Wednesday, November 03, 2010
So, I am sitting here at the end of a kind of busy day (yes, I went and voted, but it was just a small part of the day). I haven't really even looked at Spark today, I've been on the computer some here and there and it's been on all day, but I haven't been behind the keyboard until tonight. I check a few things, take a peek at Facebook, add a few shows to Netflix streaming, check FB one more time and then head over to my e-mail for a quick peek...there are a couple of Spark related things that I wasn't expecting since I haven't been around the last couple of days. The first thing I click on is a notice that I've recieved a trophy. Oh, okay, that's right it is the beginning of the month and trophies are going out...so, which one is it? I couldn't think of which one it could be, pull up the message and see that I received a fitness minutes award. "REALLY? Fitness minutes?" I really added up over a 1,000 minutes this month? Crazy!! Yes, crazy and for two reasons...First, I really don't feel like I did that much last month. Second, I don't track half of what I do-loL!! I'll go in and I make sure I track my weekend long runs but I'll often miss everything during the week, unless I remember to go back and fill it in. I'm sure if I get better at tracking I'll get used to seeing that trophy at the end of the month!!
The second item I checked on was a comment on my feed. The item was the notice of the trophy and the comment was from Sleepydean to the effect of my long runs during October helped. And yes, she would be right!! Those long runs really boosted the total, mostly because it takes me FOREVER to cover the distance-lol!! The key to getting a thousand minutes is to run REALLY, REALLY, SLOWLY!! LOL!!! Also, really, track EVERYTHING!! I wonder, how many minutes would I have accumulated if I had tracked EVERYTHING?
I started last month strong with a weekly tracking goal and then promplty lost it after about 1 week. Which, by the way, is the best I've done so far. lol!! New month, new start, time to track everything!! Gotta go into the holidays STRONG!!
Happy beginning of November everyone!! Hope the month goes well for everyone...wonder if I'll get the fitness minutes award again next month??? :)!!
Saturday, October 30, 2010
Today was our 12 mile run. Luckily, my husband got home late last night and I was able to meet up with my sister, because I really don't think I would have done it on my own!
Got up this morning and figured that with the warm weather we've been having my short sleeve tech shirt would be fine. Left the house and thought it was just a little chilly, but the sun hadn't made an appearance yet so I still thought I was fine. Got to my sis' and opened the car door and couldn't believe the difference in temps between her end of town and mine. There was quite a brisk wind blowing at her end of town that stayed with us the entire time we were in her neighborhood. I should have worn the long sleeved shirt. Still thought I would be fine though. There were a few clouds in the sky, but could still see many stars peeking through. Finished the section of our run that was contained within my sis' neighborhood and headed into the wide world.
Wish I had taken my camera, running east I was greeted with the most gorgeous sunrise I think I have ever seen, and since I've been running I've gotten to see a few. The sunrise was trying to tell me something...it was a rosy red sunrise, just a pretty as could be. Long ago a college friend told me the old adage "Red sky at morning, sailor take warning. Red sky at night, sailor's delight" and I've never forgotten it until, apparently, today. The sunrise really was gorgeous. We get that sun coming over the mountain sunrise that children love to draw and this morning you could literally see the beams of light coming over the mountain -it looked a lot like this pic from Photobucket.com only with a mountain instead of a body of water...
So, I enjoyed the sunrise until I had to turn...kept running and felt good. The route took us back to my end of town and luckily right past my house. We had been getting slight little sprinkles of rain all along, but nothing that worried me or was annoying. It felt good. So, I changed the route just a tiny bit to take me home for a quick pit stop and water bottle refill. Decided to grab my visor while there to keep the sprinkles off my glasses and grabbed the vest I wear when it is cold and was back on the road. As soon as I stepped outside the house it started raining!! No sprinkles actual, full-blown, I can't believe this is happening rain. I have run in drizzles and a little in actual rain, but I think this was the craziest weather I've ever run in. A little past 8 miles I encounter an old guy driving his little motorized scooter down the street, he's got a little canopy over his scooter and the whole get-up has me thinking about Oklahoma and the surrey with the fringe on top. Old guy chewed me out for being out with short sleeves and not much of a jacket and hat!! Okay, I know, I could be better dressed, but really I was setting a good pace and didn't really feel cold. Didn't have time to explain so I just nodded and moved on :). I walked a good part of mile 8 and all of mile 9. I ran all of mile 10 and then got to the park where I did a lap to tack on a little distance to what I shorted myself by going home instead of following the route exactly, by the time I reached the park the sun was back out and I had to unzip my vest. Walked all of mile 11 and mile 12. I was barely moving by the time I hit 12...although, I was still setting a 20 min/mile pace which amazed me! I thought I was pretty much crawling and I know to a lot of people I was, but for me 20 min/miles are still pretty good.
I was beat by the time I was done, but I did it I went 12 miles!! Just have to tack on one more!! I could have done it, it would not have been a pretty, but I could have gone 1 more mile... I know what I did "wrong" though. The first 7 miles I pushed a little too hard. I was having TOO good a time on my run and even though I stuck to my walking breaks and fueling plans I think I ran too fast. In two weeks, for the real deal, I am planning on walking the first couple of miles and making sure the kinks are all worked out before I start running. Walking the start will also get me past the worst of the hills that are a part of the race course. I will pace with the walkers for most of the run and try to take it easy so I can still finish strong. Finishing in 4 hours is my plan (basically a walker's time not a runner's) and I am good with that. I just want to finish and then I can put 12 mile runs behind me for a little while while I focus on the mid-distance and getting faster!
So, it was blustery, it was rainy, it was random, and it was crazy, but I'm still willing to do it all over again in two weeks, for real this time!!
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
First, I am waaaay behind on my Sparkreading, but I'm working on getting caught up!! I'll be around tonight leaving messages if everyone co-operates!! Son was up until 9:30 last night!! He really wanted to finish the book he's been reading (How to Train Your Dragon) so he could test on it today and rack up some reading points. One quick brag...he's in second grade and How to Train...is a level 6 book!! The kid is smart so how could I not let him finish a book? Then he wanted me to quiz him so he would be prepared. Generally this is really easy all I have to do is skim the book and figure out some questions, but it's really hard to "skim" a 214 page book and come up with questions!! We found some questions on line though, but then I had to skim for the answers since they weren't provided-lol!! Anyways, turned into a long night with me not getting a whole lot done!!
So, the title part...In the last 2 weeks I've dropped about 3 pounds-YAY!! But, now I'm thinking maybe I'm part grizzly bear. Aside from increasing my mileage in running I'm not doing anything hugely different than before but all summer long I've been increasing my mileage and didn't drop a single pound and even managed to bounce up and down in a 5 pound range all summer. Very frustrating!! Now, all of a sudden the temps drop and so does my weight!!
I would seem, that like a bear, I was foraging all summer and hanging on to weight so I wouldn't starve during the long winter months!! I'm just wondering, if I'm part bear why can't I just go into hibernation too?! Then at the end of winter I can emerge in the spring looking !! Ehh..whatever!! I'm just glad it is moving again. Although it does worry me a little that apparently I have to run at least 6 miles or more every weekend to get the results ... .
Nah, it's all good...6 miles is a good distance, when I'm done "training" for the half it might become my go-to long run distance. That way I'm always prepared for a 10K and I can be ready to train for any halfs that come along . because I've already decided that I'm pretty sure a half is the longest I'll ever do! I just don't see myself doing a marathon...ever!! I love running, it has become something I really enjoy and will do for as long as I possibly can. I am hoping that I will be the running grandma that blows past some newbie runner and makes them go "wow look at that old lady go...I hope I'm still running when I'm that old". I just can't picture myself doing a full Marathon. Going the half is kind of stretching my imagination to the limit at the moment and I'm one of those people who has a hard time starting a goal unless I can actually "see" myself completing it! I could "see" myself running so I am. I can "see" myself eating more healthy meals. I can "see" myself finishing the half. It isn't a pretty finish, but it is there just the same. I cannot see myself training and doing 26.2.
I CAN see myself learning to snowshoe. I can see myself learning to cross-country ski. I cannot see myself down hill skiing . I went once and probably only survived without serious injury because I was 14 and had really strong bones. If I tried again now I'd probably break myself in a really horrible fashion. Really. None of you saw that first and only downhill skiing event, if you had you wouldn't be questioning this!! My sis wasn't there either, but she can attest to the many ways I am capable of breaking myself and putting me on skis and expecting me to stay upright all the way down a mountain was a bad, bad idea in the first place. Trust me...
Now I am working on seeing myself crossing that finish line in 3 short weeks in under 4:00:00. That would be nice... Now that I am hibernating and losing the summer flab that will keep me going over the long winter months maybe that will happen-lol!!
Hope everyone is having a great week so far!!
Monday, October 25, 2010
First, had a really fun run on Saturday! Went to Riverside to Fairmount park and went running out there. The park is beautiful, for the most part. Just like a lot of larger city parks there were clusters of people, where, if you were running alone at dusk or dawn you might feel uncomfortable running past them, but it was daylight and we were a group so it wasn't so bad. I wish I had taken my camera, it really had some beautiful areas. The run itself was not as successful. The rainy weather has my knee acting up (at least I'm blaming the moisture because apparently that is what you do as you get older and things like knees start giving you more problems-lol). It took me a mile and a half and three stretching sessions and a half mile of walking to work out the normal kinks that usually run for cover after just half a mile of running and two stretching sessions. Then after a bit other things started acting up, something in my tail bone hurt, my achilles was pulling, and my shins were not hurting but just on the verge of hurting. Most of the run it was just a mild annoyance, but when I hit mile six and I was back in the park and in a convinient place to give up that's just what I did. I was actually happy with the six, not the 10 I had planned, but six was good. No soreness after just six so that was good too.
The rest of the weekend was relaxing and went by quickly.
This morning I sent my husband off to Utah for a job interview. He will be gone a minimum of one week and he has with him our one and only car....SO I will get lots of walking in this week taking the kids to school and picking them up again :)!! Getting milage this week will not be a problem! Getting it running WILL be a problem, I don't have a jogger so it is pushing 40 pound 4 y.o. daughter in either one of those too short, super cheap, but lightweight, umbrella strollers or in the big heavy double stroller. We'll give it a try anyways, at least on the trips when it is just the two of us, don't know how the other two will take having to run the whole way home (under a mile one-way) lol!!
So, it is about noon here in So. Cal and hubs should be nearing his first real stop, somewhere near Las Vegas and I miss him. I hate it when he is gone, I can't sleep...Hopefully though, this trip will be worthwhile!! He will be staying in Utah the entire week. The interview is only one day, but he will pound the pavement the rest of the week and we will evaluate at the end of the week what to do next. If he gets the job he is staying up there until he gets us a place to live and we can join him (hopefully by the Thanksgiving weekend).
This gives me the chance to run my half here in So. Cal though so that is a good thing!!
I've been spending lots of time doing mental pro/con lists about Utah...Pro we get away from the drama queens MIL and SIL/Con we are far away from the non-drama mom and sis (even my hubs agrees with these evaluations). Pro-there are actual seasons in Utah/Con there is snow in Utah (of course the kids see this as a pro). Pro the economy is better in Utah than in Cali/Con-actually I haven't thought of a con for that one! Con-shorter outdoor running season unless I can learn to run in the frigid cold/Pro-there are a LOT of races in Utah during the warmer months. A quick search resulted in at least 5 halfs I could run from April through the end of July!! That is kind of a lot but I would definately want to run two of them and have already told hubs that if we move he is giving me those races as compensation for the move!
The first is the half connected with the Salt Lake City Marathon, the second is a Pioneer Day Race, I think it was in Provo (very near where we would be moving). Pioneer day is a Utah State Holiday, it commemorates the day the Pioneers entered the Salt Lake Valley. This race encourages costumes and we have already determined a way I could run in a modified pioneer dress and a bonnet. I think it would be HILARIOUS and so much fun to run!! So, if we move there is something to look forward to, now I just have to get through the next week (or more) without my husband and we'll be doing fine. Fingers crossed....if it's meant to be it will happen. I'll keep you posted!!
Friday, October 15, 2010
Okay, so I just wrote a venting blog and will probably take it down in the next couple of minutes. I am going to sum up the vent in a more positive note...
I am a participant in the Done Girls seasonal challenge and will probably be backing out because I COMPLETELY disagree with the focus and how many of the challenges are done.
The "challenge" for the last week was to share the spark (not against this just against that it was worded to assume that I DON'T share the spark-I share the spark so often that I don't have anybody to share it with THIS week, because I am always telling people about Sparkpeople). I stumbled upon Sparkpeople myself about 5 years ago when I wanted a free alternative to Weight Watchers...imagine my surprise when I actually found it!! I started sharing the good news that very same day. Spark has changed a bit since then, getting better all the time and I still tell people about spark. I post explanations all the time when I forget to uncheck the link on the status and accidentally post something spark specific to Facebook-lol!!
But, the real sticking point for me, the point that got me all riled up, was a challenge to sit and think about how I got to this point. Simply put, I'm done thinking about how I got here.
Here is where it gets positive. Spark is all about moving forward. I firmly believe that most of the people who are here and SERIOUS about being here have indulged in that backwards type of thinking so much that they are here because of it. Did that make sense? In other words Spark is here for the people who are tired of thinking about why they are fat and ready to do something to fix it. I firmly believe that thinking backwards only moves you backwards. It is like when your driving instructor tells you to keep your eyes forward because the car goes where your eyes go. (Maybe I'm the only one who got that lesson?) I believe that most of us are working to change the beliefs, thought patterns, habits, whatever you can think of that made us fat in the first place. I don't want to waste more time looking back.
The phrasing of the challenge also made the assumption that our feelings and thoughts about our current weight would be negative (calling them demons). Know what? Yep, I'm still fat, I am. It's a fact, everything points to it. BUT, my beliefs about myself are no longer negative. AMAZING, somebody should do a study...how can a fat person still have a positive self image? By looking forward!! I am fat now, but I don't weigh the same I did at my heaviest. I am fat now, but I can run a 10K (actual running) and I can run/walk 9 miles and am trying for 10 this weekend. I CAN do so many things I couldn't a year ago!! I have a positive outlook because I am living in the present, not the past...
If I maintain a negative self belief system and focus only on my past how can I accomplish all that???!!
I have thought and cried and thought and cried over the things that got me here and I am DONE...Part of the reason I joined the DONE GIRLS to start with. I was DONE thinking that my past defines me now. I was DONE being sad about things that happened so long ago. I was DONE thinking I had no control. I was DONE thinking that I couldn't change things. I was DONE thinking that who I am is defined by my fatness.
I have proven in the year past that I and only I determine who I am. Sitting and pondering the past is not really all that beneficial in my humble opinion AND really best left to professionals to guide and advise. I have truly seen people who are classified as mentally ill because they can't move beyond the past. A lot of money is spent each year by both individuals and state/federal health programs to help people who spend too much time on their past move beyond that place.
Keep your eyes forward, the car goes where your eyes go. Want to move forward? Don't spend TOO much time analyzing your past. Most of the time you couldn't have changed that defining event anyways. At six years old I had no part in my dad leaving us, it did take me a long time to actually realize that, but once I did I also realized that I do have control over the me I am now.
I want to say, too, that when we give our problems big, scary names like "demons" it gives them power they haven't earned. Some people really do have DEMONS in their past. Problems that are so big and so scary that just the thought of a problem like that gives us all the heebie-jeebies. For most of us life is just that, life. With joys and problems, hopes and fears, and for the most part shining a light on the problem or fear shows it for what it really is...usually something that can be dealt with and worked through if we try. Eating two cupcakes does not a demon make. There are real monsters out there but most of us just have a branch knocking on the window that we can choose to trim back. The final part of the challenge was to find two ways to deal with those "demons". This is beneficial when we change "demons" to triggers, or temptations or cupcakes. Find two ways to deal with your cupcakes!! I still like to eat under stress...that is a trigger. I still love chocolate brownies or cupcakes under any circumstance, that is a temptation. They are not demons and something that I can work around with some thought and preparation.
That being said, I want to recognize that we all move at our own pace and some people might still be where they need to think about the past, but I honestly believe too that the past is the past and that the real benefit of looking back is to see how far we've come (or to prevent making a mistake over again). Life really is like a river in that sense. Yesterday is water under the bridge it can't be recaptured and it can't be changed but tomorrow is still coming and you CAN do something about tomorrow. Get your toes in the water so that you don't miss what life is bringing you tomorrow, it could be really great!!
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