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Depressed

Thursday, November 18, 2010

A lot has been going on lately. My sister-in-law has found out she has cancer, my grandma has been in the hospital, i'm wanting to leave my church because of the drama that the preachers family is starting...I know life could be worse but sometimes you just get tired of all the crap...

My grandma wanted to go into the hospital so she can get attention. She was anemic, the doctors gave her some meds to take to help her but she refused to take them. So they put her in the hospital to get some blood. She even told me that she wanted to stay another day just to make sure but they sent her home..

As for the church drama, 3 months ago I posted something on my facebook about that i hate being lied on. Our preachers family told our preacher that I was referring to them..So he is now going after everyone that commented on my status..No names were never mentioned, the church was never mentioned. It was general statements but he thinks its about him. So now he is going to all the other members labling me and the people that replied as trouble makers...I love helping with the youth and my mom works for their school..So if she left, they would fire her..We need the money so I have to hold my tounge but the more they talk about me and the others the anger I have for them grows...I just dont know..

I've gained a little weight but im getting back to eating right and working out...So I will see the pounds start coming off again....

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SIMPLE_TAILOR 12/8/2010 1:17PM

This too shall pass. Take solace in the word and discuss with your pastor.

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BECCASINGSLEAD 11/19/2010 12:47PM

I know how the stress from all the drama can get to you. I've been dealing with a some drama in my chorus and there have been days that I just wanted to stuff my face rather than deal with it.

I'll be praying for you!

Becca

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ME2THESHELL 11/19/2010 1:12AM

Aww that sounds aweful with how they're acting. Just be the best person you can be and try not to let them put u in a depressed funk.

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DDOORN 11/18/2010 10:31PM

Don't let the turkeys get you down, JK!

Blow the cobwebs and get on out on your bike...let the pedals go and fly!

That always helps me to clear my head and get back to the important things...

Don

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LAFEMMEDELALUNE 11/18/2010 9:26PM

So sorry that you are going through such stuff...

Hang in there!

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AIRBO1 11/18/2010 8:59PM

I have the same problem with church. It's everywhere buddy. Sorry. This is how I see it though. Lead by example and kill them with kindness. Keep working with the youth and doing the things you feel led to do. Don't let others steal your joy. They will only hang themselves in the end. Keep your head up cause everything will be all right.

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I CAN RIDE A BIKE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

I can ride a bike!!!!!!!!!!!!! Over the last month i've been trying to learn how to ride a bike and guess what?!?!?!!?!?!? I can ride!!!!! Taught myself!!!!!! I can ride the length of my drive way! Next i'm thinking about going to the parking lot at my church to work on turning..lol..I'm soooooooo excited!!!!!!!

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DDOORN 10/12/2010 11:54PM

JK, one of these days I would be HONORED to share a bike ride with you...!

We could hop on our two-wheeled wonders and whoop it out on those roads, up & down those hills and have the time of our lives!!

Keep at it...cycling is so HIGHLY addictive! :-)

Don

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OTTAWABOUND 10/12/2010 6:03PM

congratulations. I love the fact that I can ride a bike again... but I'd be terrified of learning a whole new physical skill (especially one with such road rash potential).

Keep on shrinking.

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LILLIZARD13 10/12/2010 3:36PM

Ya - congrats!!

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YAMINOKODOMO 10/12/2010 3:15PM

Nice job! Congrats!

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CUTEMATHNERD 10/12/2010 2:56PM

How exciting!! I am so proud of you!! Keep us posted on your progress!

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BILLALEX70 10/12/2010 2:43PM

Way to go JK!

You'll be amazed at how far you'll be able to ride.

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ELENSCH 10/12/2010 2:32PM

Biking riding is awesome. Welcome to the bike world!

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SHRINKING_MOMMA 10/12/2010 2:16PM

How fun, it's good exercise too!
Have a nice day

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LINDENSGIRL 10/12/2010 2:11PM

Good for you! It's such a self-esteem boost when you learn something new and succeed!

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I came in last place in a 5k

Monday, September 27, 2010

Ok. i've been avoiding this blog post but its time to write it. Yesterday was my brithday (turned 30 years old). Anyway, I wanted to do a 5k to celebrate it. There was a festival in the city next to us and they held a 5k for runners and walkers. So me and some church friends decided to do it together. To make a long story short..I came in last place..I was embarrassed for a number of reasons. First off a cop car followed the racers which ended up just being me toward to end..I heard the cop revving his engine a few times which i took as he wanted me to hurry up and when i finished the race, the officals told me that they didnt think i was going to finish..So I took that as they kept in radio contact about me during the race...When I knew I was going to come in last, I felt horriable..Unmotivated..unhealthy...I kept thinking that im never going to do another 5k again..I wont lie..I wanted to cry..I really did...I wanted to give up and be done with it...There was some positives to the race..my finishing time for this race was 1 hr 2 mins and 54 seconds...The last 5k I was in my finishing time was over 1hr and 15 mins...So I took off a little more then 10 mins off my finishing time..Also since I was the only male walker, I got the fastest male trophy....All the other men were running...The trophy made me laugh..I even think my name is going to be in the paper..lol..So the race wasnt all bad...I dont wanna be last again though..I'm going to work hard to make sure that never happens again...

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MACEWOMAN 11/19/2010 9:32PM

Way to go for sticking it out and finishing. You should be proud of yourself. And I'm never sure why finishing last is so terrible unless you're running a race. People finish where they finish and as there is always a winner there is also someone that brings up the rear. I'm impressed that you improved your time and finished while being surrounded by such negative attitudes.

Happy Birthday!!

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MSILVER94 10/18/2010 9:50AM

WHAT-EVER!!!! you should be VERY proud of yourself for a number of reasons!!!! I'm proud of you for even having the guts to do a race at all, I am still too nervous to do one myself! It takes a lot of courage. Those people that didn't think you were going to finish had to eat their words and I'm sure you surprised them. You proved that they couldn't count you out! I'm sure you earned their respect!!

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APRILBLESS 10/18/2010 9:41AM

The emotions will always be in it, always... but you stuck it through and finished! A big CONGRATULATIONS to you. Never let any naysayers (or engine-revving cops) take that away from you...(lol)

Plus Eleanor Roosevelt said, "No one can make you feel inferior without your permission." Next time, keep your head up and know that you are no less any other racer, first, middle or last. Bless.

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SIMPLE_TAILOR 10/18/2010 9:25AM

You are a better man than I. I would have sacrificed some of my time and had a discussion with the officer.

Kudos on the improved time!!!

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NTRICK 10/3/2010 5:46AM

GO YOU for finishing and you EARNED that award. Own it!

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BIGGIRL2082010 10/2/2010 9:35AM

I think you need to remember one thing: you did not give up! CONGRATULATIONS! You gritted it out, even though you were feeling down and disappointed - I am SO proud of you! That's the only way we achieve - by toughing out some of the rough spots, so that life becomes easier as we realise we are stronger than the challenges!

GOOD work!

Cheers,
Maya

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WONDERJUL 9/28/2010 9:28PM

I love the way your blog ended...that you will work hard to make sure it doesn't happen again. I am sorry you were last but I am glad you shared with us. Don't be discouraged--good for you for being out there.

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BIGBADMOMMABEAR 9/28/2010 8:57PM

You were ahead of all those people who didn't even try!!

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LADYBIRD82 9/28/2010 9:14AM

At least you did it and finished. Tats more than a lot of people can say. Just think you'll always remember this day, and this 5 K.

PS Happy Birthday.

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IONA72 9/28/2010 8:09AM

Well done for getting out there, you are so much better than all those who say "I could never do 5K"....you DID it. Keep going and keep posting about it.

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ALYFITN 9/28/2010 8:06AM

Don�t EVER give up. Sounds to me you kept one step ahead of the law the whole way! Way to go!!

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PONYFARMER 9/28/2010 6:52AM

Good for you, many people will not even get their butts up off the couch to try.

I understand last, as I have some serious physical limitations and I did a 5k too, and thought I would die. Like you I was last but did not care, at least I did it.

Way to go fellow mover, we are making some head way.

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JEM0622 9/28/2010 6:14AM

Never discount your abilities or growth as a person. Do not measure yourself amongst others. Find peace in the fact that you have two legs and two feet (four things that some people wish they had but don't) and you got off the couch (something many people don't do) and moved your body. As my page title says...'It's Not About the Fast, It's About the Finish'. Congrats on starting AND finishing!

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NEKOPIE76 9/28/2010 5:55AM

You should be proud! You finished and you cut 10 minutes off your time. That is AWESOME!!! I have come in close to last place before so I know (somewhat) how you feel. But you know, someone has to be last. Keep up the good work. One day you will be finishing near the front. I just know it!!

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ACTIVE_AT_60 9/28/2010 5:51AM

James - there is a quote by John Bingham - 'the miracle is not that I finished - the miracle is I had the courage to start'. Be proud of the fact you did it. I always look back at my runs when I run events (I don't call it race) to see how I can improve my next run. Dude, give your self the credit you deserve - you walked it, you shaved off time, and you got a price.... three rewards - well deserved.

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ZELLAZM 9/28/2010 4:55AM

A belated happy birthday! I'm glad you have that plaque to remember the occasion and to motivate you for future 5Ks. Just visited your page for the first time and am super impressed by your progress. Keep Sparkin' and working toward those good goals of yours!

Michelle

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PRINCESSNURSE 9/28/2010 4:37AM

Please---Don't let this discourage you! You were WAAAAAAAY faster than everyone at home sitting on their you-know-whats! Cutting 10 minutes off of your previous time is amazing. You are taking steps toward good health--good for you and to heck with what any one else thinks! Way to go and don't give up---make sure you let me know when you do your next 5k so I can cheer you on!

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DDOORN 9/28/2010 4:05AM

I would HATE to think what MY time would have been...lol!

You woulda looked like Road Runner next to ME! :-)

Hey JK, BIG KUDOS for putting yourself out there and knocking down the K's as best you can!

You kicked it up a notch and will do it again even BETTER I'm SURE!

Don

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NKERR52 9/28/2010 1:51AM

Hey, Great Job! Don't be too down on yourself. You've accomplished a lot. You've lost a butt-load of weight, set and achieved multiple goals for yourself, and you maintained a 3 mile per hour walking pace for an hour during your 5k. The plaque you won is a symbol of another step in the right direction. So, keep the faith, brother. You may not feel too good about it personally, but you're an inspiration to others, for sure.

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ANDYLIN90 9/27/2010 10:33PM

Hey, you got out there and not only walked, you FINISHED!!! You deserve a big pat on the back for not only trying, but completing what you started out to do. Who cares how many people finished before you...what matters is your accomplishment and I think it was significant.

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GENIEJENN 9/27/2010 10:22PM

Don't feel bad about being last. Being in the military, we do a 5k every week and when I first started, I thought I was going to die. I understand the walking and being last. I'm one of 2 walkers and we are always last. But like I said, don't feel bad. You finished and that's what counts.

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CHUNKYDELUXE 9/27/2010 10:01PM

Trainer Bob on the Biggest Loser's thing is that you HAVE to finish! That shows a strong spirit. Kudos to you for finishing. Never giving up is better than any other reward.

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LILLIZARD13 9/27/2010 9:23PM

Way to go - I would be proud if I could just finish a 5K!! You are an inspiration, not embarrassment!

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ABSOLUTZER0 9/27/2010 7:50PM

Congrats on finishing bro! Success is finishing! Screw the impatience of the cop and other people. You ran your race and did better this time that last time. You are making progress and that is not to be taken lightly. BE PROUD!!!

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ISLANDBETH 9/27/2010 7:42PM

You know what? You did it, which is probably more than that impatient cop, sitting comfortably in his car ever did! Good for you. We all have those moments where we feel horrible and can't imagine going on, but you powered through those negative feelings and actually finished! Awesome!

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TERE22 9/27/2010 7:38PM

I agree with the others, at least you finished. Great job! - and you'll do better next time. ;-)

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EDITORABC 9/27/2010 7:36PM

I commend you for even trying a 5K! You had courage and that will be your best asset moving forward on this journey we're all on. I hope all these posts from us have made you feel better and have encouraged you keep going! Way to go! You're more brave than me, that's for sure!

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ICE-LOLLY 9/27/2010 7:34PM

You can only get better from here :) Good on you for getting out there, giving it a go AND finishing it 10 mins faster than the last time. You broke your personal record!!!

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GEINAHG0757 9/27/2010 7:25PM

You.finished.a.5K...!!!! There is a saying in running

"Dead last finish is greater than did not finish is greater than did not start. Not only did you start, you COMPLETED your race. To heck with what others think. Own your completion and BE PROUD!!!

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FLUTTER-BY)L( 9/27/2010 7:23PM

Thanks for reminding me we can do difficult things. You did not stop you kept going. There is so much to be said for that. I have no idea why the cop was revving the engine. I think that was wrong and rude. You finished anyway.

The trophy might feel kind of funny to you but use it to remind you how far you've come and where you want to go.

I am glad you shared today. I will think of you and keep walking sometimes when it is difficult.

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UROPA40 9/27/2010 7:22PM

Congratulations. I came in last in a cross country ski race last year and had a man on a snowmobile offering to take me back to the finish line. At one point I had to take off the skis and walk. I did not really know how to ski and it was the 4th part of a 4 event race that goes on over a year. I signed up for it again this year and each event, the swim, bike and run were all faster then last year. I hope to not be last this year but I am going to do my best. It is fantastic how much weight you have lost and I bet at your heaviest you would not even imagine doing a 5K, keep up the good work. Suzy

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NANNER2121 9/27/2010 7:13PM

I am so proud of you. You did not "come in last" you FINISHED THE RACE!! And the cop who was goading you is a complete jerk.

Congratulations for your accomplishment, you really need to be proud and not let anyone take that away from you.

How many of us have done a 5K? Hmmm? Not ME!!

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DARKTHOR 9/27/2010 7:10PM

You felt horrible, yet I'm very proud of you. You finished the 5K, you went faster than the last time you did a 5K. You're sounding like a winner to me for sure. You COULD be the guy who sits on his couch and never tries. You're trying, you're improving and if you stick with it, you'll continue to improve. Use this as motivation, but be proud that you are trying and finishing. Next 5K you'll be under an hour for sure!

PS - I think that cop needed to be told off for revving his engine. I'm glad you didn't quit, don't let others bring you down, don't let anything stop you. Your future is what you make of it, not what others say it should be.

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PICKIE98 9/27/2010 7:06PM

u finished the race, you are able to walk, you ar eblessed! Be proud of yourself that you went out and did not sit at home!! I am!!

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ONCEUPONMYLIPS 9/27/2010 7:05PM

Hey, you got out there and you finished, and that is ALL that matters, but

for beating your last time, that is

!

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SOFT_VAL67 9/27/2010 7:05PM

dont be embarrassed at all, at least u did it, coming in last, just says, u didnt give up, it would have been so much easier to sulk off half way thru and blend in with the crowd, but u kept going and next time, u will move up and up until u come in first....and next time they rev their motor, say thanks for the reminder, haha, u did great!!!

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JILBERE07 9/27/2010 7:04PM

Way to get out there and do it though! And you finished! Use it as motivation

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3 years without soda!

Thursday, September 16, 2010

Sept. 11th marked 3 years of me deciding to change my life from living very unhealthy to healthy but my biggest accomplishment is going without soda for 3 years! I know some people may say thats no big deal but it is for me. Dr. Pepper was my drug of choice. I drunk that stuff ALL THE TIME!!!!!! Breakfast, lunch, dinner, snack...I just drunk the stuff but I gave it up! 3 years without it and hopefully I will go with out it for the rest of my life!

This year I have given up cookies, cakes, pies...anything thats considered a snack..and I have done pretty good! I've switched to eating fruit and veggies instead of snacking on all the other bag stuff! My birthday is coming up and every year I get a cake..This year i'm hoping for Ruby tuesdays salad bar..lol...Thats the best salad bar any where around me. Anyway, I have to have a cake..just something that a birthday cant be without..So i've decided that i'm going to get some cup cakes and bring them to the youth at my church to enjoy! I will get enjoyment from the kids eating them! And no, I will not be eating one of them..lol..

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EDITORABC 9/27/2010 7:38PM

You have amazing will power! Send me some? :) Here's a virtual birthday cake -- calorie free!

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GARDENDIVA2 9/17/2010 2:43PM

Don't let anyone tell you different. That is a great accomplishment. I cut down to 2 sodas a day and thought that was a big deal. Keep up the good work.

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SNKRNTWIX 9/16/2010 9:14PM

Fantastic! Soda has been my hardest thing to give up.

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MSANITAL 9/16/2010 9:05PM

OMG you must be so proud of your self to be able to acheve your goals and dream.. way to go...keep up the good work and this inspires me so much..
Now if I could get my 17 year old daughter to read this

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4-ME-TO-BE_____ 9/16/2010 7:47PM

Congrats that is a huge accomplishment 3 years without soda, I haven't been able to go longer than 3 weeks. Keep up the great work.

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MOMZACBRAN 9/16/2010 6:08PM

What do you mean it's no big deal to go three years w/o soda? Let me tell you, that's a BIG deal! Congrats! That is so very awesome. DrPepper was my poison too! I have only made it one month and counting. And like you, I drank it all the time!

But seriously, good job! Keep it up. Also, as a side note, if you are making the cupcakes yourself, you can substatute the oil called for in the recipe for unsweetened applesauce. No one will ever know the difference and it makes them super moist!

As for your new goal, a little bit of the sweet stuff will not hinder your weight lose goals...but it's your choice mister!

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ME2THESHELL 9/16/2010 5:52PM

Wow 3 years is such a long time to not drink any soda! Gratz! And good luck to giving up the sweet stuff :)

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BETSEY_G 9/16/2010 5:46PM

That's awesome! I wish I could give up the sweet stuff, but I have too much of a sweet tooth to give it up entirely....

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BETSEY_G 9/16/2010 5:45PM

That's awesome! I wish I could give up the sweet stuff, but I have too much of a sweet tooth to give it up entirely....

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Felt great outside

Monday, September 13, 2010

and tomorrow is going to feel greater! I think the news said the low's will be in the 60's. I hope to hit the track early and get my laps in. If you have read my earlier blogs, you would know that ive been having achilles heel issues. It's getting better but still have a little pain here and there. Lately, its been hard getting in my 6 laps in but i've been forcing myself to do it. Since today felt so great I ended up doing 8 laps which equals 4 miles. My achilles heel didnt bother me much at all and I even ran some!! I've decided to be in another 5k at the end of the month. It's a run/walk 5k..I'm always scared of being last but it should be fun! I'm just going to have to push myself to get back to my pre-achilles heel issue but I also wanna make sure not to make my injury worse! So I wont over do it!!!!! Anyway, I hope you all are doing well!!

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SIMPLE_TAILOR 9/27/2010 1:31PM

Great to see you posting again. Don't push too hard. While you want to get back to where you were, you don't want to fall back again either.

Keep it up!!!

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BILLALEX70 9/14/2010 4:38AM

Glad to see you JK.

Also glad to hear that your tendon is healing and that you've been out getting your laps in. Enjoy your 5K!

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DDOORN 9/14/2010 4:26AM

Building your strength and abilities slow & steady...that's the spirit!

Keep on SPARKIN'! :-)

Don

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