Sunday, April 24, 2011
Long story short...hurt my foot, got mad, foot feels better. Weird? Yep!! Wrote a really long blog analyzing that and what it could mean and it was kind of too deep even for me, maybe that's why the computer ate it.
Most branches of medicine recognize in some way or another that emotions play a part in how the body feels. If you hold on to stress you will get sick or experience pain or something else (have a heart attack).
Several days ago I hurt my foot, no explanation, I just stood up and it hurt and kept getting worse. Forcing me to do practically nothing for 4 days. Today, I got mad and started sweeping and the pain went away. The flexibility that had been missing returned. I've experienced this with my knee. My knee will sometimes just "slide" out of place and stay stuck in a very painful position for an hour, several hours, a day, two days. There is no pattern or way to tell. Sometimes I can do this little leg jiggle, popping thing and it will slide right back, sometimes there is no budging it until it decides to go. It is almost like this is what my toe did...slid out of place and then suddenly popped right back, leaving residual soreness, but nothing that could be called pain.
The suddenness of the relief coupled with the intense emotion made me think about how out of balance my life has been. I've been experiencing some of the most prolonged and intense stress I've ever known. I've been keeping the plates spinning, but it hasn't been great. Just as I think I've got them going and they will do that for awhile something happens and one of them stops spinning, or slows down so much it is about to crash. Other times I'll know I've got them going good now and can take a breather, but then I look and someone has added a few more plates. I'm constantly running and trying to keep things going. My housework has suffered, my school work has suffered, my workouts have suffered, my laundry has suffered, I have suffered from this stress in my life. What have I done to deal with it? Evidently not enough. I have been trying to be calm, supportive, helpful, useful, happy, upbeat, etc. I haven't however been acknowledging how I really feel about some things and I've been ignoring them instead of finding answers to the problems. Does this have an effect on my foot? Most American Doctors would say "no way". Eastern medicine however acknowledges that it is entirely possible that my injury and my stress are tied together in ways that can be hard to explain. Whatever the case I can see that there need to be some changes. I cannot continue running from plate to plate and still be the person I want to be.
So, it is Sunday and I am setting some goals for the week.
1. Each day this week I will do a "one-page journal". A one-page journal is where I sit down and evaluate my day. Particularly the BAD parts of the day. What ticked me off? What caused stress? What made me mad? It all goes down on paper and gets evaluated. Why did that make me mad? Can I avoid this situation in the future? Is this a person or situation that HAS to be a part of my life? What can I do better? I'm still going to deal with events as a mature, loving person. This is not a license to lose my temper so I'll have something to write down. It is something more personal...an acknowledgement that even though I did not flip her off the cussing baseball mom made me really angry and what can I do about it? This instead of trying to pretend that she doesn't make me furiously angry with her bullying, childish, and rude behavior. The list goes in the trash because that is where negativity belongs, what will stay behind are the goals and ideas that will help me be a better person who is more able to deal with stress.
2. Yoga is making a BIG come back...3-4 sessions this week and hopefully each week from here on out. For me, yoga works. It helps me focus. It helps me find my center. It helps me find balance in more ways than one. I feel the difference in stress levels before and after yoga.
3. Personal scripture time. I seldom mention my religion or spirituality in this space. I have spent a lot of time compartmentalizing my life. Unfortunately life cannot be compartmentalized. Everything works together...each piece a different cog in a machine that needs to work more efficiently. This part is VERY personal though and this space is more about the fitness journey. I am recognizing for myself though that this time plays a big part in my overall fitness. Emotional fitness affects physical fitness affects spiritual fitness. So this piece needs to be done daily...besides the fact that for me, scripture study is a portal to meditation which is a portal to inspiration which solves problems.
4. Physical fitness. It feels good to work out. It releases stress. It makes me happy. As of now my foot still feels much, much, much better. I am NOT however rushing out the door on a run. Nope, I will try something a little lower impact over the next couple of days and give it a chance to keep healing. Day by day as far as the foot goes. Maybe I'll pull out the Tae-bo or bootcamp DVDs that have been in their folder since last year when half-marathon training took over my life.
Seeking a balanced life won't be easy, but I know that when I have balance I will feel better and I will have fewer injuries and illnesses. I will be all around healthier when I live a balanced life. Let some of the plates crash to the ground, not all of them are important and I need to give my energy to the ones that ARE important.
*crash*...that's the sound of one less spinning plate
Thursday, April 21, 2011
As I sit here, nursing my foot, I am bored!! My foot, by the way, is feeling somewhat to considerably better today. It still hurts if I move it the wrong way or put too much weight on it, but I can move it in quite a few ways now without pain. My big toe is functional, but only if I'm wiggling it sitting down (no weight on it). The majority of the problem is definitely localized to the ball of my foot and not the toes or arch. I'm ricing the heck out of it and things are showing improvement. I think all I'm lacking is a pair of crutches for the next couple of days-anybody got a pair? LOL!! I do have a message into a podiatrists office, no response yet...they are a multi-office group though and it is entirely possible they are elsewhere today (One dr. multiple locations). Truthfully I was surprised to find out that there actually was a podiatrist in town-lol!! Medically speaking we are still a bit behind here! It is probably because of how many old people we have and the number of problems the elderly have with their feet. NOT something I want so gotta heal this foot!
I am bored though...I've had enough of my hulu queue and my brain is fried from the math I did yesterday-lol! I did get some good math work done :). I missed my run this morning and my body is chastising me!! So, as I sit here bored, bored, bored, I send my hubs out to Wal-Mart for a couple things we need for dinner tonight and some things we need to play Easter Bunny this weekend. Naturally we try to limit the amount of candy...no 3 foot chocolate rabbits here, but candy is still a part of their lives and it will NOT all be eaten in an hour, so we needed some candy. So off goes hubs, I'm sitting here bored and I realize something I didn't put on the list, but am okay with it because we still had good stuff on the list...that one item though kept nagging me...only it's not nagging me because I want it for the kids, not anymore, now I want it for ME!! What is the mystery item that has me so thoroughly distracted? A Reese's Peanut butter Egg. Couldn't get it out of my mind. And made a mistake...I texted the hubs and told him what I wanted. It's on its way here. DANG!! What did I do? I was bored that's what I did!! So, I will cut that little bugger into 3 pieces and I can have one piece now. The others go in the freezer and will be special treats...1 at a time!!
The next thing I am doing is hobbling over and picking up my weights. I can do upper body!! I can do some leg lifts and probably some leg curls. Can I do pendulum on my bed? Wonder if it is supportive enough for that? Getting down on the real floor and then back up again is probably out of the question, but I can do something while I sit here. I'm not completely useless. And then, time for some Renaissance reading since I did so much math yesterday. Then later I can keep planning my playground workout so that when I can do it we'll be set to go. Not gonna be bored because I am stuck in one location.
Wednesday, April 20, 2011
Well, that pain from yesterday? Much, much worse today. I've stayed off my foot for the most of the day, walking only when absolutely necessary. I can't bear any weight on my foot and can only hobble along if I carefully use the side of my foot for support. I called my doctor today and his assistant thinks I broke it. I think the chances of that are about 10%. Today was way too busy and I couldn't get anywhere to have it looked at. So I am still icing and staying off of it and if it isn't any better tomorrow it is off to the ER with me.
I did a little online research and am 90% sure that what I did is called TurfToe. It is an injury specific to the ball of your foot and big toe. In your foot you have the long bones that make up the foot itself with the shorter toe bones connecting at the ball of your foot. At the big toe there are an addition toe bones (itty-bitty ones) and all these bones together create the ball of the foot. Turf toe is an injury involving the tendons of that joint. For whatever reason the toe does not flex at intended and the tendons become injured. Unfortunately, if that is what I did, the treatment and recovery are much the same as a broken foot. So half dozen of one-six of the other kind of situation. Ibuprofen for pain and swelling and about six weeks to heal, at least some of that time spent in a cast or boot.
I'll keep you updated, but this really is not looking good. It is three and a half weeks to my mud run and about six to the 10K. If I can't run neither one of those is going to happen. I am massively bummed and really, really, really, really, really, really, really hope it is not what I think it is. I hope I just bumped something out of place and when I wake up in the morning I will be sore, but not in pain. I'm not keeping high hopes though. I am really bummed I won't be able to do the (hopefully) really fun playground workout I was planning. I don't like being in pain.
Okay, well, Rice tonight, rice, rice and more rice and if I can find my wrap, I'll do that too. Positive thoughts and energy and I'll be back to bring you up to date.
Tuesday, April 19, 2011
So here is are the basics...hike on Saturday created sore muscles and interestingly enough sore feet. Not really a problem, muscles and feet were feeling better each day until just a bit ago. I stood up and went to take a step and got this incredible pain on the bottom of my foot. Right on the big joint that forms the ball of the foot. If I press on it it really hurts. Doesn't feel good...hmmm. If I walk just right it doesn't hurt, but if I put pressure on the ball of my foot it hurts. Better go away immediately, because I can't imagine that running with it like that would work well....Any thoughts? Anybody else ever have this. Does not feel like plantar fasciitis, not across the arch of my foot, but right on the ball of my foot. Ice? I've been going barefoot around the house a lot....know what I think I might have just solved it-lol!!! Yeah, that barefoot around the house thing...I stepped on one of my son's legos-yesterday, day before, something like that!! A bruise? Does it sound like a bruise? Or did I do something on the hike? I don't know, but I think I'll threaten the existence of my son's legos just for the heck of it anyways-lol!! Thoughts?
Monday, April 18, 2011
I'm working on my race calendar and have registered for a couple and have some that I am definitely doing, just have to send in the registration, some that are on the maybe list and one that is on the volunteer for list. So here it is so far.
May 14th-Jurassic Classic Mud Run (my first mud run!)
June 4th-Idyllwild 10K (going back for a race PR)
Sept. 3-Disneyland 5K and Kids Races
December 10th-Holiday Half-5K and kids races (not the half at this point, just the 5K)
Beginning of November-The Mission Inn Half (same half as last year-would be returning for a race PR)
Thanksgiving Day-Oceanside Turkey Trot
December 11th-Holiday Half Marathon (if I do this one it will be to show I am crazy enough to do a 5K and Half back-to-back-lol!!)
End of Sept.- Survivor Mud Run
The HUGEST MAYBE of all and the race that the other two half-marathons are dependent on is this one...
The as yet unannounced-Tinkerbell Half Marathon at Disneyland, January 2012
The newest Disney race won't be announced until tomorrow, but this art work has been "leaked". If it's true and if I can get registered before the registration fills up (always a risk with Disney races) I will most likely pass on the other two Halfs I have on my maybe list and aim for just this one. I think that even by the end of the year I won't be at a level to do two half-marathons within two or three months of each other. BUT, that is also why these are all maybes. If training goes super well, maybe I will do two (scary thought). Some things still need some planning on my list and I am still looking for a couple more 5's and maybe another 10 (depending on how the Idyllwild race goes). My year is starting to look good and I am getting excited about the races I'll be doing :). Happy Monday everyone (I needed this motivation to get moving on this cloudy, lazy Monday) :).
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