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Twist and Shout

Friday, September 28, 2012's all about the might as well make it fun!

I felt the title is appropriate. It describes where I am, and it certainly describes how I've been feeling lately.

Twist - well, the twist part is a reflection of where I am with fitness and pondering what the next destination is. More of the same? A new goal? Should I twist out of what I've been doing to get moving more? Or just register for something because it's different and go with it? I'm thinking on this and do not know the answer. I'm liking strength work. The rest...I feel like I need to love something and feel the energy again.

Shout - that would describe my week. Lots of stressors in the week between kid stuff and just trying to make sure they are happy and thriving and doing well, and the hamster that went AWOL three times in 48 hours emoticon I'm thinking he should make room for me on his wheel emoticon Oh and the scale. The scale made me shout this week. It made me shout 'stop the insanity and get your bootstraps buckled, sister!'

I'm hoping there is lots of twisting but less shouting next week. It's good to be hopeful emoticon

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123ELAINE456 9/29/2012 5:50AM

  Great Job. Things will improve and you will find something else you would like to do or try. God Bless You and Have a Wonderful Week. Take Care.

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RUNNINGWILD 9/28/2012 11:08PM

    Love the title!
I had a hamster like that once... and a mouse... and a gerbil... And a cat.... strangely enough, he cornered them but wouldn't eat them. Just meowed until I came & put them back in their cages.
Anyway! (squirrel!!) I hope you find something you love. How about another triathlon?

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ZZYYGGY3 9/28/2012 5:21PM

    Great job. It will get better.

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serious angst

Sunday, September 02, 2012

it could only be 7 days and counting to something i haven't ever tried. thank you for the you tube videos. i am grateful i have had skill drills. i am thankful for breathing drills. i have had no practice with a wet suit. nothing. i just want to come out on the other side intact. knowing me...i'll end up renting a suit and i'll add minutes to my transition but oh well. i think i could survive on what i had but the trouble is that it is colder where i live...with regard to where i am swimming. hotel room. gah. i have my bike and helmet inspected. i have swam plenty. i know this. i just have to coach myself on it. 3 months of swimming. this is NOT new. but i feel so new. i have done a duathalon. i got through it just fine. really i did. we are *just* adding swimming to this. this is not 100 percent new. sigh. this will be a good experience. i just need to get through it so i can know i have been through it and i'll be okay. right? right.

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    Are you and Mel doing this one together or two separate events? You WILL be ok - honest! Breathe in. Breathe out. BIBO!

I am holding you in my best thoughts and prayers!

You've got this!!!!

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ACTIVE_AT_60 9/3/2012 8:40PM

    You will be fine ... I am no pro at tri's ... if I can do it - you can!!! Good luck.

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DAS92687 9/3/2012 1:42PM

    So excited to hear all about it from the other side of the finish line !!
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    You will rock it. thinking of you.

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123ELAINE456 9/2/2012 11:32PM

  You have train and are well prepared it. You Can Do It. We are here for you. Just Keep Pushing and you will be fine. God Bless You and Have a Wonderful Week.

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GRANDMABABA 9/2/2012 10:21PM

    You will be better than o.k. You will be awesome! Be safe and enjoy the journey.

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MGJARVI 9/2/2012 9:42PM

    I'm right there with you! But you are much more prepared than I am... (((*barf*)))
Oh well, here's to our PR's! DLF beats DNF which trumps DNS. That's been my mantra. (((hugs)))

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PJBONARRIGO 9/2/2012 9:36PM

    You will be OK. You have prepared for this and are ready. The parts will make a whole :-) emoticon

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JEM0622 9/2/2012 9:34PM

    oh and please do not let me throw up. i have *never* felt like i could throw up until now. why hasn't a marathon or half marathon done this to me? i don't know. but here i am. pray for me!

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Throw Caution to the Wind

Wednesday, August 22, 2012

You know that saying...if you wait until the time is right, or all conditions are perfect...then it will never happen.

I think a lot can be said for not waiting. Drop the self doubt. Drop the fear. Drop the disbelief. This is not to discount the tools or training you might need...but taking that first step is the beginning of something that could be great. Whether it's great in your books, or inspiring to others, or an exercise in self love and self respect. Are you sitting on the side of the pool, afraid to put your toe in the water?

I know I have done this to myself, but one thing that has come from my journey here on Spark People is confirmation and motivation to take on a challenge. I have never thought 'shucks I should be #1'. It isn't about #1. It's just about doing it. Make it your own. The fact that you did something, or are doing it matter how big or small...that isn't the point.

Where is all of this going? Well, I got a bit excited about a great deal on a race. Except it is open water. I have not trained in open water. But I did go to a great swim clinic and I am doing a lot better in my swimming. I already have a closed water tri coming up. The swim is a little further, but you can stop and break if need be.

The thing is...I chose the closed water because it gave me a comfort zone. Which is great. If that makes you embrace it and excited then definitely go with something you feel is attainable. But don't forget to reach further for the next time. Because you can reach further. And so can I. So...I am throwing caution to the wind. Clueless wonderdog will do the Iron Girl Rocky Gap event on September 9th. The closed water event will be September 30th. Both are girls only events (which quietly makes me squeal because they are fun...and that's the least I should be thinking...have FUN...don't forget to have FUN).

I'll report back on my thoughts for sure. What do you have to look forward to? What new challenge have you created for yourself to keep you focused on how important you and your health are? I'd love to hear about it. That's what makes Spark so great. emoticon

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BOBBYD31 8/24/2012 2:49PM

    that is great! love it! i have done both and it is good that you are doing the closed first so you have more of a comfort level then jump into the open water. YOU CAN DO IT!

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123ELAINE456 8/23/2012 5:27AM

you and Have a Wonderful Week.

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BE-THE-CHANGE 8/22/2012 8:34PM

    You have a great attitude!

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SEEHOLZ 8/22/2012 1:42PM

    Way to jump in with both feet! I think it'll pay off-- Have FUN!

I have not been embracing challenges too much lately, but I think that's okay to just cruise too, because it's not always necessary to challenge yourself in terms of exercise- I've been kind of challenging myself at work a bit.... so maybe that counts for something-lol!

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    emoticon for throwing caution to the wind.

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Tough Goodbyes

Tuesday, August 21, 2012

Sometimes we get to say goodbye, and sometimes there isn't an opportunity or a time to do that. My hope for many Spark friends is that you do get the chance to say goodbye. Whether it is a friend moving away, or moving on to a new job, or having a really tough and sorrowful time of sending someone on to the other side. I think we deserve and need this important step, regardless of circumstance.

I have had this opportunity many times, but there is a time I didn't get to do this. I forgive my parents because of my age at the time and the circumstance...but I did not get to say goodbye to my late sister, who died 34 years ago today. What I remember is the pastor at our church coming for dinner, and we went to the cemetery and I knew she was gone. The words out of my mouth was that I did not want her to die. I was only 3. It is something I really hope a lot of 3 year olds do not have to go through. I hate cancer.

I really try to hold tight to what I remember of my sister, Janet. I remember her with hair. I remember when she had to wear a wig because her hair fell out after chemo treatments. I remember rushing to my Dad to tell him she fell out of bed and needed help. How awfully scary and sad a time that must have been for them, but I was so young and couldn't have that kind of talk with them. Here they were, less than 10 years into their marriage, burying their first-born. Just sad.

I am grateful the Lord blessed them with my sister Jennifer, me, and my brother John. I think we filled their hearts, their arms, and time, with a lot of business so that they could feel what they needed to, but had purpose and a lot of love yet to give us.

I wish my sister was here today, but I know that was not meant to be. Thanks for listening.

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GUNNSGIRL91303 8/22/2012 12:25PM

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WOLFCHILD8 8/22/2012 12:17PM

  Thank you for sharing. As my sister said, I was also three when my sister June died. That was 72 years ago. My memories aren't clear. My cousin came to visit and brought a family reunion pictuee,In the picture is my mom holding June. Sad memories.



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LILPAT3 8/22/2012 10:24AM

    Thank you for sharing. I am watching my mother die of Alzheimers..imagine saying goodbye and the other party doesn't remember. Life is not fair, but onward we go.

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123ELAINE456 8/22/2012 4:15AM

  Thank You for sharing this with us. I lost two family members within ten months of each other. Which was very hard on us. Never had a chance to say Good Bye to my Dad. I will see him in Heaven. We all go through things like this in this life. God Bless You and Have a Wonderful Week. Take Care. We all need to keep on living our lives the best we can.

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EATVEGAN 8/22/2012 12:12AM

    I never knew my sister, June. But my older sister, Mary, must have been about 3 when June died. We've never talked about it. I wonder if she remembers that time. I'm going to send your blog to her and see if she wants to talk about it. Thanks for sharing this tender moment from your life with your SparkFriends.

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BRITOMART 8/21/2012 10:56PM

    That's a hard way to be 3. Makes it tougher being 4, too--or 37. did have a sister...that's something. emoticon

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ANSWRGAL 8/21/2012 10:41PM

  Isn't amazing how people we barely knew impact us for life? I never knew my sister-in-law because she passed before I met her family. She is one of the people I look forward to meeting in heaven! Thanks for putting something so personal out there for other members.

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Make It Good

Saturday, August 11, 2012

Gosh life sure seems busy and demanding these days. There is a lot of good that comes from it, and that is where I like to keep my focus. I helped with coordination and fundraising for a Women's Distance Festival that was held today. I loved seeing the gym full of Moms of all ages, daughters, sisters, and all the men who marshaled the course for us. It was a very good thing.

The event gives back to our community, and I love to be a part of things like that. I loved that it was on a safe route that allowed for options. You could run and place in your age group, or you could walk. I wasn't sure what I would be up for when I woke this morning. I have been struggling with a cold of some kind the last few days. I thought a run would be good for me to get things moving out of the sinuses, but I just didn't know.

As I stood in the gymnasium, along comes the mother of the best man in our wedding back in '98. I knew she frequented the YMCA that we go to, but I didn't expect to see her. Also, I had no idea that today's event was her very first 5k. I knew that feeling well. She asked me lots of questions, and I told her about my first experience. She commented how she hoped that she would have someone participating from her job or elsewhere. I thought to myself, well, she knows she isn't alone. I wasn't trying to achieve any kind of PR for this one, and was really there because I had been a part of making the race happen as it should.

I decided that making sure her 5k was enjoyable and not lonely mattered much more than the time on the clock. I'm really glad that I did this, because she had a nice swift walk pace, and when the race was over...I didn't feel so hot. It was a good move overall, and she could remember that she had a friendly face. I applauded her for how fast her walking pace is, and how it was very close to what my running pace was as I started on my weight loss journey. In the end, I was encouraging her to consider walking an even longer distance in the future because she had such a decent pace.

We are often measuring ourselves and our ability by the clock. Today I chose to make those minutes good minutes, and not just fast ones.

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123ELAINE456 8/17/2012 3:23AM

  Awesome Blog. It was very nice of you helping her out. Glad you enjoyed yourself. God Bless You and Have a Wonderful Week. We need morei people like you helping with things. It would be a much better place to live in. Keep It Up. Bless You.

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BOBBYD31 8/12/2012 10:34PM

    good for you, sometimes it can not be about us but what we can give to others

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ONMYMEDS 8/12/2012 1:11PM

    Good for you!!. Nice blog.

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    Excellent choice

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SAINTBETH 8/11/2012 11:57AM

    quality, not quantity

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