Tuesday, July 31, 2007
I just can't seem to get myself in order. A lot of things are going on in my life right now and it is stressing me out! Of course when I get stressed out, I eat!! And I eat all the wrong things, then when I eat all that crap all I want to do is lay around the house! So lately the calories have been up and the cardio way down... if it wasn't for vball I wouldn't be getting a lot of cardio--unless you count running around work like a chicken with its head cut off! :0)
I want to lose some more weight, but I just can't get myself to find that happy place again. I feel tired all the time, I don't sleep well, I eat junk, I am not cooking, I am broke, and my job sucks. I am ready for things to change, but can't seem to make any decisions to make that happen.
Only 9 more months until my wedding day, and that is just another added stress to my life... It is coming so quick... So many things need to be done, but I can't find the time or energy to do it. But this weekend I am going to bite down and get some things done. I need to talk to the florist, find a bed & breakfast, and start on my guestlist. Then on the 18th I am going to Cincy to find a dress! I must get things done! My fiance is great and I know would be willing to help me out with things, I just have to figure out my plan! :0)