Friday, September 09, 2011
I am lamenting the end of summer! Most people around here are happy with current temps. They love the mid 80s and so do I, but where many of them are loving the 60 degree nights for football and all I am sad! Those cool nights cool my pool down considerably! I'm not complaining. I love living in an area where I get to experience all 4 seasons for reasonable amounts of time, but summer is always my favorite and I love my pool! I got in it for the first time in about a week today and the water was cold. OK, for many of you who live up North or elsewhere where temps are not as high as around here you may think I'm crazy, but 78 is cold to this thin blooded southern gal! My arms and legs felt numb for the longest time! I kept moving and that helped. I know I am spoiled. I like my water at about 85 or even higher! But, the sun was out and the air temp very warm, so I didn't suffer. Still it was hard to get in there and get moving!
I had a gain this week and am not surprised. I'm going to weigh again tomorrow before I post for my challenge though. I mean, this was kind of a big gain and seemed unreasonable. I think it was some water retention. So, I'll weigh again tomorrow before posting! Still, I know I gained and it is well deserved after being such a slacker! But, I did better today and I had 2 wonderful and sweaty workouts! My new DVDs came in too so I can start some new exercises! I got some beginner step aerobic DVDs and a step. I hope it doesn't mess my knee up, but I"m ready for a new challenge and something to shake up my usual workouts! I got some new dance workout DVDs too. We'll see how they go.
When I was sitting out by the pool warming my cold bones I decided to call my friends down at VA Beach. I knew they were across the Bay on the island, but I didn't have their cell numbers or the house number over there. I was supposed to go visit them again this weekend, but my friend who drives overbooked and had to cancel. She told me that she called Mike on Wed. to cancel our trip. Well, either she called the wrong number or she lied. I left a message with my number if they happened to check and good thing I did! They were waiting dinner on us when I called! They had gone out and bought special food and special drink for us and they arranged for me to go to a pony corral where I could go in and touch the ponies b/c they wanted me to have a great experience since I am blind! They made special arrangements just for me! Anyhow, they said my friend never called them. I felt so bad! I mean to tell you all.... These people are such wonderful friends! They are terrific hosts. They always want their guests to have the ultimate experience and they make plans. I couldn't believe my friend didn't call them! She didn't call me on Labor Day either and I was expecting her to come over, but at least I hadn't put myself out. So, I just don't understand the lack of common courtesy in people.
I had my "broken" leg check out today and the doctor can't find anything wrong with it. This is good news, but I have pains in it and evidently no cause. He just blamed my diabetes but that is just a catch all for all doctors when they can't find anything else wrong with me. Ah! He did give me some more pain pills so I'll have them. He also taught me a way to work my quads without doing squats or leg extensions. He said the best thing was straight leg raises from a seated position. He said to increase the number of reps I would normally do with squats or extensions and sit tall with one leg extended straight out and lift it. I did a few with him there and I could feel it in the quad. So, that's good.
My home phone is still out and my cell phone works intermittedly. Something is wrong with the SIM card. I guess I'll go try to find a new one tomorrow. I want to try a new exercise class tomorrow too!
I always have a few complaints, but all in all life is good!wodnerful
Thursday, September 08, 2011
AS many of you know this past week was a bit rough for me and I was really sick the week before.... So, it has taken me about 4 years to establish good habits like eating healthy and exercising on a regular basis and it has taken me about 2 weeks to undo it all! Wehn I was sick I thought.... I feel bad so who cares what I eat? And, I ate! I felt terribly weak, so I slacked on my usual exercise regimen. Well, I am feeling better this week and I am still slacking on the exercise and still eating as if I am depressed or stressed or all of the above! I don't want that weight back! I don't want to be a couch potato! But, laziness seems to win! Why is that? I'm giving myself the rest of this week to get out of my rut. I'm going to eat my junk food and I'm going to do the minimal exercise, but starting Sunday I am back on full track with my usual Zumba classes, belly dancing at least 1 night a week and I have some new cardio DVDs coming in, so will put those to work too! It is so easy to be "bad"! But I am not going to lose my summer body for winter flab! I got a new haircut and color today, so I'm going to keep this vessel of mine strong and tight!
Wednesday, September 07, 2011
Hi again my wonderful, awesome, compassionate, beautiful Spark Friends! When I was sending out thank-yous to those who commented on my blog about my brother and sister and their passing I didn't realize there was actually 3 pages of comments! I am simply overwhelmed! I hope I can get to each one of your pages and say thank you, but just in case.... THANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOUTH
ANKYOUTHANKYOU.... Thank you from the bottom of my heart! Really, my life has been full of losses.... Loss of health and eyesight due to diabetes, loss of both siblings, loss of grandparents, which is natural, but one was within that same year of losing my siblings, los of freedome due to the diabetes and blindness and so much more than I can even go into here! But, but, but.... I am one of the luckiest and most blessed women on earth! I have my wonderful Jack, my constant companion as one of you called him, my baby boy, my playmate, my snuggle puppy, my dog. He is my angel! I have a most wonderful, supportive, awesome husband who supports my efforts and even helps when he can! He is still here after many terrible low blood sugars that would've scared some, if not most, other men away! He has been here thru a broken leg where I literally wrecked our home wheeling thru here blind in a wheelchair! I have not always been gracious with him either. I have supportive parents who are there to help me with transportation, support, encouragement and love all the days of my life! They too have suffered much in their relatively young lives. They lost 2 children and had 2 children (1 of them me) who were diabetic and blind, they have been thru cancer (my dad) and many weird ailments (my mom right now), but they persist and keep a positive attitude! I'm sure that is partly where I get my own positive attitude! I even have awesome in-laws who are not the most positive people, but they love me and they support me and they help me alot! I have good friends here who love me and support me and allow me to have fun! But, but, but..... I have Spark Friends!! I have friends I've met on SP who I've never met in person and may never meet in person, but they comfort me, they encourage me, they motivate me! They give me strength when I am weak, they give me hope when I feel hopeless, they give me laughter when I want to cry! Those Spark Friends include YOU! Thank you once again for the lovely, warm, comforting comments on my blog about my siblings, but also for everything you do! I'm so glad I stumbled onto this web site more than 3 years ago! I am truly blessed and you make it so!
Wednesday, September 07, 2011
First, let me thank everyone who commented on my blog about my sister and brother! I'm making rounds, but may miss someone and don't want to let that happen! Everyone's words of comfort, prayers and hugs mean so much and made me feel so much better!
Today is a weird day. First, I picked up the phone to call my dad and only got a weird buzzing noise. This is my land line phone to which I am talking. So, I call him on my cell phone and it goes out during our conversation and I can't connect with anyone after that! I called my husband and asked him to try the home phone and then my cell and well, I guess by time he got my message both phones were out! I feel a bit nervous with no phones! I asked my friends to call my husband for me so in case he has been trying to reach me he doesn't think I'm in the middle of a low blood sugar or something!
I would be exercising, but I am so hot! The temp is the same as always, but I am hot and clammy. The thought of sweating any more makes me feel nauseious! Ah!
Well, nothing else new. Don't know why my phone stopped working (my cell) and don't know what is wrong with the home phone. I checked all the phones and they are all hung up or on their chargers and the electricity is on since I am able to use my computer and get online! Weird.
Tuesday, September 06, 2011
I should know; I tried real hard today! Funny thing is that I wake up and don't even think about what the date is.... I thought, boy it is really raining. I thought, today is strength training day. I thought, what is a healthy breakfast I can eat? I didn't think, today is the day that should be my sister and brother's 43rd birthday and they are both dead. But, somehow my body knew it! My body did a little cardio, but gave out rather quickly for me. My body did most of my ST, but felt weak and shakey following. My body went into the kitchen and ate what was left of the buffalo pretzel pieces, which wasn't alot, but more than a serving! My body decided it wanted and it took a serving of BBQ potato chips left over from a party. My body ate my healthy choices along with these bad snacks. I wasn't thinking about stuffing my grief, but my body did it anyhow! And, I don't feel any better! Now I feel bereft and stuffed!
My sister died in a car accident on June 26, 2004. She was 35 and healthy; the only healthy person in our entire family! She was the mother of a then 3 year old son, she was a wife, a mother, a daughter and a sister! She was a sister that I often fought with, especially as teenagers, but one I became very close to as an adult! she was my best friend. She was charmed and charming.When I say charmed I mean she was the type who could walk into a job interview for a job in which she had absolutely no experience and get the job. She was thin and beautiful, even underweight, but still had a figure. She got up to a whopping 110 pounds when she was pregnant and simply looked like someone stuck a soccer ball up inside of her dress. After pregnancy she was back to having a flat tummy! She had a beautiful smile. She could certainly be a witch with a capital B and sassy as they come, but she was my sister and oh did I love her!
My brother was a tall, good looking blong with blue eyes, my sister's twin, my brother. He was magical. He was creative in music, writing, art! He could pick up an instrument and play it by ear. He was sensitive and all his friends brought white flowers to his funeral b/c they said his love was pure. He had a wicked sense of humor. He died October 29, 2004 from complications of diabetes. His heart simply stopped beating.
I can't even describe the grief I experienced in 2004. I can't describe what grief my parents experienced. Both of my siblings loved dogs and a good friend gave me Jack that December after Shaun, my brother, died. I told her my childhood died and she gave me hope in a puppy with no name at the time! Jack has been here for me ever since! He gives me kisses when I'm sad and will sit on my lap just to b near me when I need him. He has his sweet chin on my leg right now to comfort me as I cry! I hope my sister and brother were reunited with our grandparents and all the family dogs that passed before them! I hope they are all enjoying a good game of gin rummy! I hope my grandmas are letting the grandpaps play even though they both said their husbands cheated! I hope my brother's sight has been restored and he is back to health. I hope my sister knows we all love Zachary, her son, and are looking out for him. I hope she knows I am taking him to see Styx in 2 weeks. The last thing she and I did together was go see a Styx concert. I hope they both know how much I love them and how much I miss both of them each and every day!
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