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Sunday, June 08, 2014

SO, I read back to the last blog entry I made and where I was just over a year ago. So much has changed since then! My brother in law passed away of a major heart attack on 5/13/13. It turned our worlds upside down! I completely fell into a depression unlike anything I have felt, and along with that came pounds and illness, and pain and tiredness....
I really want to continue to write this, but it's not feeling liek the right time....I will be back.

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PURPLE0906 6/9/2014 6:40AM

    So sorry for your loss. Praying things will get better for you.


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Well, well, well

Thursday, May 02, 2013

SO I did the Optifast for three weeks and lost 17 pounds. It did jump start body, brain and energy again. I have had to stop because my insurance is changing and I can not swing the added cost of the provider visits. It was quite an experience...I missed food so much- but I think it has reset my way of thinking again and I have now started to transition onto some slimfast/special K protein items, along with no white breads at all and minimal carbs. I will see how this goes. I am tracking again. Moving more. Thinking about everything that is necessary again. Walking some- although my left knee is still not very appreciative. I need to get a new bike.
I feel like a door opened. Not sure if it is the career change, season change...I am SO excited about my new job starting Monday.
I have a friend that used to be our pastor when I was young. He now counsels vs preaching. He wrote a blog today about his need to turn off the negativity of TV, Facebook, etc. He is taking this time to make real phone calls, not listen to the cries about funding, cries about politics....Its about figuring out what is really necessary and what kind of life you want to listen to. I really think I have done something similar in my career change. Previously I was quality and risk- hearing negative things gone wrong on too many occasions. Now I am involved in development of something new and innovative- making healthcare better. I am so excited.
I am finding and feeling my way back to fitness (have to do it very different without running) and eating well (I truly fell prey to a carb/fatty/salty addiction) and my way back to feeling confident again. I hope to stick with it for the long haul- but know it won't be easy and have come to discover that my feelings of failure are not going to get me anywhere.
Take 2, maybe take 3...but I am looking forward- not back! emoticon

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BALLOUZOO 5/2/2013 10:38PM

    Have you tried biking? I love that it is like running (out in nature etc), but you get to enjoy the downhills :)

Have a great day! emoticon

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A more aggressive weight loss program

Friday, April 12, 2013

Tomorrow I take a new leap into weight loss...starting a medically monitored program- Optifast. Many people will criticize, many people won't understand, and I really don't know how hard it is going to be...but I need a change unlike no other that will give me the motivation to move forward. I have had a mental block when the weight started coming back on...I have to move past this and I need this help right now. I am starting some exciting new career directions and this is the easiest way to take control of my situation.
I have fought with myself in many direcions...and tell myself I am copping out...but the truth is, we all deal differently and I have made this choice. We will see how it goes. I am very excited about teh new chapter in my life!

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KNEWMETODAY 4/12/2013 10:28PM

    There is more than one path to success. I am no judge. I would never presume to know what's best for anyone, but I totally hope you get the start you want and that you avail yourself of the support and encouragement on this site.

I will become your cheerleader! emoticon You must always try to do what's best for yourself!!


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HOTPINKCAMARO49 4/12/2013 10:18PM

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Whole lot of talk

Thursday, August 16, 2012

So, I found out yesterday (even though i guess I knew it all along) that I can not run on my knee. For now, walking for exercise is even a no go- until I can get it calmed down and strengthened around it. This is really hard for me, because I know how running used to make me feel and what it did for my body. I don't know why I am so resistant to trying other things...right now it just seems hard to do. I am going to try to be on here as much as I can, and a good freind of mine is a Beachbody coach as well. I have been using this knee as an excuse for a liong time. I don't want to be in pain anymore- so I have to stop and listen to what I have been told. But at the same tiem, I need to lose opunds to amke my knee feel better! I want to be inspired, motiviated, happy again. There seems to be somethign missing....
Today i will go to Aquafit- i missed tuesday due to a meeting runnign late over an hour away from home. I have a PT that is very good, I already love the way he approaches and explains things. he is going to help me get biking! I need to start saving for decent equipment.
Enough for now, i should be working. emoticon

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MISSMARCYB 8/24/2012 10:50AM

  Keep up the good work. I injured my knee three years ago and used it as an excuse to gain 50 pounds. So, now I am doing the work to get back where I was. I love the mantra: No looking back, only moving forward!


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SIM1SAYS 8/18/2012 1:04PM

    I just wanted you to know, that I just started sparking - four days ago - I'm almost 300 pounds and reading your story really inspired me. Working out is hard for me - I had an ankle rebuilt (metal and pig ligaments) in 2004, and the doctor is looking at a knee surgery soon.

Here's the deal - I know there are ways to do this even with my body's limits - my drive has no limits.

Thanks for keeping up your blogs and posts. You've been really inspiring today.

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VAMPYRE03 8/18/2012 3:00AM

    Sounds like a plan... Do you have a special mantra or saying??? I've found that helps me when I'm very discouraged... Just keep posting, and talking out the fears, and frustrations, soon you'll be telling us about your renewed mobility, and how awesome it feels to be able to walk again!!! Baby steps are hard, but sitting on your hands is even harder... you can do this!!! It'll take time... listen to your body. If it says rest then, rest, and when it says i'm ready... be prepared to be amazed!!! You sound like you have the spirit and the will to succeed... and it sounds like you have tons of support... or at least tons of Spark people support... we're cheering you on!!!
One of my mantra's is:

I believe I shape my future. Whether I fail or succeed shall be no man's doing but my own. I am the force; I can clear any obstacle before me or I can be lost in the maze. My choice; my responsibility; win or lose, only I hold the key to my destiny. No excuses..

(I got it from another sparker.. but forgot to write down who... so I'm passing it forward)...

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BALLOUZOO 8/16/2012 5:00PM

    Have you tried biking instead? My biking buddy had painful knee injuries that prevented her from running, but thankfully for me she bikes now instead! She still gets to enjoy the great outdoors~the wind in her hair~and we have a GREAT time!

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LAINYC 8/16/2012 3:05PM


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Lifted from Coach Nancy's Blog

Friday, July 13, 2012

"As Coach John told me last spring..."Soreness is just your body's map of moving to a higher level of adaptation"

I have to keep reading these things- because I sort of feel like I live in a constant state of soreness emoticon

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JAL4828 8/16/2012 1:50PM

    Or, a body's way of telling you "Enough!" emoticon

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PAMG415 7/30/2012 3:35PM

    I feel for you and understand the soreness. I'm just getting back being more active and I feel it too. Hopefully, I'll be able to overcome the soreness that I feel in my feet.

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