Preparations for a holiday get together

Sunday, December 21, 2008

We are getting together for a dinner and dessert potluck with our Life Group from church. I know that it will be a little uncomfortable because we have been doing another study on that night and it will have been a while since we have seen many of them.

But my plans are to not eat ANY dessert. If I see a dessert I just can't resist, I'll put that on my list of things to make one day. I will eat the meal, but as planned with 3 oz. protein, 1 grain serving, 1 fruit serving, 3 veggies and 2 fat (as available).

  

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SUMMERBUSHNELL 12/21/2008 11:12PM

That is so weird that someone would just buy you jeans. That woman should know better than to put people in that situation. Silly. Glad you survived that. You are better than me to do no dessert!

ISSYSMOMMY 12/21/2008 10:11PM

Well...survived! Ate a pretty healthy, moderate dinner. NO dessert(s) at all!!! Huge victory! And was able to process and survive a pretty awkward situation. One of the ladies says, "Hey all the ladies...in the bedroom." We get in there and there are about 30 pairs of designer jeans and about 5 sweatshirts. The hosts had just gotten back from China and got us all jeans. ...uh, or shall we say all jeans from sizes about 22 to 32. Uh, my butt hasn't seen a size 32 jeans since high school. How completely awkward and embarrassing!!! I just sat there repeating in my head "don't cry, don't cry." And just sort of sat there smiling, hoping no one would draw attention to the fact that I wasn't trying on the jeans. One skinny girl kept saying try on the sweatshirt (uh, it was a M), and she was trying really hard to shield me from the embarrassment. But at the end of it all, I survived it without having to eat to deal with my feelings and didn't have to cry. VICTORY!!!

CAROL.JACKSON 12/21/2008 7:39PM

Good luck!

Lost 4 lbs and other lessons learned

Friday, December 19, 2008

Well, I lost 4 lbs for my first week...whooo...hoooo!!!

But, I realized that I am (for now, one day at a time) unable to eat cake balls. They just totally jack up my blood sugar, and the entire rest of the day I struggle to get my blood sugars normal.

I think I'll add that to my no list for now.

  

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SUPERDUPER26 12/22/2008 3:51PM

I ran into a pretty ugly problem last week with peanutbutter balls, tasty, but in the end not worth the never-ending refuses-to-go-back-down blood sugar that came with them. Darn. Just make sure we remember this next year too when all the holiday goodies start rolling in again....

I don't know why I want to think that living healthy doesn't take work

Thursday, December 18, 2008

For some reason, I try to think that maintaining weight and losing weight should be natural, easy, intuitive, and a breeze. Then every time I start to lose weight, I realize it does take work. And I especially realize that when I start to watch other thin people around me. They do things like order the salad or soup and then only eat about half of it. That is a total foreign concept to me. Now, it may come naturally to them, but I am not them. And I am judging their actions and making assumptions about their thoughts. For all I know, it might be just as hard for them as it is for me.

  

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SUPERDUPER26 12/22/2008 3:47PM

I had to laugh when I read your title, because I too want to think it should be easy and I get annoyed when I have to put time and effort into not gaining weight. It does take effort to read all those dang labels at the grocery store, and to find food that is good for your taste buds as well as your body, and then you still have to cook it! Some days I make peace with it by reminding myself how much harder life as a whole used to be, you know, walk uphill to school barefoot in the snow... Now we just drive everywhere and shoes are easy to come by, but the trade off is having to work at eating right.

CAROL.JACKSON 12/20/2008 12:08AM

I totally and 100% agree with you! If I would go out to eat with my skinny co-workers, they always wanted to order a salad and they wanted to split it! I mean it is a salad, do you really need to split it??? And then when I started changing my eating habits, I found myself doing what they did! I think it takes work for everyone, some people just have to work a little bit longer! I always wondered if they ever went home and just wanted to scarf down ice cream.

Day 3 of Abstinence

Monday, December 15, 2008

Still not sure of my entire definition of abstinence, but I think it is starting to look something like 3 recorded meals, 1 snack, juice (as necessary for low blood sugar) so far.

Tonight, I went to a celebration dinner at Macaroni Grill and decided ahead of time to not eat there. And it was a little tough, but not near as tough as that horrible heavy feeling from eating too much. Also, I discovered an amazing thing...when I chose not to eat dinner (made sure to eat my dinner before going, so I wasn't hungry), I realized that for about the first 10 minutes of everyone eating, I had a very captive and quiet audience. Funny how much I had to say since I wasn't stuffing my face. :)

  

Day 6 - Looking for a Diet Coach

Saturday, December 13, 2008

Well, looks like I found a diet coach aka a sponsor today at an Overeaters Anonymous meeting. I am really excited and scared all at the same time. I so hate even think about saying I am a compulsive overeater, but when I read the definition of compulsive from the OA pamphlet it totally made sense. Something about not having a choice. I get that. I am going to try some more meetings closer, but I really liked the one this morning. We'll see...everything else I've done hasn't worked, so I hope this does.