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Spring

Tuesday, April 30, 2013

I just got on here and was looking at my blog for January. So much has changed since then, for the good in my opinion. I'm reconciled with DH and we are back together and living back in our 5th wheel. Moving from a 5th wheel to a 3 bdrm house is an easy thing, but moving from that 3 bdrm house back into the 5th wheel is not quite so easy. We are going through getting rid of finding places to keep things and have big storage unit.

I made some goals on my blog in January. Some of them are in the works and others are still in the planning.
I am back to work at the track now. I didn't ever find a temporary job during the off time, so I think that this year I will be saving to cover that time.
I have been getting to the gym on a more consistent basis. It's been a little tougher now that I'm back at work, but I'm still getting in there some and making a point of getting more movement in my everyday living.
The scale hasn't moved down as much as I would like, but it is moving down, and more importantly, I feel better and my clothes are getting too big.
I've learned some hard lessons over the past year and will work to make sure that the things that happened last year don't happen again, but I don't want to forget them either.
If it weren't for a few of my very dear friends on here, I'm not sure where I'd be mentally right now. You have been beyond words to me. I love you all dearly and if there is ever anything I can do to help you all you have to do is say the word.

I am looking forward to the second half of this year to be a happy and productive one. I hope it is for all of my friends as well.

  
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LINWASH23 5/1/2013 3:38PM

    Good to hear that you are continuing on this journey. The journey is not easy for the best days are ahead. emoticon

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BOOBERRY 5/1/2013 10:49AM

    Jacque, so happy for you all is going well . Like I say one day at a time and have faith . Just keep moving forward.

And I like you wouldn't know where I would be with out all my friends on here helping me over the hardest 2years mostly the past 7 months most likely driving hubby more crazy than I do lol,

I wish you well on your journey to a healthy happy life emoticon Brenda emoticon

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PJSTIME 5/1/2013 6:21AM

    I am glad you are moving forward in a happy, healthier, way and that you and DH were able to work things out. A new beginning so to speak with lots of things to look forward to.

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SHARONSPARKLE 4/30/2013 11:19PM

    Jacque - life is often about mistakes and learning from them. I am glad things have worked out between you and Robby. I couldn't imagine a more suited couple. Love has found a way for you to move forward with your relationship. Now to continue moving forward with your goals. You are in a much better frame of mind so I expect good things to come.



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LINWASH23 4/30/2013 5:09PM

    That is great. Best wishes on your journey to a healthier life style. emoticon emoticon

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CATE195 4/30/2013 3:36PM

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New Year New me

Tuesday, January 01, 2013

Well, I started 2013 out differently than I've started a new year in a very long time. I guess that is a sign that I'm going to do things differently this year.
I've been sitting here today thinking of the changes that have happened over the past year and the changes I need to happen in this coming year.
I've lived a year of turmoil and it has played havoc with me. More so I think than any other.
It's time to let the past go and make the needed changes for the future. Just typing that statement is scary, but here goes.

This year I need to meet some goals. I have set so many over the years and have just let them slide by. That has to stop. So my first goal is to STICK TO IT.
I'm going to put these goals down so that I can't just pretend I didn't make them when I let one slip up. Don't get me wrong, I know that I may not hit every goal exactly as I plan, but if I don't try I won't hit any at all.

#1. I still have 60 lbs to lose, so a long term goal is to get that 60 lbs gone this year. (2013).
#2. A little shorter term. In the month of January I'm going to get back into gear with my Body By Vi. Starting my new 90 day challenge tomorrow, January 2, 2013. This 90 day challenge will be to lose 25 lbs and exercise at the gym 3 days a week.
#3. Probably should be #1, but, anyway #3 is to find a job. At this point it can be a temporary to fill in until the track opens again in April or a more permanent full time position. I really don't care which, but a permanent one will have to be something I think I can really sink my teeth into.
#4 get my finances in shape. Start putting money into my savings and getting my bills all paid. Quit spending on things I don't need.

I'm going to stop at 4 for right now. They are all BIG goals for me, so I don't want to set myself up for failure right off the bat by setting more than I can chew.
I'm so thankful to have a place that I can air this all out without fear of recriminations. All of my friends on here are so supportive and will help me to get it together with your support.
Don't be afraid to call me out if you see me slipping.

  
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MSKRIS7 1/8/2013 10:09AM

    Sounds Good!! Keep on track. SP will help you stay on track

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CHALLENGER75 1/2/2013 4:18PM

    Very good goals...and emoticon with each others' help!

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_MOBII_ 1/2/2013 9:38AM

    I am glad to see you back on! Thats a good list of goals, and I know you can do it!

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BOOBERRY 1/1/2013 10:00PM

    emoticon One step at a time one day at a time You are a very strong women and I know you can do it you know too we are all here for you. emoticon

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TXGRANDMA 1/1/2013 9:08PM

    emoticon Jacque! I have no doubt! emoticon I will continue to be here for you.....my friend! emoticon

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MUNCHNIT 1/1/2013 7:37PM

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DMEYER4 1/1/2013 7:33PM

  good luck with your new goals . With enough hard work they are within reach.You can do it

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JUSGETTENBY42 1/1/2013 7:32PM

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Chaos

Friday, September 07, 2012

I'm not sure if I'm coming or going today. It's a wild day at work. Next to the last day of racing and everyone who's not running is coming to get their colors.
I don't know from one day to the next where I stand with Robby. He is talking to me on a more normal basis now, but then he starts thinking and gets mad all over again. He told me the other day I need to have all my stuff out by the first. He has also decided that he wants to keep most of the stuff now. He had said he didn't want anything. I don't care about the stuff, it's just that, stuff. It can all be replaced. I just wish he would decide what it is he wants to do.
Then, I still haven't heard from DD as to whether she's going to be here this weekend to pick her stuff up out of the house or what. She had told me she was going to try and come this weekend, but hasn't let me know if she is or not and I need her to come and get this stuff. I will put the GKs stuff in my storage if I need to, but I won't have room for all of hers, besides which I'm not going to do it. That is what she wants and I won't play in her hand.

All in all it's just a whirlwind of things happening right now. I feel better now that I've let all that out. Thanks for listening

  
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BEACHCOMBER2 9/15/2012 11:45PM

    Hi Jacque, Sorry to read about all the chaos in your life right now. I had no idea as I've not been online much. Take care, dear Spark friend. One day at a time and things will turn out fine. We are all thinking about you and wishing you well on your journey.
Cheers, Linda

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GLASSART43 9/8/2012 7:44PM

    This is a great place to "vent" Jacque. I'm sorry things are tough now. You've reminded me to be sure my kids have a deadline for retrieving the things we're storing since we're listing our house for sale soon.

Be kind to yourself and take care.
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TXGRANDMA 9/8/2012 11:02AM

    So sorry to hear that all this chaos is in your life! When I moved out of our girls' childhood home, I gave them months to come and get what they wanted. The oldest girl didn't come to get anything, so I gave it all away. The Special things or things that I wanted, I kept. All the rest is gone.

They have to know that you are not going to be their free storage unit. I wish I were closer so that I could help you out! God Bless you, and keep you!
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CHALLENGER75 9/8/2012 8:58AM

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We're with you, girl. Just wish we could help out physically...

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SHARONSPARKLE 9/8/2012 8:34AM

    Jacque - I so wish your Spark Friends could reach out and help you. Unfortunately, we can only pray and give you support through our computers. But never doubt that we are all thinking of you and praying. This weekend will be difficult whether your DD shows up or not.
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_MOBII_ 9/7/2012 11:49PM

    If there was a way that I could snap my fingers and make things better for you, I would in a heartbeat. All I can do is send best wishes and prayers that things smooth out for you soon. As always, if there is something I can do, all you have to do is let me know!

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BOOBERRY 9/7/2012 11:41PM

    Jacque sorry you are having a rough time. prayers going for you for strength to get through this, Take Care.

I finally made a appoint for hubby and I to get a massage tomorrow if nothing goes wrong at the hospital I feel like a numb body just going through the motions.


emoticon my friend things will get better., Brenda

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HOLDINGMYOWN 9/7/2012 9:57PM

    Your emoticon Jacque....
Sometimes with my kids I wish I could just "slap" them...I think I would feel really good if I could do that!!! emoticon
It will never happen but it is FUN to think about! emoticon

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UMBILICAL 9/7/2012 9:37PM

  We are going.

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New digs

Friday, August 24, 2012

Well, I went and paid the rent for my new place today. It is a very small FEMA trailer. I must admit though that it is in much better condition than I was afraid it would be. It is a temporary stop on the new journey I'm taking. It will let me get back on my feet and figure out what I'm doing. I'll probably move in on my days off this week. Not really much to move in to it though, just my clothes, tv and computer is going to be about all that will fit. Oh and somehow I've got to get my sewing machine in too. I've got lots of sewing to get done. It kind of makes all this really real now. Up to this point I could just believe it was a bad dream. Time to get on with it. I'll get it fixed up for me and get my act together and see what I can do to go forward from there.

  
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ROBINT63 8/26/2012 7:47PM

    Good luck on your new journey. Keep one foot in front of the other (that's what I'm doing)! emoticon I'll keep you in my thoughts!!

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_MOBII_ 8/25/2012 11:13PM

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BOOBERRY 8/25/2012 9:03PM

    Jacque my friend best of luck to you and just one day at a time & have faith everything will be fine, emoticonBrenda

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JAMER123 8/25/2012 6:10PM

    Sending my best wishes out to you that you find the trailer the first step onward the the next step and so on! You may find this is a good arrangement for you. Take one day at a time and sew to your heart's desire!! ( I enjoy sewing but haven't taken time for a long time now.) emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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SHARONSPARKLE 8/25/2012 9:23AM

    All you can do is take it one day at a time! I know you are a strong lady and will make the most of what you have. As you said, it's just a stop along this journey we call life!

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PJSTIME 8/25/2012 7:38AM

    Good luck to you and just remember it is only a stepping stone to the get you to the next stop.

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CHALLENGER75 8/24/2012 8:42PM

    One step at a time, my friend... emoticon

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TXGRANDMA 8/24/2012 8:17PM

    Best of luck to you, I hope the move is a good one for you, and that the rent is low enough for you to save up for the next step in your journey, whatever that may be.....
My emoticongoes out to you! emoticon

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SUCCESS_IN_2013 8/24/2012 7:05PM

    I am seriously considering a similar arrangement--only a "camping cabin"...it would give us the chance to get on our feet, as you said. Plus incentive to get rid of a lot of junk we have in our lives. (I am a "we" of 8 at the moment--2 adults and 6 kids lol)

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Changes

Saturday, August 18, 2012

I always thought changes only happened to you when you were young. I thought once you were grown, married, had kids and grandkids all the major changes would stop.
Boy was I ever wrong. Everytime in my life that I think things are right where they should be, WHAM, here come the changes.
I know change is good, but I could do with a little less all at once, if you know what I mean.
This has been a long hard week for me. My whole world has been turned upside down. I'm still not quite sure in which direction this change will take me, but I'm taking it one day at a time and am finally starting to be able to breathe without it feeling like my heart's going to jump out of my throat.
I still have lots to do before I can even sit back and take it in, but I know that the time will get here. When it does, I think I'll take me a short little trip and spend some time all by myself to get it in perspective.
I want to thank each and every one of you my very dear Spark friends for helping me through this time. I don't know what I would have done if not for you and some very dear friends right here. If I hadn't had y'all to come and just let it all out to, I'm not sure I could've gotten through this and remained sane. Your support has meant everything to me.

THANK YOU

  
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ROBINT63 8/26/2012 7:44PM

    Hi Jacque,
I know about change ~ UGH!! One foot in front of the other is my motto for me anyway!! I know that change gives us an opportunity to reflect!! I'll keep my knees to the ground for you also. emoticon

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BOOBERRY 8/20/2012 9:18PM

    Jacque you are a very special friend Please take care of yourself. emoticon

Brenda

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SHARONSPARKLE 8/20/2012 12:40PM

    Jacque - you have become a dear and special friend through Spark People and although far apart, you are close in my heart. You are a very strong lady and although you are hurting, I know you will survive and become even stronger. If you want to take a trip, we have a very nice guest room you are welcome to stay in for a few days!

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CHALLENGER75 8/19/2012 8:14PM

    Many hugs, my friend. That description of your heart jumping out of your throat is just how I feel many times. emoticon

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TXGRANDMA 8/18/2012 9:13PM

    Jacque, you know that we are all here for you! I agree that change is hard, I was forced into a change of jobs in January of this year, and it really attacked my self esteem. I feel that I am still learning and have a lot to learn about the new job,though I have been there since February.

My daughter's boyfriend had a huge change in his life this week, his father died suddenly (on the job) from a heart attack at 55. We don't know how much time we or the other significant others in our lives have.......when they go, it changes the way WE are.

We had a huge change last year, in the middle of changing our lifestyle, even as we speak, that is still going on and is a stressor for us in many ways. I keep wishing we were already changed over, but you can't wish your life away, you must live in between the major changes and have a meaningful and productive life!

I wish you the very best through this difficult period emoticon

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_MOBII_ 8/18/2012 7:43PM

    Thats the way of it...when you are good and comfortable, life kicks you right in the butt!

If there is anything I can do to help you out, just drop me a message.

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