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Why Aren't I Happier?

Sunday, January 23, 2011

I lost 3 lbs this week and I'm ok with it but why is it bothering me? My 1st week I lost 2 lbs and I was real happy about those 2lbs and glad to see the scale actually starting to go down for once. My 2nd week I lost 7 lbs and maybe that's why the 3lbs is somewhat a let down. I know I can't pull big numbers every week & that it's also not healthy. I know it's better than gaining. But, it's weird how the number game also plays mind games. In alittle while this will pass and it won't bother me anymore. I think it's not so much setting goals that causes disappointments but it's setting unrealistic goals. I wanted to lose 5 lbs this week and I lost 3. I shouldn't be looking at the fact that I didn't lose the 5 lbs but that I still had an accomplishment of losing 3lbs. So, 3 lbs is good. This in no means is a set back. I will look at the glass as 1/2 full not 1/2 empty.

  
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JACKIEMOMOF3 1/23/2011 5:13PM

    Thanks Girls..

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THISYEARSMODEL 1/23/2011 4:05PM

    I hear you and relate. For some of us, setting what seem like "small" goals feels like torture in itself. As a type-A in a high achieving, compare-yourself-to-others town (Los Angeles), I struggle with this daily & have written several blog entries about it. What I'm learning is, setting small, achievable goals means you ultimately have more successes and less beating up on yourself. So celebrate those 3 pounds! That's fantastic! Good luck! emoticon

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LOVEAGOLDEN 1/23/2011 3:13PM

    Well, I guess I could be a cheerleader and tell you how fantastic a 3 pound loss is, but I know that won't be helpful because I've been in your shoes many times. I lost 25 pounds through a weight loss program a while back and re-gained it plus more. During that time the large losses made the small losses very disappointing. And here I am on spark people (again) trying to lose this burden I'm carrying around with me.

Like I told a friend who was discouraged when she gained all her weight back, we really don't have a choice. We can stay the same weight or even continue to gain, or we can continue to try. We have to continue to try. Even if I've eaten like crap for a whole year, I have to start over because it's so important. To me, to keep trying - always no matter what - is what counts. And even one day of being healthy counts.

So on that note, congratulations on your 3 pound weight loss. I ate like crap yesterday and I know the scale will go up, but here I am again. Less time on facebook and more time on Spark people. Just keep showing up every day even when you don't feel like it, and I will too.

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Always On My Mind

Thursday, January 20, 2011

Well, it seems the one thing that's always on my mind is food. When I was eating whatever I wanted it was what snack or sweets could I have next. Now, that I'm making the change to eat healthy & lose weight I'm always thinking what can I eat next that's healthy etc.
It's like the devil on 1 shoulder and the angel on the other. Constantly fighting the demons day in and day out especially the past couple of days. The past couple of days I felt the temptations and the little red guy with horns on his head whispering in my year. It took alot of willpower and again thinking about food. Thinking how I don't want to give in and that I want success. Thinking about not giving into the food temptations and not eating. The temptations have passed and today feels like a new day. I got up this morning and exercised. I can honestly say I'm not feeling the urges to eat poorly today. I feel good like I jumped over a hurdle without tripping and falling on my face.
I'm not gonna feel sorry for myself and keep my goals in focus. I guess for someone like me food will always be on my mind. It has to be. It's what I do about it that matters. I have to learn to eat to live and not live to eat and not to fear food (well, the good food).
As for the little red guy with the horns on his head~I flicked him off my shoulder and dismissed him. He was weighing me down!
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JACKIEMOMOF3 1/21/2011 12:43PM

    Yes, I know he's not gone forever. But, right now I think he's the one afraid. LOL..He hasn't been around.

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MAGIC10FINGERS 1/21/2011 12:17PM

    WOW, I thought for a minute I was reading something 'I' had written! I too for decades, have fought off that little red horned creature. There are days I still do, so don't think he leaves for good, EVER. He hangs around & smells fear. Just keep reminding him who's boss.
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GRAMMADUNC 1/21/2011 11:19AM

    Good for you! One day at a time,it's babysteps or NOTHING! Keep the positive attitude and you will succeed!

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JACKIEMOMOF3 1/20/2011 10:57AM

    Thank you for your comment. I'm glad I'm on SP and to meet others that know what I'm going through.

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ALFIE143 1/20/2011 10:23AM

    I feel the same way! Working out really helps and makes me think of all the hard work I put into it and if whatever food I am dreaming or even thinking of is really worth it. Stay focused and know that you can do this :)

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Just Don't Understand

Sunday, January 31, 2010

Well, here I am to do my weekly Sunday biog. I usually do it in the morning after I weigh myself and for the 3 weeks prior I've had good news. The scale was moving in the right direction-it was going down. Now, I did state earlier in the week that I started back with poor eating habits. I tried everyday to get back on track but nothing worked. I wasn't pigging out massively or anything like that, but I wasn't making the best choices and I was eating more than I should. So, I was expecting a weight gain. Maybe 3 or 4 lbs tops. I wasn't happy about getting on the scale but I was prepared to face the consequences. I got on the scale this morning and to my HORROR I GAINED BACK 8 LBS!! I don't get it. That's alot of weight to gain in 1 week. Like I said I was expecting some sort of weight gain. I knew I screwed up. But 8 lbs, c'mon??? Well, my next step is to pick myself up and continue on. Hopefully, in the right direction!!! It's too important this time. It has to work and there is no giving up. I know it's expensive, but I started with Nutri System today. I placed my first order and I'm gonna give it a try. I'm desperate. The program does get alittle cheaper after the 1st 3 weeks. So, I figured I'll try it for a few weeks and see if maybe I can stick with it throughout my weightloss journey or it will be enough to give me a jumpstart and I can go back to doing my own thing. We will see. I just know something out there has to work. It just has to. I will not dwell on mistakes I have mad but learn from them. And, the knowledge I gain from this will lead the way throughout my journey. I will pick up the pieces and move forward and the outcome will be a beautiful new me.

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JACKIEMOMOF3 1/31/2010 6:29PM

    Thank you so much everyone for the support and suggestions. It means alot to me to know I have friends here that can relate to what I'm going thru and understand how I feel. You all are great!!

Luv ya!!

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MOCUEVAS 1/31/2010 6:17PM

    Know that you have lots of support here for you.
You can do it!
Smiles, Mo

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JSTCHLIN 1/31/2010 6:04PM

    Been there, done that. Like most said, it's mostly water from too much sodium. If their is one thing I learned throughout this journey it is all about sodium. After calories it is the first thing I look at when purchasing food.

Getting on Nutri System will definitely help keep that in check for you. Don't forget to drink your water too!

One more thing... many people weigh-in every day or once a week. I find that to be to close to each other and not able to tell me the big picture. I weigh in once a month. If I gain weight over a one month period I KNOW it's something I am doing wrong, not just too much this or that. Just a suggestion.

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JACKIEMOMOF3 1/31/2010 4:49PM

    Thank you!!!

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GRFXGIRL 1/31/2010 4:44PM

    I wish you the best of luck on getting back on track !! YOU CAN DO IT !! emoticon

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JACKIEMOMOF3 1/31/2010 4:39PM

    Thank you for the encouragement. I'm sure it's mostly water retention. It better be. But, what a shock on the scale.
Thanks again.

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OTTAWABOUND 1/31/2010 4:36PM

    Relax. Unless you managed to eat an extra 3900 calories a day, then you didn't put on 8 pounds. What probably happened is that the less healthy choices resulted in you retaining water. If you'd had three good weeks, then some departures, the extra sodium can really make a difference.

Over the long-term (and that's what we are here for, a lifestyle change, not a quick fix), if you keep eating fewer calories than you use, you will reach a healthy weight. You're human--you went off the plan. Just make the decision to go back on the plan that was working for you. Sometimes we have to make that decision every 10 minutes...

Stay strong. You can do this.

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RASCALOO 1/31/2010 4:35PM

    emoticon I have a feeling a big portion of those 8 pounds is water retention since there are 3500 calories in a pound and you would therefore have to eat 28000 excess calories to gain that many.

Then again, if you were going to consume that many, call me because it sounds like one heck of a party and I'd want to join you! emoticon


I've never had the $$ to try nutri-system but it certainly sounds like a healthy option. Good for you in seeing that you needed to make a change.

Onward and Downward!

~Susan

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What The Hell??!!!

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

I don't know why but I just can't seem to get it together the past 2-3 days. My old eating habits pretty much just came blowing back in like a hurricane. I know for a fact that there will be a weight gain of some sort this week. I was doing good and then all of a sudden I'm not eating like I was while I was losing weight. I'm mad at myself. I'm upset depressed disgusted. I feel like here we go again. Setting myself up for failure I guess. But, I HAVE TO get back on track. I just hope it's not too late. I've lost 12 lbs so far and now it's being sabotoged. I can't take it. At least, I'm still not drinking soda. I wanna cry. I wanna scream.

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RKSPICY 1/27/2010 9:20PM

    What the heck...it was a Slip! Not that big a deal, even if you want it to be..don't let it be. Start again tomorrow and make it an even better day!!!!! emoticon

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HARMONYAGAIN 1/27/2010 8:36PM

    This is the same as all previous attempts in that we hit those bumps that test us.
It is up to you to take what you have learned and make this time different. This time you shake it of and keep going towards your goal.

You can achieve this you can do it!

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JACKIEMOMOF3 1/27/2010 8:23PM

    Thank you so much Art4tab!!

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ART4TAB 1/27/2010 8:20PM

    This is not the end - it is just a trial! Let go of the mistake and LEARN FROM IT. You don't like the way it feels right? So now you know its not worth the taste or satifaction of the food sliding to your tummy when it does more than make you gain weight - it dents your positive STRUCTURE! HOLD STRONG AND STEADY! TOMORROW IS A NEW DAY:)

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JACKIEMOMOF3 1/27/2010 8:09PM

    Thanks alot jstchlin. It's just frustrating to have a setback so early on.

Thanks again for your encouragement!!

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JSTCHLIN 1/27/2010 7:53PM

    It's a setback. It's a bump in the road. You have to just keep on driving if you want to reach your destination. You can do it. Don't let it stop you from your goals.

Take care and stay healthy

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Today's Weigh In

Sunday, January 24, 2010

Well, got up this morning. Walked the dog & put my 2 yr old son's sheets in the wash. Then got on the scale. The scale went down. Yippee!!! It went down 2 lbs and I'm happy with it. Really, I am. But, it's funny how our minds work. The past 2 weeks I lost 5 lbs each week. So, of course, I get into this mindframe that I'm Wonder Woman and I'm gonna keep moving right along losing 5 lbs every week. Wow! Great! But, not reality. So, at first I'm like Oh sh-- I only lost 2 lbs. Not sure why since I've been doing everything fine even incorporated exercise. Which, that in itself is an accomplishment. I quickly snapped back into reality and just told myself it's not how quick it comes off. It's just as long as it does come off. So, you know what? I'm happy with a 2 lb loss. I'm happy the scale went down and not up or stayed the same. I've lost 12 lbs since January 3. Not too shabby. I just want to get healthy and be around for my kids as long as possible. I want to wear nice clothes and not get disgusted at what I see in the mirror. I'm a real good mom, good friend, love my kids, family, & friends. I'm taking control finally of my eating and health and I'm working on making a better me by getting healthy, exercising, & losing weight. I guess all that does make me Wonder Woman!! Have a great week everyone!!

  
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JACKIEMOMOF3 1/24/2010 1:07PM

    Thank you all for the supportive comments and well wishes. I know together we can all achieve success and live our dreams.

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POORGIRL_DIET 1/24/2010 1:02PM

    well done you are doing great!! Don't forget to measure your inches as well

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BEGODDENMIST 1/24/2010 12:23PM

    Great Job!

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WNT2LOSE30LBS 1/24/2010 12:17PM

    great job!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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JACKIEMOMOF3 1/24/2010 11:58AM

    Thx jstchln!!

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JSTCHLIN 1/24/2010 11:47AM

    Not too shabby at all. Keep up the great work!

Take care and stay healthy

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JACKIEMOMOF3 1/24/2010 10:37AM

    Thanks everyone!! You all are awesome!! I luv u guys!!

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Jackie

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HARMONYAGAIN 1/24/2010 10:20AM

    You are doing it

YEAH

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CGREEN717 1/24/2010 10:12AM

    Great blog. Two pounds a week is a fantastic goal and the healthy way to lose the weight. ;) Congrats.

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JAJEKK 1/24/2010 10:11AM

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12 pounds since January 3 = not too shabby!


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MYMONSTERSX3 1/24/2010 9:40AM

    I would love to lose 2-lbs a week, that is AWESOME!! And you are WONDERWOMAN!! Congrats on the success, really great.

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