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Where Were You When The World Stopped Turning? Remembering Sept. 11, 2001

Friday, September 11, 2009

I was working for an import/export company at the time. Our office was right next to the very busy Austin/Bergstrom International Airport. It was my first real day at work (as opposed to just training). My boss was sitting next to me, we had just booted up my computer, the owner stepped from his office and said "someone just hit one of the Twin Towers with a plane". Then all the TVs came on and we saw it. I was sitting in a room full of strangers (I only had met my boss the week before) but we were one at the moment. My boss and I grabbed each others hands and held on for life as all the plane activity over us went silent and all we could hear were the news reports. It felt like everything was in slow motion. The owner told everyone to go home and be careful and to come back the following Monday. I drove home shaking and crying, as I'm sure so many others did. I saw peoples faces and how pale and scared everyone looked. I got home and just held my daughter so tight. She was young, only 9 years old at the time, and her school had shown the children the news footage so she had seen what happened. I tried to explain the best I could, but trying to explain something of that magnitude to a child was not easy and I'm not sure how good of a job I did, and we cried together and I held her. I had a dear friend who was in New York at the towers doing some survey work for some fountains they were going to put in. We didn't know if he was alive or dead. Thank God/Goddess we found out once communications were restored that he had finished up the evening before the attack and was not at the Towers that Tuesday morning so he was ok. In the following weeks people were kinder, quieter, nicer to one another. Strangers hugged and even cried together. There were knowing looks, hands being held, looks for quiet strength and encouragement and sympathy. People truly became neighbors of their fellow man. I will never understand why that behavior ever stopped.

This morning on the way to take Jordon to school, she and I heard "Where Were You When The World Stopped Turning" by Alan Jackson and we both admitted that the emotions and memories of that day are still very much alive in us. The day and memories still make me cry. Peoples voices become quieter and more somber when they speak of 9/11 and that's something I pray never changes. I have to admit that I have a stronger love now for my fellow man, but also a bitterness that just won't seem to go away.

May We Never Forget. May Peace Be With All Those Effected By This Horrible Day. May Those Who Lost Their Lives Have Peace In Death. May Those Who Lost Their Loved Ones Find Peace In Life.

Where were you, and what were you doing, the day the world stopped turning?

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SPARKLEMAMMY 9/11/2009 12:59PM

    No one will ever forget this day

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HOLLYSNOWWOMAN 9/11/2009 12:43PM

    I was at work getting my things together for a 0930 department head meeting. As I was walking by the TV room I noticed a lot of people watching it. Where I was standing I could not see the TV but I saw the looks on their faces and knew something bad had happened. I walked in just in time to see the second plane hit the towers. At first I thought it was a movie. I wish it had been. I have a friend who worked as a flight attendant on American airlines and I didn't know where he was on that day. I just went cold inside when I heard some of the planes had left out of Boston and knew he flew out of there sometimes. I finally got up the courage to call him and he answered the phone. He had gotten home the night before. We both started crying. I will never forget that day.

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Sometimes being a girl just sucks

Monday, August 31, 2009

For the past 3 days I have been balled up on the couch in so much pain I can't even knit! I have severe endometriosis. It hasn't been too bad for a while. But it's making up for it right now! Even vicodin didn't kill the pain. Jordon keeps saying I should go to the doctor and get some pain meds, but I don't have the energy to go anywhere. I woke up at 3:45 this morning. I felt ok. I laid there a bit and decided at 4:30am to go ahead and get up. I felt pretty good too! No pain. Then about 10 minutes ago...BAM it's back. Now just sitting here at the PC typing has me about done in. I'm going to lay down...blah...ugh...

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CANDYCEBARTON 8/31/2009 8:05PM

    I know just how you feel. I go through the same thing all the time. Never fun and you never know when it's going to hit. Hope you feel better soon!

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GINW1977 8/31/2009 6:08PM

    You need to make yourself go to the doctor. You don't need to lay around in pain if something can be done.

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CELAINE1 8/31/2009 5:25PM

    I know how you feel. Long ago I had endometrosis, one day I was great, the next day I couldn't move. I had radical no more pain. I hope you feel better soon.

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ASHESS85 8/31/2009 10:41AM

    Sounds horrible! I really hope you feel better.

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TRACYZABELLE 8/31/2009 10:28AM

    I am so sorry you are so miserable-- Tanya deals with the same problems! emoticon

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Today and stuff

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

Just couldn't think of a snappy Blog Title today! LOL

Well I didn't put anything in my tracker yesterday but I DID write every single thing that was put in my mouth down in my dayrunner. It's easier. I will add to my tracker when I can but the reality is that I'm not always online. I will not allow myself to feel bad about this either! I do not have to be perfect! (see I'm working on that not having to be a perfectionist thing!).

I have been up since a little before 5:00 am and have not eatin anything. I know I should. But I haven't been hungry. It's now 10:50 so I will wait a little bit and have a good lunch, write it in my dayrunner if I'm not online, and move on with my day. I have been getting my 8 + servings of water a day in! I have a 16 oz glass that I keep filled at all times and consciously tell myself to take a drink when it's been a while. So I'm doing a bit better on that end.

I love the ebay shopping advice I got on here. Thank you so much!

As for the exercising comment that was left, all I can ask if that you read some of my past blogs about walking outdoors. I am active inside when I can be and have plans to increase that now that I will have the living room to myself since my kiddo is back in school. And no, there isn't 'always' a way to exercise. Maybe for some people but not for me. I've learned that I'm finally ok with that and not to punish myself or guilt myself into a stalled state because of it. I do what I can, when I can. And I am finally ok with that. Thank you though.

Speaking of being outside... We here in Austin are coming up on our 70th straight day of 100+ degree heat. 3 days ago is was 103 degrees at 5:00pm!! Crazy! I swear I am going to petition for the name Austin to be changed officially to Dante's Inferno or Hell....either way it's that darned hot! They weather man keeps teasing us saying we have chances of rain but alas it is not truth he speaks. I no longer have grass in my yard. It's hay. It's so hot and dry that my aloe vera plant has turned GRAY and died! I didn't even know that was possible! Anyway... for those who are in cooler climates, think of me as you enjoy it and send some rain our way if you have it! LOL

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TRACYZABELLE 8/27/2009 4:57AM

    i know all about those hot days and not being able to breathe ugh.. so glad dad is leaving and I cando my dvd's,lol...

I had breakfast at 9am yestrday slept on and off went to work and my hands were shaking at 11pm can't imagine why.... we need to fuel our machines-- don't forget to eat lady!

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JEWITCH 8/26/2009 5:49PM

    I love my Dayrunner. I find it is so much easier to keep things in it than try to log it in on the SP tracker.

I hope you get a break in the heat soon. This weather has been so crazy this year.

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A Brand New Day

Monday, August 24, 2009

Hello All! How's everyone?

Well, today is Monday and it is the first day of school for Jordon. Which means daytime hours are once again available to focus on doing stuff I need to get done without distractions. And one of the things I need to get done is to focus on myself. I need to start doing more for myself. Taking care of myself. I have been thinking a lot lately about my weight, self esteem, most importantly, my health. All these things are related, I know that. But I have to stop focusing only on my weight. I know this probably sounds stupid, but I've been thinking about my clothes. I have hardly anything that actually fits comfortably in actual fit and in the way they look. It's no wonder I feel fat and disgusting when my jeans are tight enough to leave that lovely pink/red indention from being too tight and my shirts ride high enough that I don't feel I can move my arms without embarrassment. So this is something I need to change. I keep saying "I'll go clothes shopping once I lose weight", well that's just silly. Why keep myself down by being uncomfortable? Well, I'm going to start changing that. I can't afford to go down and buy a whole new wardrobe, but I can go get a pair of jeans or a shirt every couple of weeks. And in the mean time I can be working on the weight loss. Also, one of the reasons I don't work out at home is because I don't have clothes to workout in. Seriously! And I can't afford to go to the laundry mat every couple of days to wash sweaty work out clothes anyway. So, realistically I can't work out the way I want too at this given moment in time. But I WILL be able to soon I just know it. In the mean time I can focus on healthier eating choices. For instance I can start using the food tracker on here again to the best of my ability. This means that I have to work on not getting frustrated and giving up when I can't find the food I'm having on the tracker and can't figure out the nutritional information so I can add it. But instead I have to just remind myself that it's not the end of the world if it doesn't work perfectly and if I can't find every single thing on there! Another example is snacking. Snacking is, from all reports, a good nutritionally sound thing to do. BUT snacking on an entire (or even half a) can of Extreme Screamin Pickle Pringles is NOT a good choice for those snacks. I don't think cutting out the things we like completely is a good idea either since that is a huge reason that people are successful in losing weight. They feel cheated and defeated by being forced to cut out all the things they like right? So I have to start literally portioning out my Pringles and be sure to add it to my tracker since it has the nutritional information on the can. That way I can make adjustments where needed without feeling deprived of the things I enjoy. I also still want to incorporate vegan/vegetarian meals into my weekly meal plans. I just think it's a good idea, not because I'm all against eating meat cause I'm not, but because I think it'll help me reduce my weight and be better for my heart. But I do still have to have my nice juicy steak now and again! Does any of this make sense? I'd love to hear feedback on my thoughts here.

I hope you all have a great day!

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IRISHGIRL2005 8/24/2009 9:52PM

    I absolutely LOVED this!! I am a HUGE eBay'er and have found that I can splurge a bit on "in between" clothes and it'll cost a fraction of what it would if I were to go shopping in a store. If you need tips, stop by on my page and we can chat. Seriously, I am a pretty nice dresser, have to be professional on top of it, and got an entire wardrobe on eBay for under $75 last year (shoes, shirts, skirts, pants, tights, everything!)

You are right on the money: wear clothes that make you feel GOOD at any weight!!! That is so critical to set yourself up for success.

Best of luck to you!! Jenn emoticon

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MYREALANA 8/24/2009 10:00AM

    There's plenty of exercise you can do that won't make your clothes super-sweaty. Try to add a few extra steps into your day. Walk around the block before picking the kiddo up at school. Putting off starting to exercise until things are somehow "right" for it is a mistake. If you have to, wear the same sweaty clothes just for workout time a few days in a row. Don't use the laundromat as an excuse not to do what you know needs to be done.

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TRACYZABELLE 8/24/2009 9:59AM

    How exciting for you! Now you can work on yourself and really take the time you need to organize your meal plan. Don't forget about the grains that are really good for you too-- fiber is ky! And yes-- if it ges in your mouthwrite it down! THen you really see what you are eating and can also see if you re eating the right things.. I Like to use the nutrition tracker then use the tool o see if I ate the right thing... good luck!

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10285115CS 8/24/2009 8:21AM

  the key to loosing the weight is tracking your food, staying in your calorie range, eating the correct portion size and exercising.

there are BAD foods that when i eat them even if i'm in my calorie range i seem to gain weight. like pasta and potatoes.

know your body.

good luck on your weight loss journey.

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Update on Crystal

Thursday, August 20, 2009

Well WOooo Hoooo Crystal got the job! I have really mixed emotions about it. She will move to Baton Rouge over Labor Day weekend and begin her new awesome job on Sept. 8th. I'm really excited and happy because this means we will be getting back on our feet finally. But I'm also really sad and kind of scared about her being so far away. Not long ago we gave Jordon this long talk about how long distance relationships don't work because she is dating the loser from Elgin (about an hour from here ). And now here I am faced with a REALLY long distance between us. She's saying that we might get to see each other once a month... maybe. How is this going to work? I can't move over there. Jordon is in High School and I don't feel right making her move because we all want her to graduate from Vista Ridge. Then, of course, we have to figure out where she will be attending college and if she wants to stay home or do dorm life. This is not good. And I don't want to live in Baton Rouge anyway. I want to move north where there is snow and decent temperatures. I'm sick and tired of sweltering heat and sauna like humidity.

The future seems so very uncertain and it hurts like mad to say this but it seems like our futures are growing in two different directions. I'm going to hold on with all I have though. We've been through so much together, surely we can make it through this....right?

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TRACYZABELLE 8/21/2009 2:56AM

    how awesome about the job.. sorry about the distance but love will keep you together in your hearts.

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