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Guess who finally drug their booty back on here?

Tuesday, January 31, 2012

I'm back, and this time I'm here for the long haul.

I got off track in a bad way. Then last week I decided I am done with fad diets. I am done limiting myself on what I can do. I can do this. And I started again.

Luckily, I only gained 20 pounds. I still have 50 pounds that will never come back. I have 66 to lose to hit my goal weight. It is a little defeating because I WAS at the halfway point a while ago and now I have to get there again. But I am not going to get it get me down. I am going to do this!

I am now working out 4 times a week and eating a balanced diet of 1250 calories a day. I am not restricting anything out of my diet like I was with the Dukan Diet. I really missed fruits and starches and now I can fully incorporate them into my diet while still losing weight.

So, here I go again. I missed the sparkpeople community and I am glad to be back.

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    Hey Jenn - a delayed reaction on my part but welcome back :)

And well done on deciding to ditch the fad diets! Keeping active and making movement a part of your day, even in small ways, is the key to making the difference.

Sure, you need to limit your calories to no more than you actually need and have a balanced diet, but depriving yourself of something you enjoy only makes things difficult and harder to stick to.

You will get back to that half way point and smash it in no time!

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SHAYLA24S 1/31/2012 8:58PM

    Welcome Back!!

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SPICEMWE 1/31/2012 2:37PM

    Hey, glad to see you're back! I just recently came back too. :) I really did miss it here. Sometimes we just hit that slump, but the important thing is that we're back and in it to lose it. Hehe!


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    Glad to see you back. You can do this.

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Life got the best of me

Sunday, December 11, 2011

There was too much to deal with for a while and so I was a little MIA on Sparkpeople for a few months. Long story short we bought our house and moved in late October. My son was diagnosed with ADHD and started medication which is working wonderfully. I am almost done with school, just one final to take next week.

And I also gained 10 pounds. Joy.

I'm not going to let it get me down. I am back on the program starting this morning. My husband went shopping for me and apologized for not being supportive enough for me to keep with my program. He is so funny. It wasn't him that was ruining my weight loss, it was ME! I am starting to train for a 1oK run this April. In all honestly, I haven't ran since I ran my 5k and I miss it a little. I found stress relief in food where I should have found it in exercise.

I am determined now. The rest of this weight is coming off. It's going to happen. Just wait and see!

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BADCHULO 1/13/2012 12:49PM

    Ah.. welcome back..... I was MIA myself for a while... to the tune of gaining back 14 pounds. Just restarting this week.. restarting is TOUGH !!
I think I need to start back at the very beginning with my running program.. Have done basically no activity for 3 months..
But we can do this !! How sweet that was of your husband !!

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    Glad to hear your okay Jenn - I was worried for a while there!

Hope you all had an excellent Christmas in your new house :)

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CVRONEK 12/15/2011 8:57AM

    I will all work out and it sounds like you have a good plan!

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LOTUSBURGER 12/12/2011 9:27AM

    It happened to me too!
Jump back in! Your Hubs is so sweet!!
YOu'll be back in no time losing again!

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MAMACAT2_3 12/11/2011 12:54PM

    Life can get the best of all of us! But you're back, and determined, and you're going to do great!!

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It is hard having a child with ADHD.

Wednesday, September 21, 2011

We had back to school night for parents last night at my son's school. He just started Kindergarten and it has been a stressful situation. He is constantly getting in trouble on the bus because he doesn't listen and last night he was a terror.

He wouldn't sit still. He wouldn't listen. He kept fidgeting around and yelling out in the middle of the presentations. I kept looking around at all of the well behaved children and wondered why my child can't be like that. I felt like I was being judged for having such a bad child. I am fairly good at reading people and every time my son would yell out or I would tell him to be quiet, another child's parent would turn around and look at me like I am a pathetic parent.

When it came to meeting his teacher I was already at the end of my rope. I had to ask her to fill out a paper for his psychologist (to officially diagnose him). After I asked her she looked at me and said, "Hang in there." and patted my arm. I went outside of the room and just lost it. I was mad at my child for being so horrible and I was mad at the fact that my frustration showed so much. It is hard not to hold him accountable for his actions when I see all of the other children acting normally and listening and being quiet.

Why my child? Patience is not one of my virtues and this is the most trying test I have ever had to deal with.

This has been affecting my weight loss. I am stalled and I have been stressed. I said I was going to be positive from now on but this is a hard thing to get past. I don't know how to handle this situation and it feels like I get more and more frustrated with my son and his actions. He does have the possibility of going on medication soon but that isn't a cure all for his situation.

Sorry, there wasn't really a point of this blog other than to get some feelings out. I have a lot on my plate right now and I am trying to navigate this new territory. Thanks for listening.

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SWEETP84 10/3/2011 10:42PM

    My sister is always telling me my oldest son has ADHD. I tell her she is full of it. I already have one child with a disability, and I cannot handle another medical term in my small brain. So she just looks at me with her two perfect children by her side -3rd (undoubtedly perfect one too) and says "it's okay - you don't have to listen to me. You'll find out." Ahh! it makes me soooo angry. honestly.. but really sweetheart. I understand the stresses of the situation. He does the same thing at grocery stores, preschool, etc. etc. etc. I wonder what I am doing wrong... what did I do. I try time outs. I try taking away his favorite things. It just seems to make it worse. why can't my child sit still for 3 minutes.... why won't he listen? Maybe it's just a phase. Maybe it's ADD. But it will get dealt with. And your children have an amazing Mama. And I know you will deal with it brilliantly. Whatever happens. :)

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RAINPETAL21 9/26/2011 11:58AM

    I'm not in your shoes exactly, but I may be there soon enough. ADHD runs in my husband's family and even though he was never diagnosed by a doctor, he has some of the traits. But it turns out that never being diagnosed is a blessing in disguise. An ADHD diagnosis and medication can limit future career choices. My husband gets to pursue his dream career as a pilot because he has never been diagnosed. An ADHD diagnosis could have ruined his dream. I believe that the military also has some issues with an ADHD diagnosis.

I'm not going to say your son doesn't need medication because I don't know him. And I know there are plenty of people for whom the benefits of medication largely outweigh the negatives. But I do encourage you to find a support group and look into behavior therapy first.

Good luck.

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RAININGDOWN 9/21/2011 10:48PM

    Feel free to vent anytime. We're here to support you!


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BADCHULO 9/21/2011 5:09PM

    I know it's hard not to become frustrated with yourself.. but please be kind to yourself.. this is all new ground you are navigating.. You are still learning the ropes of ADHD. I think the suggestion of finding support groups is an excellent one.. People who have "been there, done that" are the ones who can really relate and offer advice or suggestions (but in the end it is only you and your family who will know what is right for you...)...
Maybe try to find some small ways to pamper yourself on a somewhat regular basis through this difficult time? 20 minutes alone to read a good book or a manicure, etc?? Doesn't help with the problems but sometimes a mini-break is enough to help you regather and refocus. Keep venting here if you need to as well... sometimes it just helps to put it in writing. Maybe even keep a journal..someplace you can pour your heart out as much as you want and not worry what anyone thinks of what you write...
I always try not to worry about what other people think (hard I know..).. If they don't like it ..tough .. I say... they are not living my life and have no idea what may or may not be going on. (yeah..easier said than done I know..)..


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RENMO99 9/21/2011 4:27PM

  As someone who was diagnosed with ADD at a young age, I can tell you that it gets better. With age and time spent doing behavior therapy as well as medicine, it gets better and some people learn to function without medicine, without therapy. That day is probably far in the future (I was in high school before I was able to permanently get off my medication) but it is a possibility. In the meantime, there are numerous resources for parents now. I know for a fact that there is at least one magazine about parenting kids with ADD/ADHD and I'm sure that with a quick Google search you can find online support groups and maybe even resources that will help you find a local group. emoticon

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KJMAZ2011 9/21/2011 4:22PM

    I'm not sure if you have FB but you check out "Shut up about your perfect kid!" Its an amazing group of women with children with very range of disorders, and how they cope. Reach out to them, send them a message. You aren't alone.

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Give it up, Body.

Tuesday, September 20, 2011

Dear Body,
Enough is enough. Yes, I understand that this is new territory for you, well at least for the last 10 years, but honestly you will be happier when you let the weight go. Holding onto old baggage is not healthy, and you want to be healthy, right?

I have worked you out every day last week and ate great and you reward me with... nothing. In fact, you decided to just throw in a pound gained for extra fun. Well, that isn't going to work my friend.

I have goals to meet, dresses to fit into and pin up photos to take. You are holding me back from hitting my goals and I refuse to take it. This 20 day plateau you've hit is over. Got it? O.V.E.R.

Don't make me threaten you again.


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SUEDEVLIN 9/21/2011 6:47AM

    Keep doing what you're doing and try not to get too frustrated. Don't rely on the scales...look at how your clothes fit and the way you feel. :)

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    Damn right! Just keep at it babe, and you'll beat that plateau, never give up!

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RAININGDOWN 9/20/2011 9:41PM

    You tell it! Here's hoping you break through your plateau! Keep doing what you're doing,track your food, drink your water, work out. Learn the tricks on spark people for breaking through plateaus! You can do it!!

Makes me think that I've hit a plateau myself. Three weigh ins and I'm still at the 253 mark (ish, the .X keeps changing).

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I'm done being negative.

Thursday, September 15, 2011

I went through a funk. I was tired and stressed and I started talking myself into eating things I shouldn't. It started out with gluten free pizza. Sure, pretty harmless there, but then the pizza led to other things like non-gluten pizza and *gasp* McDonalds.

ugh. The dreaded McD's. I hadn't gone there in forever. Long story short, my son has started Kindergarten and we had him tested for ADD/ADHD. I was the LAST person in the world that wanted to put their child on medication but after seeing him with the psychologist this week I knew that it just might happen. He had no attention span and is very compulsive. He hits himself and others and says he doesn't know why it happened. I was so stressed out from thinking my son would have to go on medication for ADHD that I caved and had McDonalds, including the french fries.

That night I realized that I was letting my emotions rule my body. Who are these emotions to tell me how I can run my life? I have worked so incredibly hard to lose these 70 pounds and I am not going to let my wild emotions screw it up for me.

I started going back to the gym and I am working on finishing my C25K program again. I finally got into week 6 and I amazed myself this week by running 38 minutes straight. When I first started this journey I could barely run 60 seconds. It is proof that I can do whatever I set my mind to.

I am tired of being negative and stressed out. I am ready to be happy and positive and see the 190's disappear! I have my first 5K this Sunday (RAce for a Cure) and I am incredibly excited to see how I do.

So, the negative Jenn is gone for now. In her place is a positive lady ready to take on the day!

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NINALATINA9 9/18/2011 6:48PM

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    Yeah Jenn!!

It's hard when things are going wrong in your life - even something small can trigger that emotional eating and going of course. Especially if that involves your children in any way.

You've recognised it though and won't be beaten. You're stronger than that.

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    You make such a good point! We rule our emotions, not the other way around. emoticon

But that being said there is NOTHING wrong with being an emotional person! We just have to find better outlets for stress besides eating and taking the "easy" choice over the "good" choice.

You got this, girl. Take life by the horns!

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BADCHULO 9/16/2011 11:54AM

    Welcome back Positive Lady !! Great that you are back on track... just forgive yourself for a little slip-up..they happen ...we aren't perfect.. !!
Best Wishes for your son... I can only imagine the anxiety that must have come along with that.. Maybe there are other Sparkers here that have kids with ADHD and you can interact with them for some advice and support??
Have a great weekend and treat yourself well .. !


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SHAYLA24S 9/16/2011 9:18AM

    You can do this! Realizing the source is half the battle! Awesome job on your C25K...I'm in week 3 and when I look ahead to week 6 I get scared!! Thanks for mentioning it because you have inspired me to keep it going!

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RAININGDOWN 9/16/2011 8:46AM

    You've got this. It's awesome that you're becoming aware of yourself and your tendencies. Sometimes it's the learning process that's the hardest with weight loss. But if you don't keep learning about yourself and your tendencies in the face of life's challenges it becomes easy to put the weight back on. (I've done it.)

You're doing absolutely amazing! You've got this.

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SYLBA61 9/15/2011 11:42PM

    Negativity is a problem that I have had. Sometimes I would tell myself that there is no way I will ever lose as much weight as I want to (over 100 lbs). I decided, also, that being negative was not going to help me accomplish anything. I am even trying to get my children's church class to only see the positive or good in each other. I can't stand to hear them talk negative about each other that is when I realized that I do the same thing to myself. Positive, Positive, Positive from now on. I will lose the weight that I need to lose.

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BLUESPYDER41 9/15/2011 11:32PM

    You go girl! You forgave yourself of your mistake and moved forward. Congratulations! That is awesome.

Remember to complement yourself every time you make a good decision regarding your dieting and exercise program (why not yur entire life too). That's what you'd do for a friend, right?

Two thumbs up!


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TURTLERAE55 9/15/2011 11:04PM

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Keep up the good.

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