Thursday, June 21, 2007
I've been in a not so happy place lately. I'm having trouble meeting my daily calories, and when I do I'm usually over. I haven't worked out in over 2 weeks. I feel really guility about that. I do plan on starting back at the gym on Monday though. I've been trying to figure out how to get my work and exercise and family time in and still get enough sleep. I work nights and was going to the gym when I get off work. Then our wellness lady at work said that working out when you first get up in the mornings is better. So I figured I'd try that out. But it doesn't work for me. Does this mean I'm doomed? Does it mean I'm a bad person because I can't make this work? I get up around 4pm and that's my family from then until I go to work at 10:00pm. I'm not very willing to give that up. It works so much better, and keeps me motivated, if I leave work at 7:15am, hit the gym, come home and eat a small something, shower, and hit the sack. It gives me something other than going to sleep to look forward to when I leave work. I eat healthier too when I do this. It's like it just sets this tone for me for the rest of my day. But I feel bad because I hear so many conflicting bits of advice when it comes to working out. Do it in the morning, do it twice a day, do it for at least 30 minutes, do it at least 1 hour, vary your work out daily, vary your work out occasionally. eat 3 meals a day, eat 5 - 6 small meals a day (are you kidding? I'd die!), eat high carbs, eat low carbs, eat no carbs, eat low fat, eat sensible fat...and it just goes on and on! I don't know what to believe or listen to or do! I know what feels right to me, what feels healthy. I've been losing wieght which is great. But the more I learn and hear the more confused I get!! I was doing it to where I was eating 3 meals a day and maybe one snack or something and working out right after work. I do my best to get all my calories in. I'm one of those who don't eat enough ya know. I eat healthy goods, just not enough of them. So I do try hard to get all my calories in. And I take a multivitamin, and a calcium supplement, and I've started taking FiberSure once a day because I wasn't getting enough fiber. So I'm trying. But the exercise thing is just driving me nuts. And as stupid as this sounds, when the exercise stops my brain goes into this tailspin of "why bother" and it makes everything else hard.