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Holiday Wishes For All My Spark Friends

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

If you have already celebrated your holiday, then I do hope it was wonderful.

Wishing everyone safe travels and some joy in their holiday season.

If you are missing someone special just like my family, may you find peace in the memories you have of that person during this time and hold on to it. emoticon

If you are stressed then be sure to take some quiet time to remember what you are and are not in control of when it comes to that stress, and be sure to relax when the schedule allows. emoticon

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CHARQ09 12/21/2010 2:29PM

    Hi Julie! Best wishes to you and yours this holiday season! Take care!
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DEE797 12/21/2010 1:42PM

    Thanks so much. Wishing you and your family a happy holiday season as well. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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    Same back to you Julie. You have helped me so much this year. Words of Thank you don't say enough.

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This Running Thing Is Tough!

Monday, December 13, 2010

Let me just give a background on the title. When I started running...I will never forget the day...back in late February/early March. I had watched this shy neighbor shuffle ever so slowly around our neighborhood. After having conditioned myself up to staying on the elliptical for 40 minutes...I figured 'hey, this would be a logical step. she doesn't go that fast. I can DO this!'. I plugged in to my music and did the same shuffle. Little did I know, until I mapped out my route...I had just shuffled through a 5k. It was infectious and the amount of calories that I burned during running was akin to a signed contract. Why would I not want to burn those serious calories on my weight loss journey? Best bang for my buck!

I was officially sold on completing my first 5k, which raises money for the schools my children attend. I was not fast, but I did not care! After the 5k, I thought 'I sure could use a challenge to keep me connected to my fitness and keep me running'. An old friend of mine announced the opening of signups for Marine Corps Marathon. I knew I was, at a minimum, a 14 minute mile runner. Easy! I can beat the bus. Let's go! I did not even THINK about the distance. I just thought it was a great commitment to my fitness. I grabbed Galloway's Marathon training book at the advice of my old friend, and off I went.

Looking back on things, I know I had piriformis issues and I ran through them and recovered. I did not know at the time why I had pain in my rear, but post injury...that was it to a 'T'. I survived it. I trained up and I finished my race. Along the way I did an 8k and a half marathon. Outside of my ignorance on the piriformis, I did everything (minus ST) that I was told to do. I ignored the naysayers and held on to my goals.

2010 has been a rocky year. I did meet my goal weight and I wasn't even exercising at the time. I learned a lot about cutting further on non-essential things and it helped. I gained a love of strength work after my knee injury in May. I wouldn't be surprised if my sudden desire to be the Road Runner from Bugs Bunny cartoons, coupled with the awful heat, attributed to my knee injury. I had some things going against me with body issues that I cannot fix...but I can counteract them. But humbled me. Just be fit. If you want to run for life, then careful how you tread. This was clear to me.

When I was allowed to attempt running after a five month break, I knew there were things that must be done out of necessity if this was to work...1) take it easy 2) do your strength, and 3) take it easy. The starting back up seemed like a cake walk. My knee feels good and I am grateful. But the runs that I am now being challenged with a HARD. Why? I went from being a Galloway runner to running constant as I close out my C25k program. Holy wow! Yesterday I ran for 25 minutes non-stop. I had never done that to my recollection. It is possible I attempted it with my other half during our marathons (my half and his first full) but I honestly don't remember it. Goodness sakes it was a challenge but I did it! And the remaining weeks of this are just repeats of that long run period. I will do this, I know...but pacing is key to survive it.

So that, my dear Sparkers, is what I mean about running being tough. No way on this Earth could I envision running an entire half or full. Walk breaks would be essential. But I can do this constant running thing for 5k/8k/10k. I did run the bulk of my 10k in March and I was very impressed with myself. It was terribly cold and whatever I could do to be finished and warm up...count me in! LOL.

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EVER-HOPEFUL 12/17/2010 5:19PM


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CRYSBROWN1 12/14/2010 8:48AM

    Tough but rewarding, you've come so far!

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IFDEEVARUNS2 12/14/2010 8:22AM

    You give me hope. I despair of running again every time I feel my ITB scream at me.

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    Julie - it may be tough - but you are running again and that is a great blessing in its self

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QCESCADA 12/13/2010 5:38PM

    Good for you!! I'm a C25K grad and running 25mins straight was amazing. Almost a year later and sometimes 25mins is till an accomplishment but I am not ashamed of walk breaks. Congratulations on the MCM!!

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JILLIANPRNCSS 12/13/2010 2:17PM

    That was a lot of helpfull info. I have tried the running staight for an hour and taking a few walk breaks and find that it takes me the same amount of time.

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SEEHOLZ 12/13/2010 2:13PM

    I know how hard it is to want to run and not be able to and to learn to be humble, grateful and take it easy.. and well, take it easy-LOL!

I think my attitude and relationship about/with running has changed so drastically since this injury year... that I am just taking in the changes without judging them and that I truly believe that any day that I can get a pain-free run in is a day to cherish.

It sounds to me like you are going to become an amazing runner! With the ST, you are a lot stronger and will have more stamina and I have a feeling surprise yourself in completely unexpected ways-- just take the time to take it all in... it's your journey after all.


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Week 1 of C25K in the books

Saturday, November 06, 2010

I did manage to complete my week 1 schedule as planned. I need to add my ST. I do feel the investment in the adjustable knee brace was a good one. I did not feel like I was back in the game until today's walk/run. My best pace/distance completed was reached today, so I am hoping for this to continue. I am not so sure I want to press for rockstar pacing because I do feel that it contributed to my eventual injury and for sure feel it was the reason I had a pinched nerve behind the fibia early this year.

I don't want to jump on the distance bandwagon for now. I have always wanted to rock the we will see. It really stunk to be out of the game and I don't want to put myself out of it by lofty goals. I'll take it a day at a time.

I finally strapped on the HRM watch and boy do I burn some calories in 20 minutes time! The treadmill was way off. I need to re-evaluate my CICO details and start tracking again because I am concerned I won't get enough and then be ravenous and eat stuff I shouldn't. I've already had some moments. LOL.

I would be on track to do a New Year's Day 5k, and I found one not too far away.

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SEEHOLZ 11/10/2010 2:51PM

    What a great feeling!

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NINJALINDA 11/8/2010 7:59AM

    Glad to hear you're back running! Hope I'll be joining you in that endeavor soon...

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ETTEZEUS 11/8/2010 7:32AM

    I'm happy to hear you are taking your time and not pushing it!

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    Glad to hear you are back Julie. Just take your time on your comeback - we are waiting for you. Slow and Steady is the key words here.

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PINKNFITCARLA 11/6/2010 11:31PM

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I am planning on doing that 5K, thanks again for the link!

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where to from here?

Wednesday, November 03, 2010

I am happy to report I have begun my C25K program. Knee is a little sore, but nothing serious. I am going to keep on keeping on.

Life is hectic. I knew this, and that is why I turned down my responsibilities on Spark with a team I actively engaged with. But I'm feeling lost. I'm in maintenance mode, but even the maintenance team has requirements and where I just want to be content with meeting my goal and staying at isn't enough. Not sure what the next steps are for me. I have my form of fitness (running and strength work), but jumping through any kind of hoops...I can't commit to it. I have a lot of responsibilities at home with changes in schedules and demands here.

I've enjoyed all of the friendships made, but perhaps just using the SP tools and being accountable to me is enough. I liked doing the weigh ins with a group. My weigh ins don't have impact any longer.

Just feels really strange. Yet I know I need a support mechanism to maintain accountability.

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SEEHOLZ 11/3/2010 1:38PM

    I don't do any challenges these days- it's okay. I think the greatest thing about Spark is that it's always here for you!

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EVER-HOPEFUL 11/3/2010 1:12PM

    sorry you are feeling like that i have heard that alot from people who have reached their goal as if they arte a bit disorianated and lost their way abit.the trick so i have heard is to make new goals to aim for.miss you on the cranberries,drop in and say hello now and then we would love to see you.

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    I will be able to support you when you need it - I agree Spark can get overwhelming and demanding. Challenges always sound great, but I have enough going on training, working, and home life - that I don't need to report in on challenges. Just know that I am here for you if you need accountability.

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heavy thoughts and heavy times

Sunday, October 24, 2010

so i will lighten this up first by stating i am ever so grateful that i have come to love fresh vegan dishes. so close to trying again, but accepting of trying other forms of fitness (bike, elliptical, swimming) if that is what it must be.

anywho...such heavy thoughts and i just need to put it down. no need to reply.

i feel bad. my husband comes downstairs and he is tearful because he sees me mixing cake batter. he had just had one of those 'surreal/real' dreams where his mother spoke to him candidly and she told him she was making poor man's cake for his father. all i could do was hug him. he is so lost. his siblings are not communicating. he is so snowed under with school and i am helping (heck running) the settlement of his deceased father's estate. i could list all our responsibilities but it is not of value. we are all busy. we perservere. we make it. we are stronger and better for it. i know this...but sometimes you think 'really?!'. we worked through the heavy moment as a couple.

work is absolute nutty. but i am getting paid by the hour. bonus! i really want to win this thing though. keep ya posted.

so i have blogged before...i am a bmom. well, in 19 days my bdaughter is 18. ouch. yikes. wow. now i don't want to flood her life and such. i just want to get this gift to her and tell her about her siblings. but wow. i just don't know. so many deep thoughts. i've tried avenues to see if some good samaritan would just get this to her and it not involve the aparents...but it is not coming together. i would FALL APART if i faced her. i know i am not ready to face her. but i want her to have this gift and know this information about half siblings. thank heavens i am uber busy and don't have much time to ponder it all. i had a day dream that i passed these things to a college friend and she was standing nearby and approached me as i left and i literally just fell to a lump. seriously. so many conflicted feelings.

losing my father in law and seeing my husband reduced to raw emotion is hard. and my late sister's bday is coming up. i hope to get by her grave. we stopped by last weekend. but the actual date does matter. i know i am forever changed (and not good/bad/different) by her is a part of me...but sometimes you just wonder 'what if?'.

i am super excited (yes, close positive) that my husband will do the MCM next Sunday. thrilled for him. those who have completed distances know the therapeutic aspect and he so needs this right now. it has been a time suck, but a very good one for him given his schedule and life and demands. i can't wait for him to cross that line with a look of 'wow i just did it' and for the kids to see him get the medal. daddy won the race! i'll blog about that when we finish up. trying to figure out his menu for post race day. not healthy but the meal of a champ!

thanks for listening. i know everyone wants to just be positive and on all the time, but it is healthy to feel our feelings and work through life moments. with a husband who has been in mental health for over 8 yrs...and my own life is important.

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DEE797 10/30/2010 11:31AM

    Thoughts and prayers coming your way. emoticon emoticon

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EVER-HOPEFUL 10/30/2010 9:42AM

    i am feeling for you and at the same time your post is magnifying my fears of how my husband will cope when it is time for his father to go as i said he is at end stadium but that can mean anything with is also worse that we are so far away so my husband feels guilty for not being there for his father anbd mother at this time(he is the eldeast child).may god give you strength and love during this time .times like this can make you stronger so hang on to that.take care remember you are not alone we are all here to support you if you need us.take care love and look after yourself as well.your husband needs you more now. emoticon

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LIGHTNINGRUNNER 10/25/2010 10:36AM

    this is the best I can do emoticon

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SEEHOLZ 10/25/2010 9:39AM

    emoticon with all those issues- it sounds to me like you are working through them all in a healthy way! It is awesome that you are so very supportive of your husband-- and there for him in need. Those are the moments that make relationships last!

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