Wednesday, May 21, 2008
I am a biologist with a pretty strong biochemical background, so I tend to get technical about things related to diet/exercise. I also know way too much about how it all works. However, sometimes knowing these things can be useful.
Today, I had a crazy morning, Wii fit was being released, and I agreed to go to Best Buy in the morning to pick it up, which disrupted my normal morning schedule. I am slightly OCd (the d is small because I'm obsessive-compulsive, but it is not usually a disorder that I can't control), and getting off schedule causes me lots of anxiety. So, once the whole situation was taken care of and I was off to work, I was still really anxious and could feel it. When I'm anxious, I crave carbs. I'm sure I do this because a high carb load causes serotonin release, and lack of serotonin is what leads to OCd anxiety.
So, I'm driving to work thinking, "I really want some cookies. Well, I don't really want cookies, I want to stop feeling anxious, and I know that cookies will cause serotonin release which will make me feel better. Wow, I understand my craving. I still want cookies."
Since then, I've been trying to do other things to increase my serotonin levels other than eat cookies. My anxiety has decreased, but not disappeared, and I still want cookies, but I'm not eating them. I'm writing this instead and eating pumpkin seeds. I've also decided to look for other non-food, natural ways to increase serotonin. It may not be solving the problem, but at least I'm distracted.
Anyway, my take-home message today: always try and figure out the reasoning behind things. Even if you can't solve it, at least you'll feel better understanding how it all works.
Tuesday, May 20, 2008
People have been asking me for advice lately, and as it turns out, I actually have some useful things to say. Therefore, I'm going to attempt to put some of these useful things on here when I notice them. Maybe, I can even follow some of my own advice.
Never pass up the opportunity to teach somebody. You never realize all that you know until you have to teach it to someone else. I am a microbiologist, but I never really understood the immune system until I had to teach it in a microbiology lecture for nursing students. Today, I may have solved a problem in my lab that has been plaguing me for weeks simply because I was helping one of the students in my lab with a similar process and realized that I could adjust my procedure to be more similar to the one that was working well for the student. If you get to teach someone, you learn, they learn, and all is right with the world.
Monday, May 19, 2008
I've always liked collecting quotes, so I think I am going to use this as a place for inspiration that I find outside of Sparkpeople. I'll keep a quote post for each week, with a new quote added daily through the power of edit. Sometimes, I'll comment
"It may be hard for an egg to turn into a bird: it would be a jolly sight harder for it to learn to fly while remaining an egg. We are like eggs at present. And you cannot go on indefinitely being just an ordinary, decent egg. We must be hatched or go bad." -C. S. Lewis
I'm sure that Lewis was talking about hatching into heaven or God or something, but I like the idea that my overweight body is the egg, and I am cracking the shell by losing weight and then, I can fly!
"Happiness is nothing more than good health and a bad memory."
Albert Schweitzer (1875 - 1965)
Well, if that's true, then I am set to be happy, because the bad memory I have, and the health is almost there!
"Finish each day and be done with it. You have done what you could. Some blunders and absurdities no doubt crept in; forget them as soon as you can. Tomorrow is a new day; begin it well and serenely and with too high a spirit to be cumbered with your old nonsense." - Ralph Waldo Emerson
This should be like, a dieter's mantra.
Sunday, May 18, 2008
I uploaded some new pictures from a wedding I went to this weekend. I love the dress I wore, I felt so pretty in it. The best part, it is a dress that would even zip over me when I first got it, but something made me keep it anyway. Maybe I knew someday I would be able to wear it!
Friday, May 16, 2008
I have been having a crazy week. My work is keeping me busy because half of the equipment I need is across campus, so I keep running back and forth. My car has been in the shop while they try to hunt down a mysterious water leak that only occurs when the car is with me and not them. I am slightly PMS'd because next week is TOM, although I'm on the pill, so I am not bad, just noticeable to me in food cravings and hormonal emotional changes. Oh, and my moving date is edging closer (2.5 months) and I've made no plans yet.
My eating habits have been suffering due to the insanity. When I stress, even a bit, I tend to crave foods I shouldn't have. Also, with the running around I've been doing, I've been using up more energy which makes me tired and hungry. For the last two days I've allowed myself some leeway to get foods I normal won't allow (i.e., chick-fil-a nuggets and cookies), although I've been tracking and maintaining calories in an acceptable place. Unfortunately, the fat/sugar/sodium problem is apparent in my daily weigh-ins and I'm starting to feel the need to fix that. Today, my only treat is a chocolate/coconut larabar.
Tomorrow I am going to a wedding, and I think that I will allow myself 100% access to any clean food (fruits, veggies, etc.), 1 reasonable piece of cake, and small amounts of non-clean, sugar/fat laden foods. I will bring my gum so I am less tempted to just grab food. I'm not sure if the wedding will be lunch or dinner yet, depends on the weather.
I'm hoping to sort of get-it-together and slightly detox Monday on Kashi, larabars, and juice so that I can get back into healthy eating and less water retaining. I should plan next week's meals. Fun!
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