Sunday, December 27, 2009
I wish I had a scanned pic to add to this blog of my Grandpap..... Maybe soon!
Anyhow, my year in review.... I lost the same 5 pounds over and over.... If I had lost 5 pounds over and over I would be at goal weight, but I gained, lost, gained, lost, gained lost the same 5 pounds again and again! I started a walking goal on Sept. 1 and planned to walk at least 1 mile each and every day.... I did really well up to a point and then I don't know what happened! I walked during the flu, I walked before Grandpap's funeral, I walked and walked, but then suddenly I just didnt. I'm back on the walking plan and walked every day this past week, so am getting going again!
My major problem areas this year were sticking to my at least 5 fruits and veggies daily.... I missed that goal too often and usually resulting from eating junk food and take out food! Take out cuisine is my downfall! I am going to make real efforts in the new year to cook more at home! There is no reason for me not to except on Monday nights when I am in dance class until 7:45 PM! On those nights I can do Subway and nothing else! I am not calling any of my goals "resolutions", but I am going to make more efforts toward my weight loss! I do OK with my water except in the past few days.... I slipped (too easily) back into the Diet soda trap! I am going to work my way back to 10 cups a day! I actually do prefer water, but just slipped out of habit. So, cooking more at home will naturally increase my fruits and veggie intake and water consumption. I will track every morself too and be sure to stay within calorie limits! If I want to meet goal weight, I must!
I don't think I've done too badly with exercise. Being a member of the Y keeps me going and accountable. When i can't go, Leslie Samsone is my best friend! I did slack off, but only slightly on the walking a mile each day (at least)! I mean fitness walking when I say at least a mile a day.... I joined the SP spark Your Body Bootcamp and look forward to it. I also do a free weights class at the Y every Tue. & thu.! I plan to try to make more water aerobics classes this coming year since my teaching schedule has changed. So, I'm going to continue with 3 hours of belly dance lessons each week, 2 and 1/2 hours of strength training at the Y, a 1 mile or more fitness walk each day and as much water aerobics and other cardio as I can fit in!
This past year my Grandpap died and it marked the 5th anniversary of my sister and brother's deaths. It hasn't gotten any easier and the holiday season hurts, but it is a bittersweet hurt.... My mom's health went completely downhill in the past year and she can barely move due to pain in her back and knees. Part of it came from her regaining the weight she had lost. My dad's back got better and he went back to work and he has had pain on and off since. He wanted to retire, but the stock market killed his 401K! I started the year off in my cast and it is gone! the leg is pretty much healed, but arthritis set in the ankle and knee as a result of the injury. Sometimes it hurts, sometimes not, so that is OK> I'm walking on it and even jogging a bit, but it still hurts to do jumping jacks! My health has been weird. I've had several really bad low blood sugars including 1 today. I need to reassess my pump delivery numbers and try to avoid that!
Plans for the new year? Going on a belly dance cruise in February and can't wait! I'm awaiting my new custom designed belly dance clothing and plan to attend a belly dance "camp" in October. I'll be 45 in June. I plan to cook at home more often, stick to my veggie/fruit and water plan, walk at least 1 fitness mile a day, live, love & laugh with hubby and Jack and keep working toward my goals! Life is good even if it doesn't feel like it sometimes! Happy New Year!incras
Friday, December 18, 2009
I have no fire to be delightful, but the ice won't let me go, so let it snow, let it snow, let it snow! Hmmm, was that too many let it snows?
We are having our first big snow storm in awhile here! We get dustings and we get a few inches that close the city down and then melts by noon, but it is rare we get real accumulation with staying power! It started snowing a dry snow the weatherman called Vegra (I think) around 1:30. My mom and I both had our hair and nails done and we finished right at about that time. We went for lunch and during the 30 to 45 min. we were in the restaurant the snow started to pile on.... There was a nice dusting by time she got me home. Thankfully the driveway was still just wet b/c I was in a panic! Most of y'all know I broke my leg on ice in Feb. 2008 and was in a wheelchair for 10 months and in a cast for a bit over a year! anyhow, I'm quite ice shy! Well as the day progressed it grew quieter and quieter as fewer and fewer people got out on the roads.... It is now 11:00 PM and it is still snowing, but now it is mixed with sleet. We have a good 8 inches on the ground already. It took my husband 2 hours to make his normal 45 min. drive home! My dog has been holding "it" all day and just tried to go out and couldn't get thru the doggie door b/c the snow was piled up! The local city folk made a run on the grocery stores like we were going to be snowed in for a month and bought up all the bread, milk and eggs! I suppose people like to eat french toast in snow.... They interviewed one woman on TV who had a couple gallons of milk.... I hope she has a bunch of kids and the power doesn't go out.... Why buy so much milk? The other run was on alcohol. Here in VA we sell beer, wine and wine coolers in our grocery stores and those shelves were wiped clean! I guess people like to chase their french toast with some beer or wine....
I jest, but really this is a pretty big storm and I worry about the ice that is falling now.... Ice is far more dangerous than snow and ice collects on tree limbs and power lines and tends to knock them both down! My husband insisted on buying a generator several years ago following a big ice storm that knocked the power out.... He was afraid to leave for fear someone would break in and steal our stuff! I told him that if someone wanted to brave the slick roads, the slick driveway, the slick porch and pry the frozen doors and/or windows open to steal my stuff then they were welcome to it b/c they worked harder for it than I did! Needless to say, he cured the power outage problem by buying a genrator! The power hasn't done more than blink since that rather large purchase! Again, I jest, but at this moment with the sleet tapping on my window I am grateful we have it. I heard much of our fair city is already out of power, so.... I already had skim milk and whole wheat bread and my egg subs! Guess I'm set.... Oh yeah, just purcheased 2 hard to find bottles of wine the other day too since they are hard to find, so I am sitting pretty in the Danville sense of the word!
I'm going to go snuggle my heater, my 66 pound foot warmer and space heater, Jack and hope for power to stay on! Stay warm and safe y'all!
Monday, December 07, 2009
OK, I know it is wrong to base emotional states on what the scale says, but I couldn't help it today! As I've blogged in the past few days I've been feeling really blue and lacking motivation in many areas of my life! Last week when I weighed in I was up a total of 8 pounds from my lowest weight and up 2 from the previous week.... Today when I weighed in I was down 4 pounds and I'm sorry, but it made me happy! I was in a good mood all day! As a result of the good mood I found it easy to stay on track with my food intake and was motivated to work out harder. I even got all my fiber in today which isn't always what I do! The weight loss was nice, but I also had a good night's sleep thanks to a wonderful OTC sleep aid. I only took a 1/2 dose and slept very well.
I take 2 belly dancing classes on Monday nights and we preparing for 2 shows and I felt on top of the routines for the first time in months! I felt like I knew what I was doing and put my all into it! It also helped that I wore a new pair of silk harem pants of a blend of my favorite colors! New clothes and stuff always make me happy! :)
I guess the point is that there might actually be a light of that tunnel I finally found! I have to say thanks to my Sparkling friends for all of your support! I'm feeling like my happy and confident self again.... I know a few more grief bursts are going to hit me this month, but I also know I can come thru and still take care of myself! I'm going to try and actually lose weight over the holidays! What a concept that is!
But, if I don't blog for a few days.... I am going to breakfast with my in-laws tomorrow AM for my MIL's birthday, then to the Y to get back into my Weights In Motion class, then coming home and doing some work and walking a mile or 2 or 3 with a DVD.... On Wed. I have to teach (last class until exams) at 8 AM, then have lunch with a friend, then a 2 hour practice for the dance recital.... Thursday is Weights in Motion class again and a walking DVD and then the dance show at the retirement home at 6:15.... Friday is Water Aerobics, water jogging and the Y's luncheon. and I have to do a walk video too! Am I back on track or what?! Busy keeps me from ruminating and feeling sad and all the dancing makes me feel oh so good! My belly dance friends make me feel good too, so it is social support and exercise!
Welcome back to the real world Melissa
Saturday, December 05, 2009
I am borrowing this quote from a good friend, Linda.... She said the other day she could see the tunnel if not the light at the end of it and I am feeling the same way today! I didn't sleep again last night. so definitely will call the doc regarding sleep meds on monday.... So, I didn't want to miss my dance workshop b/c it didn't snow (more on that in a minute), so I got up and danced for 2 hours just about straight! The ladies in my belly dance troop make me feel good about myself and about life. another lady lost her dad quite a few years ago, but she has a grief burst around this time of year too. That is partially what I had going on last night.... A severe grief burst that sort of came out of nowhere and then a pity party for being blind! I had to do some shopping after dance and I donated a Barbie Doll to Toys For tots while shopping and although feeling like I was going to fall over from tiredness, finished shopping getting over 3000 steps in at the WalMart!
I took a nap and then picked up my nephew, my sister's son, and had a lovely dinner with him and he helped us decorate our tree. It was a really nice evening despite the crappy weather....
I didn't get my strength training in or a fitness walk, but I got about 10, 000 steps in and about 3 miles, so that's better than nothing. Plus, I danced! So, my plan is to find the light at the end of my tunnel tomorrow and get back on track! It is a new week on SP, so I can start new streaks and get back on that track! I can do it and I do feel better. I am tired now and hope to sleep tonight....
What I wanted to say is that we live in a doughnut hole.... It snows all around us and rarely if ever on us! We just had a miserable day of very cold rain. Some of the parking lot was a bit slick when we left the restaurant, but no real ice, sleet or snow! The Doughnut Hole strikes again!
I want to thank my many Spark friends for your kind and encouraging words on last night's blog! You all mean so much and my Valley Gal Pals know you all are my suragate sisters! I love you all! Everyone else, those who don't know me well and those who do.... thank you,thank you, thank you! If nothing else, I am a survivor, but had to work out with words my self-pity and grief last night.... It brought tears that have been hiding for awhile and that was cathartic for me. I'm doing better and that tunnel is clearer and the light should emerge soon....
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