Wednesday, April 03, 2013
Well, its been a few weeks since my brother died and I'm still not quite back into the swing of things. I still have a few things to take care of for him, which I hope to do this week. I still can't believe he's gone. Shortly after he died, my husband and I both lost our last remaining grandparents. Three deaths within a month.
My health problems have escalated as well, I'm sure as a result of the additional stress. My sleep issues are worse, my blood pressure is worse, and I gained back a few pounds. My diet is not the problem. My activity and energy level is the culprit. My bloodwork came back and i'm anemic again, and borderline diabetic. Add in the lack of sleep and that explains my lethargy. I'm doing a sleep study here shortly, even though I know that if I can just drop another 20-30 lbs most all of my issues would likely go away. I have nobody here to kick my butt and make me get in gear, though, so its easy to not push myself to do stuff if I just don't feel motivated. I took a fall on Sunday at church, tumbling down a flight of brick steps. Luckily other than some nasty scrapes and bruises and soreness, I wasn't hurt. Keeping me moving around though is helping with the stiffness and soreness. I won't be wearing shorts though anytime soon. Both my legs are pretty banged up. I'm just glad I didn't break anything.
I have made some progress around the house this week though so that is helping. Ever since we moved in my house has been clutter central. It drives me crazy. The problem is that I haven't really been able to tackle the clutter issues because it has been about all I can do to maintain the basic stuff like laundry, dishes, etc. I've finally been able to do a little this week. Monday was beautiful outside so I made all the kids come out and work with me. We have a back porch that is 10x24. Its huge. It's also been the place to drop everything under the sun. Christmas decorations boxes were put out there and never put away, I had sewing cabinets and treadles out there I hadn't moved to the guest house, extra military gear was there, etc. I got it all cleared out, swept, cleaned the furniture that belongs out there, assembled two adirondack chairs and painted them for out there, painted my rocking chair and got that moved to the front porch. It was a royal pain in the rear to get those christmas decorations into the guest house attic but I managed to do it.
Yesterday I cleaned about 40% of my closet and eliminated one clutter pile in my bedroom. We have got to get out of the habit of dropping stuff wherever and getting around to putting it away someday. Part of the issue is that we moved into a construction zone, and literally had to move everything out of our bedroom into the living room, etc one room at a time, and its been a year since we finished and it has never been properly put together once all the work was done. Every room in the house was shuffled into other parts of the house at one point in time so it started out as a jumbled mess and I've been unable to recover since then.
I decided I'm having a huge estate/yard sale this month. I have boxes and boxes of stuff just waiting for a sale so I'm tired of staring at it and I want the space back. I have tons of kids stuff and baby stuff, plus this entire estate I acquired so there's lots of money just sitting here waiting for someone to find use in it all. I need a vacation and I want this sale to finance all of it. I've decided to sell off several of my machines as well. I have way too many and I'm going to focus on the older treadles i have instead of just a wide variety of stuff. I sold 3 already and someone's coming Saturday to hopefully buy another couple. Some friends are going to bring stuff over as well so I hope to have a good turnout.
Its raining again today so I'm going to continue to work in the house, getting some pictures up on the walls that I've been walking past for a year as they sit stacked on the floor, hop on the treadmill while I watch Glenn Beck, and get one of my sewing machines set up in a permanent (until I move it all out to the guest house) and get an order or two knocked out.
Saturday, March 02, 2013
So I've been away for a couple of weeks for the most part. On Feb 12th, my youngest brother suddenly passed away. Because he lived alone and had a password lock on his cell phone, the coroner's office was unable to get in touch with our family for 5 days. My parents were travelling and out of touch, so they struggled to locate someone else in the family and I was the first one they were able to reach. I got the call on the 17th as I was preparing to head to church. My mom docked from their cruise just a couple of hours before I got the call, and were headed to my house the next day on their return to their home in Colorado. My step dad had to break the news to her in the parking lot before heading here, thus enduring a 7 hour drive with my inconsolable mother to get here. I drove them the 11 hours from my house to theirs the next day, while my older brother flew in from Oklahoma to my other brother's house in Denver. We all gathered that evening at my mom's house to figure out what we were going to do. The next day my brother, my SIL, and one of my brother's friends headed up into the mountains where Andrew lived to clean out his apartment and pack it up. He lived between Keystone and Breckenridge ski resorts. That was an all day affair. While they packed up his apartment, I cleaned out his car and went to all the places I needed to go in person to notify them, the bank, the post office, his job, etc. and to the coroner's office so I could pick up personal belongings of his.
My mom decided that I should take Andrew's car, since we only have one, and we gathered all his tshirts. Mom and I will make some quilts from them for all of us to have one, and one for his friend and neighbor, who was the unlucky one to discover him in his apartment. My younger brother makes all sorts of stuff, so he's going to take Andrew's snowboards to make a bench out of them for my mom.
Andrew loved the mountains and never wanted to leave there. He worked as little as humanly possible so that most of his time was spent snowboarding. He was crazy good, too. Did all these insane tricks in the air and such. He took a proud pleasure out of his many injuries. I always teased him that he was the eternal bachelor because no girl could compete with the snow. He loved kids though, and would have made a terrific dad someday.
Andrew started having seizures a couple of years ago, and had never been diagnosed with a specific disorder. They were trying out some different medications. He was on his third or fourth one at the time he died, and he complained to me about how awful it was. In the last few weeks, however he had been having them more and more frequently and more severe. Apparently this time he had one in his sleep and never woke up from it. Luckily he had his neighbor checking on him regularly, and he couldn't have been gone more than a couple of hours at the time he was found.
Today would have been his 29th birthday. I'm sad that I can't call him at a god awful early hour like I usually do to wake him up. I'm happy however, that he's no longer fighting his body, and frustrated at not being able to figure out what was wrong. I'm also happy now that I know he was saved and I don't have to wonder about where he's spending eternity.
Thursday, January 17, 2013
Well, I had to start the day with that Fiber drink but I added a mandarin orange Spark to it and it made it much better. One more day and I'm on to step 2 of the challenge.
I almost hit my daily step goal yesterday too. My goal is 10K steps but I hardly ever hit it. I think I've only crossed it two or three times in the last couple of months. Not leaving my house and temporarily not being able to use my treadmill makes it sorta tough. I did hit 8500 steps though yesterday which is higher than the usual 4-5K I've been at. I also did a 45 minute Zumba dvd. Progress!
Today I'm going to do another dvd and see if I can get the treadmill moved to where I can use it. We shall see!
Tuesday, January 15, 2013
I swear I'm my own worst enemy. Whenever I don't get a decent amount of sleep (which has been 3 times in the last 4 nights) I always end up caving to caffeine, soda, sugar and all that stuff that kills my diet.
I'm still doing the 24 day challenge but I haven't done the workouts for the last 4 days. I need to have someone making me more accountable for that part.
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