Sunday, January 13, 2013
I learned that I give up way too easily.
It was the second half and I thought the game was over because the Falcons were up by 20.
It was the fourth quarter and I thought the game was over because the Seahawks still needed at least another touchdown to win.
Within the last two minutes of the game I thought the game was over, the Seahawks scored the touchdown and made the extra point, which left them up by 1.
The Seahawks were up by 1, with only 31 seconds on the clock and I thought the game was over, because there was no way the Falcons would have any time to get it back downfield.
The Falcons scored their field goal and I thought the game was over because there were only 8 seconds left on the clock.
In the last 8 seconds, the Seahawks ran a hail mary play that *could* have won the game and was caught on the inzone by the falcons. But if it had been a Hawk that had caught it, it would have won them the game with another touchdown.
And then the game was truely over.
I need to learn to fight as hard as I can for things and adopt the adage "It Ain't Over Till the Fat Lady Sings" as they say, rather than buckling at the beginning at the littlest obstacles. From now on I'll remember that Hail Mary play and keep playing, because anything could happen, the game isn't over until its over.
Thursday, January 10, 2013
Today has been uneventful. I'm on a volunteer's lunch break at a small private school where I volunteer. My iPod has been a distraction. At least it was yesterday, so I left it home today. It emits a noise each time I get an e-mail notification that someone has responded to one of my posts. I get caught up in listening for it and being absent minded. At the moment, I'm unsure what to do about it, since I really do need the added support.
Roger's donations are being accessioned (given library numbers) today! I'd phone him to let him know, but I decided to leave my cell phone with my iPod today and handle all calls after I get home.
Well, back to work.
Tuesday, January 08, 2013
When you are on Spark, community support is very important. Without support people fall away and don't get back up again (metaphorically speaking) Community support provides motivation and feedback on your goals and how to accomplish them. Hopefully three heads are better than one and between everyone we are wiser as a unit than we are alone. --Which is why I think they start us out in SparkTeams.
So what happens if you get to the SparkTeam Community board and say you need support? The fastest way a person can send you motivation, ask more questions, and help individually beyond the board is by clicking the hyperlink that your name becomes when you have set up a page. From your page people can comment outright at the bottom of the page, on a blog entry, give you SparkGoodies, add you as a friend, or sparkmail you.
While SparkMail is an option if you don't have a page, the person has to navigate to the SparKMail screen and remember how to spell your username, which is a lot more tedious and takes more time.
Plus its friendlier and helps us envisage a little more of the person you are and hope to become. It is a challenge sometimes to come up with content for the page, but it helps explore parts of you you might want to share, dust off, and present. A little creative writing is good for the soul. :)
OK, off soapbox... And if my bestie who has just joined is reading this, no, it is not because of her that I am writing this.. (.. but yes, I would like her to make a page as soon as possible too... lol)
Monday, August 29, 2011
I have very little patience for blogs. I have to admit I don't know why I'm writing one. Maybe it is the clamoring of the senses to be let out onto the page for a little while, or maybe it is just a desperate attempt to leave some trace, something that says to the outside world "I was here" even if only for a little while.
Elsewhere on SparkPeople I have started a weight loss group for friends, family, and sufferers of schizophrenia and schizoaffective disorder. I named it Butterfly People because butterflies distract and are often unpredictable in their flight patterns. The person afflicted is like a small child entangled in fantasies that flit and lead who knows where.
Here I was thinking more of a set of metaphors I fashioned after a prompt in a book, It's hard to make a difference when you can't find your keys, by Marilyn Paul.
My life is like fingerpainting. Messy, but colorful, and valued simply because it exists.
My heart is a butterfly, dancing with the colors and motion of Mei (in House of Flying
Daggers), no less skillful and beautiful. My feet move to follow my heart.
I am courageous and able, like the martial artist Shu Lien (the platonic interest of monk Li Mu Bai in Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon). I am able to face each day, in a practical, graceful manner.
Friday, August 12, 2011
I just finished watching the episodes of Heavy and realized that I really didn't do my trainer justice when I was at Vision Quest that one and only time I went. Trainers push you past where you would know instinctively it was safe and into the realm of "I don't know if I can do this"
I've heard the show explained like this. Biggest Loser's concept was a show made to look and operate like a fat camp, while Heavy is a fat camp made to function like a show. Each person is paired up with another, they have one month on a ranch/spa and then spend the next five months with personal trainers to try and achieve a balance between all the parts of their life, centering around the new healthy lifestyle.
In my own personal weight loss, I'm not looking to lose the same kind of figures each week, but it makes me wish I could join a gym and have a trainer again. Vision Quest had its monthly fees and then included one or two sessions a month. Of course they were also high pressure about upgrading your package to include the personal trainer on a regular basis, but I feel a bit wistful that I didn't make better use when I had the chance. I suppose I should cut myself some slack since I had anemia and didn't know it, but I went through one set of equipment and the eliptical and said uh uh..
If I maintain my goal weight for a year, I will look into getting a membership again. Maybe after that I will have a better idea what I want to do with the various pieces of equipment. I'm always tempted to go and see about the Athletic Club which is a little closer, but I remember all the fees I had to pay with the last membership, so I'm waiting. Heavy is sponsored by Anytime Fitness and it makes me sad that ours went out of business before I started watching this on Netflix. They are out by the Subway I love so much.
Anyway.. just rambling now.. just some things I'm thinking about
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