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just came in from a swim......that makes two days of exercise in a row!

Sunday, May 23, 2010

i am starting a streak! i have exercised yesterday and today and plan to keep it up!

here is a picture of hubby and i in the pool yesterday

  
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KRESKA 6/6/2010 11:28AM

    Awesome! emoticon

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BEBRENDA 5/24/2010 10:47AM

    JG, You and Hubby look like you are relaxing in the pool. Enjoy your swim time! emoticonTake care! :) Bren

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BARBARAROSE54 5/24/2010 12:10AM

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SIMPLELIFE4REAL 5/23/2010 11:29PM

    Whooo Hooo!

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RAINBOWMF 5/23/2010 10:32PM

    Yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaa JG that looks like fun!!!!!!!!!

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TAYLORLIV31 5/23/2010 8:05PM

    That looks like so much fun. Good for you! emoticon

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ILIKECACTI 5/23/2010 6:12PM

    Yay!! I'm trying to keep up the exercise too :) Keep it up... and good luck on your journey!!
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JLGGLASS 5/23/2010 5:40PM

    we're going on vacation on thursday and at least one of the motels has a pool. I plan to use it.

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Thanks for all the comments ladies...but i am not sure i even believe in God...?

Friday, May 14, 2010

i do feel incredibly blessed..and i was raised in a Christian home....
and i was taught to believe in God..and i guess i sort of do..... just not maybe 100% like the Christian God........

i don't want to offend anybody and i KNOW that God is a great comfort to some.......but i have had real struggles with God and what not in the past.....

i am thankful for what i have...but fear a God that would take it all away...like testing Job for example.......

i am no Job.....i would renounce him in a second to save my family....

i wouldn't be happy at the end with my new wife, kids, house, money, etc.........(insert husband for wife.....)

i want what i have now...no testing me just for fun or to prove to Satan that there is somebody faithful enough......

i am not that person...

anybody watch the totally awesome T.V. series Kings? i am kind of like David in that...miracles around me....but could they have been something else.....? luck or fate or Jack Benjamin (the prince) staying off death for me.......?

Kings....man..i miss that show......

it had something for the most religious to the complete non-believer.....

and i..i am somewhere in between......

hugs to all
jamesgirl

  
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MGRIFFITH32 5/14/2010 4:48PM

    Thanks for being real and honest. i do believe in God though I don't always understand His ways. I love that He lets us be open and honest about where we are. We believe in you (and I think God does too!) Thanks for this blog. :)

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TAYLORLIV31 5/14/2010 4:10PM

    We can believe in you and pray for you even if you don't believe. It's a way to let you know just how much we care. So although your in the middle on this, that's ok. We care about you no matter how you feel. Don't sweat the specifics, what's important is that you gain footing and become positive about what's on your plate. The bad stuff goes out in the trash and you keep what's real. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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LEAN-N-LEXY 5/14/2010 3:34PM

    What an incredibly honest blog about just who you are in relation to your faith.
*hugs*
Being thankful for your blessings is cool, wherever they come from, eh? Miracles (and blessings) can just BE without getting too concerned about who/what they come from.

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I am more blessed than i have any right to be!

Friday, May 14, 2010

today is my oldest son's 22nd birthday......he just graduated from college and is in good health.... i also have a fantastic 17 year old who will be 18 in July and hardest of all for me to believe..i have a 14 year old!

my baby! 14!

they are all in good health... my youngest lives with my ex in Tennessee.....
i miss him daily......

my boys are a great source of joy.......
and so is my darling husband......

i really lucked out when he fell in love with me...
he has loved me for so long and so well....
since i was 17 years old.....

(it took us years to get together though...silly me.....)

he still loves me and shows me every single day.....
he is fiercely protective of me........

i am truly blessed...
i know i whine on here a lot but then i read other people's stories and i wouldn't trade my problems for theirs in a heartbeat!

i have always heard that God never gives you more than what you can handle....but i am not too sure.......

if he is listening...know that i am a pretty big whuss and really can't handle any more adversity..... that isn't some sort of challenge either....

hugs to all!
jamesgirl

  
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LOLAJO54 5/14/2010 9:47PM

    lucky lady to have 3 healthy son's and a husband who loves you..
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RAINBOWMF 5/14/2010 9:00PM

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YELLOWBIRD01 5/14/2010 2:03PM

    I agree . . we all need to remember to thank the Lord everyday for everything he has done, going to do and is doing!! for all the people in our lives - good and bad.

You are truly blessed Jamesgirl . . and a blessing!! Thank you!!

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PMFISH 5/14/2010 12:22PM

    Cornerstone is remembering to say Thanks for all you have. I have found as I have gotten older, be careful what we ask for. Therefore I just ask God to lead me in the right direction to do his will.

TaylorLiv31 pretty much summed it up.

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TAYLORLIV31 5/14/2010 11:40AM

    God is always listening, we have to learn sometimes to sit tight and listen as well. Time has a way of healing all things good and bad, so pray and trust that God has the right answer for us all. Sometimes all we can do is to be thankful and trust in God and put all our issues in is hands.

You stay encouraged and stay positive, these things are the cornerstones on growth.

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wow it seems like i have nothing positive to say lately

Monday, January 25, 2010

i am in pain due to my pelvic prolapses
i am getting fatter by the minute possibly due the side effects of medications
one of my dogs is having liver problems
my 17 year old is going to be joining the Marines

i need to think about the positive things in my life.... but it just seems like there are so few positive things... i love my husband and he loves me...but he can't understand my addiction to food......

i had a friend tell me today that there is an Overeater's Anonymous sparkpeople team so i am going to check into that...

i would love to be able to go to meetings in person...but they are kind of far away and at night for the most part......

hugs to all who read my blog.....
jamesgirl

  
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FLORIDASUN 5/14/2010 10:10AM

    Hugs to you dear friend...we are all here to support and encourage each other. May is a totally bummer month for me. I find that when I blog it's therapeutic for me and a heck of a lot cheaper than a shrink! I also find that when I eat REAL food I don't have the cravings that processed foods seem to give you. I'd really check into your hormones and make sure you keep them balanced. A procedure such as you've had can wreck havoc which is most likely a big cause of weight gain. Suzanne Somers has some faboulous books on hormones and I'm reading her latest one called Breakout...her voice against cancer and the profit the doctors make on it...simply eye popping! Also another GREAT doctor is Christiane Northrup...she has some terrific books on women and I love her down to earth easily understandable advise. Check out these helps...I bet you will feel so much better when you have a better understanding of how your body works and how you can help support it to living your most healthy life! Remember I'm only a Spark page away! emoticon emoticon

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KRESKA 1/31/2010 9:51AM

    I know how you feel JG, I have had a pretty rough time lately also and been pretty depressed. I've been feeling alone, heading toward bankruptcy, with concentration problems, no vocation, feeling like I'm making no progress and problems that have to do with my father...but you know what, we have to climb out of that 'dark pit' that we feel we've fallen into. There is always sun after a storm, gotta keep trying as that is the only way. I've found talking to people and figuring out how to deal with these challenges helps. Keep strong it will pass!
V.
PS. I've got an appointment with a doctor (that I had to wait a month for) this coming week, so for peace of mind I will ask to get screened for diabetes.


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SCARLETTMH 1/26/2010 3:10PM

    I hope you get through this feeling,soon,count your blessings! emoticon emoticon
Thankyou for sharing the difficult times,too.

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LOLAJO54 1/26/2010 9:25AM

    JG I agree with Anne--
you get one life my dear ---time to be strong and take control.. you also only get this one body so treat it with respect -look after you all other things will fall into place and make it easier for you to deal with...
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PATTYS74 1/25/2010 11:34PM

    We sure miss yo on the Get Fit team. I wsh you come back and share with us maybe we can help each other. emoticon

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QUEENANNE1953 1/25/2010 9:20PM

    JG ... my thoughts and prayers are with you. I hope you can find the strength to take control of your body and your health .. eating comfort food is not the answer and will not mask the pain of the things you are going through. There are several articles here on Sparkpeople that can give you ideas regarding medication and weight gain.

Unfortunately, some things cannot be changed and we have to be strong and accept the situation .. however, we can change our eating habits you just have to realize that you are worth it .. you are special. Coming here to Sparkpeople seeking encouragement, motivation, support and friendship is the right thing to do. Your DH may not understand your eating problems because he has to be dealing with his own health issues.

Take it one day at a time .. log your food, stay within your calorie range, giver yourself a treat from time to time within moderation ...do low intensity exercise ...all these things will help you to feel better about you and then you can deal with the other situations at hand.

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MOTHER-NATURE 1/25/2010 6:50PM

    JG emoticon emoticon

Hugs

Niki

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LOSINGLINNDY 1/25/2010 6:20PM

    I hope you are feeling better soon. Forget everything except getting better, your son joining the marines and your dog. I threw a fit when my son had decided to go to Iraq a a civilian worker. We actually started a business to give him steady employment at the time. That is really scary.

Can anything be done for your sick dog? That is another sad thing to have happen.

Just keep telling yourself that you are a great lady no matter what the scale says. And you are.

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REVELATIONGIRL 1/25/2010 5:26PM

    Hi there, I totally get where you are with little good news. Got lots going on here too, from finances to health to kids, etc.! You are not alone there! I also find that once my husband leaves for work, I go into chocolate cravings. He works away from home anywhere from 12-20 days at a time. It's been very stressful.

I have tried to find positives, actually have found them, but it's hard to keep them up front. I am changing my thinking continually from 'diet' no-no's to healthy choices and nothing is a no-no. The freedom of not having anything restricted is permitting me to focus on the fact that since I have a choice, perhaps I should make a more healthy one. (i.e. grab the little carrots instead of the chips)

I also have issues with medications *steroids, etc. that hold the water and encourage the appetite. Again, I am being more aware of true hunger and appetite and taking advantage of that awareness to make a choice. Sometimes I just have a glass of water then see how I feel. Sometimes, I eat half a stalk of celery, lol, or drink a big glass of chocolate skim milk. If you think in terms of the lowest calorie things, you can actually have quite a lot of food. When my appetite is out of control, I grab all the low-cal stuff and satisfy my urge to chew.

Having a lot of weight to lose and losing it so dreadfully slowly is frustrating when I look at 3/4 weeks to lose 2 lbs. I have to step back and look at the more important things like running the nutrition report and seeing how well I am feeding my body, thinking of the total 18.5 lbs. I've lost so far, paying attention to how differently my clothes are fitting. I put on a top recently that was really tight to the point that I had stopped wearing it and it fit! I was so excited. It was a little victory, but it really helped with my attitude & accomplishment list.

I really pray that you get plugged into the group here on SP. Be prepared and grab your low-cal, healthy "wanna eat" foods!

God bless you!

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KINZIEZOO 1/25/2010 5:26PM

  I know too well how difficult it is to get out of that negative mindset when you have SOOOOO many things to deal with! Like "they" say, when it rains, it pours. But go ahead & vent away! Better to get it OUT than try to "stuff" it. Something I learned in eating disorder counseling - about how we "stuff" our feelings rather than expressing them!

Keep up the good work & God bless you!

(((HUGGGS)))

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HEY! I can fit into my old clothes again too!

Thursday, November 26, 2009

yeah....i am wearing a dress i hadn't worn in quite a while... i am ready to go out to eat this Thanksgiving.. a nice vegan feast...... (not raw though obviously)...

well.....i am not as happy about being able to fit into my old clothes again as you might think from the title of the blog... Why? these are my "fat clothes"

wonderful! (errr..sarcasm)

and worse..my husband recently joined Sparkpeople.com and i snuffed out his spark..... getting him to let us have pizza....then ice cream.....then buying a party tray of meat and cheese for him to share with the boys ...when...well...he didn't....

he had been resisting homemade baked goods at work..... he doesn't get that here.... (our oven is broken just the range works)

and then...caves when my cravings take over......

i worry every night that he might die from being overweight and then i do this??? does that make any sense???

i love him... why do i always seem to hurt him........

i mean yes..he can still choose not to eat something...but it is a lot harder when i want it too....

well.......Happy Thanksgiving to all (no sarcasm there)

i am not going to make any bold promises here about how i am going to change...because obviously i need to work on my mind first...and then my weight will follow....

i do a great yoga video by Suzanne Deason called Yoga Conditioning for Weight Loss...and she says.....that being overweight is an imbalance between body, mind, and spirit.....

so i think i will work on learning to love me before i make any wild changes......

people wonder why i don't love myself..... that one is easy....... if your own mother doesn't love you......who will? and how do i know she doesn't love me? her own words and actions... she once said..when i asked if we could be friends now that i was an adult..."you are scum, i will never be your friend, living off the government."

well i have to go wake up the rest of the family now....
sorry for my little rant....


  
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QUEENANNE1953 11/28/2009 12:12AM

    My friend .. you need to stop blaming yourself .. your DH must make his own choices. As for your mother, she obviously has her own issues ... you need to just start taking care of you. You are worth it and you deserve it ..
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LOLAJO54 11/26/2009 4:16PM

    I agree JG--- you are going to do the right thing get to know you and love the you -you are....forget what your birth mother has said to you she is nothing but the woman that bore you...

Sorry if this hurts but so true... If she was a carring woman she would never have said those things about you...

You just have to know you are a beautiful woman and need to take care of you ..and yes love you.

About your hubby --maybe you have such self doubt about yourself that you want the one you love with you all the way.. so again stop this and love yourself then you can go forward..

best of luck.
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JAZABEE 11/26/2009 3:43PM

    Happy Thanksgiving!!

First I want to say your a beautiful looking Lady, once you start loving you what others say or think about you is not important...Enjoy the day with your family.

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BARBARAROSE54 11/26/2009 12:45PM

    Happy Thanksgiving !

You need to love you first, and want to be healthy for you.

Your husband will have to make his own healthy decisions for him.

Enjoy your meal

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KRESKA 11/26/2009 10:24AM

    JG,
You need to put yourself first, forget about what your mother says. I know that is hard to do, but you have a loving husband and friends. Maybe you and he can sit down and talk about your health? Set some small goals at first.
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SAVINGHANNAH 11/26/2009 10:18AM

    GReat!!!!

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