Sunday, January 03, 2010
Like many others here at SP I have been battling my weight loss for a very long time, pretty much my whole life. When I joined SP in 2008 I was attending WW and I was at my all time high (back then) of 278 lbs. I lost some weight maybe around 25 lbs then I stopped going. When it starts to turn into a financial reason why I can't attend anymore I start talking myself out of it. Talking negative to myself and sabatoging myself. So of course on and off like always I try to lose weight. Just before the 1st of this year I got in the mind frame of just doing it and making this my time to do this. So, I came back recently on SP and changed some of my groups and got some more friends/buddies. I have been doing good and watching portion control and doing well with things, I can feel it. I have to start the exercise. But, that will come, even if alittle at a time. I haven't been feeling well and with the added weight it has taken a toll on my body physically. Wow! I don't think I've ever admitted my aches & pains & whatever is from being overweight. I haven't been on a scale since I left WW. Since I'm starting over again with losing weight and making this my time to be the person I know I can be I got on the scale this morning so I would, of course, know what my starting weight is. And, ohhhhhhhhh BOY!!! I was more than when I started WW in 2008. Which I kinda knew I would be. I was prepared to be. But, no matter how much you prepare yourself before getting on that scale it still comes as a shock. I've been feeling it in my clothes and feeling like no matter what I do the weight is just pouring on.Like, my metabolism came to a halt. My weight is 295 lbs. Officially my highest EVER!! So,yes it depressed me. I just don't want this to effect me in the wrong way. I don't want to get discouraged over this. Even more now than ever I know I gotta do something!! So, if I keep this frame of mind and with the encouragement of my friends, family, & my SP friends I will do this. I understand this will not happen over night and this is a long journey in which I must watch for detours and obstacles and stay prepared. Not beat myself up if at one meal I ate too much. Just continue on at the next meal. Take it one meal at a time. I want to wish everyone here much success in the journeys I'm grateful for my friends here and the support. Hopefully, we can reach the stars together.