Tuesday, July 24, 2012
Last week I went to my book club summer party. I was wearing new slimmer clothes. Feeling great. This was at the house of the woman who pointed out to me that I had gained weight when I was at the top of my weight. (cause you know I hadn't noticed.) She is always beautiful.
Well looked at a picture taken after the party and it looked like I hadn't lost a pound in stead of 26. I felt devastated. My week since has been rough. And I daren't tell my weight loss buddy. She's doing so well, I feel embarrassed.
And next week I go to the doctor for my check up. With only about 5 pounds lost from the last time.
I also think I am sad because I haven't been able to go to aquafit. I will go tomorrow.
Oh here is my grandson coming in the door. NOW I'm not feeling so sad. I think we will go for a swim.
Saturday, July 14, 2012
Was trying to keep in my calorie range, but I just got too hungry and ate in the evening. Not badly, cheese, rice cakes. But enough that my sugar is up in the morning. I got so depressed about it. I went out in the garden and weeded for an hour instead of eating more. (We finally had rain)Then I changed my exercise goals to what I actually do in a day. My recommended calories went up in my food tracker! So now I'm going to eat more throughout the day so I don't get starved at night. This should help my morning sugar.
Oh, and on the good side, I've lost another pound and I'm almost at 10,000 Sparkpoints! Extra exercise racks up those points! Can't believe how excited I get over a picture of a trophy.
Saturday, July 07, 2012
Just saw a picture on facebook that said "Be careful how you speak to your children, one day it will become their inner voice." But I have learned something much more important. Be careful of your own inner voice, one day it will become your children's.
For many years I did not think well of myself. My inner voice said, "You aren't good enough, too fat, no one likes you, bad mother, etc, etc." All untrue, as you can tell from my bio.
Even though I have said positive things to my daughters over the years, unlike my mother who didn't (cultural reasons, so you won't get a big head!) very often with me, I hear them saying, "I'm not smart, I'm not talented, noone likes me, I'm fat."
Gee, where could they have gotten the idea that that's what your inner voice says?
Thank goodness I have moved on and am now confident and know I'm talented and people like me. (Honestly, I think some of this is society being down on women)
Who knew that lacking confidence and being down on myself would rub off on my girls!
Wednesday, July 04, 2012
You don't have to go to the gym or run to get exercise as I just found out. Over our long weekend (July 1st for Canada), we've been cleaning out the basement. The exercise tracker lists "moving boxes" and boy is it a lot of calories. We had bags for the garbage and a car full of heavy boxes for the thrift store. Not to mention the stuff moved to another part of the basement. I got to over 600 calories spent at exercise!
I'm also spending calories gardening and even the "super clean for company" counts.
I also counted walking around the mall at a brisk pace not finding shorts and walking back to the car at the farmers' market with heavy bags (Talk about strength training!)
The Spark guidelines say to not include regular errands or light housework, so I don't. But anything out of the ordinary, it goes into my count because, let's face it, it's been a long time since I cleaned the basement!
Sunday, June 24, 2012
30 to 90 minutes a day. How did I end up exercising so much? It's an amazing change. 3 years ago, the lounger was my friend and my obesity was out of control. I was either sitting in meetings or sitting at home.
Then at a conference, I went to a seminar about our busy lives. One of the exercises was to list what I liked to do. To my surprise, I listed that I liked to walk my dog. So why didn't I?
I started out with 15 minutes around the block first thing in the morning. My dog was thrilled. But I started to make excuses for getting out of that lounger first thing in the morning. Had to have my tea, had to read the paper. The dog would have none of it. His little face appeared at the end of my lounger and he wouldn't take "No" for an answer.
We slowly worked up to half an hour each morning. I got to know the other dog walkers and various ladies who walked briskly. Some of them were fatter than I was but out they went each day. My fears of being noticed melted away.
In fact, a year later when we were putting a needed road through in my neighbourhood, one of the people against it, called it "My big fat road project" and another called out from the audience that I should walk. A pro delegation got up and said that I did walk, she'd seen me! The other councillors were disgusted. Needless to say, the road went through.
Recently, a new YMCA opened near me. I have begun to go to Aquafit. 45 minutes exercising in the pool. Most of the people in my class are fat or retired or have arthritis. The buoyancy of the water is kind to joints. I go three times a week.
Instead of wearing me out, my exercise has led to me doing more gardening, and a bit of hiking.
Who knew a few years ago that I would lose 25 pounds and be exercising so much!
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