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Another sad day

Wednesday, September 03, 2014

It is a year today since we lost our daughter Christine. Time heals they say but how I miss her. I have been trying all morning to get a picture off her obituary so you could see her smiling face. It just would not work I got it once but then I could not get it here. She was our first born, and the joy of our lives. As I have said before I am glad that her father was not alive to hear we had lost her. You all did say it was alright for me to share my sorrows as well as joy, so I have unloaded on you.
Thanks for letting me grieve here too. Love and teary hugs, Betty





  
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IGNITEME101 9/5/2014 6:16PM

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JAMER123 9/4/2014 12:45AM

    emoticon emoticon to you Betty. We are certainly here for you when you need us and this anniversary is a very difficult one for you. Thank you for sharing your daughter and your tears. She and her father just may be hanging out together having a wonderful time. I bet you have lots of wonderful memories of both of them. When you can get the picture to post here, we would love to have you share it with us. God bless! Sending my love.
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SANDISOCAROLINA 9/3/2014 11:28PM

    Love you Betty! emoticon emoticon emoticon We are here for you.

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TENNESSEEWALKER 9/3/2014 11:16PM

    The risk of love is loss. And yet, who among us will not dare to love and to cherish that love? We love you, Betty.

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PURPLEBIRD63 9/3/2014 10:28PM

    Absolutely you can share with us!

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I can imagine you miss her terribly!

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NEWBIRTH2014 9/3/2014 10:16PM

    We are indeed here to support you not only in your journey towards improving your health, but to hear whatever is on your heart. I know how difficult losing a child - it's been 9 years for me and the anniversary birthdays, holidays are not the same. Praying you find peace and strength emoticon

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KAYDE53 9/3/2014 9:46PM

    emoticon emoticon We are here to listen, bless you!!

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KERRYG155 9/3/2014 9:41PM

    I'm sorry you were unable to post the picture. I know you wanted to share with us. I can't imagine how hard it is to lose your child, especially your first born. emoticon

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WOLFTORTOISE 9/3/2014 8:58PM

    Anniversaries of the loss of a loved one are so hard. I'm so sorry you lost Christine, and that you didn't have the support of your husband when you lost her. My thoughts are with you, Friend.

Hugs, Robin

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GRANJERRY1 9/3/2014 8:37PM

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Betty, I can imagine your grief.....guess time numbs the pain but on days like this the whole thing just comes back. Sending warm thoughts & prayers your way my dear friend.

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NEWVINE 9/3/2014 6:39PM

   
Your sorrow and joys are important to us. We are here for you, just like you are always here for us. Time may heal, but memories will never die. Stay healthy and enjoy your memories, happy or sad. Prayers that you will soon find some peace. emoticon

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CHRISTINEBWD 9/3/2014 6:36PM

    Betty, my mom lost my sister when she was 21 years old. She was born with a hole in her heart that couldn't be fixed. Losing a child is beyond hard to deal with, I don't think my mother ever really got over it. I hope at some point you can make peace with your loss. But for now all the ((hugs)) you need. emoticon emoticon

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GINNABOOTS 9/3/2014 6:23PM

    So very sorry for your loss. Sending you lots of hugs!

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1CRAZYDOG 9/3/2014 6:19PM

    It is absolutely all right! Life has a mix of the good, the bad and the ugly. All are ok to share!! My condolences on this very difficult anniversary. So sorry!

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DEBBLO 9/3/2014 5:36PM

    My deepest sympathy & prayers emoticon to you & your family

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SANDRALEET 9/3/2014 5:33PM

    That is why I take lots of pictures

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RAESUN54 9/3/2014 5:07PM

    We are here for ypu. We unde emoticon rstand your loss. emoticon

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Today's chapter in my life has been a sad one.

Friday, August 15, 2014

This would have been my first born's 66th birthday. I lost her as some of you know on Sept. 3rd last year. God has supported me, but the loss is still deep. One thing that helped me was she has had the blessing of having her daughter and her son living with them, so she had the pleasure of seeing her grandson grow to the age of 7. They lost their first born (the only boy, they later had two girls) just before birth. She is in on the left of our family picture on my page. I probably should not have shared this but it was on my heart and you all our now like family. emoticon for being so dear to me emoticon Betty

  
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JOYCECAIN 8/26/2014 6:05PM

    Remembering someone we have lost is hard. But it is still a joyous gift to remember them. You can share anything here. emoticon

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IGNITEME101 8/24/2014 10:58AM

    Betty,
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like family and we want to know what is going on in your life. I remember when you 1st shared that your daughter had passed. emoticon and please take care of yourself. Your daughter was a blessed woman to have you as her mother! PTL you have her children and grand children to carry on for her!

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OTEN36 8/21/2014 10:29PM

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I feel your pain Betty. I'm also happy you have those good memories.
Sure have missed you and hope you are doing better.
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OMNOMNAMASTE 8/17/2014 8:11AM

   
I am so sorry for your loss, Betty. I cannot imagine there being a greater loss than of one's own child. May your wonderful memories live in your hearts forever.

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TENNESSEEWALKER 8/16/2014 4:59PM

    Dear Betty, you honor the memory of your daughter by telling her story. You honor us by sharing her story and your pain with us. You are dear to us, and we're grateful for all the help and support you give us, so we willingly give back.

We like to think, in these days of advanced medical technology, that we can control Death so that no parent sees the death of a child, no grandparent sees the death of a grandchild. It is not so, and parents and grandparents feel they grieve alone. By sharing about the deaths of children and grandchildren, we build bridges to others who know the pain. emoticon

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KAYDE53 8/16/2014 3:11PM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon It's always very hard to lose a child!! Bless you!

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WOLFTORTOISE 8/16/2014 1:13PM

    Betty, I'm so sorry for your loss. The anniversary of losing a loved one is difficult. I'm glad you shared your feelings, feelings can lead to overeating, so we're here for you, whether it involves eating or not. emoticon

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SANDISOCAROLINA 8/16/2014 12:03PM

    I am so sorry for your loss. No mother should ever have to lose her child- at any age. I am so glad you shared with us so we can be here for you. Dear Betty you are a blessing here. Thinking of you especially today. emoticon

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SANDRALEET 8/16/2014 9:09AM

    God is with you

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PENOWOK 8/16/2014 8:34AM

    So sorry for your loss. It's never easy and the sadness continues. Best thing is to mix in some of those wonderful happy memories!

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KERRYG155 8/16/2014 8:04AM

    This is something that weighs heavily on your heart and mind so, yes, you did need to share it. It sounds like your family has been through a lot with losing two children in two generations. I can't imagine losing a child, let alone a grandchild. emoticon

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LEANJEAN6 8/16/2014 7:39AM

    Oh Betty---I am so sorry! I can't imagine losing a child!--Thank-you for sharing that!-You are a strong lady!-Lynda

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1CRAZYDOG 8/16/2014 7:32AM

    OH my goodness, why WOULDN'T you have shared this! Part of the sparking journey is life events, as they affect every other facet of our life.

I am so very sorry for your loss. It is a hard thing to bear when a Mom loses her child. Sending hugs and prayers for comfort.

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GRANJERRY1 8/16/2014 3:11AM

    Betty sending you emoticon .... I shudder to think of losing children at this age....It is definitely difficult to cope, just hope time will numb the pain...You have her daughters and grandson to enjoy and cherish in her memory....enjoy the children dear friend.

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JAMER123 8/16/2014 12:51AM

    Betty, I am so glad you feel comfortable with us to share you family. I am so sorry for your loss. The first anniversary after the passing is difficult. We will be here to continue to support you as you need. God bless!
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GOSPARK45 8/15/2014 11:50PM

    emoticon Thank you for sharing. She must have been wonderful.

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LUCKYDUCK2 8/15/2014 11:40PM

    Ah Sweet Lady. emoticon emoticon

I looked at the photo of your family and all their beautiful smiles in that picture. There is nothing more valuable then family and the love and memories we share. You continue to share them here. HUGS

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POSITIVEHOPE 8/15/2014 11:02PM

    Remembering a loved one is a wonderful tribute to their life. So glad you have wonderful memories of her life to share. She was so blessed to see her grandson grow up. I'm glad you shared her story today.

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God is in Every Tomorrow

Sunday, July 06, 2014



God is in Every Tomorrow,
Therefore I live for today;
Certain of finding at sunrise
Guidance and strength for the day,
Power for each moment of weakness,
Hope for each moment of pain
Comfort for every sorrow,
Sunshine and joy after rain.

God is in every tomorrow,
Planning for you and for me,
Even in the dark I will follow,
Trust where my eyes cannot see,
Stilled by His promise of blessing,
Soothed by the touch of His hand,
Confident in His protection,
Knowing my life-path is planned.

  
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JAMER123 8/16/2014 12:52AM

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SANDRALEET 7/7/2014 9:55AM

    So true

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TENNESSEEWALKER 7/7/2014 9:16AM

    Inspiring! Thank you!

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JAMER123 7/7/2014 12:38AM

    emoticon emoticon Betty!
How beautiful and so glad you shared it with us!
Have a wonderful week!!

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KERRYG155 7/6/2014 9:53PM

    Beautiful!

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Missed you all. I AM BACK.

Saturday, June 28, 2014

NO MACHINE CAN REPLACE THE HUMAN SPARK. (PEOPLE) SPIRIT, COMPASSION, LOVE AND UNDERSTANDING.
No, I did not get everything done that I wanted to, but I just missed everyone so much I had to get back. Maybe not as much but enough to know how all are doing.
I am still waiting to find out what is going on in my body, but pray "God's will be done."
Am waiting for the results from last blood test requested by a hematologist. They said they would mail me the results, hope they come today, not that is will change anything, but want to see if white cells are still as low.
I hope everyone has been doing well and enjoying the summer. emoticon
Had a wonderful visit with my grandson, her was up from San Francisco to check out a basket ball game in our area, scouting for a player emoticon for the team he helps coach at Cat State. So nice when young people show they care!! emoticon
Well I will go redo my sign in, the computer went crazy and lost all my pts/ etc. and would not obey my commands!! Love and hugs. Betty emoticon emoticon

  
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SANDISOCAROLINA 6/30/2014 9:56AM

    Hi Betty, Good to see you! Missed you. Thanks for the update and keep in touch. emoticon emoticon You are the sunshine of sparking! emoticon

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TINA8605 6/29/2014 9:12PM

  I've missed our sparkmail!! Glad to hear from you. I pray the test come out ok. Hope to hear from you soon. emoticon

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SANDRALEET 6/29/2014 10:40AM

    I am not as affective with a computer as some Started to old

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JAMER123 6/29/2014 12:05AM

    Betty, so glad to see you back. Hope you got your results today and they were much better!!!
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KERRYG155 6/28/2014 9:48PM

    I hate when computers do that! Glad you are back on and happy you got to spend time with your son.

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TENNESSEEWALKER 6/28/2014 8:09PM

    Welcome back, sweet friend! So good to see your smile in my friend feed! I was thinking about you as I doing some gardening work at the Lutheran church with a bunch of other parishioners. It was evening, but still hot, and each of these good people brought enough cold water for the entire group. What? A dozen Lutherans and not a drop of beer among them? emoticon
Welcome back!

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1CRAZYDOG 6/28/2014 7:56PM

    Blessings!! You were missed!!

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LUCKYDUCK2 6/28/2014 7:12PM

    Welcome back. You were missed. I hope the test results give you answers and GOD guides the actions and thoughts of the doctors who are on your care team. Don't push yourself too hard and NEVER apologize for needing some ME time to regroup.

My Mantra is : GOD is greater then any problem I have. Many times I repeat this to myself when I too need that hug from him.

Have a relaxing weekend dear friend. emoticon

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Taking a break

Thursday, June 12, 2014

I am not happy to do this but it has come down to an absolute necessity. A year or two back a blood test showed that my red an white cells, also platelets were quite low. Nothing was suggested for me to do to change the results. This last test I had last Friday showed that the white cells are lower yet. I did read some foods may be helpful so I will work on that until and after going to take another test.
I can't handle all this and try to keep up with all of my dear friends here on Spark. You are part of my family and will be in my prayers.
Being in my power chair makes everything harder and longer to do. This leaves me with all kinds of jobs that need to be attended to and the stress is adding to my feeling overwhelmed emoticon . I hope that while on leave I will get more organized and find out about the multiple health problems that plague me. I am sorry this is sounding like "doom's day" emoticon I KNOW I have faith that God will provide in His time, a way that will bring me back to better health and I will return, I need you all!!
I will be checking my mail each day, my children do keep track of me, and I will see how you all are doing, but will not be sending out mail except to related family. Sending much love to you all, hold down the fort, help one another, and be happy emoticon . Your Spark sister, Betty emoticon emoticon







  
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TINA8605 6/20/2014 3:11PM

  I pressed I like this blog not because of the sad contents. I'm so sorry to hear about your health. My BF's mother has leukemia so I understand the blood cells and platelet count subject. Betty, you will be in my thoughts and prayers. You take all the time you need to get well. All of us here at Spark People care about you! Love and Hugs!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon
My kitties emoticon are thinking about you too!

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WINDERS61 6/16/2014 10:25AM

    Betty, It is wise to know when to step back and re-evaluate, re-organize and re-prioritize.
I will be keeping your health issues in prayer and trust the Lord to give the doctors wisdom for your care.
You are a blessing to so many here on Sparkpeople!!! You will be missed, but we will look forward to your return to hear you are refreshed and renewed!!
God Bless You!
Winders

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SANDISOCAROLINA 6/14/2014 9:44PM

    Love you sister Betty! emoticon Thanks for the prayers and well wishes- now you take care of you and know that you are loved and missed. Hurry back! emoticon

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Take care of you first and foremost, the rest can wait!
Prayers going out for you!
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JAMER123 6/13/2014 12:24AM

    Betty, I am so sorry to hear this. I will be sending my thoughts and prayers directly to you and the Lord. Even though I haven't been around much for you the past few months, I have thought of you often. God bless and let us know how you are doing once in a while. I will keep my eyes open for a note when you can! Thank care and many hugs to you!!
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FINNLANA 6/12/2014 10:23PM

    Dear Betty, I hope you get the answers needed soon to improve your health. I will miss you and keep you in my prayers and thoughts emoticon emoticon . emoticon God Bless You
Hugs, Lana

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KAYDE53 6/12/2014 10:15PM

    Betty, you will be in my thoughts & prayers! Hope they find the problem, and I can understand why you need to concentrate on getting better! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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TENNESSEEWALKER 6/12/2014 8:55PM

    You will be in our hearts and in our prayers. Knowing that you are quietly watching us will keep us on our best behavior!
Praying for a speedy recovery for you in the care of your kids and the doctors. emoticon

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KERRYG155 6/12/2014 8:48PM

    I hope you find something that works-it should make you feel better if you do! I'm really surprised they haven't done something before. Take care!!

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SANDRALEET 6/12/2014 8:30PM

    Do whot you have to do

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1CRAZYDOG 6/12/2014 5:12PM

    HUGS and prayers. Wishing you all the best and take care of YOU. THAT'S most important.

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RAESUN54 6/12/2014 2:23PM

    Betty, we are sorry to see you go and that you are in poor health but understand totally what you are feeling. I have been fighting some health issues and have not been as active on SparkPeople as before. I know yours are more difficult struggle than mine and my prayers are with you and your family. God will continue to watch over you and guide you.

God bless you,
Rae

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NHES220 6/12/2014 2:21PM

    Hoping that you get some answers and that your health improves. I will keep you in my prayers.

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TRAVELGO 6/12/2014 2:15PM

  Good luck to you!

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HALFTWO 6/12/2014 2:04PM

    Oh, Betty. I sure hope you get some answers soon.

I totally understand the need to prioritize and cut out some things. You don't need Spark People to be just another pressure or stress in your life.

I'll keep you in my prayers and you make sure and let us know when you're feeling better.

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