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12 crazy, insane, and wild miles....can't believe I did it...

Saturday, October 30, 2010

Today was our 12 mile run. Luckily, my husband got home late last night and I was able to meet up with my sister, because I really don't think I would have done it on my own!

Got up this morning and figured that with the warm weather we've been having my short sleeve tech shirt would be fine. Left the house and thought it was just a little chilly, but the sun hadn't made an appearance yet so I still thought I was fine. Got to my sis' and opened the car door and couldn't believe the difference in temps between her end of town and mine. There was quite a brisk wind blowing at her end of town that stayed with us the entire time we were in her neighborhood. I should have worn the long sleeved shirt. Still thought I would be fine though. There were a few clouds in the sky, but could still see many stars peeking through. Finished the section of our run that was contained within my sis' neighborhood and headed into the wide world.

Wish I had taken my camera, running east I was greeted with the most gorgeous sunrise I think I have ever seen, and since I've been running I've gotten to see a few. The sunrise was trying to tell me something...it was a rosy red sunrise, just a pretty as could be. Long ago a college friend told me the old adage "Red sky at morning, sailor take warning. Red sky at night, sailor's delight" and I've never forgotten it until, apparently, today. The sunrise really was gorgeous. We get that sun coming over the mountain sunrise that children love to draw and this morning you could literally see the beams of light coming over the mountain -it looked a lot like this pic from Photobucket.com only with a mountain instead of a body of water...


So, I enjoyed the sunrise until I had to turn...kept running and felt good. The route took us back to my end of town and luckily right past my house. We had been getting slight little sprinkles of rain all along, but nothing that worried me or was annoying. It felt good. So, I changed the route just a tiny bit to take me home for a quick pit stop and water bottle refill. Decided to grab my visor while there to keep the sprinkles off my glasses and grabbed the vest I wear when it is cold and was back on the road. As soon as I stepped outside the house it started raining!! No sprinkles actual, full-blown, I can't believe this is happening rain. I have run in drizzles and a little in actual rain, but I think this was the craziest weather I've ever run in. A little past 8 miles I encounter an old guy driving his little motorized scooter down the street, he's got a little canopy over his scooter and the whole get-up has me thinking about Oklahoma and the surrey with the fringe on top. Old guy chewed me out for being out with short sleeves and not much of a jacket and hat!! Okay, I know, I could be better dressed, but really I was setting a good pace and didn't really feel cold. Didn't have time to explain so I just nodded and moved on :). I walked a good part of mile 8 and all of mile 9. I ran all of mile 10 and then got to the park where I did a lap to tack on a little distance to what I shorted myself by going home instead of following the route exactly, by the time I reached the park the sun was back out and I had to unzip my vest. Walked all of mile 11 and mile 12. I was barely moving by the time I hit 12...although, I was still setting a 20 min/mile pace which amazed me! I thought I was pretty much crawling and I know to a lot of people I was, but for me 20 min/miles are still pretty good.

I was beat by the time I was done, but I did it I went 12 miles!! Just have to tack on one more!! I could have done it, it would not have been a pretty, but I could have gone 1 more mile... I know what I did "wrong" though. The first 7 miles I pushed a little too hard. I was having TOO good a time on my run and even though I stuck to my walking breaks and fueling plans I think I ran too fast. In two weeks, for the real deal, I am planning on walking the first couple of miles and making sure the kinks are all worked out before I start running. Walking the start will also get me past the worst of the hills that are a part of the race course. I will pace with the walkers for most of the run and try to take it easy so I can still finish strong. Finishing in 4 hours is my plan (basically a walker's time not a runner's) and I am good with that. I just want to finish and then I can put 12 mile runs behind me for a little while while I focus on the mid-distance and getting faster!

So, it was blustery, it was rainy, it was random, and it was crazy, but I'm still willing to do it all over again in two weeks, for real this time!!

  
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LOGOULD 11/5/2010 11:30PM

    WOW! What's more amazing to me is that you went into your house - came out - were that close to home when it started to RAIN and didn't turn around....you are my new hero!

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SMILESRME 11/5/2010 2:38PM

    Wow! I just read your blog about your 12 mile training run as you prepare for your half! Whoot! Thanks for your inspiration and dedication. Thanks too, for your encourgement on my blog about my second half marathon tomorrow in CO. It's reading about other people on Sparks and the challenges, accomplishments, struggles and joys that we all share, is what keeps me going.

I will look forward to reading about your amazing race that is coming soon! Thank you for blessing me.

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ESBELL 11/1/2010 5:23PM

    I'm getting so excited for your race!

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4EVERADONEGIRL 11/1/2010 5:18PM

    You did awesome!! We are so totally ready for that Half Marathon! 12 days and counting!!

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KSW1963 10/31/2010 11:38PM

    One of the most impressive thing to me is that you went in your house....and then back out again to finish the run. Now that young lady is discipline! You are ready for the half! Amazing accomplishment! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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DARINGR8LY 10/31/2010 2:41PM

    While I was out of town I heard it was raining. I knew you guys could get through it. I know how hard the ten were. Congratulations on doing all 12!

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ANNEKATHLEEN 10/31/2010 3:31AM

    Woo hooooo!!~! GREAT JOB!

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SLEEPYDEAN 10/31/2010 3:03AM

    It was so cold out this morning - and I under dressed so I wouldn't overheat. Can't wait to see what the weather will be like in two weeks. My first six were rough I just didn't feel warm. But I did sleep in and avoid the rain. Bring on the real deal!

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VELLE9 10/30/2010 11:29PM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon Great job running through the rainy weather because I probably would have stepped back into the house and called it a day emoticon

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PAPPHEM 10/30/2010 11:04PM

    Holy cow! 12 miles! Go you!!

I'm getting used to running in the rain and I think I'm actually starting to like it. It's very peaceful and keeps you cool! emoticon

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IMSMILEY88 10/30/2010 10:46PM

    Wow! 12 miles is wonderful!!! I was happy to hit 7 miles today. Someday, I'll hit 12, too!

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LINDSAYHENNIGAN 10/30/2010 9:56PM

    That is the BEST feeling!!! Amazing accomplishment, well done.

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WENDYWITKOSKI 10/30/2010 8:16PM

    Way to go!
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JILLIANPRNCSS 10/30/2010 7:41PM

    So proud of you. I would have turned around when it started raining.

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Maybe I'm part Grizzly Bear...

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

First, I am waaaay behind on my Sparkreading, but I'm working on getting caught up!! I'll be around tonight leaving messages if everyone co-operates!! Son was up until 9:30 last night!! He really wanted to finish the book he's been reading (How to Train Your Dragon) so he could test on it today and rack up some reading points. One quick brag...he's in second grade and How to Train...is a level 6 book!! The kid is smart so how could I not let him finish a book? Then he wanted me to quiz him so he would be prepared. Generally this is really easy all I have to do is skim the book and figure out some questions, but it's really hard to "skim" a 214 page book and come up with questions!! We found some questions on line though, but then I had to skim for the answers since they weren't provided-lol!! Anyways, turned into a long night with me not getting a whole lot done!!

So, the title part...In the last 2 weeks I've dropped about 3 pounds-YAY!! But, now I'm thinking maybe I'm part grizzly bear. Aside from increasing my mileage in running I'm not doing anything hugely different than before but all summer long I've been increasing my mileage and didn't drop a single pound and even managed to bounce up and down in a 5 pound range all summer. Very frustrating!! Now, all of a sudden the temps drop and so does my weight!!

I would seem, that like a bear, I was foraging all summer and hanging on to weight so I wouldn't starve during the long winter months!! emoticon I'm just wondering, if I'm part bear why can't I just go into hibernation too?! emoticon Then at the end of winter I can emerge in the spring looking emoticon!! Ehh..whatever!! I'm just glad it is moving again. Although it does worry me a little that apparently I have to run at least 6 miles or more every weekend to get the results ... emoticon.

Nah, it's all good...6 miles is a good distance, when I'm done "training" for the half it might become my go-to long run distance. That way I'm always prepared for a 10K and I can be ready to train for any halfs that come along emoticon. because I've already decided that I'm pretty sure a half is the longest I'll ever do! I just don't see myself doing a marathon...ever!! I love running, it has become something I really enjoy and will do for as long as I possibly can. I am hoping that I will be the running grandma that blows past some newbie runner and makes them go "wow look at that old lady go...I hope I'm still running when I'm that old". I just can't picture myself doing a full Marathon. Going the half is kind of stretching my imagination to the limit at the moment and I'm one of those people who has a hard time starting a goal unless I can actually "see" myself completing it! I could "see" myself running so I am. I can "see" myself eating more healthy meals. I can "see" myself finishing the half. It isn't a pretty finish, but it is there just the same. I cannot see myself training and doing 26.2.

I CAN see myself learning to snowshoe. I can see myself learning to cross-country ski. I cannot see myself down hill skiing emoticon. I went once and probably only survived without serious injury because I was 14 and had really strong bones. If I tried again now I'd probably break myself in a really horrible fashion. Really. None of you saw that first and only downhill skiing event, if you had you wouldn't be questioning this!! My sis wasn't there either, but she can attest to the many ways I am capable of breaking myself and putting me on skis and expecting me to stay upright all the way down a mountain was a bad, bad idea in the first place. emoticon Trust me...

Now I am working on seeing myself crossing that finish line in 3 short weeks in under 4:00:00. That would be nice... Now that I am hibernating and losing the summer flab that will keep me going over the long winter months maybe that will happen-lol!!

Hope everyone is having a great week so far!!



  
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LINDATHOME 10/30/2010 8:35AM

    WELL SAID! And - thank you for reminding ME to keep looking forward.
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Incidently - your 1/2 M goal was exactly the same as mine for the KC Half 10/16/10 ... and you know what? I beat my goal by 32 minutes ... YOU will SMASH that goal, I know it!

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KARVY09 10/28/2010 1:59PM

    I agree... 5-6 mile runs are awesome!

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RIGBY31 10/28/2010 12:42PM

    If your analogy is a bear, then mine must be a sculpturer. With my weight loss, I feel I'm chipping away at granite, marble, concrete! Slowly adding fitness, so my ticker is moving in the right direction.. finally! You are an inspiration!
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RITEEBEE 10/28/2010 10:35AM

    Wow your son sounds like a smart kid, you must be so proud! :) A half marathon is a huge undertaking!! that is so amazing!! You can do it!! :)

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ESBELL 10/27/2010 9:55AM

    LOL if you do move to Utah - plan on at least trying skiing again. We have some great instructors here - you will be fine!!! If not........ can I sign you cast?? emoticon

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KSW1963 10/27/2010 1:23AM

    Yay for losing more weight! It is wonderful that you can see yourself doing so many active things. Cool! I am so impressed with your accomplishments! And your go'to run of 6 miles seems impossible to me! I think that is part of my problem with any training past the 5k. I haven't yet seen it in my mind's eye...and I'm not really sure that I want too. lol.

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JILLIANPRNCSS 10/26/2010 8:17PM

    I am so excited for your race and how far you have come. I remember telling my husband that running a marathon was insane and promise to never do one but we will see what you say after your HM.

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SLEEPYDEAN 10/26/2010 6:54PM

    It is getting very real now that we are going to run this half marathon in few short weeks! But I'm with you on the full - it is not something I could ever see on my radar.

I know everyone says it is hard to lose weight while training for a big run, but I have been doing okay, I've been able to balance out my carbs pretty well, and surprisingly haven't wanted to eat everything in sight after every run. But ohh the other day I got a sample of some risotto or orzo with fresh parmesan from one of the restaurantants near the Mission Inn after our park run and it was sooo good. I'm hoping they have some of that for us after the run!




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4EVERADONEGIRL 10/26/2010 5:46PM

    RAWR - and like a grizzly you are going to demolish that finish line in only 18 days!!! So glad the scale is moving for you...I like your theory and perhaps being a grizz runs in the family! LOL

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FLUTTER-BY)L( 10/26/2010 3:42PM

    The first part about skimming the book reminded me of the time when I finally had to trust that I had taught my kids well because I could no longer read fast enough to read the books all 4 of my older boys were reading. They love to read long books. My second one is on a mission but he loved 800 plus page books. I think he actually read War and Peace for fun. Strange kid. But, it started a great time when he realized he could read faster than me. Mostly because he did not have to stop and pay attention to kids. Now he just reads fast. But, he is reading Hmong on his mission. I don't know how fast he is reading that.

Good luck on the half. Don't limit yourself yet. You don't have to decide now if you want to expand your horizons. I am doing many things I would not have expected. Keep moving forward my friend. emoticon

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FUNFROG79 10/26/2010 2:10PM

    Congrats on your weight loss! emoticon

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I'm already missing him...

Monday, October 25, 2010

First, had a really fun run on Saturday! Went to Riverside to Fairmount park and went running out there. The park is beautiful, for the most part. Just like a lot of larger city parks there were clusters of people, where, if you were running alone at dusk or dawn you might feel uncomfortable running past them, but it was daylight and we were a group so it wasn't so bad. I wish I had taken my camera, it really had some beautiful areas. The run itself was not as successful. The rainy weather has my knee acting up (at least I'm blaming the moisture because apparently that is what you do as you get older and things like knees start giving you more problems-lol). It took me a mile and a half and three stretching sessions and a half mile of walking to work out the normal kinks that usually run for cover after just half a mile of running and two stretching sessions. Then after a bit other things started acting up, something in my tail bone hurt, my achilles was pulling, and my shins were not hurting but just on the verge of hurting. Most of the run it was just a mild annoyance, but when I hit mile six and I was back in the park and in a convinient place to give up that's just what I did. I was actually happy with the six, not the 10 I had planned, but six was good. No soreness after just six so that was good too.

The rest of the weekend was relaxing and went by quickly.

This morning I sent my husband off to Utah for a job interview. He will be gone a minimum of one week and he has with him our one and only car....SO I will get lots of walking in this week taking the kids to school and picking them up again :)!! Getting milage this week will not be a problem! Getting it running WILL be a problem, I don't have a jogger so it is pushing 40 pound 4 y.o. daughter in either one of those too short, super cheap, but lightweight, umbrella strollers or in the big heavy double stroller. We'll give it a try anyways, at least on the trips when it is just the two of us, don't know how the other two will take having to run the whole way home (under a mile one-way) lol!!

So, it is about noon here in So. Cal and hubs should be nearing his first real stop, somewhere near Las Vegas and I miss him. I hate it when he is gone, I can't sleep...Hopefully though, this trip will be worthwhile!! He will be staying in Utah the entire week. The interview is only one day, but he will pound the pavement the rest of the week and we will evaluate at the end of the week what to do next. If he gets the job he is staying up there until he gets us a place to live and we can join him (hopefully by the Thanksgiving weekend).

This gives me the chance to run my half here in So. Cal though so that is a good thing!!

I've been spending lots of time doing mental pro/con lists about Utah...Pro we get away from the drama queens MIL and SIL/Con we are far away from the non-drama mom and sis (even my hubs agrees with these evaluations). Pro-there are actual seasons in Utah/Con there is snow in Utah (of course the kids see this as a pro). Pro the economy is better in Utah than in Cali/Con-actually I haven't thought of a con for that one! Con-shorter outdoor running season unless I can learn to run in the frigid cold/Pro-there are a LOT of races in Utah during the warmer months. A quick search resulted in at least 5 halfs I could run from April through the end of July!! That is kind of a lot but I would definately want to run two of them and have already told hubs that if we move he is giving me those races as compensation for the move!

The first is the half connected with the Salt Lake City Marathon, the second is a Pioneer Day Race, I think it was in Provo (very near where we would be moving). Pioneer day is a Utah State Holiday, it commemorates the day the Pioneers entered the Salt Lake Valley. This race encourages costumes and we have already determined a way I could run in a modified pioneer dress and a bonnet. I think it would be HILARIOUS and so much fun to run!! So, if we move there is something to look forward to, now I just have to get through the next week (or more) without my husband and we'll be doing fine. Fingers crossed....if it's meant to be it will happen. I'll keep you posted!!

  
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ESBELL 10/26/2010 10:38AM

    My hubby is headed to SLC tomorrow for a job interview too. Will keep fingers crossed for both of them. Let me know more about the Pioneer Day Race - I could possibly swing that - send the kidlets off to Scout Camp that week & have some fun alone time!!!

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YICHE12 10/26/2010 8:42AM

    Hope everything turns out for the best for you and family. emoticon

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RITEEBEE 10/26/2010 7:46AM

    Moving could be a fun adventure, I know there are a lot of pros and cons to think about though. Hoping everything works out for the best :)

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SLEEPYDEAN 10/26/2010 12:29AM

    Best wishes for a smooth and positive week. Hopefully the walking (cross-training) will help get your legs ready for a long run rhis weekend.

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FLUTTER-BY)L( 10/26/2010 12:19AM

    I hope you are blessed and make a good choice.

I am not good at change but, I am working to get better. My DH changed jobs recently too. But, no move involved. It is great.

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PAPPHEM 10/26/2010 12:03AM

    I hate when my husband is gone because I have a hard time sleeping but it's nice having the bed all to yourself too emoticon

I hope everything goes well on the job front. Sounds like you've both done a lot of thinking and evaluating, so hopefully it all works out. I love that you already have looked up races though!

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VELLE9 10/25/2010 10:39PM

    Wishing you the best where every destiny leads you!!

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LIFE_IS_SO_GOOD 10/25/2010 10:12PM

    I know it will turn out well ... I just hope it does quickly so that you don't have to stress out too much.

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KSW1963 10/25/2010 9:35PM

    I understand completely about the not sleeping when hubby is gone! Mine was gone for a year, and my daughter and her friends used to joke that I NEVER slept. She would have sleepovers and I would be up when they went to bed around 3, and then get up about 6:30 am, before they got up. lol. I can also relate to the not having a car and getting that walking in. I've been without mine for the past week, and just got it back to day. Hallelujah! I'm thinking you could probably talk Kirsten into doing a race with you in Utah, and you could go to California to do one with her. She could get away from the heat, and you could go get warm when it's cold in Utah. I hope he gets the job. Good Luck!

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2FUN2B_LAZY 10/25/2010 9:05PM

    Good luck with the Utah possible move! We are in some what of the same boat, except my boyfriend just had an interview about 2 hours away. If he gets it, we are moving there, but it is a huge change for us since most of our family is here and we have no one there. But it will be a good change for us!

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DEE107 10/25/2010 6:14PM

    Will say a prayer and hope hubby gets the job and good luck with the week you are home ..Hugs

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RAIN_SIS 10/25/2010 5:45PM

    The pro would be employment vs. unemployment. It's a good thing and I hope he gets it.
My daughter and her husband live in Orange County and are both stuck in under-employment. I am sure they could do better almost anywhere else but he grew up there and wants to stay near family and friends. Understandable, but....
She grew up moving every 2 years or less as we followed my husbands job. A good reason for her to want to stay in one place I guess. But still......
We spent 30 years moving. We lived in lots of places. All of them have something to recommend them - if one is willing to look for the good stuff.
In Utah you can't run in winter but maybe you could take up cross country skiing - or the other kind.
I used to ski until I crashed and got injured (in Utah, coincidentally) That kind of takes the fun out of it. I would still recommend it as a good winter fitness activity.
Ramble ramble ramble - what was I talking about? Oh yeah - I think you could enjoy Utah, moving is not so bad, and I hope your husband gets the job. btw. Excellent schools there.

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FUNFROG79 10/25/2010 4:54PM

    I hope all works out, thinking of you! emoticon

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4EVERADONEGIRL 10/25/2010 4:29PM

    There are definitely lots of pros and cons, but ultimately you will be where God is taking you and that is the most important thing! Whether it is here, there or somewhere else entirely!

Well, I'm going to miss having you on Thursday! Perhaps we can get a certain girlie to sit for you Saturday morning so we can head out for 12 together! :-)

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FIRENUT34 10/25/2010 4:09PM

    I hope everything works out for what you want. My wife knows I will be away 24 hours every third day for shift work at the Fire Department and after seven years of marriage says she still doesn't sleep as good when I'm gone.

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YOURJONES 10/25/2010 4:05PM

    I hope your hubby's trip is a success! I've moved a lot but only in CA. The pioneer dress is a great idea!

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MOCACHOC 10/25/2010 3:28PM

    Nice blog. The scenary I could imagine. I'm glad the people didn't scare you as much as they would have on a evening run getting dark. I hope your knee is getting better and won't give you to much trouble this winter.

Peace

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MOCACHOC 10/25/2010 3:27PM

    Nice blog. The scenary I could imagine. I'm glad the people didn't scare you as much as they would have on a evening run getting dark. I hope your knee is getting better and won't give you to much trouble this winter.

Peace

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Turn a negative into a positive...

Friday, October 15, 2010

Okay, so I just wrote a venting blog and will probably take it down in the next couple of minutes. I am going to sum up the vent in a more positive note...

I am a participant in the Done Girls seasonal challenge and will probably be backing out because I COMPLETELY disagree with the focus and how many of the challenges are done.

The "challenge" for the last week was to share the spark (not against this just against that it was worded to assume that I DON'T share the spark-I share the spark so often that I don't have anybody to share it with THIS week, because I am always telling people about Sparkpeople). I stumbled upon Sparkpeople myself about 5 years ago when I wanted a free alternative to Weight Watchers...imagine my surprise when I actually found it!! I started sharing the good news that very same day. Spark has changed a bit since then, getting better all the time and I still tell people about spark. I post explanations all the time when I forget to uncheck the link on the status and accidentally post something spark specific to Facebook-lol!!

But, the real sticking point for me, the point that got me all riled up, was a challenge to sit and think about how I got to this point. Simply put, I'm done thinking about how I got here.

Here is where it gets positive. Spark is all about moving forward. I firmly believe that most of the people who are here and SERIOUS about being here have indulged in that backwards type of thinking so much that they are here because of it. Did that make sense? In other words Spark is here for the people who are tired of thinking about why they are fat and ready to do something to fix it. I firmly believe that thinking backwards only moves you backwards. It is like when your driving instructor tells you to keep your eyes forward because the car goes where your eyes go. (Maybe I'm the only one who got that lesson?) I believe that most of us are working to change the beliefs, thought patterns, habits, whatever you can think of that made us fat in the first place. I don't want to waste more time looking back.

The phrasing of the challenge also made the assumption that our feelings and thoughts about our current weight would be negative (calling them demons). Know what? Yep, I'm still fat, I am. It's a fact, everything points to it. BUT, my beliefs about myself are no longer negative. AMAZING, somebody should do a study...how can a fat person still have a positive self image? By looking forward!! I am fat now, but I don't weigh the same I did at my heaviest. I am fat now, but I can run a 10K (actual running) and I can run/walk 9 miles and am trying for 10 this weekend. I CAN do so many things I couldn't a year ago!! I have a positive outlook because I am living in the present, not the past...

If I maintain a negative self belief system and focus only on my past how can I accomplish all that???!!

I have thought and cried and thought and cried over the things that got me here and I am DONE...Part of the reason I joined the DONE GIRLS to start with. I was DONE thinking that my past defines me now. I was DONE being sad about things that happened so long ago. I was DONE thinking I had no control. I was DONE thinking that I couldn't change things. I was DONE thinking that who I am is defined by my fatness.

I have proven in the year past that I and only I determine who I am. Sitting and pondering the past is not really all that beneficial in my humble opinion AND really best left to professionals to guide and advise. I have truly seen people who are classified as mentally ill because they can't move beyond the past. A lot of money is spent each year by both individuals and state/federal health programs to help people who spend too much time on their past move beyond that place.

Keep your eyes forward, the car goes where your eyes go. Want to move forward? Don't spend TOO much time analyzing your past. Most of the time you couldn't have changed that defining event anyways. At six years old I had no part in my dad leaving us, it did take me a long time to actually realize that, but once I did I also realized that I do have control over the me I am now.

I want to say, too, that when we give our problems big, scary names like "demons" it gives them power they haven't earned. Some people really do have DEMONS in their past. Problems that are so big and so scary that just the thought of a problem like that gives us all the heebie-jeebies. For most of us life is just that, life. With joys and problems, hopes and fears, and for the most part shining a light on the problem or fear shows it for what it really is...usually something that can be dealt with and worked through if we try. Eating two cupcakes does not a demon make. There are real monsters out there but most of us just have a branch knocking on the window that we can choose to trim back. The final part of the challenge was to find two ways to deal with those "demons". This is beneficial when we change "demons" to triggers, or temptations or cupcakes. Find two ways to deal with your cupcakes!! I still like to eat under stress...that is a trigger. I still love chocolate brownies or cupcakes under any circumstance, that is a temptation. They are not demons and something that I can work around with some thought and preparation.

That being said, I want to recognize that we all move at our own pace and some people might still be where they need to think about the past, but I honestly believe too that the past is the past and that the real benefit of looking back is to see how far we've come (or to prevent making a mistake over again). Life really is like a river in that sense. Yesterday is water under the bridge it can't be recaptured and it can't be changed but tomorrow is still coming and you CAN do something about tomorrow. Get your toes in the water so that you don't miss what life is bringing you tomorrow, it could be really great!!

  
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FIRENUT34 10/16/2010 2:00PM

    What can I say that everyone else hasn't. You go girl and keep that positive attitude. Your doing great. Your right, if you keep looking at the past, your future will pass you bye.

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KARVY09 10/16/2010 10:56AM

    Love you, girl. You are an amazing person at any weight. And there were some negatives when I weighed 288, my highest, but there were some crazy positives as well. Like I met my husband who I know loves me at any weight. I graduated from law school. I traveled all around the world. I'm not going to denigrate that past over a few pounds. Do I look better now? Do I feel better now? Of course.

I agree with you girl. Past is past. Let's move on to a bright new future.

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SHIRLEYDILLARD 10/16/2010 8:21AM

    Well said. Sometimes when I see that looking back philosophy on Biggest Loser - I think to myself - that I haven't really done that. Now you've given me permission to continue forward with my success!!

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PAPPHEM 10/15/2010 9:48PM

    Great blog! One of my favorite quotes is "Do not look back and ask why, look forward and ask, why not?"


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JILLIANPRNCSS 10/15/2010 8:36PM

    You are such an inspiration. Too many times we tend to look back in order to try to learn from those mistakes when we have to remember everything we need is right inside us in the present day. This blog is by far one of the best ones I have read. I am glad you deleted the previous vent and made it into something special.

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4EVERADONEGIRL 10/15/2010 7:13PM

    *applause*!!!!! Very well said, my dear! I have always said that I don't have regrets for the things in my past because all of those things - both good AND bad - have made me who I am today. And I happen to like who I am!!!! I'm glad you like you too and aren't afraid to stand up and say it!

Karvy09 is definitely one of my major inspirations when she talks about how she will never put down her "balloon girl"...she loves that girl, but she loves the girl she is now.

We (Spark) need more and more people like you and Karvy and all the others stand up and say that just because they were/are fat that they still love themselves. It's time to quit thinking that fat is a stigma!

Well said, very well said!

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MRSBENNETT2 10/15/2010 7:00PM

    Yes! I always say "life doesn't have a rewind button so why sweat the past?" You can only chose to move forward!
I hope you don't take this post down! emoticon

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LINDSAYHENNIGAN 10/15/2010 5:53PM

    Excellent insight. I love the attitude. I totally agree with you that you can make life seem to big and scary to control when you give problems names like demons. Not a healthy attitude. I also am more interested in what I can do than how I look, and hope it translates into healthy attitudes for my children. Lets keep trying.

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FLUTTER-BY)L( 10/15/2010 5:25PM

    This is an impressive blog. You have really thought about where you are. My mom died when I was 6. I take out that information and do something with it every now and again but, not daily. Just every now and again. You know when good things happen and I miss being able to share with a mom or when I wish for a mom to talk about my kids. But, I don't want to miss anything with those kids because I am worrying about my mom.

I have thought about the affect of where I am at. I have thought a bit here and there about where I have been. But, most of the time I really have to think about here and now if I want to move from here to where I want to go.

I have enjoyed watching your success. Keep moving forward. You can do it. You are getting stronger and you are such an inspiration to me. Thanks.

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SLEEPYDEAN 10/15/2010 5:03PM

    Oh my gosh this is for you then...

"It isn't where you came from; it's where you're going that counts." Ella Fitzgerald.

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Seriously, that is on the inside of the bottle of Honest Tea Green Tea I just finished.

I saw your other blog and was heading out to run at lunch, so I thought I'd read it when I got back, but I guess it was meant to be that I read this one and was able to share that little quote.

Oh and as far as driver's ed is concerned, I think I got jipped. On one of my outings, all the instructor did was have me park in front of Snoop Dog's house for 30 minutes and tell me everything I (n)ever wanted to know about Snoop Dog. Ya soo...it is amazing that I drive so well today.



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FUNFROG79 10/15/2010 4:55PM

    emoticon Agreed

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So many firsts in one day!!

Saturday, October 09, 2010

Got a crazy notion in my head to go for 9 miles during today's run with the Hemet Sparked Running Team...or whatever it is we are called, I've got to get some clarification on that-lol!!

So the group (3 of us) decided that we would run my end of town today. Okay, that means I'd better plan a route!! I pull up the handy dandy website-MapMyRun and start plotting points. By the time I had gotten even close to the 9 mile distance I was thinking that 9 miles is a really, really, long ways. It definately covered locations that I would normally get in my car and drive to!! emoticon(zoom zoom) But, I also decided that if I did 7 last week then I could do 9 this week.

I got up early, ate 1 slice of whole wheat toast and an itty bitty chunk of cheddar cheese (I'm calling it 3/4 of an ounce since I didn't weigh it). Our first running club runner arrived at my house and then the other one called off...we really missed her with us today...I think she makes us run just a tad faster than we do without her emoticon emoticon.

It was still dark when we got started and I anticipated this so I tried to take us down the streets that are better lit and feel just a bit safer. We did pretty well for our first several miles. Then the walking definately shoved the running aside, but we still kept a good pace. By mile 6 or so it was becoming necessary to find a restroom. Lucky for us I put the end-ish part of our run at a park with a facility (yay no bushes!!) So that is two firsts so far, if you are keeping track...first team run in my neighborhood and first bathroom break during a run...

A short break later and we were doing loops around the park, I was watching the GPS because I knew roughly how far it was to get back to the start and I was watching for the distance that would let us leave the park and still make the distance of 9 miles. Finaly hit the mark and we headed off for home.

By this point I was definately feeling the distance and I was in whole new teritory. I've never done more than 7 and my body knew it and was telling me I needed to stop already. I told it no way we still had a mile or so to go so keep movin'! We finally made it back and had gone more than the 9 miles we said we were going to do. My GPS read 9.4 which didn't include warm up, but did include cool down. So, first number three-hitting 9 miles!!

After we stretched and said farewells I went back inside and went ahead and did the strength I was thinking about skipping. After that I had first number 4. First ice bath (I'm still cold-lol!!)! I'd been joking with my hubs before the run that I would need an ice bath after this run, but was only half serious. When I got back though I was definately tight and sore in my knee already. So when hubs asked "are you ready for your ice bath?" I said "yeah, I think I am". He took WAAAAAY too much joy in getting the ice out and dumping it in the tub though!!!

If you are not a runner or new to exercise and are wondering why the "h"-"e"-double hockey sticks I would want to sit in a tub filled with cold water and ice read this... www.runnersworld.com/article/0,7120,
s6-241-285--12810-0,00.html
it is one of the clearest explanations of cryotherapy. We didn't buy any bagged ice, we just used every ice cube in our in freezer ice maker bucket and I didn't do a temp check, but it sure felt cold enough!!! The initial discomfort was replaced with a general sort of numbness that was actually very refreshing. My sore spots started feeling better almost immediately. Will I repeat the ice bath experience...probably...I'll see how I feel now post ice bath. If I think it actually made a difference then I will definately repeat the experience. So far my sore-ish knee is feeling pretty good.

Four firsts in one day...not too shabby!! Can't believe I did nine miles, now what will we do next week?

  
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RAIN_SIS 10/12/2010 10:39AM

    Gee. I used to feel proud of myself because I could do 9 miles on my bicycle but now....
Now I am still proud. Nine miles is a LONG distance. Why should I fell less just because YOU are Awesome!?
Good job! With yourself be well pleased you should.

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RITEEBEE 10/12/2010 9:31AM

    That is soooo awesome, you are doing incredible!!! I loved your hubby taking way too much pleasure in getting the ice ready, hahahaha I laughed out loud!! :)

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LISAW/3 10/11/2010 1:32PM

    Awesome run! Great job!
I don't know about that ice bath, though! I only need it for me knees, but I will read the article!

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4EVERADONEGIRL 10/11/2010 12:17PM

    Way to GO!!!! You ROCK!!! I managed just over 8 miles...8.14 not including warm-up/cooldown. I was planning on between 6 and 9 miles so I was pleased that I managed a little over 8. That's my longest distance so far as well! :-)

You guys totally rock! I missed running with you guys too...but it worked out well. I got the baby back to sleep so that MY baby could also catch a few more zzzzz's. I think I needed a little bit more time to get moving anyways. LOL

Again - super proud of you guys!!! We need to find a way to get you registered for that half...I don't want to do it without you! After all, we've done all of our "first" races together! We can't miss doing this one too!!! emoticon

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PAPPHEM 10/10/2010 12:48PM

    Ok, you are my hero for trying an ice bath!! Ok, the 9 miles too but wow, ice bath! emoticon

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SEABREEZE64 10/10/2010 7:24AM

    I don't think I have the courage to plunge my body into ice water. Good for you!

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FUNFROG79 10/10/2010 1:57AM

    Congrats! That's so exciting! emoticon

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2FUN2B_LAZY 10/9/2010 11:35PM

    Congrats!! You also taught me something new today. Not only did I not know that ice baths were good for pain relief, but I also did not know that they had 100 mile runs! Holy cow!

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SLEEPYDEAN 10/9/2010 9:53PM

    Yay! Wow you guys did great. I didn't get my run in today, so I am a little bummed.I had to move my aunt into a new apartment and I had the silly notion that I'd be able to go to the gym after and run 9 miles. Huh.

Well so now I guess I'll have to skip the class I love at the gym and do my 9 miles then. I mean 9 miles is hard to schedule - I know it'll take me close to 2 hours, so its not like I can fit it in on a lunch break. This definitely gives me the motivation to do it myself.

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IMSMILEY88 10/9/2010 9:11PM

    Wow.That's great! And, four is a LOT of firsts in one day. Congrats!

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LINDSAYHENNIGAN 10/9/2010 5:27PM

    Nine Miles is a LONG run. Way to go! I am totally impressed.


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WENDYWITKOSKI 10/9/2010 4:50PM

    Way to go!!! Nine miles is awesome!
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NOTABOUTHEFACE 10/9/2010 4:15PM

    Awesome job! There's no limit to what you can do!

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DARINGR8LY 10/9/2010 4:05PM

    Good to read that the ice bath was waiting and was good.

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I had to finish a hula challenge for one of my teams. Then I had to eat and talk to my mom. I'm finally resting. I need to soak though too or I'll be hurting.

Great firsts! Many of them for me too. I love knowing how strong my body really is.

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