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Me and the Chip Bag!!!

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

Last week I bought a big bag of Doritos Cool Ranch for my little boys. I'm not a chips kinda girl. I'll eat them if I want them, but that's hardly ever. Well, since they had been sitting on the counter for a few days, unopened, I decided to open them and eat a handful. No big deal. The next night I did the same thing. And the next night. And the next night. A handful. They were really good, I guess that's why I kept going back night after night. Then one night, I was helping my 5 y/o with his homework and I grabbed the whole bag and sat down with him. I was eating and munching, eating and crunching, eating and smacking... I ate just about the whole bag except for a few more chips in the bottom of the bag. I did manage to pass a few to my son. Afterwards, I just kinda looked at the bag amazed. I started feeling guilty because I've never done that before. Then as I was putting the bag away, I realized I was satisfied. I had had my fill of chips. They were good to me. And every night when I would go back, I was just teasing the craving I had instead of indulging in it and getting it over with. Well... guess what, no more chip craving. It left once I put the bag away. I can look at chips now, the way I did before... no desire. I don't know what that was all about. But I did realize that sometimes we can deprive our bodies of things too long or too much. SOMETIMES. Not all the time. Just like cravings, if we keep fighting them, they never truly go away. But if we satisfy the craving, it will go away and it won't come back for awhile.
I woke up the next morning and got on the scale to see I hadn't lost or gained 1 pound from those chips. It's when we go back again and again to satisfy a craving that was gone already, when the problem begins. So I've learned, to allow myself the chance enjoy some things and not look at food as the enemy. I made food my best friend and my worst enemy. Now we're just associates that see each other from time to time.

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MESSYJESSY22 11/24/2009 7:28PM

    I am so the same way! I am not a salty snack kind of girl but every so often the craving monster sneaks up on mean and I can't help but reach for a bag of dill pickle chips! I can usually hold off the cravings and dose them with a big glass of water, but you can't always cheat yourself out of indulging every once and a while. Keep up the good work and don't feel guilty about giving yourself a cheat every now and then.

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6 months and 15 days til I finally hit my first goal...

Thursday, May 21, 2009

I cannot believe it took 6 months to lose 15 lbs. I tried so hard to get rid of that 2 in front of the number on my scale. It has been almost 3 years since I've seen 1 anything. But you know what? It feels like I've hit the lottery. I kept looking at everybody's spark page and I noticed that everyone was losing 20-30 lbs in 6 months. When I first set my goal, I had no idea it was going to take this long. But I kept on going. I fell off a few weeks, but then I would get right back on it. I even injured myself, but I found other ways to workout. It was hard!!! But I want this so bad. I have had to believe that I can do more than I think I can. I don't think I realized how much I limit myself in life.
I remember every Monday morning since Dec. 1, 2008 (also when I joined SP), I would get on the scale excited to see the numbers go down. Then when it stopped, I was confused. I kept talking with my friends on SP, and family members. I continuously exercised 5-6 days a week. I even had a long, long, talk with God about our agreement (see my intro). But He was quiet. Then I realized what was going on. God wanted to see how serious I was. Sometimes we say we're going to do something and we sound serious, but when the tough gets going, we bail out.
Well Praise God! I didn't bail out. But I sure as heck wanted to emoticon. So here I stand at 199 lbs, and it's on now! I am going to try harder to reach my next goal. Heck I was so focused on the first goal, that i didn't even think about another. I also measure my inches lost and I have lost a good amount since I've started.
The best part about this weight loss is that I didn't use diet pills, and diet plans. I just did what I was supposed to do. That's probably why it also took so long. I believe that this is "permanent weight loss".

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JOURNEY36 5/21/2009 5:58PM

    How proud I am of you. That you didn't give up, even when you wanted to. If it would of taken you a yr., to loose 15lbs, you still accomplished it. For you and I both know that the race isn't giving to the strong or the swift but to the one who endures to the end. You keep enduring and you will be rewarded, physically and spiritually.

I've learn that it is beyond a food issue or a weight problem but are abilities to matter in are own lives. You continue to be present and God will honor you with his favor. I pray, that you or I, never forget our worth again. You matter so much in your family and friends lives and those of us on sp and especially to God. I know you will continue to be victorious in becoming a better you and all that you are doing. Because in Christ, you are more than a conqueror.

So to my sister in Christ, today I honor you for not surrendering and for standing on the word of God and believing you can do all things through Christ, who strengthens you. That means if you can do this through Christ, imagine what else you have been in fear of doing and shall do, like speaking in front of the church (smile). You deserve to pat your own self on the back and take a bow and breathe and keep it moving, for the battle is not over. Love, Your sister in Christ, Carla.

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Well I didn't meet my first goal--yet!

Thursday, April 09, 2009

I was trying so hard to get under 200 lbs by March 16th and it didn't happen. I was so frustrated. I have never been this heavy in my life. I figured to myself, since this is not my normal body, then it should come off really easy like i see other people on this website. I am doing all the exercise, the eating, the mind-set, and it seems it's not getting me to my goal. Then, I started asking myself the real questions. How long have I been in the 200 lbs category. I believe I got here 2 years ago after I broke my ankle. Sitting around the house, can't do anything, but still eating. It took approx. 8 months to heal from the whole thing. Then when I was ready to exercise, and I did, I started having some foot problems on the same leg. Needless to say, i was retricted to do only certain activities. I could still go to the gym and workout on the machines... but I didn't do it. Then I had surgery, and this left me impaired for another 6 months. What did I do during that time??? Go back to the above paragraph-- "sitting around the house, can't do anything, BUT STILL EATING."
Hmmph! It's funny how before you know it, the pounds just jump on you. Not to mention, I went through alot of emotional problems at home. Emotional Eating. Yep! That was me. Then I began to eat on purpose to make myself feel as bad as I was feeling. What did that do??? More weight.
So then the question I now ask myself is, how long it take to put all of this weight on??? About 2 years-as I stated before. So why did I think it was going to take 2 months to get it off??? emoticon Silly me. It may not take 2 years to get it off, but this process will take awhile. I have to adjust to that and understand it. Now I'm at the point where I am accepting it. I believe I can do it. emoticon

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CYNDISUE3 4/9/2009 7:45PM

    I can relate.
Lately, I have been completely obssesssed with my weight, as well as my high cholesterol level. The last 2 weeks, I have just been so angry at myself. I went for a run, and the whole run, I yelled at myself for letting this happen to me.
Let me be clear. I am one dress size too big. ONE! My real trouble is the cholesterol level which is 234 total and 150 LDL. And freaking out has resulted in my having a seizure in my sleep!
So, my new plan is to work on eating right, lowering the cholesterol, getting exercise, basically getting healthy. I just need to trust God with that which I can't control.

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LILSHINE 4/9/2009 1:36PM

    The process has begun - when you wrote this blog and began to get revelation knowledge on what this journey will truly take -- dedication and time. Be patient it will come too pass

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MELTNSUE 4/9/2009 1:32PM

    AMEN!! Be patient with yourself and trust God's ability to transform you.

Thank you for that AMAZING post you put on my page. Your "AMEN" really blessed me.
Take care,

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The Holidays are over? Did I succeed?

Monday, January 05, 2009

Well... it was interesting. I was off for 10 days and guess what happened? I ended up with a bad cold that lasted the whole 10 days. Sure I went back home for Christmas, but I laid on the couch for days and didn't have the strength to move, not a single workout. I ate, but not as much as I normally would with my mom doing all the cooking. I was a good girl for the most part. I did binge on a bag of peanut brittle though (lol). I have never liked it until that week. When I got back in town, I went running and went to the gym. I nearly lost a whole lung coughing. So I gave up. I decided that my body needed the one thing that I hardly ever gave it---REST. And in the end--- I didn't gain a single pound. Praise God! Thank you Jesus! We made it!

Now, no more distractions. These holidays are the hardest to get through. But they are over and I am ready to get into a steady schedule. I read one of the spark articles that said you must get enough sleep to assist with the weight loss. I tell you, I believe it now because I lost an inch around my hips and waist. Now I wanna see what I'm really made of...

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LANI63 3/5/2009 2:52PM

  Congratulations on your baptism - the renewal of life with Jesus can simply renew everything about us. Don't give up on the weight - keep working hard and praying much - do cardio - do prayer - do weights - do prayer. We have the victory we just need to grab hold of it. Many blessings with your weight and walk with Jesus!

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2 HOLYdays are coming... What am I going to do?

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

Well, all I can really think of is eating... okay, okay. This is the new me right? Well, I've actually been thinking of how I am going to workout from Christmas to New Years. I'm gonna go home and my brother is cooking a big pot of Gumbo... (grunts-MMMMM!) And I know he's not cooking "brown rice". That wouldn't be right anyways (lol)! But the pressure is on. This is the first time that I am actually going to keep the habit of eating right and working out during the holidays. I'll eat what everyone else is eating, but I'll only eat half of what 'I' would normally eat. I don't know what's going to happen. I just don't want to come back and have to start it up again. I need to keep it going. I am going to do my best to maintain the weight I have lost and try my hardest to lose some. CHALLENGE??? Yes. But if God is up for it, then why can't I be.

I've been looking at myself in the mirror and my pooch (ladies-yall know what that is) is getting smaller. Heck, I even see something like a 4-pack. I have a little more space in the seat of my pants. And when I walk, I feel lighter. My knees don't hurt so bad anymore. Praise God! Now do I really wanna mess 'all' of this up??? emoticon

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GAGALICIOUS 12/28/2008 11:28PM

    Hello! Thank you for the comment on my blog!! The Holidays tend to mess me up, too, but after the party's over on wednesday, it's back to working even harder!! Keep up your momentum, and stay's what i always try to do!!! It's great to meet you!! emoticon emoticon

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