Saturday, September 08, 2012
This was a hard lesson for me to learn. I was so used to blaming others for my problem. If my Dad didn't die, if we had more money, if we... , if we...., if we..... For some reason I always felt like I was missing something, that I had been denied - and I had, my father. It was difficult growing up different.
When my husband left as soon as our daughter was born, I was nearly suicidal. I couldn't imagine what was wrong w/ me.
I gained weight and would eat for comfort and to avoid anything I would not want to deal with.
Years later I learned a few home truths. "He who angers you controls you" "No one can make you feel a certain way without your permission" I have been "controlled" my entire life and I no longer wanted to be controlled. I then had to accept that I could not change anyone else, only myself and as such I could not blame anyone for what is going on in my life. I have a choice.
So my choice today is to look at what I can do differently to help give myself the life I deserve.