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Sunday, May 06, 2007

"Look at a man in the midst of doubt and danger and you will learn in his hour of adversity what he really is."

- Lucretius, Roman philosopher

Did you get the SP Mailer today that contained this quote? I find it interesting and quite true. When a person is placed in a situation that is less than ideal who does he/she deal with it? Do you fold? Do you run away with your tail between your legs? Do you stand up and fight and refuse to back down? What do you do?

For me I'd like to say that I'd stand up and fight. There have been times in life when I didn't. I wouldn't fight. I'd just take whatever came at me. At the time I thought I was being weak. That everything that was happening was my fault anyway so I may as well just take what I had coming to me. I was wrong. I was strong to live through it. And now I stand up for those who well they are too weak to fight. I empower them to stand up and take their lives back. I'm strong now. I don't believe the well worn, safe path, is the best all the time. I believe that the road less taken, though challenging and sometimes filled with danger, is the more rewarding. My views are not always the popular views. I make a lot of folks angry or uncomfortable with my outspoken ways. I'm glad for that. Usually if you can make someone angry you can make them think..even if just a little. If it came to physical danger, I'm fine with that too. I don't like being scared. And looking danger or death in the face can be very scary. But if you look at the world today aren't we all in danger anyway? Don't we all go to bed wondering if someone somewhere is going to finally get fed up with our Pres W and hit that red button? Fear is a natural emotional and chemical response to danger. And it's different for everyone. How you deal with that fear is what counts in my opinion. Do you run from it? To it? Or stand up and say I will let my fear control me?

One fear I have is my weight. I'm scared my health will fail due to it and I won't see my daughter grow to a wonderful adult. I won't be able to share my old age with my friends and loved ones. THAT scares me to no end. I'm fighting that now. Finally taking full action against that fear and the cause of it. I have to be honest. Today was a hard day. I woke up very early. Horribly early! But I decided to face it with a smile and energy to burn! I stepped outside and the humidity hit me. I nearly turned around and went back in. But I didn't. I went to the gym as planned. I got there and felt I was dragging a bit. Got on the treadmill and 10 minutes into I was having thoughts of "I'm not gonna make today. I'll never hit my 65 minutes." I nearly stopped several times. But I didn't cave into that feeling. I fought it. I focused on the outcome. I focused on the 13 pounds I've already lost and what it would be like to gain it back. I thought I my daughter and how she'd feel about it. I thought about my health and how I've been feeling sooo good lately. But my knees hurt today, my hip hurt, my leg muscles ached and my back hurt. I had a headache that could take down a horse. But I didn't stop. I didn't give up and buckle and let those minor aches stop me. I kept going. And I made it! I made it 65 minutes/3 miles/450 calories burned! I didn't lessen my pace or hit the stop button. I realized that all those negative feelings were just old tapes playing in my head saying I couldn't do it. And today I proved those old tapes wrong! Today I won. I may not always win. But today I won!

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HUSKY_HANK 5/7/2007 2:53PM

    I was surfing around spark and came across your blog. I really needed to read this quote. Thank you so much.

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I'm so excited

Friday, May 04, 2007

I weighed myself today and guess what! I'm down a total of 13 pounds!!!! And I'm feeling sooo great about it!

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IRISHRAVEN 5/6/2007 9:11AM

    Thank you!!

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A_PRESENCE 5/4/2007 4:56PM

    You are doing AWESOME!

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Rainy Days...

Thursday, May 03, 2007

It's been storming up a blue streak today! I love weather like this. It just makes me feel alive!

You know what? I haven't weighed myself lately. My doc told me not to weigh while on my cycle cause you can gain 5 to 10 pounds just from bloating! ugh! So I haven't weighed in over a week. But my clothes are starting to feel ever-so-slightly looser on me!!! Can I possibly be imagining this? Or am I really doing it? Even on my time of the month they feel a little looser. I'm floored by this concept!! But I feel good! For the first time in forever I can honestly say I feel good! I know I'm doing something every day that is good for me. I'm exercising, maybe not as diligently as I should, but I am doing it! Something every day. I'm setting up a strength work-out at work. And I'm doing my best to hit the treadmill every day. So can it be that I'm actually starting to lose a little weight? And feel it? OH I hope so!

I have to say that the last couple of days have been frustrating sleep wise. I work 3rd shift. My sweet girlfriend has covered the windows in our room with foil doubled and covered the other light sources into the room. But it still too bright! I'm tired and all I do is toss and turn. This weekend I think I'm going to pull out the sewing machine and try to make some thicker coverings for the windows and see if that helps. (sigh) That's part of why I haven't been to the gym to hit the treadmill in 2 days. Well...the first day missed was cause our daughter was home sick...she comes first. But I still didn't sleep. And then today I was just too freaking tired from not sleeping. I'm hoping that tomorrow will be a better day!



Tuesday, May 01, 2007

Today is a better day! I brought some stuff to work to help me through those PMS cravings. I brought 100 cal. pack Wheat Thins (that's the salt) and some Hostess 100 cal. cup cake packs (carb and sweet). And it's worked! I had the wheat thins for an early snack and the cup cakes (which seem to me to be the perfect portion and SO cute!) with my lunch. I had an apple for a later snack. It was great and I feel so much better about my eating tonight than I did yesterday at this time! It was a simple change and it worked! I was tempted to eat more but I was able to do some positive self talk and it worked! Last night, after the binging on gross unhealthy food, I decided to stop beating myself up and see what I could do for motivation here at my desk. So I picked a site that has clothes that I really want but feel I am too big for and went "shopping". I saved the pictures of those outfits to my computer and looked at them when I felt weak or tempted! It worked and it felt so good!

Today is also a holiday for me! It's Beltane and the marks the beginning of Summer! So here's to a healthier, happier, and thinner summer!

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__SARA__ 5/2/2007 3:24PM

    Awesome job ;-) I love the shopping for skinny clothes idea... I think I'm gonna go do that right now LOL

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IRISHRAVEN 5/2/2007 1:43AM

    Thank you UNIFLAME! I'm trying very hard not to have the beat myself up attitude. For me that's an easy one to fall into. So thank you for your encouragement! I LOVE YOU OUTFIT and YOUR EARS!!! Sooo awesome!

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UNIFLAME 5/1/2007 5:17PM

    Good for you! I'm glad you did better today! That attitude you had today is waaaay better then to beat yourself up. Keep it up!

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NOT a good day!

Monday, April 30, 2007

Ok ok ok....I admit it! I fell off the wagon. I guess I'm really weak when it comes to that time of the month. I tried to fight it. I failed! Ruffles, taffy, honey bun and doughnuts. I feel gross now. How do I combat PMS cravings? I didn't set out to do this tonight I really didn't. I feel horrible and I'm beating myself up. I am going to the gym when I get off work though.


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