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Ohhhh Boy!!!!!

Sunday, January 03, 2010

Like many others here at SP I have been battling my weight loss for a very long time, pretty much my whole life. When I joined SP in 2008 I was attending WW and I was at my all time high (back then) of 278 lbs. I lost some weight maybe around 25 lbs then I stopped going. When it starts to turn into a financial reason why I can't attend anymore I start talking myself out of it. Talking negative to myself and sabatoging myself. So of course on and off like always I try to lose weight. Just before the 1st of this year I got in the mind frame of just doing it and making this my time to do this. So, I came back recently on SP and changed some of my groups and got some more friends/buddies. I have been doing good and watching portion control and doing well with things, I can feel it. I have to start the exercise. But, that will come, even if alittle at a time. I haven't been feeling well and with the added weight it has taken a toll on my body physically. Wow! I don't think I've ever admitted my aches & pains & whatever is from being overweight. I haven't been on a scale since I left WW. Since I'm starting over again with losing weight and making this my time to be the person I know I can be I got on the scale this morning so I would, of course, know what my starting weight is. And, ohhhhhhhhh BOY!!! I was more than when I started WW in 2008. Which I kinda knew I would be. I was prepared to be. But, no matter how much you prepare yourself before getting on that scale it still comes as a shock. I've been feeling it in my clothes and feeling like no matter what I do the weight is just pouring on.Like, my metabolism came to a halt. My weight is 295 lbs. Officially my highest EVER!! So,yes it depressed me. I just don't want this to effect me in the wrong way. I don't want to get discouraged over this. Even more now than ever I know I gotta do something!! So, if I keep this frame of mind and with the encouragement of my friends, family, & my SP friends I will do this. I understand this will not happen over night and this is a long journey in which I must watch for detours and obstacles and stay prepared. Not beat myself up if at one meal I ate too much. Just continue on at the next meal. Take it one meal at a time. I want to wish everyone here much success in the journeys I'm grateful for my friends here and the support. Hopefully, we can reach the stars together.


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FEISTYMAMA 1/3/2010 12:55PM

    You've taken the 1st step. It's not going to be easy but hopefully seeing the number on the scale will motivate you to work hard and get that number to drop. We all fall off the wagon. You can do this! It won't be easy, but it's one foot in front of the other.

Good luck in your journey!

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    hello! I too did WW and couldn't afford it.. But to be honest, I find that Sparkpeople is soooo much better. Dont' get me wrong WW was great, but i don't feel it has the personal touch like this site does, and the help and support from others that you get on this site. I am proud of you for taking your life into your hands, and for admitting to things you would normally make excuses about! that's the first step.. now you just have to keep your positive attitude and you will get through this! It's only a short matter of time before being healthy is second nature to you!
I wish you the best in your journey! and I hope that you will reach the stars! I will see you there!
happy New year!

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