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Monday, August 16, 2010

First a quick catchy-upy...Saturday...Went for a lovely little run with my sister. I am being only mildly facetious. It was an absolutely beautiful morning. A little on the cool side when we first got started, but we warmed up fast enough. If you read my sister's blogs too (which you really should do) this part will be a bit of a repeat, but we started at a Wal-Mart, made a lap and started a five mile run. My pre-run fuel was a PowerBar BerryBlast Smoothie Bar or something like that, I've tossed the wrapper so couldn't tell you the exact name. I only ate about a third. The texture was better than the same bar in orange, unfortunately, I suffered psychological damage as a child when I became quite severely ill and had to take this medicine that made me puke EVERY time I had to take it...the flavor of this wonderful elixir was berry (I think raspberry) to this day certain berry flavors do not sit well. This poor power bar had that particular berry flavor to it, but I still thought overall that the bar was okay, just the flavor for me was wrong. I might be convinced to try it again, someday maybe I'll get over the aversion thing.

So, anyways, this run takes us through a local park and is over gentle and frequent small hills. It was enough to make me work and not get bored, but not overly fatiguing. It is a beautiful, tree lined route, almost entirely cement, which I don't like, but it was still an awesome run. According to my route I went 5 miles, according to my sister's Garmin I didn't. I'm still going with the mapmyrun!! lol!! Oh, almost forgot, I fueled mid-run with a Clif Shot chocolate (thanks Kristina). It was quite yummy, but it was the first time I "gelled" mid-run and it was awkward at best! lol! I think this might be a skill, like drinking on the run, that needs to be practiced to be perfected!!

Like my sister, form was the order of the day, and we didn't even discuss it ahead of time! There were a couple stretches where I could tell my form was totally disintegrating, it wasn't just getting off it was disappearing all together. Each time this happened I took a short walk break, one song in length since that was the easiest measurement I had. After the walk break I was back on form and good to go for another mile or so. I came home stretched out my legs and then did some strength for the arms. The rest of the day was uneventful.

Sunday, went to church, came home, stuck the kids in their rooms for "naps", which actually worked for the girls this week! While I was sitting on the sofa and looking at the computer I heard this huge bang. At first I thought it was an earthquake, but there was no additional shaking. My husband and myself were both asking "what was that". I just happened to look out the window and caught a glimpse of blue, our trim is blue. It was then that I realized that the aluminum awning that covers the side door had collapsed!! It was resting against the outside stairs and was still attached at the lower support bars to the house, but the top, which had previously been attached at the roof line had basically ripped out of the wall. Okay, so it ended up being not such a big deal, we are waiting to find out from the community management if we have to put it back up or if we can get rid of it. I want to get rid of it. We don't really need it, it was there when we bought the house. It provides a shelter for that side entrance but, A) it hardly ever rains here and B) we don't use that entrance except as an entrance to the yard for the kids and dog. I figure A)we were very lucky that one of the kids wasn't outside and standing there when it happened and B) if it came down once it can come down again and next time maybe one of the kids will be standing there. My husband and I both looked at the awning as he moved it from the stairs to lean it up against the side of the house. What we discovered was that the screws seemed to be a bit on the short side and there is a piece of trim at the roof line, where the awning was screwed in that had bowed outward. We both think that the screws were not long enough and only went into the decorative trim instead of into the wall itself and that the piece that was bowing out was the piece under the most pressure and that the bowing caused the screws to loosen everywhere else and finally collapse. Scary, but not such a big deal at the end of the whole thing. If we have to put it back up my hubs will call some friends to help and he will use longer screws! He can also repair the piece of trim that is bowing out and make that better. I'd rather just paint the trim and patch the holes the larger brace screws made-they didn't rip loose just splintered the wood surrounding one (drilled into a decorative shutter). I told hubs that it sure was nice to have him around. I am not one of those helpless women and would have figured out how to deal with it on my own, but I was sure glad I had him to give it to! Exciting and got the heart beating but nobody got hurt so it was okay. So, today, I kept wondering which piece of the house would fall off next-lol! I've never had a part of the house just fall off before!

Today was a pretty good day. Housework day, the kids were relatively kind to etch other. I let them make movies with my camera and the only arguments were over who's turn it was. So, the kids are making their movies. My camera is just a basic little point and shoot digital camera, the one I use for all those everyday little purposes, but like most digital cameras these days it has a video function. The kids are having a blast making little movies, its keeping the occupied and for the most part everyone is happy so that means I am happy. I am doing basic household things, walking around picking up a toy here, a sippy cup there, I accidentally bump a plug and it falls out of its outlet so I fix that. I turn on some music in place of the t.v. that's been on all day. A choice my kids wouldn't necessarily like, but one that I enjoyed-Verdi. I walk into the girls' room to see how it is looking and then I walk into the kitchen to work on dinner. My 6 year old comes to me and says "Mommy, you want to see my movie?" So, while I am in the kitchen, washing off my squash, my daughter shows me her movie.

Oh look there is my arm as I hand youngest her cup to take to the sink. And then I got a quick glimpse of me and reflexively flinched. I don't end up in front of the camera very often, I'm always taking the pics and over the years I've developed a reflex action reaction to pics of me..."uggh, quick erase it"! But, today I got the quick glimpse and flinched, but then my brain said "wait a minute, keep watching". So I kept watching and what I saw wasn't all that bad! I was surprised! It was far from wonderful, but my daughter did a wonderful job of catching me in profile-in my opinion the worst angle and it wasn't scary. Then she caught me from behind and I actually thought, hey, that's actually looking pretty good back there. Still enough junk in the trunk that in one shot my shirt was "caught" on my tush, but in more shots that shirt was hanging exactly where it belonged and exactly the way it should be, no tug, no pull, no weird hung up on flab wrinkles. So, even though the scale is still stuck, there is still something to believe in!! That tight tush I feel after a hill workout is becoming a reality and when the flab does finally gives up its strangle hold there is going to be one tight tush revealed. Pretty soon the flab will have to give up because the muscles it is clinging to are going to be so rock hard that there won't be anyplace to get a foothold. Something to believe in that someday my daughter will film me and when I see myself I won't flinch at all.

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VELLE9 8/18/2010 9:51PM

    Great job with the running. Also, on realizing that pictures don't always have to cause a "cringe" reaction but can show the improvements sometimes we don't see on a daily basis. I still have to learn this because I still treat pics like krytonite emoticon


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SLEEPYDEAN 8/17/2010 6:25PM

    Lately, I get similar feelings when I'm running - say I'm worrying about my thighs or whatever, and then I say to myself - self (jk I don't really address myelf) wait my body will take shape to adapt to my new running routine and even though the scale isn't moving, I feel optimistic.

I'm glad you mentioned the Berry smoothie bars, I will have to try that flavor, as the consistency of the orange was a little less than desirable.

Very scary about the awning. Wouldn't you know just when you get a little chance to kickback - there has to be a little catastrophe. Jeez... Glad everyone is okay.

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4EVERADONEGIRL 8/17/2010 1:22PM

    Awesome!!! So glad that DD filmed you so you could see that there is improvement there!! You've been doing awesome...that flab has received its walking papers!! It will be moving on has NO choice! :-)

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NONIE_C 8/17/2010 1:00PM

    I love the change in your brain. I love that you waited and watched a little longer - long enough to see that progress is happening. Good For You!!!
Someday, you will not flinch. I know it!
emoticon Nicole

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    Awesome. Nothing wrong with seeing improvement, is there?

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ESBELL 8/17/2010 9:53AM

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LINDAKAY228 8/17/2010 8:39AM

    Loved the description of your run! When I was a child my mom always gave us 7-Up when we were nauseus/vomitting. To this day I am reminded of barfing if I try to drink 7-Up and can't do it. Sprite is okay. But I understand those childhood memory things!

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NEW-CAZ 8/17/2010 3:32AM

    Heather hun with all the running you do of course you'll be trim...sooner than you think.
And just think how much healthier and fitter you are!
That awning scare! OMG I am so glad you're all okay.

Have a good Tuesday hun and remember that skirt you want to fit into! emoticon emoticon

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FLUTTER-BY)L( 8/17/2010 12:38AM

    I think you are so brave. Just keep moving forward and you will succeed. I am so inspired when I read what you write.

I flinch at pictures to. But you are making progress. emoticon

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PAPPHEM 8/16/2010 11:39PM

    I love that! I hate pictures of myself too but I actually asked my husband to take a picture of me at Yellowstone because I like seeing the difference now. It's still not a pretty picture but it's getting better, just like yours!

I can't believe your awning fell off your house! It's a good thing you were all safe inside!

Sounds like an awesome run and you're making such good progress, I'm jealous! I've tried the gels and can't seem to get the hang of them, so I've stuck with the gummies or jelly beans so far. The gels and bars seems to work better for hiking since I usually have plenty of water around to wash them down. But good luck getting the hang of them, I think they really do help.

Well keep up the good work and try to "embrace" the picture next time and who knows what differences you will notice by then!

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NANJET 8/16/2010 11:13PM

    I'm so happy for you that you are seeing results in pictures. That is really exciting. I remember one day after loosing 50 lbs, I was walking into a mall and saw a reflection of someone that looked familiar in the literally took me a few seconds to realize it was ME!!

Keep up the Good work!!

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If I Could...

Friday, August 13, 2010

I would...

This blog is going to scatter in a few different directions so please bear with me...I am feeling kind of scattered today.

If I Could...I would spend a lot of money on running stuff!!

My sis and I were talking about this yesterday, we've discussed this from time to expensive running can be!!

Everyone who has run has heard it and people who are thinking about it have heard it..."running is a really cheap way to get exercise-you buy a pair of shoes and off you go".

Yeah, right!!! I don't want to discourage anybody who is thinking about running or has just started. Running CAN BE quite inexpensive and if you don't have a budget for a bunch of extras that is okay, you can go running with a pair of shoes and that is it, well, please put something resembling clothing on, but you get the idea.

Since I am in the market for new shoes I've been doing some online research, well, my research is always thorough so I've been checking out more than shoes-oh dear!! I haven't spent anything, since I messed up our Car Insurance payment and it accidentally paid twice (oops!!) we have 0 cash while I wait for a reimbursement, but here is a sample of the wish list I've developed.

On the Saucony site...a jacket, two running shirts, a hat and their Vegan Jazz Original everyday sneakers.

On the Nike site...a winter running hat and a shirt

On the Bondiband site...oh about 10 different bands. For those who are saying what's a Bondiband-it is basically a headband, but made from wicking fabric-helps keep the sweat out of your eyes-something I REALLY need, the visor I wear keeps the sun out of my eyes but does nothing for the sweat. I feel silly wearing a visor when I'm running in the dark too. So there are 10 or more bands I would like for different outfits and seasons and runs.

On the Halo site-a visor with the Halo system-again designed to keep the sweat out of your eyes while running.

On itunes....oh, let's not even go there, because even though I am now running with a shuffle that holds, not a lot of music I get bored easily and like to mix up my music a lot. Well, it's been awhile since I've been on itunes and I've found a BUNCH of new music I would like to add.

On the Moving Comfort site...a couple bras, and a couple of shirts

On Athleta, oh my this might be one of the worst, because Athleta ACTUALLY carries really cute gear in plus sizes, so numerous items from them.

Not to mention the several sites I visited to check on hydration units.

I didn't even look at socks this time!!

If I could I a bunch of stuff. BUT it would all be fun stuff. Very little of it is actually necessary to make me a better runner. The shoes and the hydration are necessary since some runs are now over an hour long (mostly because I am so slow-lol). Running CAN BE a very cheap means of exercise, I just want to make it more expensive for the fun of it!!

If I could...I would be running a race tomorrow, but life gets in the way sometimes, so to all my So Cal friends running at Crestline tomorrow-have fun, be safe, good luck and we'll meet up at another race!!

If I could...I would give a big ol' hug to everyone who has ever commented or has yet to comment on my page and/or blog. Your support and encouragement have kept me going on dark days and I am still here a year+ later thanks t'y'all.

If I could I would run every race that supports cancer and crohn's/colitis research. Or, autism, or diabetes, or Megan's law or whatever. Wish I had the time, ability and funds. I can do what I can though.

If I could I would run a half marathon-oh wait, working on making that one happen. But, let me tall you...I am scared poopless!! I can't do this, what am I thinking!! Oh wait, I did a totally insane 10K and made it through that. The half is almost flat. I am training. I can walk that distance I am sure of that. 13 miles is a terribly long walk, but I can do it. I know I won't be walking the whole thing either. I can run 4-5 miles of it right now and I've got 13 weeks to increase that. Jeff Galloway may, once again, become my best friend, I cast him aside for awhile in favor of just running, but intervals might be making a comeback. Oddly a part of me is reluctant to admit that intervals are okay, that would be the irrational part that has been so vocal lately. The rational part knows that how I get to the finish line doesn't matter so much as the fact that I actually get there under my own power.

If I could...I would silence the irrational part of my mind...working on it, but doubt it will ever totally go away. That might be a good thing because I like proving that part of me wrong.

So.....the statement of the day is..."If I could...."

How would you finish that sentance?

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KSW1963 8/20/2010 4:44PM

    There is always something to want...sounds like fun "window shopping." You are doing so great! I can't wait to see the blog about your half. emoticon

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PAPPHEM 8/15/2010 12:02PM

    Oh, you will rock the half marathon just like the 10K, just keep up the good work!!

If I could, I would join a running group to keep me motivated and improving but no funds right now...sigh. So I need to just work on finding a running buddy. I would also kove to buy a Garmin, but maybe for Christmas :)

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NONIE_C 8/13/2010 10:09PM

    I think it's fun to make a wish list, which is pretty much what you did here. You've already done so much, achieved so much. Keep on going!!! And I just want to say that I think you can do (and eventually buy) all the things you've listed here, and you will.

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MONARCHCT 8/13/2010 9:11PM

    "If I could..." sounds like the making of my "Bucket List". We all need goals. They help us measure our progress when we meet them. You will do fine in the half. And someday you will either get the new items you want, or decide you don't really want them. Either way it is a WIN.

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ESBELL 8/13/2010 6:37PM

    LOL - walking a half is perfectly acceptable! I've done it - it works (but you're right it's a long walk) Running it in intervals worked really well for me, and we seem to be about the same pace. I'm sure between now & race time you will find your sweet spot and decide how much to run & how much to walk.

If I could....... I would.... buy a real Ipod to replace the cheapo MP3 I have and it would play all the cool podcasts I have found for running/walking intervals.

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BUTTERFLYBLUE67 8/13/2010 6:14PM

    If I could I would buy a treadmill but my husband only has one rule in our home and that is absolutely no gym equipment. So I go to the gym and run instead.

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NEW-CAZ 8/13/2010 4:12PM

    If I could I would turn back time and get my op done the first time it was offered but wasn't ready in my head to go for it....too scary.

You can do the half marathon my running friend, I know emoticon

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4EVERADONEGIRL 8/13/2010 3:46PM

    If I could...I would leave work RIGHT MEOW, find a sitter for my sister's kids and go watch a girlie flick with her! If I could... :-) It's been way too long since there's been a "Girl's Night Out!" Dontcha know...

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    Make sure you check out They're having a sale right now and you might find a few things for winter or pants that will fit into your budget right now
Just keep trucking and you'll turn thos 'if I could's' to 'and I did!'

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LORTHOM2001 8/13/2010 2:35PM

    you can do it! Yes you can!

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I'm being irrational again...

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

I don't want to go to the running store to get my new shoes. I'm looking online and finding that a lot of companies now offer fit guides to help you find the right shoe. But, I know I need to go to the store and be fitted, so why don't I want to when I know it means a new, good, pair of running shoes at the end? I am looking at it as being akin to going to the dentist. Torture while you are there will huge benefits when you are done.

I don't want to go to the store because I am definately not your AVERAGE runner. I am a fat runner.

There it is, the reason I don't want to go into the store.

I don't mind Big5 sporting goods. Go in pick a pair or two get your size try them on and off you go. The sales person couldn't care less that you are in the store. Very little personal investment on either side.

At the running store I have to interact. I have to let them watch me run. I have to let them judge me!! ACCCCCKKKK. Granted the judging is supposed to be on a professional basis pertaining to my gait and pronation issues. I won't be the typical customer that day. My irrational mind is telling me the sales staff will be thinking "What is she doing buying running shoes", "Yeah, right she's a runner", or "Why do I have to be on today". My rational mind is saying "oh shut up, it's just a pair of shoes".

So can't I just order online? Nobody will see me then. And, I risk getting another pair of shoes that A) Just aren't right or B) are right, but don't last very long.

So, in a week and a half, off I go to the dentist, oh, I mean running store. I am prepared though. I've written down a couple (hundred) styles that are reportedly right for me and let's see if they match up. I'll make sure I get the right size and fit and then in the future I can order online.

It is time to break down and look at hydration systems in person too. Those I can order online too-after I determine what will work for me. Belt or pack? I drink a lot when I run so maybe a pack?

Shopping for shoes requires a trip out of town and will put us in the vacinity of a couple of larger sporting goods stores, so hopefully I'll get a chance to scope out some stuff and maybe find some fuel that is not available in town too.

So, daughter is BEGGING me for a banana smoothie. She says just banana. If I don't go do that soon we will probably see a revoltion in the making.

Hope everyone has a great day.

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FICTIONRUNNER 8/19/2010 1:54PM

    Sounds like, from a more recent entry, that you've worked past this, but just in case, remember - those specialty stores will have salespeople that are runners too. They've raced with all shapes, sizes, ages, etc. They'll know a runner no matter the packaging she comes in... even if you don't say a thing, you're going there knowing that they need to see your stride and I bet there aren't many non-runners who know that!

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CFLOTT 8/12/2010 8:09AM

    I have to say, I'd like to think that a good majority of those who other people's running efforts no matter their size or experience. You may be surprised. Plus, it seems like you are pretty well versed in the sport and people respect that.

When I went to get shoes recently, I felt like a total newbie. But the guy sat there and talked to me about my goals and my plan of attack. I felt he really was taking me seriously the end...he fitted me with a great pair of shoes.

I'm looking forward to hearing how it went!

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SEABREEZE65 8/12/2010 8:08AM

    I know how you feel.

When I go to a running store I feel like I have to apologize for being there. Like, I am not a REAL runner. But I am.

It is something in my head that needs removing.

But here is the truth....running store employees are runners and they love other runners!!!!

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JILLIANPRNCSS 8/12/2010 7:14AM

    I bet you $100 that those running store employee would be impressed when they find out how much you are running. You are an inspiration. I sometimes wonder what my problem is because you are out there running more than me. Also think of all the knowledge you will get from the store. They could tell you all sorts of new things about your gait plus you gave to try on fuel belts in person because they all fit different.

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KSW1963 8/12/2010 1:06AM

    Yep....You are being irrational again. Go get some good shoes already you runner you.

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ESBELL 8/11/2010 11:53PM

    Before I was a runner, and was 25 lbs heavier, I went to the running store for shoes. I was treated with respect and courtesy and you know what - I think they knew I was a runner before I did!

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    They are also going to ask you about your running habits, and you are more of a runner than most people they see no matter what size. Your commitment and consistency makes you more of a runner than most people who go buy expensive running shoes. The skinny 22 year old girl sitting next to you can't run a mile in under 18 minutes, and more than one mile never even crossed her mind before. Own it, it is YOUR store.

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NANJET 8/11/2010 10:54PM

    Give the running store a chance and you may be surprised. Hold your head up high and let them know you are serious about beginning a running program. If they are any good at all they will probably be very encouraging of you and give you some great advice. Good luck!

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VELLE9 8/11/2010 10:06PM

    Nice blog. I am glad you are going to get your sneakers. I think it is like preventative medicine, by having the right sneakers you are (hopefully) preventing future injuries that my derail your goals as a runner.

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2FUN2B_LAZY 8/11/2010 9:18PM

    Don't be so hard on yourself!!
First off, just because you are 125 lbs, skinny as a stick, doesn't mean that you can run. Obviously, you have to train for it. Just because you aren't 125 lbs and skinny as a stick doesn't mean that you haven't worked hard to be able to run. It's a feat that most people don't tackle. Be proud of yourself!
Second, just go in and make them think twice about you being a real runner. Show them you can do it!!

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4EVERADONEGIRL 8/11/2010 8:06PM

    I'm with Flutter below...I would like to think that the person on staff at the store will think "How awesome is it that so many different kinds of people are runners"! The one thing I have noticed about "real" runners is that they are the most supportive and encouraging group. They are never exclusive like "oh, what makes THAT person think they can run". They are like "look at that person GO! Awesome!" So you just remember that when you go to the store in a couple weeks. YOU BELONG THERE AND HAVE EARNED YOUR PLACE!!!! YOU DESERVE THIS FOR COMPLETING THE C25K PROGRAM, RUNNING NOT JUST ONE 5K, BUT TWO 5K'S LAST YEAR, RUNNING A COUPLE VIRTUAL 5K'S, RUNNING A 10K, CONQUERING THE BEAST, RUNNING FOR OVER A YEAR, BATTLING THROUGH SHIN SPLINTS, AND BEGINNING TRAINING FOR A HALF MARATHON! Whew...You get it??? You deserve this - you ARE a runner and nobody can tell you otherwise. So get in that freaking store already! :-)

On a side note - don't let me forget...I have multiple fun things for you tomorrow morning!! emoticon

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FLUTTER-BY)L( 8/11/2010 7:22PM

    I have to tell you about the day many years ago I was standing in Taco Bell watching a little girl who was having a blast spinning in place while she waited in line with her mom. I was just thinking about the joy she had on her face. Her mom looked at me and commented that she had picked out her own clothes. Then I noticed that they did not match. LOL Who really cared she was so happy.

So fast forward to now. When I am imagining what people are thinking I try to imagine good things.

I walk, for a while I walked with outside my ward. The people in the stake saw me walking. I got a lot of positive feed back. I would have/could have said a lot of negative things to myself. Others were not saying that.

Plus they could have a great weight loss story too. One lady that impressed me on my first day of Pilates lost over 100 pounds. She was amazing.

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NEW-CAZ 8/11/2010 5:27PM

    Just think to yourself I AM A RUNNER think what you like.
To be honest it's their job to sell shoes Heather and I very much doubt they'll judge you, in fact they'll probably be supportive and hopefully helpful.

Why not visit a sports store and get advice on shoes and hydration packs from the're taking this seriously enough now to get the right gear and look after youself- go for it! emoticon

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THE_NEW_MELISSA 8/11/2010 5:02PM

    I can totally relate. When I went to get fitted for my running shoes, I broke out in a sweat before I even started running. I was so nervous. They were soooo nice though. They see people of all sizes and colors. It's just like when you see someone bigger than you running, do you look at them oddly? heck no! You cheer them on in your head! So don't worry, you'll be fine, and you will LOVE your new shoes :) I pinky promise. and if they're mean to you, I will drive out there personally and kick some azz...

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ELAINEVDW 8/11/2010 4:53PM

    The difference between the running store and the dentist is that the dentist can chastise you for your dental hygiene... but the running store clerk can't say diddly squat, because it's not his/her job to tell you that you're doing something wrong! Also, runners in general are a very democratic bunch, and very supportive of people who are new to the sport. Most runners know how hard it is no matter what your level, and aren't there to judge -- in fact, most are very supportive.

That said, I totally ordered my last pair of running shoes online and LOOOOVE them.

As far as hydration, I've heard a lot of women say that the waist packs bounce too much. I got a women's Nathan Intensity Hydration Pak (a backpack style hydration pack) that is super awesome for long runs (90+ minutes). On runs that are 20 minutes to an hour, I'll use either the small or large Ultimate Directions FastDraw Plus, which is basically a lightweight water bottle you can strap onto your hand. It's spill proof with a sippy nub that makes it easy to drink on the go. It also has a little pocket where you can stash your keys or some energy gels.

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SLEEPYDEAN 8/11/2010 4:50PM

    I've had a little inner struggle with the running store too. They have all the employees photos on their website, and they are all these super lean cross-country award winning athletes you know? I am not a fast runner, I am not a dedicated runner (yet), so I'll feel a bit intimated. But it is on my To Do list for Monday when I am out in that direction.

I've revisited my bsck pack lately, after my hydration waistpack was too much of a pain, and it wasn't as bad as I remember it. My only thing is the sloshing effect bugs me, and with ice cubes it is even worse (how else am I supposed to keep it cold?) and I am not sure it has a big enough capacity for the half marathon - but then there should be plenty of water stations, so maybe I'll just suck it up for training purposes.

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KMCK117 8/11/2010 4:32PM

    If anything happens in the store to make you feel uncomfortable it is your perogative to get up walk out and make a complaint.
But I am pretty sure nothing will happen, except that you will get a wicked pair of sneaks so that your journey will be a blister-less one!

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SOUTHIE2010 8/11/2010 4:21PM

    Okay so I was feeling EVERYTHING you are feeling right now about a week ago. I blogged about it last Saturday. I finished up the C25k running program last week, and decided it was about time to get a proper pair of running sneakers.

Well I am not going to lie I felt like a complete idiot at first. Then I just blurted out it was my first time, and I was really intimidated. The girl was super nice, and asked me to walk up and down the store. This determined I have a pretty neutral gait. Then I tried a couple of pairs on, and each one she had me run up and down the sidewalk outside.

I have a new pair of Nikes that I like. They aren't the same as my old sneaks. . . I think I'll always have a fondness for the ones that got me through the C25k program.

Just a note bring your current sneakers. It helps them for some reason or another . . .

Good luck and post a picture of the new sneakers once you get them! It is not nearly as intimidating as I made it out to be in my mind. . .

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ALDANAD84 8/11/2010 4:20PM

    Cant we be called fluffy runners. Im one of those too and let me tell you girl, making sure the shoe fits is key. You are like me, I hate trying on clothes cause I hate those big mirrors and looking at myself but we gotta make sure it looks good. When it comes to shoes, I may feel like people will look at me and say "you run?" Pfft whateva! "Yeah Im a runner or I try to be so give me my right shoe size!" Okay okay you dont want to be that rude but its okay, get those shoes fitted hun!

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PINKCOCONUT 8/11/2010 4:18PM

    I am SO glad you're going anyway! Feel the fear and do it anyway! They won't be looking at YOU running, they'll just be looking at your feet and how they land to offer suggestions.

Everyone in that store will have started running somewhere. Whether they too were overweight or whether they were a smoker or what, none of them started off in the position they're in now. You run several times a week and are bad ASS on those hills.

I'm still sometimes nervous when I go to a running store. I don't "look" like a runner but then I remind myself of how far I've come and what I've done in just two short years and that reminds me that I DESERVE to be there.

You ARE a runner and that store? It was made for YOU!

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EDWINA172 8/11/2010 4:16PM

    If I worked in the running store, I would think, "Yay! Another customer." That's all they're thinking.
I know that when you're heavy you think that people are looking at you and judging you. I used to be heavy. I know. But, I also know that when you're in the gym, people are rooting you on when/if they look at you. Most of the time, people are too absorbed with themselves to even give anyone else another thought.
Go to the dentist/running store. Its good for you! You are an athlete. Remember that!

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AMBUDMAN 8/11/2010 4:16PM

    The people at the store are there to help you not judge you. So go.

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JMEPAYNE 8/11/2010 4:06PM

    you should totally go. and if people judge you, their just horrible people, so who cares.

i went in to a new balance store to get fitted for new shoes, at 200+ lbs. the staff were SOOOOOO nice! i never felt like i was being judged, and quite frankly... i never cared. i just wanted shoes that made me float on the track instead of hurt my feet.

it will totally be worth it in the end!

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SKINNYPOWELL1 8/11/2010 4:06PM

    I totally admire your honesty. Let me put your mind at ease, the people that work in the running stores, don't care how big we are - they care about us being physically fit. They are there to help us to become runners. They are excited about getting us into our perfect pair of shoes, just like we are excited to get a pair and begin our new hobby. Whatever day you are going to the running store, just know that I am right there beside you, helping you thru it (I've been there) - muster up that courage girlie. emoticon

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JIPURVIANCE 8/11/2010 4:05PM

  Hahah your blog made me smile about your daughter.

Camel Baks are awesome. My husband is in the Marine Corps and he uses his every day...5 stars from the military!

As for shoes, I would definatly go in the store and do the running test thingy. I hope you get a nice sweet caring professional who helps you and doesnt judge! Goodluck! emoticon

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SEEAMANDARUN 8/11/2010 4:01PM

    It will be worth it - I promise!!!! Going to the running store and being fitted was one of the best decisions I have made. I have had absolutely no problems (knock on wood) with my feet or legs since I got my new shoes (about 3 months ago). Look at all you've accomplished. You're a runner - and runners go to running stores!

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KARVY09 8/11/2010 4:00PM

    Go to the store, Heather!

Right off the bat, tell them you ran a friggin' crazy 10K in the mountains and you're training for a half marathon in November and it'll wow them. I'll bet you're an overpronator and I bet you need stability shoes and I bet you NEED to get a gait analysis done. Period.

If they judge you, so be it. It's on their conscience. But at least you'll have a banging pair of shoes.

I know how you feel because I felt the same way going into the store at 240ish pounds and asking for the running shoes, but I didn't feel judged at all. And the shoes? Made me feel like running on clouds.

Please go. Go Go Go Go!



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50 things...

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

The thing to do today...My kids are going crazy and this looks like fun and I have lots to do so ....

1. What time did you get up this morning? 5:00AM

2. How do you like your steak? Medium Well, although I am starting to lean more toward medium rare, as long as it is medium and not rare...

3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema? Could not tell's been eons since I've gone to the cinema and I'm sure the last thing I did see would have been at the children's free summer theater.

4. What is your favorite TV show? Just fell in love with Parenthood, love the story line and Army Wives, although this season is not keeping me engaged as much as previous seasons.

5. If you could live anywhere in the world where would it be? Where my family is. If we moved far away I think I would have to make sure they moved too.

6. What did you have for breakfast? Chocolate squash cupcake, my daughter brought it to me so I ate it...

7. What is your favorite cuisine? Mexican

8. What foods do you dislike? I'm with Karvy -capers. I think they look like boogers and there is something about the flavor that I just don't like.

9. Favorite Place to Eat? With my sister-someplace that serves good food, I tend to choose Mexican. Islands serves up a mean vegi patty I could go for. Rubios has good tacos, The Taco Shop here in town does a mean chicken burrito.

10. Favorite dressing? Gonna keep my sister's answer for this one too. Raspberry Vinaigrette (actually I prefer Rasberry Walnut) when I'm being good and Bleu Cheese when I'm not. :-)

11.What kind of vehicle do you drive? Kia Minivan

12. What are your favorite clothes? Comfortable ones. Have a couple of long skirts, denim and khaki that get worn a lot.

13. Where would you visit if you had the chance? Germany-want to show my family where I lived for 18 months.

14. Cup 1/2 empty or 1/2 full? Depends on what is inside the cup...

15. Where would you want to retire? I have to go somewhere else when I retire? I live in a retirement town and have seen how it makes old people act-no thanks!! Maybe I'll move into the hippest family development around-kids keep you young.

16. Favorite time of day? After dinner, chores are done for the day and the kids are getting ready for bed, it is just husband and it.

17. Where were you born? Ogden, Utah

18. What is your favorite sport to watch? Football. College ball to be specific, but the pros are good too.

19. How many siblings? 2

20. Favorite pastime/hobby? Same as my sister again...besides Spark and running - reading! Me-also scrapbooking.

21. Who are you most curious about their responses to this? responses? I have friends so I'm sure I'll get some, but it's all good.

22. Bird watcher? I like to watch my cat birdwatch-that is some pretty entertaining stuff.

23. Are you a morning person or a night person? Night, please don't make me get up in the a.m. before the's not pretty most of the time.

24. Do you have any pets? Baxter the beagle, Kirby the kitty and Matanui the goldfish.

25. Any new and exciting news you'd like to share? My sister will be a nana soon!!

26. What did you want to be when you were little? A teacher

27. What is your best childhood memory? Leaving my sister's answer again...Oh there's so many! Road trip summer vacations, camping, many!

28. Are you a cat or dog person? Dog

29. Are you married? Yes, just celebrated 11 years.

30. Always wear your seat belt? Oh yes.

31. Been in a car accident? A couple

32. Any pet peeves? Of course and every 28 days or so they multiply like crazy.

33. Favorite Pizza Toppings? Canadian bacon and pineapple with cashews and BBQ chicken, can never decide between the two.

34. Favorite Flower? Sunflower and gerbera daisy

35. Favorite ice cream? Rocky Road-with marshmallows NOT marshmallow ribbon-yuck!!

36. Favorite fast food restaurant? Rubio's

37. How many times did you fail your driver's test? Got it right the first time

38. From whom did you get your last email? Spark

39. Which store would you choose to max out your credit card? Bed, Bath and Beyond was my first choice, but I love my sister's answer of Dick's Sporting Goods!

40. Do anything spontaneous lately? This blog was the most spontanious I've been lately

41. Like your job? If I didn't there is no quitting and getting a new one-I'm a mom 24/7- and yes I like my job-most of the time-I'll like it more when school starts again.

42. Broccoli? Yes!

43. What was your favorite vacation? Any of the many camping trips I've gone on-still fond of the trip when we packed all three of us kids, a cousin, and our german shepherd in our Pinto Station Wagon and drove from Southern to Northern California to visit an Uncle, we went through Yosemite, the Sequoias and other California Natural Wonders, as well as a great time water skiing with the uncle. That was an awesome trip.

44. Last person you went out to dinner with? My husband during anniversary weekend.

45. What are you listening to right now? The Backyardigans, daughters are watching it on Netflix streaming through the Wii

46. What is your favorite color? Green (my sister said red and I just realized that together we equal Christmas)

47. How many tattoos do you have? None.

48. How many people will fill this out? 7, 567, 443, yes I just pushed whatever keys I felt like pushing. Seriously, how am I supposed to know that??

49. What time did you finish this quiz? 12:06 PM PST (ask me how long it took...almost an hour because my girls kept needing help with their projects)

50. Coffee Drinker? Blech. No.

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WENDYWITKOSKI 8/10/2010 9:05PM


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EDWINA172 8/10/2010 8:26PM

    Hey-#20 we're the same....running, reading, Sparking! Loved #32! Too funny.

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BUTTERFLYBLUE67 8/10/2010 5:08PM

    My favorite color is green and my husbands is red. I guess it's Christmas in our home all the time also. Where's my CHRISTMAS GIFT'S AT?

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BUTTERFLYBLUE67 8/10/2010 5:05PM

    My favorite color is green and my husbands is red. I guess it's Christmas in our home all the time also. Where's my CHRISTMAS GIFT'S AT?

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4EVERADONEGIRL 8/10/2010 4:32PM

    although I suppose we could do 4:45 on Thursday...That would probably still leave enough time.

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4EVERADONEGIRL 8/10/2010 4:32PM

    That was a great vacation (#43!!!)...great answers! And yes - sorry that I am usually the culprit to making you get up before the sun breaks! LOL

Thursday at 4:30 AM? I know that is only 30 minutes different than our really early time...but I'm trying to leave room for our longer runs. emoticon

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    Fun reading--good to get to know you better! BTW, I love watching our cats birdwatch, too!

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NEW-CAZ 8/10/2010 3:22PM

    Hi Heather
Love 14
emoticon to your sister

love list learn so much

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LUCYMAVIS1 8/10/2010 3:11PM

    Aren't these things fun?

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Today I feel strong-like a guy strong!!

Saturday, August 07, 2010

Today was hill repeats and truthfully, after our last round of hill repeats I was kind of dreading it. Last time I was hot, tired, my feet wouldn't move and it was just all around bad. Today was a totally different experience.

First I did some playing with my shoes. I currently have 3 pairs of running shoes in my closet, the cheap-o Target ones I very first bought when I started running and wasn't sure this was something that deserved a big investment of money, the New Balance I bought when that first pair wore out and my newer ones that are worn out. The New Balance were the wrong shoes for me and are not worn out, but I seldom wear them because they are so wrong. They are slightly better if I wear thin socks, today I was wearing thick socks. I didn't want to wear the newer, but worn out shoes because they are causing issues with my shins on regular runs, I tried to put on the NB but they simply felt wrong, so that left the worn out first pair of shoes. Hmmm well, at least the old shoes don't cause shin problems at this point, they just don't offer as much cushion as I need at this point. What should I do? I ended up pulling the liner from the NBs and sticking them in the old shoes and trying them on. Felt really good!! Hmm maybe we have a short term solution here...turns out they worked really well for the entire run. Definitely a short term solution, but should get me to the next pay day when we will have the funds for brand new, professionally fitted shoes. Two weeks away, but I am so excited!!

So, I also wore my brand new, $8, Wal-Mart, technical shirt today. I was a little skeptical since it was only $8 at Wal-Mart, but it made a HUGE difference. I still sweated but my shirt kept me cool and refreshed the entire run. It did help that today was a significantly cooler morning than lately, but I still worked up a sweat and the shirt was WONDERFUL. Wal-Mart fitness gear is definitely hit or miss and this shirt is a hit! I even love the fit. Well fitted and slimming through the chest, but long so it provides great coverage and minimal ride up during the run. Woo Hoo.

The warm-up was shorter than normal. I took a short cut so I hit the hills warmed up but still fresh, that was a good plan. I ran to the crest of our first little hill and then walked to the start of our repeat hill. I did a lot of things today. I kept an eye on my heart rate, I mixed in a couple repeats where I ran the hill down instead of walking, I stayed hydrated and I kept popping sports beans throughout the repeat. I definitely accomplished more today than the previous repeats.

I picked two ranges for my HR and worked on staying under the upper range while going up and letting my HR get back into the lower range before starting back down. That seemed to work REALLY well for me. It meant that I spent a little more time hanging out at the bottom of the hill while my HR came down, but it meant that I was able to go farther and get less fatigued the rest of the time.

I took a swig of water every time I hit the bottom of the hill to stay hydrated and popped beans every so often.

I did 10 repeats today, but each repeat was longer than last week's repeats and the last one was the longest yet. The last 3 repeats were all killers, but we got through. At number 7 my sister said that the next three, 7, 8, 9 were going to be tasty (you know because 7 ate 9). Number 8 was the tasty one, number nine the one we were going to eat. So running up the hill on 9 my sister is saying, mmmmm tasty. I say, just like chocolate chip. Sis says, with ice cream. I say "rocky road" because we are nuts, our shoes the marshmallows and the road yummy chocolate. She agreed we were nuts. Yep those endorphins are kicking in and inducing temporary insanity...stick with gets worse. Half way up nine I am feeling it. My muscles are telling me they are out of carbs and out of oxygen, they are burning fat now and not very happy about it. I am well into anaerobic activity. I am feeling it, but at the same time I am feeling POWERFUL, powerful like a guy powerful. Maybe that sounds really weird, but hey, it was those endorphins and temporary insanity :). The hill was laughing at me so I growled at it and it backed down, I was so triumphant when I hit the turn around that I did a kind of hooyah. But then it was time for number 10. More rocky road ice cream!! Number 10 I went the farthest yet, all the way to the guardrail my sis had been using as the turn around for her entire run. I had to ignore the HRM because it was kind of yelling at me, but I did it and it was AWESOME!!! I've decided than a GOOD hill repeats run is the most empowering thing I've ever experienced. Running is great, but running a hill and conquering it is AWESOME!! Like a guy awesome-lol!!

Okay, so the sport beans...tried some a year ago and they were kind of sweet so when I saw a different flavor at the store yesterday I was a little reluctant to try them, but figured what the heck. This was the cherry Jelly Belly Sports Beans. The flavor is good, actually not sweet but tangy. They were a good texture and quite tasty. The cherry has caffeine which I went for even though I'm not a huge fan of caffeine, I wanted to see if the caffeine helped, I think it actually did. They did make me a little burp-y, but that may have been due to the fact that I was eating them on an empty stomach. Overall I enjoyed them and will probably give them another try on a long run with other food in my stomach first to see if that helps. If they don't sit well with other food I will probably give them up in favor of something that sits better, but initially I liked them and felt that they did the job they promised to do.

So, back to the hills. After number 10 we were both done and we walked back to our cars, chatting as we usually do. We get back and do our stretching, chatting along still. At the end we are discussing my need for new shoes and then our half-marathon training plans. Kristen mentions a chart we have both seen recently that refers to speed training and she mentions that her times are not really on the chart and I laugh and say that my times are NEVER on any charts. I say that I am not a runner by anyone's standards except for my own. 17 minute miles are not running according to ANY source. We laugh and we joke more about how I am running because there is a point where both feet are off the ground you just can't see it. Kristen says that I have such a fast turnover that it is invisible, we joke that I am a fast runner stuck in slo-mo. I laugh that I am on pause with somebody pushing the button over and over so that I am scrolling through my run in super slo-mo. Then Kristen jokes that I am a flip-book and that gets both of us laughing so hard that we start laughing that we are getting an abs workout. We were busting up over the goofiest things. We agreed that it was those endorphins causing temporary insanity again. I'm a flip-book...that one still has me chuckling. Yeah, I'm slow, the slowest of penguin and turtle runners. I am so slow that there is almost no difference between my fastest walking pace and my running pace, but hey I'm still out there, I'm still working on it and I'm making progress. Today was an AWESOME hill run and it wasn't even the endorphins speaking it was simply an awesome run and that is something I can feel great about and someday soon I'll be able to say I conquered the beast and that is something that not everyone can say emoticon.

Today I feel strong-like a guy strong! emoticon

P.S. Dear Spark, I would really like a hill/mountain emoticon and in case you missed it my sister would like a buzzy bee. Thanks!!

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VELLE9 8/11/2010 10:19PM

    emoticon emoticon job with running! You are an inspiration!

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4EVERADONEGIRL 8/9/2010 7:37PM

    I think I'm STILL on a high from that run on Saturday!! :-) It sure was fun (yeah, I do realize how weird it is to be saying that #1 running is fun and #2 that running on hills was fun!) LOL Most people think what we do for fun is punishment!

We ROCK!!!! *High Five*!!

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PINKCOCONUT 8/9/2010 4:16PM

    Way to kick that hills' arse! I agree, there's NOTHING like conquering a hill to empower you! I remember training for a run back in March and my only goal was to get up these two killer hills without stopping. The last hill crested at 200m to the end and I found myself running up that hill without stopping and then SPRINTING towards the finish line. I have never felt so strong (and tired) at one time. It was definitely a moment to remember!

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PAPPHEM 8/9/2010 4:06PM

    I love it! The key is that you are running and having fun with it again! Good job on a great run.

I may have to try the jelly beans, just can't get the hang of the gels....

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JOY_JOY 8/8/2010 11:47PM

  You are beatin' those hills!!! emoticon

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ESBELL 8/8/2010 7:28AM

    You are rocking that hill! Great job!

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FLUTTER-BY)L( 8/7/2010 5:56PM

    flip books usually make me smile. You will get faster. Keep moving and keep trying. Love hearing of your progress.

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    I don't tell you enough..but you are doing amazing even if you are a flip book.

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NEW-CAZ 8/7/2010 3:15PM

    Heather I love your blogs, your sense of humour is amazing.
Can I take it, it was an emoticon run today. Loving the endorphins and tempory insanity, gimme gimme emoticon

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MGRIFFITH32 8/7/2010 2:19PM

    I love it! Your sister is hilarious. I could totally see the tasty hill. And for the record, 17 minute miles rock! I'm just sayin'. A runner runs. Period. No qualifications. When's the half?

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EDWINA172 8/7/2010 1:03PM

    Yay! If felt like I was right there running with you! You're having so much fun. That's awesome.
The good runs always make up for the bad ones. I tell people that it kind of reminds me of childbirth. Women rarely remember ALL of the pain that they go though delivering a child (otherwise, would they try again?). Sometimes, when I'm running I think, "I'm not really having fun right now." When its done, I think, "Wow. That was great!"
You are so right about the endorphins and temporary insanity! Bring it on!

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