Monday, March 12, 2012
So the past few weeks, I've been slacking hard. Been eating whatever I feel like it and not giving it much thought. Im not sure why Ive been doing this, because after the fact I always kick myself for it. I havent really gained a ton of weight doing it, about 4 pounds but thats 4 pounds more then I want to be. I need to remotivate myself
Next week I'll be starting a different program at my kickboxing studio called Fat to Fit mission. It is workouts and meal plans combined. Everyone who has done it thus far has seen great results. Im hoping it can help me get that boost I need to get my head back in the game. My lack of results the past year, even with all my efforts, has really taken its toll and made me think no matter what I do I cant get anywhere. I think if I can see that number on the scale drop a bit then Ill get my stride back. At the same time, I have this fear in the back of my head that I'll be the one person who doesnt get results from this program. How embarassing it would be to tell the whole group that I havent lost any weight even thou they all have. Trying not to think that way but I have really hit a wall and its very frustrating.
When the program starts, I'll be kickboxing 5 days a week at 6am. Its going to be a challenge to get into the groove. I've been doing 3 days a week and its not bad. I did one week 5 days and actually didnt find it bad at all. But with the workouts and the meal plans, it might be mentally exhausting. But Im looking forward to it and really hoping its going to help me.
Wish me luck
Tuesday, December 27, 2011
So 2011 wasn't all I was hoping it would be. I lost 20 pounds between Jan and May but then most of the rest of the year, just bounced a few pounds up and down. Christmas kicked my butt and I have gained some of the weight back now.
On the plus side, I was extremely active this year. I zumba'd, I danced, I kickboxed, I survived bootcamp workouts... but still did not accomplish all I wanted.
I'm not writing this blog to beat myself down about that. I am proud of what I did accomplish. But I have some goals that I want to focus on. And this isnt like new years resolutions because now that Christmas is done, I'm jumping back on track and also amping it up.
So here are a few things I want to do this year...
1. First off, to deal with those holiday pounds, I'm going to take on Jillian Michael's 30 day shred. I've done the workout here and there, but never for 30 days. That is the goal as far as that goes. See if I can do a full month, everyday. Seeing most of my workout classes dont start again for another 2 weeks, it'll certainly help me keep some activity up also because I can already feel the effects of not working out on my body.
2. I would love to be under 200 pounds again! Preferably by the summer, but knowing my body, that might not be realistic. However, I'm going to do my damn best.
3. Make healthy eating a lifestyle and less of a challenge. This means keeping tempting foods out of sight and out of mind. Also, avoiding eating out... which will help with goal 4, which is not weight related.
4. Pay off my credit card. See, not all mad focus on weight haha. I don't owe a ton, and I've already put a good dent in it. Problem is I usually pay lots off then add it up again. So I have to not use it in order to fully pay it off.
5. Be happier with myself no matter what. I tend to get very down on myself when I mess up on my diet or skip a workout. In the words of my mother "you need to not worry so much". I'm going to try and not beat myself up so much. My fiance has been a big help with this one and we will continue to work on it in the coming year.
Other goals are sure to pop up but these are the main ones. I hope that by posting them up here, not only will I feel more obligated to stick with them, but that my Spark friends will check in and see how I'm doing with them.
Best of luck to everyone with their goals for the coming year also! We can do this!
Friday, November 04, 2011
People who know me, know I work out hard. I get up at 5am 3 days a week to go to kickboxing classes. Real kickboxing classes. These are no joke. Last week a new guy started, vomitted half way through the workout and never came back. I am at a green belt level which is about as high as you can go without starting to spar and fight. I also dance hip hop and attend zumba classes. During the summer I took a 4 month morning bootcamp, and they dont call it bootcamp for nothing. So needless to say, I work hard.
All that said, I still dont feel fit most days. I've been stuck at the same weight since before the summer. I've lost inches but still kind of feeling like Im not getting anywhere. Until Wednesday night...
Wednesday night is my hip hop class. I dance with a bunch of skinny mini's who have been doing this stuff for years. I always envy them, wishing I could be in as good of shape as them.
Anyways, during the warm up, the instructor says "we're going to do some tough ab work tonight" and goes on to explain that we'll be doing leg raises. I kind of laughed to myself, because at kickboxing, we'll do 100's of leg raises in one class alone. Tonight, we were doing 20 and then 20 butt lifts. My partner went first and though she didnt struggle, she seemed to find these challenging, as did the other girls in the class. When it was my turn, I blew threw those freaking 20 leg raises and kicked my legs high into the air on the butt raise, no problem. The girls seemed amazed at what I had just done. And it made me realize something. When they say that you can be fat yet fit, they werent kidding. I proved in that class that I am much stronger then any of those skinny girls. I proved that I can do anything they can do and more. Those skinny girls aint got nothing on me! And those skinny girls are girls that are active and not just skinny for being skinny, which only adds to my surprise.
Needless to say, this gave me a very nice ego boost. My self esteem only continues to improve as time goes by, even if im frustrated with the scale (yes... i've mentioned that a millions times and i'll keep mentioning it until it budges haha).
So next time some skinny girl thinks shes better then me because shes thin and im not, i'll know that I could roundhouse kick her in the face, do 20 pushups and then run away faster then she could get up and say another word. (just kidding)
Tuesday, November 01, 2011
First off, happy late halloween to everyone. Hope everyone had a lot of fun
I know I did
...maybe too much fun haha...
I won't lie... I bought a bag of lollipops for the kids that come trick or treating because I knew I wouldnt be tempted to eat those. But then decided it might be a good idea to get some mini chocolate bars in case we get more kids (I knew in the back of my mind we wouldnt). Needless to say, me and my fiance (plus a few friends) polished off a box of 70 mini bars over the weekend! PS... we had 2 kids at our door last night haha
So in my head I'd blown it.... I ate like crap the rest of the weekend...
This blog isnt all doom and gloom... I've since gotten back on track and in one day alone managed to bring my weight back to where it was... 225lbs... where I've been for a good 3 months now haha... but Halloween has shown me that regardless of my scale being stuck, I've made a lot of progress. All thanks to a photo of me that my fiance took
This photo of me in my skunk (kinda haha) costume has shown me that the inches have come off, and that all my working out is paying off. I was wearing a tight short dress and yet somehow felt strong, confident and sexy. Yes Im still not where I want to be. But I felt really good, and thats something I havent felt in a long while. Nice to be past the slump that I was in. So thats a happy halloween for me :)
So Im now pushing a new goal. I want to lose 5 lbs by my birthday (Nov 25). Now like I said, I've been stuck at 225 for a few months, so its not going to be easy. But I wont beat myself up if I dont make it. But Im remotivated and looking forward to making my best effort
To end off this blog, a last bit of fun, here is a picture of Carlos my weiner dog in his halloween costume. At least with this if my blog bored you, you can awww at how cute he is haha.
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