Monday, January 20, 2014
Sitting in bed trying to wake up to work out - I don't want to but I HAVE to. If I don't then I'll be consumed kicking myself all day that I didn't follow through.
I will DO THIS!
Sunday, January 19, 2014
Well, my weight has fluxuated (sp?) up and down 7 lbs for the past month. I haven't been taking care of myself though. I finally began p90 today and am going to try to complete each morning, even if my step total on my fitbit doesn't reack 11K steps, which was my original goal. I still got a great workout in.
I didn't eat well though, since I was watching the Patriots game. I drank a few beers and ate nachos, but they made me so full I didn't want to eat the rest of the day. I have NO idea how far over in calories I am for the day but tomorrow is a new day!
Tuesday, September 17, 2013
Well, this has been an interesting year. A year ago I decided to take charge of my health and my career. I wanted to leave working in the city but my recruiter talked me into taking a certain position. I thought I found a job that had a good work-life balance, interesting work and a good support team. The first 5 months were just that (except work life balance). Then the true side of the company came to light. (Let me just say the person before me didnít last 9 months). The anxiety increased, my resentment increased, my weight went up and I dreaded walking into the building every day.
It all came to a head for me in July when I decided I deserved better. I went back to my old mentors at my old companies who reminded me how good I was and that the area of work I was in wasnít what I should be doing as my strengths were in a different area. I was reminded I deserved to be treated better than I was (seemed I got praise emails from everyone but my department for what I was doing) and no longer would be scapegoat on projects that I wasnít even involved on (told to me by others). As I planned to leave, I decided to pay attention to ME. I walked more (up to 8 miles some days). I ate better. I stopped listening to the negativity and just did my job, helped others when needed and no longer tried to Ďfixí something that wouldnít be fixed. I went back to a few old bosses of mine and they reminded me of my strengths (and offered asked if I would like to return, but itís in the city). They reminded me that I WAS one of their best employees while I was there and reminded me of my strengths and helped me figure out how I should change directions and go back to what I enjoyed doing (and did well), but make sure my wants and needs were met.
I updated my resume, sent it out and luckily, in the world of tax, there are positions available where I am. I had no shortage. I finally decided to make sure I had a recruiter who looked out for MY best interests and not talk me into a position I didnít want. He even told me certain jobs that I might be interested from what I read online wouldnít be good and provided a list of reasons (which when speaking to others in the field were right). I found the job that I think will truly make me happy over time because I decided to be honest and not settle for what I wanted.
Iím now at my original goal weight I set for myself. I lost muscle tone so technically although Iím there number-wise, Iím not there health wise since Iím only a month out of a broken wrist and wasnít really focusing on weight training early on. I updated my goal to lose more fat while walking, knowing I can work on building muscle when I get the OK from my dr. Iím organizing my apartment. Iím seeing friends. Iím taking care of myself. My new job starts in two weeks and I already feel like Iím on the path to recovery. Who knows? I may even get in BETTER shape now and change my goals even more (no worries Ė going to keep healthy goals!)
Tuesday, September 10, 2013
Well I'll update in more detail later, but after a summer of getting motivated to walk 8 miles 3 days a week, begin my running program and realize I needed to find a new job because the atmosphere I was in was actually causing me panic attacks and making me seriously miserable, I broke my wrist. Tripping. walking at night wearing flip flops (so, I may have had a couple drinks at a wedding, but the dr said there is no way I should have had that damage without bone denisity issues).
So now after surgery and a plate with 7-9 screws installed, I finally hit my low point. I saw a counselor to get my mind straight and focus on what I needed to do to make me happy, saw my old bosses at my old job to give me the confidence I needed that I AM good at what I do (I left b/c I was burnt out from the hours, but they wanted me to work at an alliance firm of theirs), began interviewing, found a new job and was diagnosed with ADD. Very minor since I've had a pretty successful career thus far, but still I need to learn coping mechanisms.
I also lost 20 pounds since April (well, now 19 b/c I am bloated today), leave this job in the city on Friday for 2 weeks off. I'm spending the 2 weeks organizing my life again since everything became a mess while depressed: apartment a mess, finances not organized, clothes everywhere, etc. I start a new job at a small firm beginning of October where I'll have that great short commute, I'll be able to see friends, I'll be able to see my bf more often hopefully (he is starting a new job too, but he now gets a horrid commute).
My sister had a baby last week and now I'm an aunt, so things are moving on up.
I'll start posting more and in more detail soon, once I survive this last week!
Monday, May 06, 2013
Well I hit my hightest weight about a week ago. Not sure if it was a "blip' day or what, but it really hit me. I went to the gym and I've done something healthy each day since.
Let's hope it sticks!
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