Sunday, January 05, 2014
January 1st 2013, a day of dreams and promises most of which usually were broken within 24 hrs. Butthis year it was different. Something HAD to change. So I embarked on 3 resolutions, with a promise to myself that I would not deem myself a failure if all failed.
The resolutions were 1. to give up diet coke, not so easy when that is practically all I drank. I hate tea, coffee and pretty much any other drink on offer, so it really was going to be a challenge after regularly downing 2 litres. 2. To lose weight. At 4'10.2" (don't forget the .2, every little bit counts!) and 175lbs I was the heaviest I had ever been! Partly down to the tablets I was on to control chronic migraines, and mostly because I simply was stuffing my face and had created a comfortable arse shaped hole on the sofa. 3. To get moving...I have been running on and off since I was at school. I was incredibly sporty at school, even getting to play county volleyball! I always felt I had to prove that being tiny wasn't a curse. But depression and moving on into adulthood got in the way. Every so often I would get moving again and almost always went back to running.
To cut a long story short by January 1st 2014, i've managed to not let one drop of diet coke pass my lips. I've even enjoyed trying new concoctions when I go out. The rest of the time it's been plain old water. I've lost over 30lbs. Still overweight, and we've had a couple of blips but 30lbs is 30lbs right? And the running? Well it's been a bit of a love hate relationship. I learned a valuable lesson...it has been a dream to run a half marathon for many years. I entered the Great North Run a couple of years ago and due to ill health, deferred my entry, twice, which has been my 'excuse' since then. My sister has been on her own weight loss journey and did her own half marathon first. The lesson? Achieve your dreams or someone will get in there before you. However, I did run two half marathons; the first turned out to be a trail run (oops, should have read it properly) and on a seriously hot June day I staggered round in 3hrs 4mins. I managed to get into the Great North Run through the ballot and did that in 2hrs 48mins.
So what's on for this year? So far i've signed up for the Janathon challenge, the 5 x 50 challenge in March, 5 half marathons and a 10k, possibly try cycling, add kettlebells for strength training and plan on changing the way I eat with more vigour than last year to lose another 30lbs and look more into loving myself.
So, how did the first few days go? Mmmmm...not bad but not great! I need to work hard on the eating, the drinking was all good, I've got that down to a T. Trying to at least get some walking in, but to be honest it's been difficult so far as I have spent almost the whole of the holidays with family and also my daughters 4th birthday today, so a trip to the circus, watching dvd's and visiting my Grandfather have been on the agenda.
I'm back off to work tomorrow; that means routine for all of us and more control over my eating habits and also my exercise habits. No excuses, I CAN do this!
Onwards and upwards! Tally ho!
Friday, October 25, 2013
I admit I seem to be going round and round in circles at the minute...
and feeling pretty overwhelmed by life in general
normally I can break out of the cycle but this time I have really been struggling. I look at my team leader and it amazes me how she keeps going regardless of what is going on and then everything that is going on around me seems trivial.
But depression is a tough one...
it can hit when I least expect it and hang around for a day or weeks! I know what I need to do to kick it, but the cure can be part of the problem. How do I, when all I want to do is curl up, get the motivation to go out for a run? Do something positive? Sleep well? Just feel human? I often just feel that I am just being silly and I need to give myself a kick up the rear end and stop moaning, but I can feel the build up.
Maybe a run will do it. Maybe a good cry, but either way I need to do something positive for myself, to get out of this rut, to feel human again and to not feel as though I am letting the side down.
So tonight the challenge is to sleep, no alarms, no work to worry about, just rest.
Tomorrow the challenge is to get out there and run
to be more positive
and to lift this cloud once and for all
Saturday, August 17, 2013
In 6 days time my Mum returns to live in England from America.
I am so excited to have my Mama home after almost 14 years away. I understood, respected and supported her move, but at times it has been difficult, emotional and heartwrenching to have her so far away. I have had a couple of amazing holidays, but nothing beats having your mum not so far away.
The last time I saw my Mum was in May. I was over 150lbs and had lost 25lbs.
Since then I have managed to lose another stone (14lbs). I know she has worried about my weight, my physical health and my emotional health, so I hope she will be pleased with the transformation that is continuing to emerge.
So it got me thinking about the journey so far. It's had it's ups and downs, amazing weeks, OK weeks and downright awful weeks. I spent 8 weeks staying the same and it was because I wasn't putting the effort in. But OVERALL I have achieved plenty!
I have lost the equivalent of my daughter Eirlys!
I have completed my first half marathon!
I have dropped 4 dress sizes!
I have lost over 10% of body fat and gained muscle
I'm keeping the depression at bay...
Have a better relationship with food...
and best of all is getting my mojo (i.e. my confidence and self esteem) back...
The journey is long, and sometimes it 2 step forwards and 1 step back...
but ultimately I am almost 3/4 of the way to my initial goal!
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