Friday, December 20, 2013
At my work's Christmas party, I was sidled up to by a number of co-workers all observing I had lost weight and wanting to know my secret. A couple of months ago, I blogged about co-workers making negative and snide comments about my weight loss and eating habits. These people are not the same kind. At the party, the people asking were very positive and sincere; they wanted to genuinely know. In the past, I have thrown in comments about tracking and exercise. This time I was honest. Of course, watching my portion size and calories are integral to the process but I have known the science of weight loss for my entire adult life. This knowledge did not result in weight loss. Instead it meant I was depressed, frustrated and angry that I could not master my body. I made promises to myself about participating in life when I weighed less. Basically I jealously watched life from the sidelines. So the key?
I accept myself for who I am. No clauses. No promises. No hate. I realised that I am an equal to anyone, regardless of weight, money, status, etc. We are all different but our differences do not devalue us. I observe my ups and downs with interest but I no longer emotionally buy into them. I trust myself.