been pondering for two days, is that commitment is more durable than motivation; commitment is motivation's bedrock.
To me that means that motivation ebbs and flows but commitment is here to stay. Some days I just don't wanna. We've all been there. The couch is way cozier than the gym. Why should I eat a grilled chicken sandwich with a side salad when everybody else is digging into a burger and fries? You know the moments when beats poor little into submission.
That's motivation on the fritz. Commitment says the couch will be even cozier after a run. You love chicken and salad, so don't even try to pretend you don't. And you know why you're going to get up and exercise and then stick to your meal plan? Because you promised to take better care of yourself. Your goals are worth the effort. And YOU'RE worth the effort.
My new mantra is "Are you committed or not?" Yesterday it got my butt off the couch and out for a walk. I changed into my workout clothes and dashed outside to help DH for a minute. I had planned to do an exercise video, but upon discovering that it was sunny and almost 50 degrees outside I decided to walk. I wanted to go home after 7 minutes. But I asked myself if I was committed or not, and decided to do at least 30 minutes. I went home after 45 minutes instead.
I planned to have one beer and one cupcake at last night's Super Bowl party. Other than that, strictly healthy. Luckily for me, the party's host is a super healthy eater and I knew that would be pretty easy. But jeez, a second beer and another cupcake were sooo tempting. But I remembered that I weigh in on Mondays and asked myself whether I was committed to making that number go down or not. I decided that I was and stuck to the plan. The result of this stubbornness was a 3 pound loss today.
Obviously I can't credit the entire loss to sticking to my guns yesterday. Getting over strep throat and serious effort all week did the lion's share. But refusing to binge or be lazy yesterday let me keep the gains of my effort. And that's absolutely worth it.
And it's what commitment is all about: sticking to it even when you don't want to or it would be easier to cop out. And, paradoxically, the progress I make this way leads to motivation. Kinda cool, huh?
Monday, January 31, 2011
Late last month I made a list of goals for the year and January. Time for a progress report!
Find or build a strength training workout I can do at home.
Bootcamp! I liked it so much that I'm continuing it and plan to make it my regular strength-training routine, at least for the time being.
Do two cardio and one ST workout while in the Dominican Republic.
I actually did better than this; I walked 3 of the 4 days and kept up with my bootcamp videos.
Don't gain weight while in the Dominican Republic.
The pina colada and strep throat one-two punch proved too much for me, and I gained 2.5 pounds.
Drop to 179 pounds.
Yes, I got there. Then I gained those aforementioned pounds. But I'll get there again soon enough!
Do 1,000 fitness minutes a month.
1,193, to be exact.
Do 3 strength training sessions a week.
More like 6, courtesy of bootcamp.
Blog once a week on SP.
Huddle with the Determination & Accountability Team every day.
I even won most inspirational huddle of the day on 1/27.
Participate in Determination & Accountability monthly weigh-in and fitness minutes challenge.
Make significant progress on one large project or finish a small project in the UFO cabinet.
Finished a knitted toy robot for my best friend's baby-to-be.
Cast on one Christmas present.
Finished a cap for DH's grandpa.
Read one book.
"Dave Barry Slept Here" by, well, Dave Barry.
Wear one "special garment" for my husband a month.
Do a monthly goal check-in blog.
Here it is!!!
I'm certain that I lost inches this month, but won't measure until tomorrow.
I also made progress against the following goals for this year:
Lose 40 pounds by December 31, 2011.
3 down, 37 to go.
Shrink to the point that my hats and gloves aren't the only size S/M in my wardrobe.
Retired several XLs and the first large.
Get 6 Perfect Attendance awards on SP.
I'll be getting one this month!
Complete one challenge on SP.
28 Day Bootcamp
Beat all my Ravin' Rabbids games.
I finished two games and am almost done with a third. Two more left!
My weight loss wasn't stellar this month. But, at 3.5 pounds, it was still pretty good. And considering why I gained weight - the business trip from hell and strep throat - I accept it. Especially when I look at everything else I did this month. In all honesty, I kicked some pretty major booty. So I'm giving myself an A for the month.
The takeaways from this month are that strength training is awesome and I need to up the intensity of my cardio. The former is a revelation; I already knew the latter. But the weight gain in the DR really brought that home. In typical Jen fashion, I didn't wait until the next month to start; I really pushed myself on the stair climber today.
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