Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Today would be an easy day to call a set back, maybe even a failure. I didn't go to exercise class, I didn't get out in the garden like I was planning to, I didn't do much in the way of exercise. But, here's the thing I did really great all weekend, I haven't been getting enough sleep, and it has been just an all around rough time. So, I have to ask myself "What did I do today?" I cleaned up a little bit of my house which has gotten totally and completely out of control. I still watched my food intake, I actually WROTE DOWN what I ate today. I had oatmeal for breakfast this morning and discovered how easy it is to make regular oatmeal in the microwave-instead of reaching for the kids' cereal and eating way too much or resorting to sugary instant oatmeal. I counted the cheez-its I ate from my daughter's supply. I took a short but well deserved nap. I talked to my son about how it is okay to be sad when he told me he knew that we would not get to see Grandma Ruth anymore. I took my kids to baseball practice and we stayed later than we meant to while I talked to a good friend and we cried together over the bad and good that has been going on lately and our children had fun being children on a beautiful spring evening. As I write this I realize that today was a completely successful day for me. I feel good about what I did accomplish and I totally refuse to feel bad about what I did not accomplish. Tomorrow is a new day. Tomorrow I WILL go to aerobics. Tomorrow I might still have to give up something I want to do for something I need to do, but that's okay too because I still have Thursday, Friday, Saturday, etc. to do the things I want to do. Right now my kids are playing hide and seek with their Grandma and the dog wants to play too and this is making me happy. It doesn't matter if I did everything I needed to or even wanted to, I did what was right for me and my family. What a great day.
Thanks for all of the encouragement and support in the comments left on my blogs-I look forward to reading them each day and they are a real help in each day's journey.
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Today I got up and hurried my children out of the house to go to "Exercise Class" as we call the aerobics class held in the cultural (ie; sports or activities) hall at church. Monday is one of my favorite instructors-Lisa. She gives great instructions, her music is fun to listen to and I can do a decent job of keeping up with the class. Moves that she incorporates that are too high impact or difficult for me at this point in my fitness journey are easily modified. So, today we headed off with the idea in my mind that this was just what I needed-some ME time to do what makes me feel good. So where exactly did my plan fall apart? My children go with me to this class. This class is a nice mix of older ladies and mommies with children. We start after school begins so those mommies with school age children can get them dropped off and then make it to class. My son, who is in Kindergarten, has the afternoon session so he gets to come along.
First, there were alot of kids today! So after Lisa started class we all, including Lisa who has two kids come with her, had to stop to remind the children that they have a specific play area so that the class members are not constantly falling over small children. I was just getting into the swing of things when my newly pottytrained two year old comes over and says "Me have to go potty". So, I stop again to take her to the potty. I get back and am just getting into the swing of things again when I have to stop again to remind my son he DOES NOT get to run out of the hall without my permission-even if "the other kids went first". I was getting along quite well for awhile and thinking that I would now make it to the end of class without further interuption. The kids were all playing nicely together and I was sweating out my frustrations with all the other ladies when here comes the two year old AGAIN. "Me have to go potty" Seriously!!!??? So off we go again and she did have to go potty (she had alot to drink before we left-I'll try to avoid that next time). Was this the end of my troubles-NO. We are just moving into the cool down when my children start playing with my floor mat. The 4.5 year old is crouching, face down on the mat when the 2 year old flops down on top of her. At first it looked like just a bump and nothing more, then the 4.5 year old's nose starts to bleed. GREAT!! Back to the bathroom one more time. I get her cleaned up in time to see that the group is about half way through the cool down and headed for the stretching exercise before we move to the floor to work on abs. I look around the hall and realize my son and other daughter are AWOL at almost the same time another mother realizes her two sons are also AWOL. Certain that they have become a foursome we divide and search. She takes the outside, I take the inside. I find all four playing in the children's Sunday School room. Both sets were scolded and we returned to the hall one more time. Just in time for some leg work, I totally missed the abs (too bad-good thing I hate abs). Finally, the last stretching session rolls around and the 2 year old decides since Mommy is sitting on the floor Mommy can hold her. OH WELL. I tried. At least we kept moving quickly during our trips to the bathroom and if anyone had seen me marching in place in the bathroom they probably would have wondered why I didn't make use of the available facilities and I actually broke into a run during the search for the AWOL children. We will go back on Wednesday and try again. Maybe this time I will get to follow the workout the instructor is doing instead of the one my children designed. Tomorrow the plan is to do more gardening. Here in So. Cal. we are already entering growing season and I need to dig up last year's garden and get my tomatoes in the ground along with some seeds (peppers, radishes, cucumbers, beans and peas for now). Good Night.
Monday, March 30, 2009
Today was so interesting! It started out when I started getting ready for church. As is my habit I stepped on the scale almost as soon as my eyes were open, in fact, today I forgot to put my glasses on first so I had to get off the scale and then put my face up to the digital display and then I had to look again-the number had dropped almost two pounds from the day before!!!! I guess gardening is better exercise than I thought.
The second interesting moment came when my children actually behave for ALMOST the entire time at church. My 4.5 year old needed several reminders, but we didn't have to actually walk out of the meeting.
Third, today was Fast Sunday-an LDS tradition where 1 time per month we fast for two meals (generally breakfast and lunch). Usually, for me, this results in a post-church binge. Not exactly what I should be doing after a fast, but my usual habit none the less. Today-NO BINGE. I did eat 3 pieces of bacon I had to cook in order to crumble it into a new corn bread recipe I was trying (thankfully the bread wasn't all that terrific so I won't be tempted to make chedder-bacon cornbread again). I was able to limit my snacks to a couple of handfulls of grapes and those tempting 3 pieces of bacon.
Fourth, I did not eat an entire plateful of spaghetti at dinner. 1 piece of the cornbread and an amount of spaghetti that did not even manage to cover even half of my small plate and just a smattering of sauce with no meat!
Fifth, I discovered a new way of dieting. Eat only what your children leave behind. I know that cleaning their plates after cleaning my own is BAD, BAD, BAD! But, tonight we had strawberry shortcake for dessert (no whipped cream!) and my children, all three of them, ate all of the cake and none of the strawberries. Shame on them, but instead of dishing up my own serving with cake, I just ate thier strawberries. Okay, kind of weird I know, but, I discovered that I really like just plain strawberries in a bowl.
So today was a real hodge podge of experiences, but they all turned into a pretty good day overall.
P.S. to those who read yesterday's blog-Grandpa passed away today so my husband's family will be having a double funeral this week. Everyone is hanging in there and my brother-in-law, who has not been to church in over 10 years, was in church today gaining strength from the teachings his grandparents followed. A wonderful moment at this dark time.
Saturday, March 28, 2009
I am an emotional eater. I didn't need anyone to tell me this it is pretty obvious when I head straight for the fridg when something upsets me. Yesterday, in a horrible tragedy we lost my husband's grandmother-the matriarch of the family and our grandfather is clinging to life after extensive surgery. I will spare you the details of the tragedy as they are quite literally the things of nightmares and horror stories. Our family has been dealt a horrible blow. How do we deal with this? Even our bishop (our religious leader to members of other teams who are not LDS) is at a loss as to how to give our family the comfort we need so much. My first instinct FOOD!!! Food will solve all of our problems. Oddly enough the challenge for yesterday from one of my teams was to pay attention to emotional eating. How strange that the team leader for the 1-Day Challenge team would know that on Friday this would be my biggest challenge. I did pretty well, I must say. I ate only foods I would have normally eaten-no cookies, no cake, no bags of chips or gallons of ice cream. Today was another fairly successful day-so far. Our dinner is not the healthiest of meals-won tons (baked not fried), fried rice and vegis, but I still have not rushed to the store for all those comforting things that usually get me through a challenge. How am I doing it? I don't know to tell you all the truth, but maybe because this challenge is coming from outside myself it helps. My attention is focused on those around me, my grieving husband, my 6-year old who is learning about loss for the first time and my two young girls who are pretty much unaware except for the many hushed conversations and phone calls. Tomorrow I will get to indulge in creating a feast, but not for me. I have taken on the challenge of preparing a meal for the family members gathering together tomorrow. They are coming from all over the western U.S. and need comfort. My husband keeps putting me back in line as I keep trying to add more and more menu items. We have settled on a comforting meal that will not destroy anyone's health! Spaghetti, garlic bread (home made-frustration is vented quite nicely on home made bread dough), corn bread for those who don't like garlic and jell-o for the kids, and Strawberry shortcake for dessert. Again not exactly health food, but comforting and a way for me to work out some emotion.
So, the real thing I want to convey in this blog is that there are always people in need. If we look around us we see them everywhere, a local homeless shelter, a new mom trying to adjust to no sleep, an elderly couple who are feeling completely useless, or a family in grief. Next time any of you feel the need to turn to emotional eating turn that need outward. Fix your favorite meal, dessert, whatever-then deliver it somewhere else. Use your energy in a positive manner and bless the lives of others and save your waistline! Is this easy? Not exactly, but I think I see it working.
Thanks and may the Lord bless all of you in your own personal journeys.
Thursday, March 26, 2009
When we were little sometimes my little sister (Kristen) just bugged the heck out of me. It's true. I think she knows it is true. Anyways, Kristen is on Sparkpeople just like me, well not just like me. 'Cause here's the thing-she is LOTS more dedicated than me. It doesn't help that I only have occasional access to a computer until we fix our dang power cord. But, this is all about elimiating excuses so... Once upon a time when my pesky little sister would pester me to do something I didn't really want to do (like play Barbies AGAIN) it would bug me and I would ignore her. But, now she has been pestering me to do something and I've been dragging my feet and procrastinating and making excuses like "it's too hard to get on my husband's computer and I hate it anyways because the "N" key is missing, blah, blah, blah. (Jeez even in my own head I start to sound like the adults on Charlie Brown specials-I tune out my own blathering self). Kristen has been pestering me to get more active on Sparkpeople. So here I am and it wasn't even as bad as I thought it would be... Totally painless even. I even added the ten pounds to the amount I want to lose without feeling totally aweful about having to add an additional ten pounds. So, I guess I need to change Kristen's status from pesky sister to loving, tuned in to my needs, dedicated sister. To anyone reading this who doesn't have a pesky (a.ka. loving, etc. sister) find a buddy! Their help in keeping us on track is priceless. We could create our own commercial. Cost of one bottle of water $1.50, cost of one box of 100 calorie snack $3.00, cost of a person who cares about your health and is willing to tell you to get back on track-PRICELESS.
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