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Waiting for the Babies & Faith to see through the impossible!

Thursday, July 26, 2012

My Sun Conjures have three eggs. I have believed the brighter orange conjure is a male. His name is Dancer and he sure acts like a male. It has been over twenty days since Starr laid her eggs, and I wait to see the babies. I take my little flash light and gently raise the sheet to see if the babies have been born. To you who have grandchildren this would seem like foolishness, but I will probably never get the pleasure of having grandchildren. My son is grown but has chosen a different type of life style. This week he was found unconscious on the sidewalk and taken to the hospital. He called me later to let me know what happened. He seemed frightened by this incident and has started having seizures even when he is drinking.

He checked himself in to be detoxified. I will be traveling again this week end to pick up the dog, put bleach on the floor of a cottage I landlord and visit him. I am so glad that I have Adonai in my life, my faith keeps me strong even though heart arrows pang sharply when he tells me these dreadful things that happen to him. My Abba has given me this job and I love where I am working; but I do miss my friends of the last twenty five years. I am joining a Messianic Synagogue here and starting to learn more Hebrew dances. It is so awesome to be involved with Jews that have accepted the Messiah. I am learning more about the roots of my faith and I am grateful joy is unspeakable!

My life change and loss of weight has been exceedingly slow. I am probably one of the slowest in the history of Sparkpeople. But when I can take the time and enter what I eat and walk; I quickly realize where I am failing, the grounds where I work are beautiful and I can walk around the pond being in shade for most of the walk, three trips around the lake give me give me about 4000 steps. I wait in expectant hope that my son will touch the corner of the Messiah's coat and be totally healed!

  
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CAKAROO 7/27/2012 7:44AM

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PENNEYV 7/26/2012 3:47PM

    Love your babies! Praying Life issues switch around.


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19PITSY53 7/26/2012 2:59PM

  My weight loss has been bouncing of late and I need to shake up my activity level to see if it will help. Keep your chin up....

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Thursday June 28, 2012

Thursday, June 28, 2012

Wow half year down and half to go!!! Boy is time flying! I have been able to get back to walking; the tropical depressions have made a bee line through Jacksonville on two occasions this year. God really does answer prayer. I was praying that my little lake would be full of water for the ducks, geese and turtles and now they are happy campers. But Father please stop the flooding.

My Sun Conjures have an egg, every day after work I go to see if the egg has become a baby Sun Conjure, I am not sure if I am spelling my birds name correctly; but now I at least know what they are. I have some pictures of them on my Spark page.

I must be the slowest SP loser of all time, it seems when I stop entering what I eat, up I go, like a yo yo! I am eating a lot better and I am walking more. I read the articles, but I move towards new things like a turtle.

I am joining Beth Israel a Messianic Synagogue in Jacksonville, I have started going to the newbie dance class that is meeting every other Saturday. I thought I would hurt more than I did...I only had a slight ache in the shoulder.

I am thinking more and more about the walking video but can't seem to get myself out of bed. If I do the walking video at night I won't sleep! I do have some light weights and read a great article today about weights. I know what to do because I did then regularly for eleven years back in the dark ages. My gall bladder is softy speaking but no enormous pain. I really would like to go another year without surgery. It seems an aspirin or alleve take the minor twinge of what seems to be inflammation in the gall bladder area; away for the day.

Boy I can talk myself out of things and I know that I can talk myself into them...just wish it would happen sooner than later. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

  


A New Day

Monday, June 18, 2012

Sometimes I wonder about myself, I continue to struggle with consistency. I feel like I am back at first grade, I know a little but have not changed enough to reach any big goals. I know that while I'm here in Jax, I am healing and having quiet time to myself.

I really need a new day-as far as my eating & healthy life still goes. I think my plateaus are too long. My body must really be used to not burning calories. Very little happens-I get frustrated and start eating desserts and go up and down like a yo yo. I really want to know what keeps me from being the real me-the me that I deserve to be. I can list all of the reasons why this is not working such as; it has been raining almost everyday, I can't walk when I generally walk and I blame this on slowing down my momentum. But, I do have the walking DVD but I don't get up early enough or I can't push myself to to it in the evening. There is a swimming pool and small work out area where I live, but I have never opened the door even to look in. I have some small weights with me and know how to tone my muscles-but I still don't do them. I want to start doing Messainic dancing again but am too lazy to get dressed and go.I have a bike that I need to take to the bike shop to upgrade. But I have't done it yet.

But there are things that I am starting to do. I did attend an extra sevice this week and stayed to hang out for the knosh, introducing myself to several women.I do read my Bible almost every day. I do love my job, I am saving money for when I decide to retire. I have wonderful health and am asking for faith to belive that God has healed my gall bladder. It was susposed to be removed in March 15, 2011. I have moved to a new town and job after living in the same house for thirty two years. I am paying my rent and the house payment while decreasing other debt. I have decided that I would like to live on a lake when I decide to retire.

It sure seems like I have a lot of Buts. Now the question is how do I motivate myself to overcome the buts,

I think Starr & Dancer my Sun Conjures are preparing the way to have a family.This is exciting because they are such loving birds in additon to being very beautiful. Birds remind me of the fact that I believe I will be flying in heaven.

I have petioned to join Beth Israel a Messanic Synagogue that is very near to where I live. I am making an effort to read one book a week to learn more about the Messanic Movement. I found a CD so that I can learn some of the prayer songs in Hebrew.I feel like I am at home when I am around Jewish people that believe in Messiah.I have great difficulty maintaining friendships. I have wonderful friends that I have had for over twenty years. But making new friends does not come easy for me.It take me a long time to feel part of something.

My son continues to need prayer. He is learning to take care of things for himself. Oh Adonai our Divine Provider Please release him, me and each one of us from the things that keep us in bondage to the one who desires to destroy us.


  
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WILDFLOWERR_ 6/21/2012 12:56AM

    Hang in there, keep on praying and believing! emoticon
emoticon emoticonWhen you tell the devil to back off in Jesus name he has to flee! Praise the Lord for that! emoticon

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Time Moves On

Thursday, May 31, 2012

Keep praying for my son! He got out of the hospital and needs to go back, he makes very poor life choices. I look at all the wonderful things your families do and then have to ask God to forgive my envy.

The one thing that I know I do well is to keep trying. Jacksonville is a beautiful city and the campus where I work is a wonderful place to walk! I had been praying for my duck pond to fill up and praise God, the recent tropical storm did just that. Isn't it interesting how it seems that God answer's some prayers and others have been on hold for 34 years. emoticon

  
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WILDFLOWERR_ 5/31/2012 10:47PM

    Don't be envious. There are bad things too. We just don't always talk/type about it. Give it God, He will comfort you, and help you to make the right choices ALWAYS! emoticon

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3G1RLS4ME 5/31/2012 2:37PM

    I'll be praying for your son and my husband. While my husband isn't in the hospital he needs to get healthier but he's being bullheaded about it I'm praying that god will open his eyes and see what a mess he's making and make a change for the better. Blessing
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My Son is in the hospital

Tuesday, May 15, 2012

My son has decided to take care of himself. I have the dog while he is in the hospital. I am walking more and that is great. I have been eating lunch-usually when I am healh conscious I snack on small healthy things all day long and walk for about a half an hour.

BCBS in Jacksonville has a beautiful campus with small lake and water features, trees for shade and smiling faces- it is a wonderful place to walk, At 4:00 PM I used to go looking for sugar now I have found that a brisk walk around the lake does the trick, I am no longer tired and I don't get in the up and down cycle of eating sugar to keep me moving.

Now I am looking forward to going to my apartment that overlooks a little lake and walk my sons's dog.

  
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LAURAKOHORST 5/25/2012 2:20AM

    Keep up the great work. Praying all is well with your son. emoticon

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_RACHEL 5/23/2012 2:05PM

    I know this is been awhile but how is your son doing now?

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WILDFLOWERR_ 5/16/2012 2:22PM

    Praise God! You are doing emoticon!!!
I will say a prayer for your son.
emoticonand Blessings,
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PENNEYV 5/16/2012 11:18AM

    emoticon Praying that you son gets healthy. Looks like you have established some good routines. emoticon

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