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My "OMG - that's not me!" photo AND my squooshy flight. Get serious, already.

Monday, May 31, 2010

Photos - many of us who have weight to lose don't like them. If we have a lot of weight to lose, we like them even less. I'm usually ok about getting a photo taken. I think I know how to hide behind someone, how to stand, push the tongue to the roof of your mouth so that it makes your cheeks tuck in a bit... When someone snaps a photo of you when you aren't expecting it, and you're looking like you do on a normal-stay-at-home-do-nothing-day, the outcome can be horrifying - or in this case, truthful. I just came across a photo such as this. My bf took it a few months ago, but I just saw it today. I came to a decision - and it was a really tough decision for me to make. I have posted it on my sparkpage for all and me to see. I remain at the same weight. As long as I don't gain, I tell myself its ok. As long as I am conscious of what I'm eating, it's a step in the right direction, and then - I feel like I have these "aha" moments, decide, "this is is!" and then let them pass.
I think I have that body dismorphic thing where I don't see myself as overweight as I really am. I buy my clothes and know what size they are. When I look in the mirror, even though I'm wearing a size 3X, I think I look pretty decent in it. When I see "bad" photos of me, I can barely stand to look at them.
Plus - today, I flew on a plane with my bf who is also very overweight. We both squeezed into the two seats and buckled our seat belts - barely. I was so uncomfortable sitting there for the entire flight. I was sure that people were staring at us as we were arm-overlapping-arm because we didn't have enough shoulder room. I have started many times before. Will this be the last start?

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FIONNUALLA 6/1/2010 11:02AM

    I know the kind of picture you are talking about. I went to your sparkpage and looked at the picture in question. I thought "Those hunched shoulders, that tired look, those big loose clothes that I thought actually looked ok..... yep that could be me!"

Please continue to be real with yourself and take care of the problem. I will work on mine too.

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AUNTRACHEL 5/31/2010 11:25PM

    You can do it. Just take little steps to start. Don't make yourself overwhelmed by doing too much at once.

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TJMIK22 5/31/2010 10:40PM

    I totally understand how you feel. For awhile, I refused to believe that I looked overweight. I somehow convinced myself that I still looked alright in my outfits even though I kept untagging every picture of myself on Facebook because I was ashamed. I had my wake up call on my 21st birthday. I was trying to go out with my friends to celebrate, but I didn't have any clothes that fit. At that point, I was refusing to by clothes because I was embarrassed to go in the women's section at my age (and I belonged in a size 20/22 and a 2X). 55 pounds gone and almost two years later I am down to a size 14. My point is, take it slow! Make little changes and they will help in a big way. This will be your LAST start... you can do it!!!

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slow start but building momentum!

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

I've lost a few pounds, maintained, gained a few pounds, lost those few pounds. I read that people start off strong and then start to taper off or struggle. I feel like the beginning is the hardest for me. Once I start to see loss, it makes food choices just a little easier. I would like to lose 3-5 pounds by Wed. May 26. emoticon

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1THING 5/19/2010 11:08PM

    do what you can

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fairly decent choices today

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

I went to McDonalds for lunch today - a quick lunch. Instead of ordering a burger, I had a santa fe chicken salad. For dinner, instead of having regular pizza at a birthday dinner, I opted for veggie delite. I had cheese cake, but only half a slice. Sounds like I eat a lot of fast food - oh yeah - I do! But making healthier choices in the fast food lane today makes me feel like I haven't abandoned my new commitment to healthier eating.


no milkshake for me! Hooray!

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

This evening, we stopped at a fastfood place for my bf to get a LARGE milkshake. Guess what I got? An icetea. Wow. That was a huge deal for me because sweets are my downfall - oh yeah - along with pizza and chips. No shake for me. I'm off to do sit-ups before I go to bed.

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KATYBUG48 5/18/2010 12:28AM

  Good job!

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FITANDFIFTY2 5/18/2010 12:23AM

    emoticonCongratulations,,, and I know how hard that can be..woo hoo!!

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Sunday, May 02, 2010

Rainy weekend. I walked a tiny bit at the mall. I've been wearing a pedometer for part of the last week. I get about 5,000 steps. I know the goal is 10,000 but I'll work on that. No weight loss but making small changes.


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