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Saturday, September 24, 2011

I have started to read a book that my therapist recommended and it is so fantastic! The title is Overcoming Overeating and it is by Jane Hirschmann. So much of this book is resonating with me and the relationship I have with food. I find myself reading it and nodding or even getting teary eyed in some spots because it is finally putting words to how I feel. It sounds silly, but I really feel like this book can be life changing for me! It talks about throwing diets out the window and concentrating on just accepting yourself as you are. It is all about self acceptance and not letting weight and food control your life. What a concept!! This book really makes me feel like I can do it and become a more positive person (and I am less than halfway through!).

I just wanted to share this with everyone in case you are struggling like I am! Highly recommend it to anyone who struggles with food, dieting, and self acceptance!

Thanks for reading and I hope everyone has a most fantastic weekend!

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CATIATM 10/15/2011 2:41PM

    Thanks very much for the recommendation. 'Im so glad it's helping you!

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FUNFROG79 9/26/2011 11:12AM

    I'm going to check that out! I'm so glad it's helping you!

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Wednesday, September 07, 2011

The long weekend was, of course, not long enough! I didn't really do much but I was not ready to return to work! I did not eat all that well all weekend, but I will say I did not stuff myself silly which is at least a small positive step! I ran 4 miles on Sunday. My goal was to stay under an 11 minute mile and I ended up with 10:50 per mile so I will take it!

Yesterday I was back on track with eating and making good choices and I was able to squeeze in a 3 mile run between thunderstorms. It was actually funny, when I started my run it was blue skies, but those dark clouds rolled in FAST! During the last mile of my run I started to hear thunder and then during the last quarter mile it started to downpour! I was just happy I made it almost the whole way without getting drenched! I wasn't able to time myself but I was able to run the entire 3 miles which I was not able to do last week...I think running from a storm may have been the motivation I needed :)

Nothing else really to report...doing o.k. with my other goals, but nothing groundbreaking. I am trying my best to stay positive everyday and not let people walk all over me. It can be exhausting some days!

I hope everyone enjoys their week and thanks for reading!!

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FUNFROG79 9/7/2011 1:18PM

    Great time and great attutide! emoticon

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ENDUROVET 9/7/2011 10:24AM

    Ha ha, I'm glad I'm not the only one stricken by the Bad Attitude!

(I wasn't ready to go back to work yet either)

But I for one will be running INTO the storms, if & when we ever get any! (TX wildfires are quite a distance from us, but it is ALL bone-dry, making us all nervous) I am very happy that Hubby is home this week to keep an eye on things...

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Saturday, September 03, 2011

So I was all geared up to do strength training yesterday and run 4-5 miles today...and nothin' :( I got home from work at 2:30 yesterday (I love my half day Fridays!) and my hubby and I watched a movie and I told myself that after the movie I was going to do my weights. Well, after the movie I was soooo hungry we started to make dinner at 5:00 or so (can we say Early Bird Special?!). Well, during dinner (and maybe a little bit after!) I ended up drinking 5 beers :) Now anyone who knows me knows that I am NOT a big drinker, but my hubby and I were having such a great time watching TV and giggling with each other that I couldn't stop (it also didn't help that my hubby was serving me)! Luckily I woke up feeling o.k. and had the plan to run some errands this afternoon and then return and workout. The errands took a little longer than planned so here I am now getting ready to make dinner and my run is not done and my weights have not been lifted. On to plan B...I will wake up and run 4-5 miles and then do my weights before the party I am going to in the evening. I have told my husband about this plan and he is pretty good at keeping me motivated (even with all my whining and excuses!), so between the two of us I am sure to get it accomplished. I hate that I have been derailed, but that is life and I will just have to get it all in tomorrow. All part of my new attitude--not letting a small hiccup ruin my ultimate plans. So far so good :)

Thanks for reading and have a great weekend!!

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FUNFROG79 9/6/2011 8:08AM

    Great attitude! Get it done! emoticon

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Good Start!

Friday, September 02, 2011

It has only been two days of following my rules, but I already feel better! I think my attitude adjustment has been a nice change of pace for those around me (especially my husband!!). I ran both yesterday and Wednesday. Wednesday I did great and only walked for 2 songs in 3 miles (that is how I do my intervals!), but yesterday I had to walk for 3 1/2 songs. My body wasn't cooperating with me, but I tried to stay positive! I am going to do some upper body and ab strength training today to give my legs a rest and then plan on doing a 5 mile walk/run Saturday morning. Then Sunday will be my complete day of rest...which will include a party at my friends house with beer and pizza (2 of my fav things!). I am going with a plan of only eating 2 slices of pizza and drinking 2 beers. I am going to eat a protein bar before I go to help control myself--wish me luck because I think I might need it!!

I also thought of another goal, but this one is much more long term.

4. Start sticking up for myself. I tend to let myself be taken advantage of because I am afraid of making people mad or not having them like me. I need to get over that because while I might be liked I am not respected. I am doing better at work, but still have a ways to go. Home on the other hand is another story. I am trying my best to start expressing my want, needs, wishes, and desires to my husband, but sometimes I trip up on my words or even worse apologize for wanting something! I just have it in my head that my husband is going to react badly to what I have to say, and most of the time he reacts just how I want him to, in a caring manner. We are both getting better at communicating, but as with everything else, it is a work in progress!

I hope everyone enjoys their holiday weekend and thanks for reading!!

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FUNFROG79 9/2/2011 11:54AM

    Love the plan, you need to be more assertive in life! We can both watch out for each other on Sunday at the party! emoticon

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ENDUROVET 9/2/2011 10:53AM

    That's great - I know I sometimes let my "people pleasing" attitude get in the way of doing what's right for myself...
I am really bad about cringing away from the marital communication issues - if I don't let things build up until I'm steamin' mad, it usually goes very well!

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After a looooong break...

Thursday, September 01, 2011

I have decided to get back on the band wagon! The truth of the matter is it helps to blog and get my feelings out. It helps to have the support of people who understand some (if not all) of what I am going through. I am tired of feeling sorry for myself and eating my way through those feelings. Nothing is going to be handed to me on a platter, I need to work for it. The sooner I realize that the better. So here I am!

I changed my goals to a lifestyle change rather than losing weight. Would I like to lose weight? OF COURSE! But I feel like I got bigger fish to fry right now. I need to get healthy and start taking better care of myself, mentally and physically.

So what are my goals...

1. Exercise in some form or fashion 4 times a week. Whether is walking, running, or doing yoga it doesn't matter. I will also try to walk everyday I can during my lunch hour. I think a combination of fresh air and exercise will be just what I need to make it through the second half of my day! I need to get moving and stop being lazy and making excuses. There is no reason to come home from work everyday and lay in bed watching re-runs on TV. I am only 31!!!

2. Make good food choices. I have made a conscious decision not to count calories. I feel like have too many food issues to do that just yet. What I want to focus on is trying not to binge and to not let food be the center of my world! I am tired of thinking and worrying about what I am going to eat ALL day long. It is ridiculous, and really unhealthy. I am going to focus on eating when I am hungry, enjoying my food, and stopping when I am full. I am going to make choices that satisfy me...if I want chocolate I will eat chocolate. I just won't eat my weight in chocolate. I have surrounded myself with healthy snacks at work that could satisfy both sweet and salty cravings. Hopefully that will end my impromptu trips to Target for candy and chips!

3. Start being more positive. Is my life perfect? Absolutely not, but who cares! Not everything can go my way all the time. I am in a kind of rough patch right now, but there are LOTS of things to be grateful for and that is what I need to focus on. I have fabulous friends and family. A husband who loves me, and 2 of the most adorable puppies! I also have a job, a house, and food on the table...all things that I take for granted every single day (or even complain about) and I need to realize that they are all a luxury that a lot of people don't have right now.

That is all I can come up with at the moment! It is a tall order, but I need to do this. I have to make some changes and there is no better time than now!

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FUNFROG79 9/2/2011 8:08AM

    Welcome back! I'm glad you are taking steps to ensure your happiness!

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CAPECODLIGHT 9/1/2011 11:02AM

    Sounds like you are taking some excellent steps. I found that by brushing my teeth right after I clean up the dinner dishes, I have been able to tame the after dinner snacking monster that I deal with. If that is ever a problem for you, give it a try!

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TATTED4X4 9/1/2011 10:30AM

    Very strong and powerful. U will make ur goal. Too many people want the quick fix and not the forever cure. Congrats on ur wonderful wakeup!!! Yay for u!!

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