Monday, March 18, 2013
I seem to be completely stagnant. Why can't I find the motivation that I need? What do I need to do this? I can't find any oomph, motivation and even willpower any more. I lost 21 lbs since Christmas and I am watching my self slowly gain it back. I just can't seem to get where I want to be. I am not asking to be a super model. Just healthy and fit...but I am weak and I love yummy food. Food is everywhere and bad food is easy. I try so hard not to have excuses...but I have a boatload of them right now!! I am totally frustrated!!! With myself mostly....
Friday, July 13, 2012
Wow...I can't believe how much physical fitness that I have lost in just 6 weeks. I am now becoming winded when I climb the stairs at work. I recently was hired for a fabulous new job that I absolutely love, but I work about ten hours a day. Often it is a very fast paced environment and I am worn out when I get home. Unfortunately, it is a desk job most of the time. I do get away from my desk and walk the stairs every day for at least 20 minutes if not longer. But I can feel it...I can feel that I am going backwards. I am not gaining weight, but I am not eating right either. I had accomplished so much. I have lost altogether with and without sparkpeople over 40+ lbs and accomplished physical fitness like I couldn't believe. I managed to run a treadmill 5k and go running with my son several times. We would walk at least four miles several times a week, now I work weekends. I have not contributed many physical fitness minutes at all since becoming employed. I have faded from SparkPeople almost entirely. I have to establish new boundaries and guidelines for myself and it seems too much work. I feel as if I am running on all cylinders MOST of the time. Between work, family, appointments, shopping, housework, KIDS, I have no time!! I thought that if I got organised, I would have more time...NOPE, not yet. There is always something that needs doing and it seems that I am the only one that will do it. Oh well...enough whining. I think I will walk the dog...
Wednesday, April 25, 2012
Okay, so I struggle with the daily obstacles just like every one else and I always share the glass is half full mentality with all my spark friends. Today, I really need to turn this around onto myself. I had a minor surgical procedure done last Thursday, but I was put out. I do have a recovery period of about two weeks, but I am not really sure what I can and cannot do. I guess I am supposed to progress at my own feel like it level, but of course, if were up to me I would lay around the hosue and eat bon bons....right??
I walked over two miles yesterday and felt like I did. Today, I did my Coach Nicole 28 day bootcamp day 7, my strength exercises and walked on the treadmill for 20 minutes. By the time I was done on the treadmill, I almost wanted to cry!! It seemed so hard....and all I did was walk. I have worked so hard to get his going and I almost feel like I have to start over. I had progressed to walk/run 5K's three times a week and walking miles and miles every day.
BUT....the procedure was something that I really medically needed and my life will be forever changed if it works. I just need to convince myself that this was the best thing for me and my progress will be based on what I am able to do and my glass is always half full!! I have a wonderful blessed life with bountiful rewards and this is only a very small segment of what is my destiny...
Thursday, April 19, 2012
I have really had a head of steam rolling and today I am having a procedure in the hospital that will change my life dramatically, but will cause me to have to postpone any aggressive fitness for two weeks and possibly a tad longer. I know that my health and well-being is of utmost importance, BUT...nows heres the thing for me...what if I lose what I have gained. What if a dry spell with no exercise causes me to go backwards or I lose my stamina? This scares me....what if I have complications and end up with a dramitic surgery and have a 6 to 8 week recuperation?? Well, I have so much on my mind and I KNOW that whatever happens will happen and I will come out of it ready to start the next phase...it is what it is, I guess. Thanks for listening....
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