So I have been navigating an obstacle course to get to my blog. I go to Spark Pages, then Edit pages, then blogs, then add a blog. Is there an easier way??
My kiddo is doing ok. It's early yet, but she seems to have a positive attitude and genuinely trying to get better. I miss her like crazy. Virginia seems so far away. But no distance is too great when the heart is involved I suppose. I'm hoping to get to see her soon.
We haven't left for Denham Springs yet. We are leaving either tomorrow after noon or Tuesday early morning. We've hit a couple of snags but we're doing ok. We are both simply exhausted from all the stress and from all the things to go along with a big move. Not to mention we haven't had a really healthy meal in so long we are both grossed out every time we eat! LOL Our bodies are just screaming for anything that doesn't come from a restaurant or drive through! We've decided our first meal cooked in our new home is going to be Spinach Lasagna from SP recipes!!! We can't wait!
I'm trying to wade through the months of back logged SP emails. Man ya miss a ton when you're gone a while. But that's ok. I'm also going through deleting some of my manually entered items and favorites in my food tracker. Since I can only get some things in Austin I don't need them in there anymore. And I've realized while I'm doing it that some of those things weren't really good things to have anyway.
Well, that's all for now! I hope everyone is doing great!
Well, I believe I can finally begin to move forward and begin the healing process.
My daughter has been diagnosed with Bi-Polar. I was scared of that but at least now we know. She has been given Abilify. I've heard great things about that medication. She is doing well! We've had several really good conversations in the past week. We had a wonderful court date. She agreed to go to Virginia to live with my ex-wife until her court date in December. It's all very long and drawn out and I won't bore you with the details. But she WANTS TO COME HOME!! I am soooo relieved by that. So if she does everything she is supposed to and goes to therapy and takes her medication as she is supposed to, then she can come home in December. I am excited but nervous about that!
Today was a hard day though. My ex flew in last night. We picked Jordon up today at 9:00 am. We went and had breakfast. I thought she was going to explode cause she ate sooo much! Then the hard stuff, we put them on a plane and watched my baby fly off into the noon day sun at 12:00 pm heading for Virginia. I know it's the right thing. I know it's a very positive step in the right direction. But it still broke my heart and I cried...I'm still crying. But they are mixed tears of sadness and joy. I miss her so much but I'm so happy that she is taking those first scary steps to getting better so she can come back home. Please keep us in your prayers. Especially her.
We are leaving for our new home this weekend. We'll be heading to Denham Springs (about half an hour north of Baton Rouge) on Friday or Saturday. Probably Saturday. We have plans to begin eating right and healthy again. We have plans to exercise and get our lives back.
I have such a mix of emotions right now that it's hard to say exactly what I am feeling about the move. I am excited about the prospect of a new life in a new place. But I will miss all my friends here and the comfort of knowing this city like the back of my hand. Very confusing. But it will all fall into place and work out just fine.
Besides... I get to hang out with Julia!!! YEA YEA YEA!!!
Ok... bye for now. I'm gonna go try to rest a bit.
Man, when things get bad for me they just get bad. I thought that instead of rehashing is all on here I would just post a link to my blog that I set up for my daughter. Please go to it an read it to see what has been happening and why I have been Missing in Action.
We are doing our move this month. We are moving to Denham Springs, Louisiana. As you will see when you follow the link, my daughter won't be able to go with me. I'm really struggling with that emotionally and mentally and it's taking a physical toll on me.
I had lost 34 pounds and not I just know I'm gaining it back. I haven't stepped on a scale but I feel yucky. My weight is not my top thing right now, but it is up there on the 'important stuff' list. I HAVE to lose weight or my heart IS going to give out. I'm 35 years old and am now on blood pressure medication. That is a bad thing!!! So this has to change and I have to find out how to step back, let my daughter do what she is doing and accept that I can not control or change it, Get her the help she needs and start getting my life back together.
I am going to try to start blogging on here regularly again in hopes that it will help me get my life back and start back with getting healthy.
I hope everyone missed me because I missed everyone on here!
I'm going to close for now but I am back and hopefully will be able to be more active on here again.
Well..I have resolved myself to the fact that I am not going to be able to stay in Austin. I hate it though. I'm very torn. My best friend in this whole world is here. And now they are expecting a new baby. I don't want to miss that. I have a life here. I don't like Austin. Never have. But I LOVE my life here...I know it doesn't make sense. And it's hard to explain. But it has me torn up. But at the same time, deep down at my core, I know it will be ok. I know that everything will work out exactly as it should and I will land where I supposed to, still standing on my own 2 feet! So I know it'll be ok. Just hard.
I updated my resume tonight and signed up for Monster and I'm going to be subscribing to online news papers so I can search want ads.
There are just some big changes happening at work. And not all for the better. I no longer feel like I can be effective at my job and do the honest hard work of helping to end domestic violence and help victims get free. It just breaks my heart. I fear the place I currently work is heading in a bad direction. When I felt needed in my job, as if my work made a difference, the night shift wasn't bad. It was worth it!! Ya know. But not anymore. So..as the Rascal Flatts song says...I'm Movin On.
Weight still seems to be going down. Not to fast..but I think it's getting to be noticeable. I like it!
Oh I now have pink in my hair! I'm putting a picture of Irish's new hair in my gallery..check it out! LOL