Wednesday, June 05, 2013
total binge day yesterday 4529 calories at least wow so why what was different
2 things I made a goal (its a good one) to track my calories at least 5 days a week
I asked a kind and caring friend for a large favor
neither one of these things is bad both are not in my comfort zone. 1 . tracking calories is something I know I need to do but seem to continue to fail to do well and consistently so i have a lot of you can't do it thoughts behind calorie counting 2. asking for help well first I'm a bit of a control freak I need and want to do everything by myself (silly but true) asking for help is a big no Huge step for me My request was receive so wonderfully its not even funny but still there is part of me that fights the help even as I learn and grow my dear friend even that a girled me for taking the big step of asking but I am am still learning so again a lot of failure issues behind asking for help.
so that was my day and I just wanted to put it in written this insight into myself. it gives me lots to think about But today I will be back on track because this is my wonderful life and I am learning and growing everyday And I have grown enough (I am so grateful for this knowledge) to be sure.... I am Love , I am Loved, I can be happy if I choose to be grateful for all parts of this life, I am worthy , and with the up-most certainty I know that being fit , active, taking care of myself, eating healthy and choosing to look for the good is the way I want to live.
thanks for listen spark friends remember in all things choose the better thought