Thursday, June 18, 2009
the last couple nights I have been having the burning feeling in my stomach, like I havent ate enuff...those were two tossing and turning nights of sleep...I i did stay within calorie range, in mid range..so It wasnt like I deprived myself..so dont know...anywho
I went to spin class after work, and did 27 minutes of walk/jog interval training on the tready before clsas started...
Have a wonderul weekend!
I said I wasnt gonna weigh in this friday, due to my binge episodes last weekend, but you know I am dying to find out the results of that and my working out this week..so I may just hop on the doggone thing tomorrow...
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
I feel like this weight loss thing is consuming me...
sometimes i feel like this is all i do...workout and be concern of what i am eating..work is slow so i havent been working much, and so that has a toll on me..dont want to be home just eating, so I workout, and then i feel like I need to be working..feeling useless, and bored.. been looking for work, but nothing yet...I did make up business cards, and gave some to my sister and hair salon to give out...i did gain a client from spin class, massaged him twice already, gave him a few cards, to give out to anyone looking for massage at home...but I need steady clients you know..we see how that pans out..
so I am just here..hanging on to what lil faith I have..but this weightloss journey feels like this is all that it is..like I am concentrating on losing weight thats all my focus is on,and gets to me at times, like i should just be living my life, and let losing weight be APART of my life, not my entire life..its fustrating but i am going with the flow of the days..so to speak..
I did workout today, did some ST on my lower body, I used the machines today, did squats, leg press, leg extensions, plie squats with weights..abs, stretching , 30 minutes on the elliptical is all I could handle today..I dont wanna be killing myself with cardio, I get bored easily, and I feel that happening, when I do longer cardio, so I switched it up today, insead of doing 45-50min on elliptical, i did only 30minutes...
Plus I think I need a massage, my knees are kinda bothering me, dont know if it have to do with the jogging, i started, that could be contributing to it, I know my hamstrings and quads get a good workout from spinning and elliptical, so I may just need some circulation in my legs, my shoulders been achy too, but I did do upper body yesterday on the weight machine, I've been doing free weights and yesterday was the first time I used the machines in a long time..so that could be it too..
Okay, now I am just rambling..just wanted to express my feelings...later sparkpeople
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
okay, so I didnt feel like going to the gym today..I figure I'll go to spin class with a coworker this evening..we made the plans earlier today, now she text me and wont be able to make it..hmph!! now I was going cuz I new she would be counting on me..now I am not feeling that motivated...
Deep breathe in.......breathing out....I am feeling weary, but I know I gotta keep going, if I wanna see success! just felt like expressing myself...okay, let me PUSH myself to spin class, and give it all I got...
I went to spin class, burned 653 kcals, for 50minutes, then i did the treadmill for 25minutes, burned an additional 170 cals, I did my walk/jog thing, and even started joggin the last 30sec at 4.5 for the last two sets... then i finished wit abs
I felt good afterwards, but now I am dog tired..glad i went this evening, we gotta do this to get healthy and stay there, I know we dont want to but we need to and its good for the body and mind...
Monday, June 15, 2009
okay, back at it again..had to push..but i got thru too..
managed to do two hours at the gym..did ST on chest, shoulders, back, arms, ab for about 40minutes, did 45 minutes on the elliptical burned a whopping 412 cals!! then did the treadmill for 25 minutes, walked at 3.6 mi pace for 3 minutes then jogged at 4.0 for two minutes, repeated that four times, with a 5 minute cool down, burned 137 cals!! burned a total of 549 cals today!! woo hoo!!
breakfast was good, lunch was great, and drinking my water...so i am getting back to myself..yay! that was kinda scary..thanks for having my back sparkfriends!! and pushing me to move forward...
Sunday, June 14, 2009
for all your warm and encouraging words on my "crisis" on Thursday...I am sad to admit that Friday and Saturday was no better, but as of this SUNDAY morning I am wiser, I am better, much better, when I look back on Thursday night, my body was letting me know that TOM was on its way, and voila TOM came on Friday morning...lol
Friday a group of coworkers had a farewell gathering for another co worker, so lots of sweets and alcohol was involved...Saturday alot of snacking on M&M's peanuts, oh..and remember that oh so delicious cake Kevin brought home from Olive Garden? Well, lets say that I was the one who finished that big ole slice last night..I knew I would..he never finish the deliciously goodness he brings home..I do...
But that is all behind me..I will be go food shopping this afternoon to get my healthy essentials and such..
Obviously I havent worked out since my 15minutes of shame on the elliptical on Thursday night, so I need to get my butt in gear this week, I will not be weighing in until the following Friday, why set myself up for disappointment...
SO thank you all for all your comments and reminding me that this too shall pass
luv ya lots
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