Saturday, September 24, 2011
I have started to read a book that my therapist recommended and it is so fantastic! The title is Overcoming Overeating and it is by Jane Hirschmann. So much of this book is resonating with me and the relationship I have with food. I find myself reading it and nodding or even getting teary eyed in some spots because it is finally putting words to how I feel. It sounds silly, but I really feel like this book can be life changing for me! It talks about throwing diets out the window and concentrating on just accepting yourself as you are. It is all about self acceptance and not letting weight and food control your life. What a concept!! This book really makes me feel like I can do it and become a more positive person (and I am less than halfway through!).
I just wanted to share this with everyone in case you are struggling like I am! Highly recommend it to anyone who struggles with food, dieting, and self acceptance!
Thanks for reading and I hope everyone has a most fantastic weekend!
Friday, September 02, 2011
It has only been two days of following my rules, but I already feel better! I think my attitude adjustment has been a nice change of pace for those around me (especially my husband!!). I ran both yesterday and Wednesday. Wednesday I did great and only walked for 2 songs in 3 miles (that is how I do my intervals!), but yesterday I had to walk for 3 1/2 songs. My body wasn't cooperating with me, but I tried to stay positive! I am going to do some upper body and ab strength training today to give my legs a rest and then plan on doing a 5 mile walk/run Saturday morning. Then Sunday will be my complete day of rest...which will include a party at my friends house with beer and pizza (2 of my fav things!). I am going with a plan of only eating 2 slices of pizza and drinking 2 beers. I am going to eat a protein bar before I go to help control myself--wish me luck because I think I might need it!!
I also thought of another goal, but this one is much more long term.
4. Start sticking up for myself. I tend to let myself be taken advantage of because I am afraid of making people mad or not having them like me. I need to get over that because while I might be liked I am not respected. I am doing better at work, but still have a ways to go. Home on the other hand is another story. I am trying my best to start expressing my want, needs, wishes, and desires to my husband, but sometimes I trip up on my words or even worse apologize for wanting something! I just have it in my head that my husband is going to react badly to what I have to say, and most of the time he reacts just how I want him to, in a caring manner. We are both getting better at communicating, but as with everything else, it is a work in progress!
I hope everyone enjoys their holiday weekend and thanks for reading!!
Thursday, September 01, 2011
I have decided to get back on the band wagon! The truth of the matter is it helps to blog and get my feelings out. It helps to have the support of people who understand some (if not all) of what I am going through. I am tired of feeling sorry for myself and eating my way through those feelings. Nothing is going to be handed to me on a platter, I need to work for it. The sooner I realize that the better. So here I am!
I changed my goals to a lifestyle change rather than losing weight. Would I like to lose weight? OF COURSE! But I feel like I got bigger fish to fry right now. I need to get healthy and start taking better care of myself, mentally and physically.
So what are my goals...
1. Exercise in some form or fashion 4 times a week. Whether is walking, running, or doing yoga it doesn't matter. I will also try to walk everyday I can during my lunch hour. I think a combination of fresh air and exercise will be just what I need to make it through the second half of my day! I need to get moving and stop being lazy and making excuses. There is no reason to come home from work everyday and lay in bed watching re-runs on TV. I am only 31!!!
2. Make good food choices. I have made a conscious decision not to count calories. I feel like have too many food issues to do that just yet. What I want to focus on is trying not to binge and to not let food be the center of my world! I am tired of thinking and worrying about what I am going to eat ALL day long. It is ridiculous, and really unhealthy. I am going to focus on eating when I am hungry, enjoying my food, and stopping when I am full. I am going to make choices that satisfy me...if I want chocolate I will eat chocolate. I just won't eat my weight in chocolate. I have surrounded myself with healthy snacks at work that could satisfy both sweet and salty cravings. Hopefully that will end my impromptu trips to Target for candy and chips!
3. Start being more positive. Is my life perfect? Absolutely not, but who cares! Not everything can go my way all the time. I am in a kind of rough patch right now, but there are LOTS of things to be grateful for and that is what I need to focus on. I have fabulous friends and family. A husband who loves me, and 2 of the most adorable puppies! I also have a job, a house, and food on the table...all things that I take for granted every single day (or even complain about) and I need to realize that they are all a luxury that a lot of people don't have right now.
That is all I can come up with at the moment! It is a tall order, but I need to do this. I have to make some changes and there is no better time than now!
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