Sunday, June 10, 2012
Well today I thought I'd tell you about me. Yes, I did a whole little intro piece but that was more about my weight loss journey than about me.
Let's see first there is the standard stuff. Divorced for almost 9 years and after 9 years of marriage (I got married at 18). Mother of 2 teenage daughters, I have a BA in Psychology, I work as a substitute teacher. I was a girl scout troop leader and was a merit badge counselor for a boy scout troop. I like reading, I like music, I like several tv shows and movies, I like camping, I love campfires, I love star gazing and watching the rain. I am Mormon.
Then there is the not so standard stuff like I have a HAM radio license, I am fascinated by orienteering, I used to be homeless now I'm a home owner. My father died when I was 18, I tended to rival gangsters.
I tell people who meet me that I've lived several lives in my short 35 almost 36 years. Most people wouldn't believe half of the stories I could tell them, in fact it doesn't even cross their minds that I could have had some of those experiences, and sometimes well it's not always fun to remember.
I have a strong sense of empathy. When someone is hurting or struggling I want to help them. I often have to tell myself that I am not always what someone else needs and I know that I can overwhelm people too so I hope that if I come off too strong sometimes that you'll forgive me. I tell this to you so you can get a better sense of who I am. I struggle all of the time. But I also know how bad life can get too. Life is pretty good, even with my struggles. If I am not sharing enough it is only because I am trying not to overwhelm people. I've had people literally close up if I tell them too much so I've learned to TRY and wait till someone asks. That is so hard, sometimes I feel like a soda can ready to erupt.
I sometimes wonder if my experiences make me sound like a know it all, and if I come across as an attention seeker. My Ex brother in law told me that I was always stuck up, which didn't make sense to me at all. Still it was his perception of me, so I know I do not always give people warm fuzzies. For me it is hard on the internet to know how I am coming across, here I don't have tone, and body language to gauge how things are received. I NEVER want to come across as if this journey is a cake walk. It isn't and I don't mean to ever sound dismissive of the struggles mine included.
So here is my invitation. Call me on it. If I am overwhelming you TELL me and I will pull back, If I am acting dismissive TELL me about it because I'm not always good with words, especially written words and I want this to be a special and real journey for me and for my new friends.