Wednesday, April 08, 2009
wow its been a few months since I logged onto Spark but I am going to try and log in daily and keep better track of my calories because i think thats where my major setback on losing the last 15lbs is. i know its definitely not lack of working out! I work out 5-7 days a week sometimes twice a day. Like today, I went to the gym this morning did a 45 min run/jog on the treadmill, did abs for 15 minutes and then went back tonight for an hour of spin. Im really going to try to log in ever day, is there anyone out there that can kick my ass if I dont?! jk
Thursday, May 01, 2008
well, i finally got my stuff together and dragged mu butt and the kids to the gym this morning, i only stayed for an hour ( $2 per child an hr) it'll cost me some money every week, but i guess it will be worth it in the end...i'm scared to get on the scale...i haven't been on it since my last weigh in like a month ago. i'm gonna try to make it every day like i was before even though now it's a pain to get the kids up and ready too. i guess i'll see how this week goes and weigh in next thurs. hopefully it wont be TOO disappointing! :(
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
WELL A MONTH LATER AND I' STILL IN THIS SLUMP! I'M BECOMING SO DEPRESSED I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO. I'M WORKING 3X11, AND MY BF WORKS 11X7, BUT WHEN HE COMES HOME NOW HE WANTS TO SLEEP B4 I CAN GO TO WORK. MY GYM DAYS ARE OVER NOW, EVEN IF I GO ON MY DAYS OFF, WHAT'S THE POINT? IT'S NOT GOING TO HELP ME VERY MUCH. IM JUST SO DISCOURAGED AND DISAPPOINTED B/C HE KNOWS HOW MUCH I WANTED THIS AND HE DOESN'T CARE, BUT ANYTHING HE NEEDS SUPPORT WITH I ALWAYS DO MY BEST TO MAKE IT HAPPEN. ANYONE OUT THERE?? GIVE ME SOME SUPPORT TO GET BACK ON THE WAGON, I FEEL LIKE GIVING UP ON THE ENTIRE THING.....
Monday, March 31, 2008
I knew this would happen when I returned from work. No matter how much I want to lose and no matter how bad I want to stay away from the fridge, I always head right for it when I get home. I've been back to work for three weeks and gained back 1pound. :( So I am really at 190. It's sooo depressing, too because I am up and moving around too. I am constantly on the move and when I come home, I don't want to do anything. I did do aerobics 3x last week, but couldn't get my butt to the gym. I made myself log onto SP today, to see how many calories I've eaten. I want to lose the weight and knew it would be hard going back to work. Especially since I'm an emotional eater it depends on if I have a good or bad day at work. Today was a bad day, it's not the inmates (they've been pretty good to me so far). We did a drill and I messed up, so I'm mad about that. i want to gym, maybe i can get back on track with a good workout.
Tuesday, March 04, 2008
I am just about ready to go crazy! I feel sooo stressed and never really realized that I AM an emotional eater. Laundry is piled up to the ceiling and I know Pedro works 11-7 and needs to sleep during the day, but I need to so things too! Like laundry for example and dishes, and keep up with the house. I am going back to work on Monday and with no help everything will go to HELL! I mean I literally do everything, from cooking and cleaning to taking out the trash and laundry. I do all the grocery shopping, errand running and still manage to diet and exercise, but I need some help every now and then. I'm trying to get laundry done and the baby won't stop crying so what am I to do? I tell her I'm sorry but it won't get done if I don't do it and continue what I am doing. All she wanted was to be held and I hold her ALL DAY LONG, but when I have to do stuff, yea I let her cry a little bit. So he comes out of the bedroom all PISSED off telling me that I am not the only one who does stuff aroud here. I tell him, he's wrong, the only thing he does is sleep and take care of the kids from about 9:30 am-11am so I can go to the gym. And that right there, is the only break I get until I go to bed. What happens when I go back to work monday? He'll be realizing what a whole hell of a lot of work I do...and how easy he has had it. My job is a lot more demanding compared to his. And I make about double what he makes. I have to be on my toes all the time, making rounds of the units and making sure these guys aren't hanging or killing each other, what does he do? He operates a machine? I'm just so frustrated that he doesn't see all the work I do and appreciate me more. So after he started yelling at me, I start raiding the fridge and eat about 600 calories for lunch....Way over what I normally do. Eeerr... Why are men soooo frustrating?
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