I'm Sick of This!!!

Sunday, September 18, 2011

I am so sick of losing and then gaining the same pounds over and over again! Tonight I feel like screaming and kicking! I am so sick of this weight. Well tomorrow starts a brand new day. I am not going to say that I will keep at it this time because I have said that so many times before. I am just going to say that I need to do this. I think I have hit my rock bottom tonight.

I am so sick of being overweight that I am literally feeling sick from it. I see so many people here losing weight and still going then I see myself lose the same pounds over and over! Anyone have ideas on how to keep at it? I am going to make a blog post daily now. I hope to get a lot of comments and make friends here. So if you read this blog make a comment please.

My plan is going to go into effect tomorrow. I will eat no more than 1,500 calories and exercise 30 minutes. I may not be able to get all of that in one time but through the day I plan to work out that long.

Check back on me tomorrow when I will weigh in and give my measurements.

  

My goal

Tuesday, May 24, 2011

So I have been looking for a goal to set for a few days now. So here it is. I want to lose 200lbs in this year. That means 4lbs a week. I believe I can do it. It would mean I would be down to 223lbs by this time next year.

  

  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

JAKOTAMJ 6/6/2011 9:06PM

JBEARNOLIMITS, that's a huge goal you've set for yourself but, I believe you can do it! My husband and I are quite a bit older than you and your wife but, like y'all, we are working on losing the weight together. It seems to be easier when it's done that way. :D I am praying for you and your wife and I'm here any time either of you need someone to remind you that although it's a hard fight & seems like forever to go away it will and yes !! Report Inappropriate Comment

L-OSTER8 5/24/2011 9:29PM

Good Luck . . . My Goal Is To Get Back To Living In My Apartment Again! Report Inappropriate Comment

help

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

Hi again spark people. It has been a while since I have been on here. Sad to say depression has taken it's toll on me for a while now and I have not lost any wieght. I need to start over starting today. That is why I am here.

I want to start all over here. I am at 430 lbs. I feel like the world is falling down around me because of money, wieght, depression, and anxiety. For those who do not know I suffer from bipolar manic depression or whatever it is called. It makes things so much harder.

So that is where I am. I would like to lose this wieght and feel better very soon. At least that is my goal. I am in a struggle for SSD right now and am at the final appeal. I have not been able to work in the last two years.

To top it all off I have been out of church a long time and feel spiritualy dead. So if anyone has words of hope please speak now.

  

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MOUNTAINS2CLIMB 5/17/2011 1:16AM

Sometimes when things seem their darkest, it is easy to feel alone, but even if you have not been in church in a long time, God is still there, ready to take your hand and guide you through. Coming back to Spark is a step in the right direction. The tools you need are here, and the support is here for the asking. I certainly don't have answers, I wish I did, but know that you aren't alone in your struggles and that you can do this. Start with small steps such as simply tracking your nutrition and drinking water. Add to these when you feel ready. You can take control. I know you can do this. It's not always easy, but great things can be accomplished in small steps. You can do this. Hang in there. Kristi Report Inappropriate Comment

back to 410lbs

Saturday, February 26, 2011

So I went back up to 417 lbs again since I last blogged. I guess I just gave up for a little while. That is how it seems to be going. I lose weight and then I gain the weight back again. But I am happy to say I am back down to 410lbs as of this morning.

I am changing my weight loss ticker. I am going to do it based on my small goals so that I can see it move when I lose something.

  

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GOOSIEMOON 2/26/2011 5:57PM

Keep trying - you are most definitely worth the effort! "Don't let the fear of the time it will take to accomplish something stand in the way of your doing it. The time will pass anyway; we might just as well put that passing time to the best possible use." ~Earl Nightingale Report Inappropriate Comment

PLUSTODOWNSIZE 2/26/2011 12:58PM

At least you are still trying! that is what matters! Report Inappropriate Comment

Back up to 411lbs

Saturday, February 05, 2011

I wish I didn't have to do this but I am going to admit that last night I got a slice of pizza and some breadsticks after I had already reached my calorie goal. Now I am back up to 411lbs as of this morning.

I know there will be failures along the way. I am going to be open about all of them. I really hate that I gained after one screw up. But it just means I need to focus a little harder.

  

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CURVYTINA 2/7/2011 6:31PM

I love the fact you admitted you screwed up because fact is we all do. But watching what we eat and how much we exercise does not mean we have to give up some of our favorite foods. If you know you are going to eat pizza eat it. Don't deprive yourself because eventually you're body is going to give in to it's cravings and you might over eat. And don't be down on yourself because you had an extra piece of pizza. I allow myself to have a "skip a week" every once in a while. Where I skip the scale. If I know I didn't do great last week I can use my skip a week so the numbers don't discourage me. Keep your head up. You'll be where you want to be before you know it! Report Inappropriate Comment

DISP715 2/5/2011 11:10AM

Life is amazing. Every minute you are given another chance. You can do this. You can count on SP for support and motivation. Have you read any of Geneen Roth's books? "When Food is Love" is especially powerful. Please remember that ultimately our goal is to get healthy and that we are not defined by what is on the scale. I wish you lots of luck and know that with patience and perseverance you can do this. Report Inappropriate Comment

NEWKAREN43 2/5/2011 11:08AM

Some days are about picking yourself up and dusting yourself off (like today!) and some days not so much...Start today right, get the water, plan your food...you CAN do this! Report Inappropriate Comment

MABTE52 2/5/2011 11:06AM

I like your attitude. I bet you will succeed. Report Inappropriate Comment