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5 months late i think?

Friday, May 09, 2014

Well as many of you know my uncle killed himself last yr and my grandma lives with me and it hit her VERY hard to lose another child esp since it had been only 3 yrs since my mom died and grandma has been very depressed since mom died and my uncle killing himself made things worse for not knowing how to help her. things are better now but it hit hard because i had to deal with my own feelings of it and hers since i take care of her and be able to be a comfort to her and find hope.

We are trying really hard to find happiness again and keep our heads up and I've decided to try to lose the 20lbs i have gained in this bad time.
so hopefully by my 34th birthday in sept i can lose at least half of it.

  
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JUMPINJULIE 5/16/2014 3:55PM

    Sending Hugs.

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PATTYKLAVER 5/14/2014 9:20AM

    I am sorry that you and your grandma have had such terrible tragedies. I said a prayer for you that comfort will come soon.

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KATIBUG49 5/11/2014 9:36PM

    It's so hard when you lose loved ones, I recently lost my father & I still can't get it together, I think we have to take each day one minute at a time. You can do it!

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NELLIEC 5/10/2014 4:15PM

    It is not surprising that both you and your grandmother are sad. But it is good that you are helping her.

I will be praying for both of you!

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SWEETNEEY 5/10/2014 11:29AM

    It's one day at a time. We have to feel the pain but continue on. A plan to lose weight is a positive way to move forward

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GARDENCHRIS 5/10/2014 8:12AM

    sorry for all the sadness, you need to care for yourself also, so do it because you matter.

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03191952 5/9/2014 4:57PM

  sorry for you loss, but happy for your devotion to your grandma, I know it's really hard to care for someone & take care of yourself at the same time, we know you lose your weight, we're cheering you on all the way

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Feeling empty

Monday, December 23, 2013

Well things haven't been good here as you can tell from my past posts this last year has been very hard on our family.
my uncles killing himself opened my eyes to a lot of stuff and a lot of anger toward the way he did things to lead to that way out. and lot sadness also because this is the first year since mom passed away that my dad actually has a girlfriend who is living with him. its really really hard for me seeing my dad with someone else. especially since the girl is 34 and im only 33 and especially since i never saw him hug mom or kiss her or hold her hand and be sweet, he was in fact downright hateful to her and to us his 3 kids. its very hard but the person i am i've been there for him and supported him the last 6 months while he ran himself down to nothing while using every penny to buy things for this girl while she has been in drug rehab or spending money on gas to go stay the weekend in hotels to spend the weekend day with her.
its been really hard for me because my dad was severely abusive to me all my life, but i feel in my heart God wanted me to help him because two wrong don't make it a right...

My brother didn't end up divorcing his wife, which makes me sad because nothing has changed, she left for one whole day and was back the next morning and she is just as unpleasant as always.
and even went a step above in lying to my brother and telling my brother and me she was pregnant.
so that hurt a lot to find out she lied to me after she sat there for an hour with me acting excited telling me how they were going to name the baby after our mom if she was a girl to honor our moms memory.
idk but i pray that one day my brother will have the strength to get her out of his life.
as for Christmas ill be spending it alone here with grandma. its all icy an snow here and she wont leave the house and i cant leave her alone so there will be no Christmas.
OOh well. maybe next year it will be different but im going to just cry this one out and hope God will be with us and keep me a little stronger next year.
Only good news I have to report is that I finally got some money back on the floor that I sued the guy for in Jan. only half what I paid him but I was tired of fighting so i gave up.
something is better than nothing.
merry Christmas to those who have loved ones, and those who have lost ones this year. they are all in heaven now and safe.

  
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JUMPINJULIE 12/30/2013 11:34PM

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BELLACUDDLES 12/26/2013 8:50AM

    Let God take over this situation and keep your mind full of positive thoughts for YOU and your life! May God bless you this wonderful season and all the best for 2014!!

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PATTYKLAVER 12/24/2013 9:31AM

    My family has been in turmoil the past 5 months. I've dealt with my dad passing, an alcoholic sister who stirs the pot whenever she can, etc. So I know how frustrating family can be. I was mad and defensive for awhile. In fact, I probably still am. But I woke up this morning deciding to enjoy the holiday anyway. I will avoid my sister and concentrate on the reason for the season. I wish peace for you and your Grandma. I believe just the 2 of you can have a wonderful evening together. I bet that she has wonderful stories to tell of her life.

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CLEE2830 12/24/2013 7:54AM

    Your blog touched my heart. I'm so sorry for your challenges this year. My family has lost 8 loved ones this year. So I can understand some of what you are going through.

Don't look at not having a Christmas. You and your grandmother are blessed to be together. Look at that as being a blessing, you there for her and her there for you. Spend some time tomorrow reflecting on the past year, but spend the majority of the time looking towards the future. God has a plan for you.

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NELLJONES 12/24/2013 7:26AM

    Alas, you can't control or change other people, especially family. There are no words. God loves all of us, even the idiots. All you can do is live your own life the best that you can, and pray that God will help those who need it. He is the only one who can sometimes.

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TIGER_LILY_613 12/24/2013 2:55AM

    I really look up to you. Your family is lucky to have you. May the Good Lord bless you and rewards you for your kindness, generosity and strength.

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COCK-ROBIN 12/24/2013 1:40AM

    God be with you, and you have a merry Christmas anyway.

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JUNEAU2010 12/23/2013 11:11PM

    Holidays can be so hard when we miss loved ones and deal with toxic people.
Be safe and warm. Here's hoping for a much better 2014!
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AWESOMECHELZ 12/23/2013 10:37PM

    I am so glad you're back, my friend. I wrote you hoping you would come back. emoticon emoticon Life is hell sometimes but not forever. I understand the misery, I do and my heart goes out to you. I have nothing profound to say except that I love you and I am glad you're back. I can also say I love you and I mean it. The holidays will be over soon so that misery will be over (well, that misery). Hang in there. emoticon
LOVE, CHELSEA

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FLYER99 12/23/2013 8:13PM

    So sorry to read your story. But know that you are not alone. It is snowy and very icy here also and I am not into Christmas at all. Since my Mom passed away last year, I don't have any close family left and so I don't give gifts or send cards. It will be a pretty lonely one for me this year. But for what it's worth, Merry Christmas and be Blessed always! Bob.

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FENWAYGIRL18 12/23/2013 8:10PM

    emoticon It sounds like you could use a hug! I was brought up in a very dysfunctional family , mom died last year and dad had 2 respiratory failures this year and brought so much stress and meanness into my life that I had to let go of taking my moms place and being his emotional punching bag.
You don't owe your dad anything to watch him oogling over this woman and helping him out, that was your mom he should of been holding her hand and being sweet to him, she gave him 3 children.
Don't let anyone use you it's not worth your health as I found out this year, my parents treated me like dirt my whole life and I always was the bigger person, but me being the bigger person this year almost landed me in the hospital from the amount of stress.
You live your life and try to find your passion, your happiness! I think it's sweet that your with your grandma, you know she won't be around forever so don't think of it as a wasted Christmas someday you'll be happy you got to spend it with her.
Sometimes god gives us a lot to handle so that when we're truly happy we'll really appreciate what we have in our life.
We won't be exchanging gifts hubby and I (can't afford it and having some financial difficulty), but making sure our son has a nice Christmas, it's okay because I asked god for something 19 1/2 yrs ago a good man. I prayed so hard for a man like my husband to come into my life and to have a child made out of love, sometimes I thought god would never hear me it took a while, but he does listen.
I may not have much but I have everything I ever wanted and someday you'll have that to!
God Bless, have a positive attitude about spending Christmas with grandma, say a prayer for mom and it's okay to not be so accepting of dads new gf.
As for your brother pray that god will open his eyes that's about all you can do for now. emoticon

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Got The Money Today....Yay

Wednesday, October 02, 2013

I got the money today. took 5 grand off my home equity loan. I didn't really wanna do it this way....but my brother and my nephews safety is more important to me than anything i need in this entire world. and my brothers eyes seem to be open to this divorce needing to happen. please keep praying that he has the strength to see this thru.

I am taking the check to him tomorrow after work and he says he is talking to a lawyer friday, please please pray that he sticks to this. he and his kids deserve so much more than this life she is throwing at them.

thank you all for caring and praying for my brother, hes my best friend and it hurts me that he is hurting.
everything will be ok god will take care of them. and so will i.

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And ending news on the bathroom floor junk. this court i won again but this judge ordered he only has to pay half ot the money back to me. the first case i won and he was ordered to pay it in full and now this. i do not understand why he even got to re try it when he lost. its whatever
and i cant retry it. im done trying. im going to accept the half if he ever pays it and let it go. he butchered my floor and my faith in trusting a small business to have integrity.
im letting it go if i ever get a penny it will be a great thing but im not counting on it. been fighting it since Jan now and so tired.
Things are slowly going to slow down and get better.
One day and thing aaaat a time

  
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    Sending prayer to your brother emoticon emoticon From dolly

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    hang in there

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KELLIEBEAN 10/3/2013 8:22AM

    What an awful man! He will get his in the end. Karma takes care of stuff like this eventually.

I know wonderful days are ahead for you and your brother after you make it through your challenges!

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PATTYKLAVER 10/3/2013 8:17AM

    You are struggling so much - I hope and pray that things get easier for you each day.

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GOLFGMA 10/3/2013 7:06AM

    The ups and downs of life are character builders and test our faith at times, but, when all is said and done those who honor God and trust Him will get rewarded! emoticon

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TIGER_LILY_613 10/2/2013 11:33PM

    I'm sorry that guy wrecked your floor and won't pay it in full. He sounds awful :(
I hope all works out well for your brother and nephew.

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AWESOMECHELZ 10/2/2013 11:23PM

    I am so glad things seem to be going well for your brother. I will surely pray for all of you. emoticon
LOVE, CHELSEA

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COCK-ROBIN 10/2/2013 11:00PM

    Some people have no scruples, like that guy who wrecked your floor. I hope it goes better for you.

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Thank You And An Answered Prayer

Tuesday, October 01, 2013

Thank you to everyone who message me about my uncle, and even more thanks to the lady who is sending grandma a prayer shawl, your all angels. it means a lot that you took the time to pray and send my grandma a token of love. she needs it very much right now.
losing a 2nd child is hard for her, esp since he took his own life, but im taking care of her. she is not alone.
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My bother that i had ask ya all to pray for two journals back told me today he is going to divorce his wife and ask to borrow 5 grand so he can pay off his car they bought together and pay for a divorce.
this is the brother i ask for ya all to pray for two journals ago.
his wife is bi polar and refuses her meds. its damaging. hes done. he is so strong for realizing this before he got in too deep.
please pray for him. he says he is OK but he loves her. its going to be hard for him. he says hes going to do it on friday. pray that he does because this really is the best interest for him and his kids. she is an extremely toxic person to be around. in the long run it will damage the kids. and him.
sometimes you cant break yourself trying to fix someone who is broken and doesn't want help.
I think god answered my prayers here. i wanted my brother and nephews safe. having her leave they will be safe again. she is violent verbally. and everyone knows that words can sting much longer than a hand hitting you.
thank god for opening his eyes and pray for his continued strength to see this thru. they deserve more than her.
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totally feel like im living in a soap opera lately. im ready for it to calm down. im exhausted and ready for my life to be back to normal and less not so crazy stuff happening.
sleep time hope i can sleep tonight

  
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    Please take good care of yourself so you can handle all the stress and stay safe. I will continue to pray for all of you. emoticon emoticon emoticon
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NELLIEC 10/2/2013 6:12PM

    Bipolar is horrible! They are in their own little world and don't see how much they are harming those around them! When they are really bad they can imagine things and think they are real and punish everyone! I pray that the divorce can take place quickly without a lot of dragging out and that the children are protected!

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SWEETNEEY 10/2/2013 7:18AM

    emoticon One day at a time - sweet Jesus - that's all I'm asking of you.....

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2BEHEALTHY2014 10/2/2013 5:54AM

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COCK-ROBIN 10/2/2013 12:26AM

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SUNSET09 10/2/2013 12:18AM

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KELLIEBEAN 10/1/2013 11:13PM

    Wow. Sometimes it doesn't stop. I'm so sorry but it sounds like it's for the best. You guys stick together and everything will work out in time.

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My Uncle Killed Himself Today

Friday, September 27, 2013

My moms brother killed himself Today(thursday)
the one that had cancer and I guess he couldn't handle the pain anymore.
IDK.
I'm very angry right now.
And very stressed.
And my grandma lost another child. I don't know how to comfort her. IDK what to do.

I'm just so angry at how selfish he was.
I wanna cry because I'm just so angry that I'm stuck comforting my grandma because she lost another child. this one because he was so selfish :(
It hurts
please pray for my grandma because idk how to comfort her and all this makes me angry

  
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JUMPINJULIE 9/29/2013 7:39PM

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BELLACUDDLES 9/29/2013 9:58AM

    I too am very sorry for your loss. I feel for your family, but sometimes, I think that when the pain is so great, people that want to end their lives....that is all they see and feel and somehow they don't realize how hard it is for the families they leave behind. I will be praying for your family.

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KAT7457 9/28/2013 11:13PM

    Sorry for the loss of your uncle all you can do is be there for your grandma hug her listen to her talk emoticon emoticon
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BAREFITNESS 9/28/2013 10:31PM

    I'm so sorry your family has to deal with the loss of an family member. There are alot of wise words in the comments given~have lost a brother and watching my parents grieve was very hard, not to mention my own emotional breakdown losing a sibling. Not long after my cousin took his life~and that too was very hard to deal with. I haven't had a family member pass from Cancer, but my boyfriend's father fought it along with Hep C from a botched blood transfusion.

Dr. Phil would say "I can't say I know how you feel, because I don't" but I do sympathize with you and your family. Anger is one of the steps of grieving, and it won't be the last time a flash of anger comes, alot of crying and hopefully some laughter.

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HDHAWK 9/28/2013 4:54PM

    I'm sorry for the loss of your uncle and for your family's loss. Suicide is a hard thing to understand. Just be there for your grandma.

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RACEWELLWON 9/28/2013 3:12PM

    I am so sorry for all of your loss - Go ahead and cry - get it all out - crying is good for all us ! Hugs Karen

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LILORITA 9/28/2013 2:57PM

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TERRY0217 9/28/2013 2:55PM

    I'm so sorry for your loss..and for your grandmother's loss..Try to forgive your uncle. .he must have been in so much pain and wasn't thinking clearly...lift him up to our merciful Lord..I pray for peace and consolidation for your family..

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TXGRANDMA 9/28/2013 1:35PM

    All you can do is love your Grandmother! Yes, she has lost another child, but it is not up to us to judge anyone and the choices they make. Cancer is a horrible disease and takes one's hope away. He probably wanted to die on his terms and not where the disease may have taken him. So sorry for your loss and the grief that has descended upon your family. May God Bless and keep all of you. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family during this difficult time. emoticon emoticon

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AVANELL 9/28/2013 1:08PM

    I'm so sorry for your loss and for your grandmother's as well. It's difficult to lose a loved one but when it's suicide that just creates a new set of emotions to deal with as well as the grief of his passing. I'm sure he was not in his right mind when he did that. He just didn't see any hope for a different life and probably was experiencing a lot of pain with his illness. We never know what a person is thinking about when they decide to end their life in that manner. Hug your grandmother and let her know that you love her and care about her. You can't change what has happened but you can love her through her grieving process. I am praying for you and your family!

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WARRIORFIT1 9/28/2013 12:59PM

    oh honey, I am so sorry to hear this. My heart goes out to you and your family. Such a tragedy. Suicide is such an extreme and permanent answer to life's problems... I don't think your uncle was thinking at all. He must have felt very desperate to do this. My thoughts and prayers are with all of you. Love & emoticon Karen

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RAINBOWFALLS 9/28/2013 7:41AM

    Just being there for her with be a comfort emoticon

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    prayers to you and your grandma. emoticon

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GRAMMACATHY 9/28/2013 12:59AM

    Praying for you, your family and your uncle. His transition to his next life is not going to be smooth and he will need prayers for healing his spirit in addition to prayers for you and your grandma to cope. Hugs and love to help you get through.

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WALLAHALLA 9/28/2013 12:29AM

    I'm so sorry for your loss. We'll keep you in our prayers.

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    I am sorry for your loss. My prayers and thoughts go out to you and your grandma. emoticon

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PHYLISSCR 9/27/2013 6:14PM

    So very sorry...will be praying for you and your Grandmother, only God can comfort her in a way that she needs. emoticon

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JUDITH316 9/27/2013 4:35PM

    I am so sorry to hear of your family's loss with the recent sudden loss of your Uncle, this is so sad and such a tragedy for the whole family, Please accept my sincere condolences. Praying for God's peace, comfort and healing for you and your family... emoticon emoticon

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FROSTY99 9/27/2013 3:00PM

    I am so sorry for your loss. It is so hard to lose a loved one to suicide and truly there is not much one can say-yes they are selfish, but we have no idea what they are suffering. I lost my mother and a grandson-I had to forgive both of them for it and you will find in time you will forgive him (at least I hope so). I could not even admit what my mother did for years.
Praying for your grandma, you and the rest of your family.
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HTAMALE 9/27/2013 2:50PM

    I'm so sorry for your loss. You're poor uncle must have been in a lot of pain. Anger is normal for now. I hope you, your Grandmother and the rest of his friends and family find peace soon. I don't think suicide is selfish at all. Again so sorry for your loss.
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KATIBUG49 9/27/2013 2:23PM

    Prayers are there for both of you, I know how it feels to be angry at the person that killed their selves. My brother did it by in 1988 & at times I'm still mad at him for not being stronger. But you can't spend your time being angry, it only makes it worse for everyone. Just let your grandmother know you are there for her at any time & tell her how much you love her. She will have to find her own way to cope, you can't do it for her.

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TIGER_LILY_613 9/27/2013 2:18PM

    I'm so sorry for your loss, and how much stress it is causing you. So very sorry.
I have prayed for you, and I continue to hope that things will get better for you.
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AANGEL3 9/27/2013 1:22PM

    So sorry for you loss. Just be there for tour Grandmother. emoticon

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ARCHIMEDESII 9/27/2013 1:16PM

    I am so sorry to hear of the tragic loss of your uncle. I agree with others, just being there for your grandma will be a comfort to her.

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REBECCAMA 9/27/2013 1:13PM

  Sorry for your loss. Anger is part of the grieving process and it is normal for you to be angry. I hope someday you will forgive him though. Peace for your family. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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COOP9002 9/27/2013 12:49PM

    Prayers for you and your family as you deal with such tragic news.

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MARYBETH4884 9/27/2013 12:30PM

    Prayers and hugs for both of you!!

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JITZUROE 9/27/2013 11:58AM

    I am so sorry for the pain this has caused the family, and so sorry for your loss.
Praises for you in being there for your grandmother during this difficult time.
Big prayers of support and comfort to you and yours.

Bren

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LADYJ6942 9/27/2013 11:36AM

    How terrible. Hugs, so sorry for your lose. Hugs and prayers

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BROADBRUSH 9/27/2013 10:51AM

    What a horrible family tragedy. the pain and agony go deep deep deep into all of your hearts and souls. even your uncle -
i have always been told that suicide is a 'coward's way out' but i realize with age and similar experiences - that it is not so cut and dry.
an astounding diagnosis of cancer can shock that person so profoundly that they loose all hope and perspective.
i am positive it clouded all reason and good judgment with your uncle.
two years ago - i lost a very dear person - it was two days before his 23rd birthday. he was good looking , he had a beautiful girlfriend, a great job and just got his electrician license - of which he was very proud. but three weeks before his departing - he lost the most important woman in his life - HIS GRANDMOTHER - and i think it put him into such a dark place of despair he could not bear to be with out her and left this place.
what he did was wrong - his mom and dad will never be the same - never be consoled at his loss.
so my dear friend - try to replace the anger in time - with a softer place for your uncle - and it is good that you are here to help your Gran - give her all the love you can - leave no energy for the anger..
i will pray for all of you.

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KAZZIE531 9/27/2013 10:50AM

    I am so so sorry for the loss of your Uncle. The best thing you can do for your Grandma is to hug her, listen to her cries...just be there for her. Sometimes just being in their presence helps them. Don't let her be alone.

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SUNFLOWERGAMMY 9/27/2013 10:44AM

    emoticon hug you grandma and let her hug you back emoticon cry for her, for her son, your uncle and for yourself. Sometimes there are just no words. Cry out to God with groaning. He is the only one who can truly understand everything that everyone was and are going to go through. You don't have to know what to do because He does!
Jesus, when you ascended into heaven to sit at the right hand of the Father you sent us a Comforter in the Holy Spirit, thank you for sending him to us. Your grace and mercy are sufficient for us. Wrap Your arms tightly around ISAVEDME80 and her family as they grieve. In Jesus mighty name I pray. Amen ( and so it will be)
With love, Sunflowergammy

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PGHP31CK 9/27/2013 10:29AM

    I am so very sorry to hear about your uncle. I am praying for you, your grandmom, and your whole family.

It's ok to be angry. Know that you all are being lifted up to the Lord.

May our Lord Jesus give you His comfort, strength & peace as you move today, and the days ahead.

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A_SIZE6 9/27/2013 10:00AM

    I likewise am so sorry as well. I had a friend commit suicide as well. some family members. Prayers going up for you.

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IAM_HIS 9/27/2013 9:57AM

    My prayers are with you and your family. Suicide is a very difficult thing to go through. Know that you do not have to be alone going through this, also that it is best if you find someone to talk to. emoticon emoticon

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DEANNAMB33 9/27/2013 9:40AM

  Sending prayers your way ... remember to seek out help from the community you live in to help you deal with this issue and find support for your grandmother as well. You are not alone. God Bless.

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REBIRTHDIVA 9/27/2013 9:30AM

    you and your family are in my prayers. so very sorry for your loss. emoticon

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ANDREWMOM 9/27/2013 9:25AM

    I am so, so sorry for your loss...

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PHOXYM 9/27/2013 9:12AM

    Prayers sent Heaven's way. Such a tragic event. emoticon

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CELIAMINER 9/27/2013 9:07AM

    Praying for you and your family, especially for your uncle, who couldn't endure the pain any longer...how awful for everyone!

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ANASONIC 9/27/2013 8:44AM

    I'm so sorry. My prayers are with you and your family.

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AWESOMECHELZ 9/27/2013 8:10AM

    Oh my gosh! I am SO sorry! emoticon I feel your pain because I have had people commit suicide in my life too and leave a trail of broken hearts, and a mess. I will surely pray for you, my friend. I know the pain well. God bless you and your sweet grandmother. A BIG hug from Florida. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
LOVE, CHELSEA

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KATWELL88 9/27/2013 8:06AM

    Sending prayers to u and your family soooo sorry for your loss heartbreaking .. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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