Tuesday, October 14, 2014
For some reason today is a crabby depression high day for me. I don't know why either. I may not be loosing weight since I started working but I certainly feel better about myself. Those with depression will understand this but I am taking better care of myself. Showering more often and actually fixing up my hair most days. Granted I kinda have to do something with it as I am going to work now but honestly if I didn't care I could just pull it back. But I have been leaving it down and letting it get currly. It feels good to care about how I look. Not my weight looks but over all appearance as in do my clothes match how does my hair look that type of thing.
Today although I showered and did my hair I feel a little blue. Is it cause it is Tuesday? Is it due to lack of sleep? I just don't know. I told my co-workers to watch out on days like this I have a short fuse and tend to snap easily. My kids understand when Mommy is in this type of mood she tends to yell first as questions later. I hate days like this.
I have been told the fact that I recognize this is a good thing it is a step in the right direction but it doesn't make the feeling go away.
Work is going well we are still learning things so it is slow going, but it's not bad. During the down time while we are forced to wait I get to post on here and look in on my teams so that is a good thing. I do wish I had more energy and could go for a walk in the evening or something cause I need to find a way to get my step count up.....Well thats it for today. Thanks for reading.