Friday, May 28, 2010
This is part of my team challenge for today through Tuesday. So here I am, trying to smile through tears.
I am grateful for Kevin, my husband's coworker, who worked his graveyard shift last night so that he could drive back over to be with his Dad when he gets the news today. People making life a little bit easier are priceless treasures.
Thursday, May 27, 2010
so i haven't totally dumped everything on my spark friends lately. many know i have my knee injury...but that's not it tonight.
in late april, my father in law went into the er with dehydration. we came to learn, over time, some concerning things about the month before he was admitted. it was sad, really. and even more concerning was the guy living with him who did not have the decency to alert us.
he has been back and forth betweent he hospital and the nursing home since late april. on sunday of this week, he went to the er in respiratory distress. turns out he has pneumonia in both lungs. not good for a guy with copd. on top of this, he has c-diff. and we became to grow more worried b/c, prior to his last major hospital stay, he had lost blood. but from where? we started to press on them to find out. loss of appetite on top of this. rapid weight loss (230 lbs to 180 lbs). and the recollection that, last november, he mentioned his 'annoying pulmonologist' wanting to do a biopsy...but he refused b/c the tests he was wanting to do were expensive and excessive.
tonight we learned that the CT scan (the only thing they could do given how fragile his respiratory system is) shows cancerous lesions on his pelvis and lungs. my stomach dropped and my heart sank. as much as this man has been a pain in the butt...he's my husband's father. and i'll just put it out there...i want to drown my sorrows in something chocolate because my husband is working a graveyard shift and i'm sitting here with my healthy kids in bed (so grateful for my kids) and nothing.
i am just utterly sad. cancer has taken other people from my life and i just hate it. i hate cancer.
we need to know where it originated from, if possible, so that my husband and his siblings understand if it is a future risk marker for them.
gosh this sucks. thanks for listening.
Thursday, May 13, 2010
So I was diagnosed on Monday evening with Runner's Knee. I have PT exercises to do at home. I have only been able to do them one day. I woke up the day after doing them in pain (even with Aleve in my system). My knee is irritated by my drive to/from work. It is annoyed by any few stairs I have to take. It is further annoyed by my desk job. I felt confident about healing with my first dose of Aleve. Now...I am not sure how long this will take. I don't know if maybe a brace is needed to stabilize/support the knee. I have 4 kids and live in a townhouse. Kinda hard to tell me to sit still! And my husband works graveyard shifts Thurs-Sun. No helping hands but my own. What to do, what to do.
It's been a tough week in other spots. My husband is continuing his traveling back and forth to tend to his father. I am hoping next week is quiet, but have growing concerns over potential new responsibilities (driving 2.5 hrs each way every couple weeks to check on him, prepare healthy dishes for the freezer so we know he is eating right, wondering how his PT will go).
You know, we 'meet' a lot of friendly people thanks to the interweb. Well, a few years ago I met a ray of sunshine. Her name is Tamara. I was so excited when she told me (and some other mom friends) that she was expecting twins. Someone who I could relate to, and share things with that parents of singletons just didn't understand. On Monday morning, I learned horrible news. Tamara took her life on Saturday. So young....25 yrs old....a mother of 5. Her youngest just 6 months old, her twins nearly 2 yrs old, a son ~4, and her 5 yr old daughter. My heart sank. Tears filled my eyes...as they have every day since I read 'RIP' and just shook my head and said 'no'. I still can't believe it. I am so very sad for her children. When a child is sick or sad, they seek the comfort of a mother's arms. And now that is gone. They have their father, but I worry for him also. He must provide for them, come home weary, and they will need him more than ever. I am praying for the children, and her husband. It just seems like a horrible dream.
This is definitely a week where I wish I could hit the 'redo' button.
Friday, May 07, 2010
In just 15 days, I will run the 2nd annual Maryland Half Marathon in Timonium. The purpose of this race is to raise $$ and awareness for a local cancer hospital in Baltimore. If any of my SparkFriends can lend a hand...I've set up a very small goal...then I would appreciate it. You can learn more about what has inspired me and a little more about the hospital at the following link:
Thanks for your support!
Sunday, May 02, 2010
It was so nice to run a distance event in my back yard this morning. The not so nice part was the weather. The high today was 90 degrees. I have trained in heat, but only run one event in the higher temps. The strategy for today was to run through every neighborhood hose (MANY thanks to those who took pity and cooled us down), grab more than the usual cups of water and powerade, and just take it as it comes. We dressed (forgot sunscreen...DOH), ate a clif bar, a swig of coffee...and out the door we went.
My husband was running the full marathon, so I sort of kept him at good pace until it was time for us to separate. I did have a new thing pop up...my calves were cramping. I am not sure if it was a product of the heat (I did not take in any electrolyte chews...just powerade and some Gu), or the heat PLUS the faster pacing. There were points earlier in the race where I was pacing faster...nothing insane...I think at one point we were pacing a 10:30...but it was not a race pace for distance.
There were a few mild hills. I would never say that Frederick is terribly hilly. By the time I got to mile 5/6...I was wanting to take more frequent walk breaks. I had not been taking more than the walk through the water stops before that time/distance. When the calves started twitching, I knew I had to back off. I was fearful that I would tear something. So at 10.5 miles, I told my husband to go ahead. I had kept him back to help him ready for the very hilly 2nd half of the race. I only had a short bit to go...but knew that I needed to take it easy. I did not want that to be a detriment to him.
I wound up with the following finishing stats:
My half last July, in similar temps, had the following stats:
So in just under a year, I improved my time (and on a stank hot day at that) by 35 minutes. Not too shabby, eh? I really wanted to shoot for finishing in 2:30:00...but I knew it was a stretch with the heat and then the calves getting crabby.
Oh and the medal was NICE! Love the new bling.
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