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A new year...another new start!

Sunday, January 05, 2014

January 1st 2013, a day of dreams and promises most of which usually were broken within 24 hrs. Butthis year it was different. Something HAD to change. So I embarked on 3 resolutions, with a promise to myself that I would not deem myself a failure if all failed.

The resolutions were 1. to give up diet coke, not so easy when that is practically all I drank. I hate tea, coffee and pretty much any other drink on offer, so it really was going to be a challenge after regularly downing 2 litres. 2. To lose weight. At 4'10.2" (don't forget the .2, every little bit counts!) and 175lbs I was the heaviest I had ever been! Partly down to the tablets I was on to control chronic migraines, and mostly because I simply was stuffing my face and had created a comfortable arse shaped hole on the sofa. 3. To get moving...I have been running on and off since I was at school. I was incredibly sporty at school, even getting to play county volleyball! I always felt I had to prove that being tiny wasn't a curse. But depression and moving on into adulthood got in the way. Every so often I would get moving again and almost always went back to running.

To cut a long story short by January 1st 2014, i've managed to not let one drop of diet coke pass my lips. I've even enjoyed trying new concoctions when I go out. The rest of the time it's been plain old water. I've lost over 30lbs. Still overweight, and we've had a couple of blips but 30lbs is 30lbs right? And the running? Well it's been a bit of a love hate relationship. I learned a valuable has been a dream to run a half marathon for many years. I entered the Great North Run a couple of years ago and due to ill health, deferred my entry, twice, which has been my 'excuse' since then. My sister has been on her own weight loss journey and did her own half marathon first. The lesson? Achieve your dreams or someone will get in there before you. However, I did run two half marathons; the first turned out to be a trail run (oops, should have read it properly) and on a seriously hot June day I staggered round in 3hrs 4mins. I managed to get into the Great North Run through the ballot and did that in 2hrs 48mins.

So what's on for this year? So far i've signed up for the Janathon challenge, the 5 x 50 challenge in March, 5 half marathons and a 10k, possibly try cycling, add kettlebells for strength training and plan on changing the way I eat with more vigour than last year to lose another 30lbs and look more into loving myself.

So, how did the first few days go? Mmmmm...not bad but not great! I need to work hard on the eating, the drinking was all good, I've got that down to a T. Trying to at least get some walking in, but to be honest it's been difficult so far as I have spent almost the whole of the holidays with family and also my daughters 4th birthday today, so a trip to the circus, watching dvd's and visiting my Grandfather have been on the agenda.

I'm back off to work tomorrow; that means routine for all of us and more control over my eating habits and also my exercise habits. No excuses, I CAN do this!

Onwards and upwards! Tally ho!

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ITSYBITSYMAMA 1/26/2014 8:55AM

    JANEGUM I looked for new ways to enjoy a drink. I drink lots of water most days and if I want a bit of a tipple I look for something else. My favourite at the minute is amaretto and light cranberry juice.

I make a point of not drinking too much fruit juice, because of all the sugar. So I have had to learn to embrace my water!

Good luck! emoticon

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JANEGUM 1/19/2014 7:05PM

  How to you cut the diet coke? I have the same sick addiction.

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BRANDI1809 1/6/2014 5:39AM

    You are doing so well, so keep pushing & you will attain your goal.

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Where am I now?

Sunday, November 17, 2013

I'm sort of seeing light at the end of the tunnel...

The important thing was sorting out my meds and getting rid of a persistent chest infection. So off I trotted to the docs and got some antibiotics for the chest and some amitryptiline for the face ache.

After a week the chest infection has gone and the facial pain has eased. I just need to get used to the exhaustion that comes as a side effect, but I am hoping over time I will get used to it.

I even dared to do some kettlebell training yesterday and I sure am paying for it today! I felt sick about 20mins in, but a quick rest and a drink of water and I got through it.

I have written a plan and although I have had a day of grazing all day today I am still within my range (although admittedly it was on the high end). I am confident that being in work will help that and I need to be organised enough to take lunch to work and have the correct servings. I can easily have two servings of soup when really I should just have the one.

I am thinking as well of following the addage breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a pauper. Even for a few weeks to shift this last stone it might help. I really want to be in that purple dress by New Year and at this rate unless I get off my butt I am not going to make it.

So time to get on with it!!!

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SKINNYSTRUMMER 11/22/2013 1:10PM

    Purple dress here you come!

I empathize with your struggles, That is a tough issue: medication side effect. But I love that you are not gonna let that stop you!

You go girl!

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GFYOGAMOM 11/17/2013 7:01PM

    Get that rear in gear my dear!! (What a rhyme!!) ;-) You CAN do it!! Glad to see you're finally seeing a glimmer of that light at the end of the tunnel!!

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PTM3RD 11/17/2013 1:57PM

    I, too, have had problems with eating servings that are way too large. I started measuring everything I ate, and that really helped me. I still do it, even now.

It is so difficult to cope with medication side effects while trying to find the energy and strength to exercise. I sincerely hope that things get easier and you feel 100% soon. emoticon

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Hitting a rough patch

Friday, October 25, 2013

I admit I seem to be going round and round in circles at the minute...

and feeling pretty overwhelmed by life in general

normally I can break out of the cycle but this time I have really been struggling. I look at my team leader and it amazes me how she keeps going regardless of what is going on and then everything that is going on around me seems trivial.

But depression is a tough one...

it can hit when I least expect it and hang around for a day or weeks! I know what I need to do to kick it, but the cure can be part of the problem. How do I, when all I want to do is curl up, get the motivation to go out for a run? Do something positive? Sleep well? Just feel human? I often just feel that I am just being silly and I need to give myself a kick up the rear end and stop moaning, but I can feel the build up.

Maybe a run will do it. Maybe a good cry, but either way I need to do something positive for myself, to get out of this rut, to feel human again and to not feel as though I am letting the side down.

So tonight the challenge is to sleep, no alarms, no work to worry about, just rest.

Tomorrow the challenge is to get out there and run

to be more positive

and to lift this cloud once and for all

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GFYOGAMOM 11/15/2013 8:30PM

    IMOGEN, I hope you're beginning to see the light at the end of the tunnel. I know how hard it can be to keep looking for that tiny twinkle of light when struggles keep blocking the path!!! YOUR LIGHT IS THERE!! DON'T GIVE UP!! My quote for today seems so appropriate here...

"When obstacles arise, change your direction to reach your goal; not the decision to get there." -Zig Ziglar

I KNOW you are a fighter and you will find a detour that finally leads you in the right direction!!

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JULIENMM 11/15/2013 5:49PM

    Hi Imogen, You posted this a few weeks ago, so I hope by now the fog has lifted (so to speak). I know what you mean when you say that you know what you need to do, but actually doing it is the hard part. (That's the way I feel about this whole weight loss journey. I know WHAT to do, it's just doing it that's the hard part.)

Keep your chin up!!!

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TRICIALICI 11/15/2013 11:42AM

    Sending a little love your way, Imogen! Thank you for sharing your thoughts. I have some family members who struggle at times with depression, so I know how tough that can be! Dealing with chronic pain can be exhausting and aggravate the depression. Take good care of yourself. We're cheering for you! emoticon

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    I hope your run lifts you out of your funk and raises your spirits!
I think writing your blog probably helped make you feel better too!

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    Sometimes when depression gets me I convince myself that is I exercise first, then I can curl up and wither. It helps by giving myself permissions. Glad you got in your run and your cry. Hopefully that will help lift the cloud! Hugs!

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SHEENADEE 11/2/2013 12:39AM

    Imogen - Congrats on getting out for that run when you didn't quite feel like it! I hope you are feeling better now. It is a tough time of year I think.

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STARDUST_1970 10/26/2013 6:05PM

    It is that time of year when the depression kicks us in the behind. The weather is getting colder and the sun is out less. I suffer from depressions at certain times of the year pretty badly so i know your pain. I just try to keep my focus on what is important and try not to get to hungry, tired, thirsty. I try to not let my emotions take over....not always easy...but if i stay focused on what i am feeling and evaluate my needs according to my feelings i can keep better control of them.
Good luck to you and hope you feel better.

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ITSYBITSYMAMA 10/26/2013 4:26PM

    Thanks everyone! I went for a short run this morning despite feeling a bit rubbish. I've watched X Factor and had a really good cry after getting quite emotional at two of the songs...The Arms of an Angel just gets me every time and I think the lad sang one bar and I was off and My heart will go on reminds me of a very dear friend and second dad who died the year that came out. Now having a late night video session with my two girls and promised myself to get online everyday!

I really appreciate the support x x x

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BRANDI1809 10/26/2013 3:37PM

    Thankfully I've never suffered with depression and I thank you for giving me an insight into the way you can be affected.
I hope that you wake up feeling more able to cope with life.
and together

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PINKHOPE 10/26/2013 10:29AM

    Sleep works wonders. I love your plan and I hope today brings you something that lifts your spirits.


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MJREIMERS 10/25/2013 9:21PM

    Hang in there! This journey, and the journey of life, isn't always easy, but you are a strong person and emoticon I'm sending positive energy your way!! emoticon

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HMJ5053 10/25/2013 8:57PM

    Hope you turn the corner and get back to where you want to be. emoticon

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STEVEN_D 10/25/2013 6:56PM

    What is it? Is it in the air? becasue this is the worst streak I have been going thru i n a long time. Still exercising and playing tennis, but the consumption of alcohol has gone way up. i have to get out of this too and a good long walk will help tomorrow. Hope you are feeling better soon.

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CHALLENGER15 10/25/2013 6:49PM

    I agree with BJPENNY70. Outside is best for me as well. emoticon

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BJPENNY70 10/25/2013 6:44PM

    Depression is not funny and very hard to deal with. Outside is a good start. I do better when I go outside and just walk. (I can't run right now). I also watch funny things of the evening on the television. Talk to someone that is very positive. I find praying helps me as well. Exercise when you get up tomorrow. Take that run. Maybe even go out and do it again that evening. Put things around you that make you happy. Always call on your Spark Friends.

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My adventures on BLC22

Friday, August 23, 2013

My initial goal was as always to lose pounds and inches...

So far this round I have lost a total of

so hopefully I will have a reasonable last weigh in and add to that number. It's just short of my overall goal of 21lbs...but I always like to give myself what we call at school 'aspirational' targets. That means its a tough one to reach so if I don't quite make it, it really isn't the end of the world.

What it does mean is that I am now 3/4 of the way to my initial 50lb goal. I have so far lost almost 40lbs! EVERYONE is noticing the change! I did enjoy strutting my stuff at work yesterday with people who have not seen me for 5 weeks emoticon

I am now into a UK

down from a size 16-18 and I have a couple of size 10's that I can get into too. So I have definately lost

The road has been a pretty bumpy one but the road to success is rarely a straight run is it?

I have had absolute great weeks....

and other weeks where it has been an uphill struggle

but its always good to remember

My confidence continues to increase, as does my self-esteem. I know I feel good and I am spending more time really looking at myself in the mirror. There is still more of a journey to go on, but its certainly not far to go now to meet that magic 50lb number.

I wouldn't have been able to do this without the support of my team mates on the last two rounds...The girls from the Ivory Falcons from BLC21

and the Golden Phoenix flock from BLC22

Without their support and encouragement it would be a very lonely place! It's just me and my girls at home, I don't get to go to a gym and work is stressful, so it's good to be able to get that support from them. I admire and appreciate every single one of them...

So where to go from here?

I have signed up for the next challenge to begin at the end of September. I can't wait!!! I have to get through the BLC break but I have a half marathon in 3 weeks time so I need to stay on the ball, so I hope that this break there will be a loss instead of a gain like the last break.

I aim to hit that 50lb mark and then once I have got there I will review it. Most important to me is that I am toned and I look healthy. I feel good when I have clothes on, I want to feel great when I'm naked!

Once I have completed the Great North Run then I will be looking for a new challenge. I have signed up for a reminder to sign up for the Edinburgh and Great North runs in 2014 so we shall see...

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FLORIDAFLUTIST 8/28/2013 12:20AM

    Imogen, it has been awesome to go through this journey with you! You have done an amazing job, and I am very excited for you to reach your 50 pound mark! You're almost there!

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MURPHI13 8/24/2013 3:21PM

  Love your blogs Imogen! You have done a wonderful job and look absolutely amazing. You will feel good naked in no time!

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KBRADFORD88 8/23/2013 9:10PM

    WOW You are smoking...I have been so inspired by you...Thanks

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LYNNANN43 8/23/2013 10:51AM

    Totally emoticon blog!!! emoticon

You totally inspired and rocked it this round!! emoticon

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BECCA315 8/23/2013 6:54AM

    emoticon for all your hard work, and your inspirational blog! I'm looking forward to the next challenge, too. Becca of the Mighty Mocha Hunters

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BRANDI1809 8/23/2013 5:41AM

    Congratulations on your success so far, you're an inspiration to us all.
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CHARRONMOE 8/23/2013 5:03AM

  Congratulations! It has given me hope - It takes time and not like 1 2 3 the weight is off. Always upset that it seems to take forever for me to loose. I am so glad for you I hope you go shopping!!!!

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ALL4BMI 8/23/2013 4:51AM

    Way to go! Congratulations

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Exciting times...

Saturday, August 17, 2013

In 6 days time my Mum returns to live in England from America.

I am so excited to have my Mama home after almost 14 years away. I understood, respected and supported her move, but at times it has been difficult, emotional and heartwrenching to have her so far away. I have had a couple of amazing holidays, but nothing beats having your mum not so far away.

The last time I saw my Mum was in May. I was over 150lbs and had lost 25lbs.

Since then I have managed to lose another stone (14lbs). I know she has worried about my weight, my physical health and my emotional health, so I hope she will be pleased with the transformation that is continuing to emerge.

So it got me thinking about the journey so far. It's had it's ups and downs, amazing weeks, OK weeks and downright awful weeks. I spent 8 weeks staying the same and it was because I wasn't putting the effort in. But OVERALL I have achieved plenty!

I have lost the equivalent of my daughter Eirlys!

I have completed my first half marathon!

I have dropped 4 dress sizes!

I have lost over 10% of body fat and gained muscle

Lost inches...

I'm keeping the depression at bay...

Have a better relationship with food...

and best of all is getting my mojo (i.e. my confidence and self esteem) back...

The journey is long, and sometimes it 2 step forwards and 1 step back...

but ultimately I am almost 3/4 of the way to my initial goal!

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MURPHI13 8/18/2013 5:00PM

  Beautiful blog Imogen! You have done a wonderful job and have nothing but celebrations to, well, celebrate! WTG ! You are an inspiration

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KNIBARG 8/17/2013 6:24PM

    Great blog! emoticon

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LIVEDAILY 8/17/2013 5:53PM

I know you are SO excited to have your mama home!! Our Mom's always worry about us, just as YOU worry about your own children, right? It's part and parcel of being a mama. I think she is very proud of all you have accomplished-you are her daughter- of course she is proud of you!! You have been really working hard this BLC, and it shows!!
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BRANDI1809 8/17/2013 2:14PM

    Fantastic blog, thank you for sharing.

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TREE57 8/17/2013 9:34AM

    Your transformation is amazing! I'd live to be there when your mum sees you!! What a wonderful welcome home!

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SATCHMO99 8/17/2013 8:46AM

    Hurray to your mum coming back to live in England!

Hurray to your weight loss

and Hip Hip Hurray to your new found confidence, mojo, determination and keeping your depression at bay.

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    What an amazing and inspirational journey! Your mum will be (and IS already) so proud! I have goose bumps reading your blog! emoticon emoticon emoticon Homecoming will be so very special!!!!!

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