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C25K

Friday, February 01, 2013


I completed Couch to 5K on Sunday, January 27. Woohoo!

Seriously, when I started this program on a whim at the beginning of December, I didn't know if I would finish it. I looked ahead at the later weeks and couldn't believe I was supposed to jog 25, 28 and then 30 minute intervals. I just thought, "Well, I'm pretty sure I won't be able to do that, but I'll do the first few weeks."

I huffed and puffed on my first day, and the only way I could finish the 60 second jogging intervals was to hardcore stare at a tree in the distance to keep my focus. My only rule was that I couldn't cheat - I couldn't walk when the lady's voice said to jog. I could jog really slow, as long as I wasn't walking.

The second week, I actually started crying during a jogging portion. I cried because it felt so difficult and I knew it shouldn't be difficult, for a normal person, because I was only jogging in like 90 second intervals. I felt pathetic. I cried one other time during the program...that was after I finished jogging 20 minutes straight for the first time, which I never thought I could do. I guess those were tears of shock and happiness. My last session I jogged 30 minutes straight, which is just insane. I have never been a runner, and I'm quite certain that's my longest jog ever.

In the first couple of weeks, sometimes my legs would feel really really heavy and I was just trudging along. One time I paused several times during the walking portions because my calves felt so stiff and tense that I had to stop and stretch them. I started stretching my calves beforehand and that pretty much solved the problem.

My friend said my calves look more defined, which I'm not so sure about, but that'd be great. I am a pear shape and I have big ole thighs, and some chunky knees that run in the family. She went with me on a couple of sessions, and it cracked me up because she's 4 or 5 inches taller than me and has always had muscular legs, at any weight, and she was basically just fast walking while I was "jogging." Like my jog was her fast walk. I did think it was funny, but it also kind of bummed me out, because it was way easier for her than for me, so I didn't feel as accomplished on those days.

Ummm what else.. I did start monitoring my distance with the Runkeeper app. I was pretty sure I wouldn't actually reach 5k by the end of the 8 weeks. In the end my best time was like 18 min/mi, which would be a 56 minute 5k (3.1 mi), which is not too good. I looked up that most people aim for 25 - 30 minutes. I am signed up for a 5k on March 30 and I'd like to increase my speed by then. I have a Couch to 10k app which I'm planning to use, and basically, I want to be able to run 5k by the end of the 10k program. Haha. I was supposed to start the 10k training a couple of days ago, but when I got to the park, I jogged 10 minutes and just couldn't stop thinking about how bored I felt, and how annoying it was. It was like a giant wave of apathy washed over me. So I'm going to try to start it tomorrow.

Also on a whim, I decided to try for 1000 fitness minutes in January. My first month of C25k, I was only doing my jogging sessions 3 times a week, and then no exercise the rest of the week. For January I wanted to exercise on my "off" days too. So I've been keeping track of it on my calendar and I ended up with 1028 fitness minutes for January. Yay...


I have been eating paleo-style a lot of the time but I also eat non-paleo more often than I'd like. I have done two Whole30's and I highly recommend it. It's not all about weight loss but the first time I lost 11 lbs and the second time I lost 9 lbs (and kept it all off). I've been eating too much junk lately so I think I'll start another one sometime in February.

  
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JAWJIE 3/12/2013 4:18PM

    It really gets easier. I couldn't believe when I actually did it! Now I can run 10 minutes straight pretty enjoyably. I know what you mean about it being too dark. There is a super tiny park about 3 minutes away, and it has lights at night, but my husband didn't like me going so late so I had to make myself do it earlier. I'm so glad for the time change!

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THEANGRYGNOME 2/28/2013 2:21PM

    This is awesome to hear! I did c25k last summer and never finished the program, I just kept repeating weeks. Its haaaard! I plan to start again as soon as we turn the clocks forward in the spring. I live in a subrural area now so my neighborhood is pitch black by the time I get home in the winter, no street lights, impossible to run!

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JEWELS571 2/27/2013 11:05AM

    My friend and I just stared the c25k, good job on your journey and be proud of yourself!!


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Some DIET observations...

Monday, December 12, 2011

How does anyone pick a diet to stick to?!


I mean, I've been on plenty of diets....used to count calories and that's not the best...because you can technically eat 300 calories of cereal or ice cream or plain ole lard and the calorie count is the only criteria...I remember in college I used to eat honey o's cereal and fried fish patties on white buns, and high-carb granola bars, and counted every calorie....I did lose weight but my metabolism was a lot higher then.


A couple of years ago I was on a whole grain kick...made quinoa and hummus and bulghur and oats and all kinds of "natural" foods... I do love some of those foods but depending on what it is...it can be very bland! Sometimes very delicious though......like quinoa with chopped hard-boiled eggs and caramelized onions....yum...


Last year I did Atkins for a while...and that was probably the best I've felt on a diet, ever. As far as hunger goes. I was never hungry. I ate tons of low-carb vegetables. I hadn't eaten that many vegetables, daily, in a really long time, probably never actually. But I did sometimes go the wrong way and order double cheeseburgers from McDonalds and then take the bun off (or.....say you're going to take the bun off, and then eat 1/4 or 1/2 or 3/4 and then throw it into the paper bag lmao...). I did like the Atkins plan but it is very hard to maintain, and I tended to eat a lot of fake sugar. AND, I used to NEVER drink cokes, not even diet cokes, and on Atkins, I started the bad habit of drinking Diet Dr. Peppers at work to quelch my sugar cravings. So that was a bad side effect.


For a few months earlier this year I didn't really change my eating but started going to the gym a lot. I would burn sometimes 1000 calories in one visit. Let me tell you....I didn't lose A DAMN THING. Not even a pound. So exercise alone obviously doesn't cut it.


I have been planning out meals for me and my husband, and I've been trying to keep them reasonable.. We were making breakfast burritos to freeze and we always ended up buying extra tortillas (delicious) and snacking on them all week. So we had to phase out the breakfast burritos.


I put some Weight Watchers recipes on the menu this week and they were just OK. A tad on the flavorless side and not all that filling. So WW....not sure it's for me. I've never been officially on the plan and I've never felt drawn to it, and the thought of the points system makes my head hurt just thinking about it. I hate math! Food should not involve math.


Yesterday I found a mouth-watering-looking VEGAN food blog.... Wow, just wow, I've never seen vegan food look that good. I have made vegetarian meals many times, esp. in my whole-grain-quinoa-101cookbooks.com phase (I do still love that blog), but never been interested in vegan recipes. Well, everything looked so fresh and delicious and vibrant that I decided I would try out some of the recipes on our next meal plan. If you're interested, http://kblog.lunchboxbunch.com


On the OPPOSITE side of the spectrum....today I found a PALEO food blog, with equally mouth-watering food photos. Wow, just wow.....this food looks delicious. Here, http://nomnompaleo.com


And I thought, how ironic that I would be so intrigued by 2 completely different diets! One food blogger restricting meat completely and eating lots of pasta dishes....the other restricting pasta and grainbs but chowin down on roasted pig, steak, bacon-avocado "sammies" and bacon hard-boiled eggs!! But, if you read into it, both diets seem reasonable and healthy in their own way. You can lose weight doing either.


So which "diet" to pick? How do you decide what foods to eat? Which rules to follow?? When will it end??? I'm not saying I'm planning to "choose" any of the above diets mentioned or any other for that matter. I'm not asking for advice on which I should choose. Many would promote their own current diet and others would say that you shouldn't have keep changing diets, you should change your "lifestyle." (That's becoming its own cliche, but that's another story....)


I wish I could wake up and just eat when I'm hungry, and never have to worry about it! Often I wish that humans didn't have to eat to survive, because wouldn't that make it so much easier? There are so many choices that it boggles my mind...and I'm sure it boggles yours too. I am longing for a simpler solution...where eating doesn't require rules and no-no's and restrictions. Where eating is just eating!

What are your thoughts??

  
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FOXYROXY312 1/6/2013 12:38AM

    My two cents :)

Do not jump head first into a "diet". Do yourself a favor and just make one change and once you've mastered it then make another change. It seems pointless at first but it really does all add up.

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FITGIRL15 2/16/2012 10:44AM

    Maybe you should see a councellor to determine why "eating isn't just eating" for you. My councellor helped me see many things in my life more clearly!

My sister has always been an emotional eater too. She went to Costa Rica, got GB surgery... and is now FORCED to eat for eating's sake (no more pigging out allowed!)
For her it was the best decision she's ever made!!! (Lost 100+ pounds in less then 1 year!)

Make a commitment to your health for your family's sake... hopefully the "diet" part will fall into place!

XOXOX
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THELILMERMAID 1/19/2012 2:03AM

    This was all very interesting :D One of my spark friends' Emilys New Life is a paleo eater. You should check out her blogs! The food does look pretty satisfying. We are such foodies in our fam! Something has to be insanely delicious for us to eat it on a regular basis. No gross oatmeal for me, LOL! I want something savory and filling :)

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KARENE10 1/15/2012 9:26AM

    I have to check out those sites! I need to make more vegetarian meals. And I also tried to workout to burn a ton of calories. I HAD to eat less to lose:( I guess everything in moderation. You were a beautiful bride.

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GOALOFLOSING 12/20/2011 7:01PM

    http://www.dailyspark.com/blog.asp?
post=finally_the_diet_to_end_al
l_diets

Hope that link above will help you through your journey! My favorite quote from that article is:

"It's being on a diet that makes you think you've "blown it" whenever you break one of your diet rules, and allows you to turn that into a rationalization for eating even more. It's being on a diet that makes you panic when the scale doesn't give you the number you want, and makes you feel like all your efforts are for nothing. It’s being on a diet that makes you feel uncomfortable around people who aren’t dieting, and causes you to wonder whether you can ever trust yourself around “normal” food at all."

Best wishes to you!!

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ANELAKANOA 12/12/2011 8:23PM

    Thanks for sharing! I bookmarked both of the sites. I would try and incorporate both into your lifestyle. Maybe do some vegan meals a couple times a week and some paleo on the other nights. Obviously every now and then still indulge in the foods you've grown up on (fried chicken, hamburgers, shakes, etc) but only on rare occasions. I know it's hard changing our lifestyles but it's so worth it!! I've been wanting to give up meat a few days a week but it's so freakin hard. You posting this blog made me really realize I should give it a go.

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EYES_ON_THEPRAZ 12/12/2011 4:07PM

    Yeah, I'm just as confused as you. A long time ago I decided I was going to eat how I would envision myself eating in my "healthy" future and just make it a reality. So I try to follow Spark's general guidelines for protein/fat/carbs and stay under 1700 calories a day. Besides that, I allow for some junk in my diet, because to me, that is realistic. I'm not going to cut one thing out completely and obsess about it and kick myself when I inevitably break down and eat it. Balance is key, at least for me. Good luck finding something that works for you!

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PICTUREME40 12/12/2011 10:46AM

    I'm a emotional eater so eating has always meant more than just a diet. A year a go I got some health issues and could no longer pig out on my junk stuff. Now it's using a cake plate for my serving and eating more often. But I don't think about food all day any longer. Food is just food. To much and I get sick. It's that simple for me. Gone is diet sodas and chocolate, chips, it all = a sore stomach so I just avoid it.

Try not to over think it. SP food planner is a good jumping off point for me. It's all about finding balance in our lives.

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Wedding Nightmare

Thursday, June 16, 2011

I had this horrible dream...

It was my wedding day, and we were supposed to get married at 11 AM. I rolled out of bed at 10:55 and went to sit in the chapel with my guests. I remember looking around thinking wow, why is everyone here so early...then realizing that I wasn't even dressed and had no makeup on or my hair done.

I went into the next room to start putting on makeup. My mom came in with this woman I didn't know and the woman started asking me all these questions, bothering me. She pointed out a portrait that was tacked up on the wall and started gushing over it. The funny thing is, I remember now that the portrait was of my younger sister's old childhood friend's younger brother. I know it was *supposed* to be him but actually the portrait was not his face. Weird. And, maybe the worst part of the dream, I remember looking in the mirror and I had BANGS. Blunt-cut bangs, like I had when I was 8.

Then the woman left and I started doing my own eyeliner, and I kept messing it up, so I had to keep drawing more on to cover the ugly line (lol). My sister came in (the make-up artist) and sat on the floor with her makeup bag, looked at me and said, Oh did you want me to do that for you?? Then she said that she wanted to use a stencil for my eyebrows (?!) and to do a "cut-out" makeup style for the wedding (??!)....I think this meant like when you hold a piece of paper up to your cheek and do your blush over it.

Then my mom sat down and asked me, We didn't make any decorations, what should we do? I started freaking out. I looked around and saw maybe 4 tissue-paper flowers with streamers attached...but the flowers were all ugly, misshapen, and they were all different colors, like bright yellow, lime green, and light pink. I started saying that maybe we can decorate the church with these 4 flowers (LMAO) but then I broke down crying saying that I don't want to get married today, we didn't get anything done, and can we please postpone it til tomorrow. Please, PLEASE, can we just do this another day.

And then I woke up. I have been feeling like nothing has been accomplished with the wedding, I've had a few roadblocks recently. Also, I lost my job about 3 weeks ago, and I'll be the first to admit that I'm in a rut...I feel like a bum and I haven't been motivated to do much of anything, not even wedding stuff. Then even when I *do* have a burst of energy, it seems to be futile, because the stuff I do work on doesn't seem to pan out. Of course, I'm sure I'm just being dramatic...

  
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MERAINA 11/2/2011 1:56PM

    My daughter got married in May, and I still have nightmares about what "Could" have gone wrong. It was beautiful BTW!
Hope your's was great as you!

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THEANGRYGNOME 6/17/2011 9:17AM

    I had nightmares and weird dreams about my wedding over and over before the actual day. It was so stressful! And don't worry, I think everyone gets in a rut like that.

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THELILMERMAID 6/16/2011 11:51PM

    OhemmmmGGGGGGG! Jordan, I'm crying! I'm laughing so hard. You know that an undecorated wedding would never ever EVER happen in our family. And I promise I won't draw lines of blush into your cheeks :) I thought you would feel more relaxed about the wedding now that your not working. More time to plan! Let me know what I can help with.......talk to you soon

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EYES_ON_THEPRAZ 6/16/2011 11:55AM

    Sorry to giggle at your dream... but at least it was JUST a dream. I know the real day will be so much better, even if you feel behind/lost now.
Hmm... what can we do to get Jawjie out of her rut??
Why don't you start with baby steps - tackle the little things you can now and as you see it all coming together you will get more excited?
Wish I could help more but it's hard to know without specifics. Just focus on feeling good and getting out of your funk - it can be so hard, I know.

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Mean things I tell myself

Sunday, April 17, 2011

You're so dumb.
You're incompetent.
You're such a loser.
You can't do it.
You're such a chunk.
You look disgusting.
You don't fit in.
They don't like you.
Nobody likes you.
They're all better than you.
You're such a moron.
You can't do anything right.
You have no purpose.
You'll never live up to your potential.
You're too scared to ever _______.
You have nothing to show for your life.
You're a failure.
I hate you.






  
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DRAKKIE 5/11/2011 1:36PM

    BUT MAKE SURE you always say something like this at the end "Thus is why we're doing something about it"

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MY-FLOG 5/2/2011 12:37AM

    I have a feeling, I have a list just as long of the mean things I say to myself. I will need to pay attention to my internal dialogue.

I appreciate your openness and honesty. This journey is not always easy.

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EYES_ON_THEPRAZ 4/17/2011 10:05PM

    Ouch! I hope you have a list of the good things you tell yourself, too! I can truly relate because I have been self deprecating my whole life and it is a habit I really have tried to work on and change. emoticon

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*PBJMOMMY* 4/17/2011 4:36PM

    You are an amazing woman jawj emoticon We all have to start again at some point, I am, Mupp is and you are too. It does not reflect poorly on us, this is a journey that never fully comes to an end it grows and progresses in different ways, this is just another part of that journey to strengthen us Love and Hugs emoticon emoticon

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Wedding Makeup

Wednesday, April 13, 2011

My sister Jill (THELILMERMAID) is a makeup artist so naturally she is doing my wedding makeup. So far we have tried 2 different looks.



At first I thought I wanted my usual, red-lip, pin-up look. We tried that out and it seemed harsh, and I started thinking how tedious it'd be to have to keep up with red lipstick during the reception.



So the next time we went for a softer lip and more eye makeup. I like both, but I think I prefer the second one. The hair is not right in either set of pictures. I am planning on doing a Veronica Lake peek-a-boo wave.

Which look do you think is better?

  
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STARRY943 4/17/2011 10:16AM

    I really like both of the looks. For the wedding though, I'd go with the second option. :)

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THELILMERMAID 4/16/2011 12:27AM

    I did this!! =) I think #2 is best for the wedding and we can always put on lashes if ya want on the outer corners...Reason why I'm liking #2 more is because your looking more white with the red lip and we want your skin color to pop against your wedding dress.

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JAWJIE 4/15/2011 1:10PM

    Wow, thanks ladies! Didn't expect such a strong response. Lol :)

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SAMBELLA29 4/14/2011 10:36PM

    I love #2.. but I to think that it may depend what your dress looks like ? It comes down to which look you feel most comfortable in. Beautiful either way. emoticon

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KATIEKATE11 4/14/2011 2:42PM

    YOU'RE GORGEOUS!!!!!! LOVE that your token look is a red lip -takes a kick@$$ woman to pull that look off = I;m jealous! I like the timelessness of the second look - you're old hollywood!!! Totally glamourous!!!

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LINDOKAS 4/14/2011 2:21PM

    you are so beautiful! either would be fab, but if it's an elegant wedding, I'd do the second... breath-taking!

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SR4095 4/14/2011 1:22PM

    Second look definitely!!

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REDEMILY 4/14/2011 12:30PM

    I love them both, but I do think number 2 is a bit better, your eyes look so gorgeous!

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BEFIT_WITHGUSTO 4/14/2011 12:28PM

    Both looks are just stunning! Your sister is very talented, wish I could hire her for my wedding! I think #2 is more wedding-ish but it also might depend on what kind of dress you wear. Either way, you'll look gorgeous!

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JOYINRUNNING08 4/14/2011 12:15PM

    Wow. For a wedding? I would go with #2. :) Beautiful either way.

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MANDABEAR11 4/14/2011 11:15AM

    Holy gorgeous batman! I loves #2!

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WE_PA_FIT 4/14/2011 11:02AM

    ooohhh #2 looks like a covergirl ad!!! Easy breezy BEAUTIFUL!
plus if it's different form your look, you will definitely make a statement!!

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BRANDI.FEY 4/14/2011 10:15AM

    The second set definitely has a more wedding feel, but you look amazing either way!

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MARATHONBOUND 4/14/2011 10:08AM

    Love #2, beautiful!

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CARMINACG 4/14/2011 9:37AM

    I love #2, its so soft, and subtle but the eye make up still makes it understatedly sexy.

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AGENTNER 4/14/2011 1:26AM

    YOU ARE GORGEOUS!!!!! CAN"T WAIT TO SEE PICTURES OF WHAT YOU DECIDE!!!!!

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BORN2BLOSSOM 4/14/2011 12:45AM

    Both are GORGEOUS!! So nice to have a talented sibling help you out with getting beautified on your big day :-)

My vote is for number 2 as well. I love your signature pin up look SO much, but #2 has more of a wedding feel. That nude/neutral lip color is stunning and I love the slightly smokey eye look. You already look like a beautiful glowing bride in the second picture so I can only imagine what the finished look would actually look like the day of your wedding!

You're gonna blow everyone away no matter which look you decide on!

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JECCABILL 4/13/2011 9:57PM

  I love the second look, I know signature is nice, but think your (lovely) eyes standout more in the second picture.

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EYES_ON_THEPRAZ 4/13/2011 11:22AM

    I like the first because it's your signature look (I love red lipstick) BUT I think I would go with teh 2nd for your wedding day because it is softer, delicate, like a bride "should" be! emoticon

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KAREN_01 4/13/2011 1:36AM

    love, love, love the second look!! It is perfect for a wedding.


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HILLERYH 4/13/2011 12:31AM

    Oh My Gosh! Both are so amazing!

Honestly, if you are doing Veronica Lake hair, from what pictures I have seen of her, less eyes, more lips seems appropriate. If you are worried about maintaining your lips, from my experience, I was so busy enjoying the food, and people at my reception, I forgot about my makeup entirely.

Either way, you will be amazingly beautiful!

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