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Taking 100% responsibility

Saturday, September 08, 2012

This was a hard lesson for me to learn. I was so used to blaming others for my problem. If my Dad didn't die, if we had more money, if we... , if we...., if we..... For some reason I always felt like I was missing something, that I had been denied - and I had, my father. It was difficult growing up different.

When my husband left as soon as our daughter was born, I was nearly suicidal. I couldn't imagine what was wrong w/ me.

I gained weight and would eat for comfort and to avoid anything I would not want to deal with.

Years later I learned a few home truths. "He who angers you controls you" "No one can make you feel a certain way without your permission" I have been "controlled" my entire life and I no longer wanted to be controlled. I then had to accept that I could not change anyone else, only myself and as such I could not blame anyone for what is going on in my life. I have a choice.

So my choice today is to look at what I can do differently to help give myself the life I deserve.

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DOLLFACEDX 9/8/2012 10:38PM

    Good for you that you are throwing off the those negative thoughts and emotions. . it will take time to completely crawl out from under so be patient with you in this process. . emoticon

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"It's time to start living the life you've imagined" Henry James

Friday, September 07, 2012

I am a big fan of Jack Canfield's Success Principals. I have always wanted to Journal my thoughts on the different principals and how they work for me and how I can apply them to my life, my journey and my goals.

The intro gives me an idea on how the book works. Basically I will get out of it, what I put in. No one else can do this for me but I can gain wisdom and insight through others as well as inspiration.

I have been talking about how overwhelmed I have been lately because of an upcoming move, well it is time I stop the negative self talk and concentrate on what I can do. My husband will be home Monday night until Thursday and that will be a great help! I am encouraged by all that can be done with us working together.

I plan to go to bed early tonight to rest up and reset my energy levels. I work tomorrow, but know that I am encouraged by what I can do and have faith that everything will work out the way it is supposed to!

Also posted photos from my sisters wedding for reality sake.

It is time for me to start living!


Rinse, Repeat.....

Thursday, September 06, 2012

My days are pretty boring these days. Same things over and over again. Being overwhelmed, pack and wonder how it will all get done!

Highlight: My internet was confirmed so I will still have a job when I move!!!

Working on a schedule to complete all of my tasks for the move. I will only have one day off and my regular days off before having to go back to work. Fortunately, once the house is set and electrical and internet is turned on, I should have everything to start work and can unpack on breaks!

Thank goodness for Sparkpeople and Sparkcoach. Don't think I would have stayed on my eating plan without it!


Countdown begins!

Wednesday, September 05, 2012

It has been a long day but am making some headway on my move. Still overwhelmed with the move, packing. I did post some things on Craigs List and still struggling to sell my fence.


1. Spark - of course
2. Take paper to shredding company.
3. Take cans to recycling.
4. Lunch w/ friend.
5. Continue w/ packing.
6. Flylady.
7. Financial.
8. Exercise.


Body said enough!

Tuesday, September 04, 2012

So I had this full list of work to do today and although I did accomplish some of it. My body needed recharging and next thing I knew I was taking a nap 2-3 hours. There is only so much one body can do in a day so I will accept what I accomplished today and add what I didn't do to tomorrow's list.

I was so happy that my husband, even though he is in another town was able to do a couple of things on my list to save me some time, not to mention a number of things I hadn't even thought of yet! Awesome! I now have two days off before working again so it will be used preparing for my move.

1. Wed - Courthouse to pay my taxes - ugh.... emoticon
2. Wed - Confirm fence being sold or have to think of something else.
3. Wed - Should have confirmation on work site approval.
4. Wed - Financial review: Check on bills to be paid. emoticon
5. Wed - Back to bank to deposit check and funds from savings I will be closing as well. emoticon
6. Wed - Sign the moving contract. emoticon
7. Wed - Contact homeowners insurance about change of location. emoticon
8. Wed - Call on dumpster costs
9. Wed - Home review: Fly Lady &
a. Start on a desk/hutch in my bedroom that I want to sell and emoticon
b. Start on the on the wall unit in my spare room that I also want to sell.
c. Put together the shred pile to bring to shred place on Thursday.

10. Don't forget to Spark in am and pm! emoticon

10 to do's in a day is more than enough! I am looking forward to when this move is complete and I can have a more streamlined home and be able to find what I need! emoticon


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