Saturday, April 21, 2012
Wow, this past week was crazy. I had a lot of big stuff for school due, plus an insanely crazy high-pressure interview on Friday morning.
I actually did really well keeping up my nutrition tracker, and I tried when I could to squeeze in 10 mins of exercise throughout the day. I wasn't wildly successful there, but I still did more than normal (which is pretty much zero). Even driving home on Thursday afternoon for my interview, I cranked up the tunes and "car danced" for 20 mins. Imagine what my fellow travelers on I-35 just north of Ames, IA thought!
I was reminded, though, that traveling makes it super hard to eat well. Not impossible, you just have to be incredibly prepared and thinking through everything. I ended up meeting a good friend for dinner Thursday night and she wanted a margarita, so we hit a local Mexican place. They had a "low-carb grilled chicken"....salad (I think it was called??) , and I skipped the pico de gallo and added guacamole (which I could pretty much eat all day long) and sour cream. They don't have nutritional information online, and I'm sure it was more carbs than I wanted, but it was the best option I had, and I was proud of myself for not caving. (Also, go me: I shoved the basket of chips and salsa over to my friend and didn't touch them all night!)
Friday morning for breakfast I had one of those packets of ready-made tuna salad, and a string cheese while I got a little work done in Starbucks. Then I hit the road for the 2 hr drive to the interview. It went *extremely* well (deo gratias!!), and they had a luncheon afterwards, which consisted of a breaded chicken patty, green beans almondine, and a cookie. I had LOTS of green beans, and managed to peel most of the breading off the chicken (skipping the cookie, of course!).
Now, here's the part I'm really proud of: somehow or another, I've learned to conceive of "yummy food" as a reward - I suspect it has something to do with family stuff. We celebrate with ice cream or a special dinner or something. So...I was *really* pumped about this interview going really well. (It was the final interview with my church denominational leadership to determine if I can be ordained and serve as a pastor somewhere, and I had *NO* guarantee that it was going to go well...) It was incredible, and the whole thing was just an example of how crazy and outside-the-box God is. But that's a different story. So...back to the food part.
It would have been easy to have a cookie at lunch, but I didn't. After I left, I went to go visit my absolute BFF who's struggling with some bizarre family stuff. Her tiny little Iowa town has an absolutely adorable old-fashioned soda fountain, and a coffee shop. Before I told her that I was trying to (once again) be serious about low-carb, she suggested going there to grab ice cream. But I said no!! (And because she's awesome, she readily agreed.) We did go to the coffee shop, and I managed to resist all the homemade baked goods. An iced Americano with plenty of cream was good enough for me. I hung out with her for a couple hours, and as I was getting ready to leave again to go home, I started feeling really woozy, and it occurred to me that I really hadn't had much to eat all day. She gave me a big chunk of cheddar cheese for the road, to tide me over until I could get somewhere to grab dinner. Eventually, when I re-entered civilization, I found a Jimmy John's and unwiched a #9. Excellent.
So...bottom line, I had this big important thing to celebrate yesterday, and my old self really wanted to reward me with a cookie or ice cream or a beer or, at the very least, sweet potato fries. But I successfully told Old Self that Future Self would thank me for not doing so. I'm trying to break the bad habit. Instead, I'm going to hit up Bath and Body Works this weekend for a "reward" that will make me feel pretty.
Mmm-hm. Yay for me!
Saturday, April 14, 2012
Ah yes, today came (one of) my biggest problems with food. Basically, I eat when I'm bored, and I don't when I'm busy.
Today I was working on a crazy long paper for one of my classes. I worked at the coffee shop on campus from 9:30-2:30, and it was pretty dead, so I was getting a lot of work done. For breakfast I had an Americano with heavy cream, 2 Hormel Pepperoni Stix, and a string cheese. So far, so good. Then I started in on drinking water, and settled in to work on my paper. And worked and worked and worked. Before I knew it, it was 6:00, and I hadn't had anything else to eat all day. So I headed for the store to pick up some salad mix and whatnot, and it was close to 7:00 before I actually sat down and ate. By then I was starving.
This is in direct opposition to last weekend when I was home for Easter. I was bored and there was food/baked goods/candy everywhere, and I ate it all the time. Like I said, I was bored. And it was there.
I need to figure out a better solution to this. Not just to the "eating all the time" part, also the "forgetting to eat" part. I'm not sure what the answer is - it's not that I'm hungry and I just ignore it. I literally don't feel hungry, so I don't think to stop and eat.
Does anybody have similar issues, or ideas on how to deal with it?
Friday, April 13, 2012
I'm really not having a hard time keeping up the "water" requirements - I really don't drink too much else. A cup - maybe 2 - of coffee in the morning, and then it's really usually only water and tea the rest of the day. Occasionally I get a hankering for a Sonic Cherry Limeade (and really, who doesn't?), and I might take a bottle of pop or a Capri-Sun on a roadtrip, but really, I drink water. Probably, actually, should drink more milk (except for the whole "carbs" thing).
But...I've never really gotten a ruling on whether hot tea counts toward the daily water goal. I've heard "some people" say that it doesn't - tea is tea, and water is water. But in my mind, it should. I rarely drink black tea; it's almost all herbal (or green+herbal) for me. It's water with some leaves stirred in, really. I don't think it's like trying to claim that Kool-Aid is water with flavor mixed in. Or that lemonade is water with lemon juice and sugar mixed in.
Nevertheless...like I said, I mostly just drink water. But on days like today when it's cloudy and cool, I just want the coziness of a cup of Mixed Berry Zinger. Over and over and over again. Can I count it towards my water goal? What has anybody else around here been told?
Friday, April 13, 2012
Mmmm...today was a long day. I had the opening shift at the coffee shop on campus, and was "food-trapped" by 7:30 am! Ack!
Walking through the kitchen to pick up the morning pastries we sell, I saw a cookie sheet full of things I hadn't seen before. I asked the chef what they were, and he said, "try one." Before my brain could even register "No!" I had popped it in my mouth. Turns out it was a deep-fried brownie bite covered in frosting. So...that was my breakfast. It was really good, obviously, but I've been kind of annoyed at myself all day... Did much better the rest of the day, but definitely not enough veggies... Goal for tomorrow!
I also got my exercise in! It ended up being a gorgeous day outside, but me and my friends' class schedules are radically different on Thursday. I really wanted to play outside, so I grabbed my glove and a softball and bounced the ball off the side of the building for 25 mins. I even opened all the windows and sunroof in my car and stuck in a fun CD, and just enjoyed the day. It was fantastic, except that it really tore up the cover of my ball. :(
I was surprised to see how many people here on Spark were so immediately friendly and supportive. It's awesome to be surrounded by so many wonderful people!
One of the students on my campus is a single dad who is struggling with some pretty major health issues, and so he needs a lot of help with the kiddos. The school has been awesome about putting together a whole calendar of what's needed and when - meals, trips to the doctor, rides to school, etc. I signed up to take one of the kids to play practice tonight, which ended up running super-long, because it was actually the dress rehearsal. But it was a lot of fun - the play is The Wizard of Oz, and the kid was one of the Munchkins with a more prominent Munchkin Role. He did a great job, as did the entire cast. Also, it was fun just to do something different, to be with kids, and to be "good" at something besides school. I would have sat there all night with that kid - his life is so crazy right now! :(
But...all the homework I thought would get done sitting there at play practice didn't, since the lights were down and we were watching the whole thing. Glad I did it, but now to get to some "systematic theology."
♪ The wicked old witch at last is dead! ♫
Thursday, April 12, 2012
Alright...I goofed around a little with SparkPeople in undergrad, but kind of got out of the habit. So here we go - for sure this time!
Maybe this is the wrong motivation, but: I'm so tired of fighting with my mom about my weight. We've been doing this since I was in the 2nd grade. I want to lose this weight so that it is no longer something she can criticize me about. I'm taking the power back.
But it's also about something more: the Holy Spirit class I'm taking this semester is absolutely fantastic. The professor is wonderful! One of the things she keeps emphasizing is that living in the Spirit means you are free to be who you really are. That the patterns of the old world no longer define you - Christ defines you. Look, I know this is like Christianity 101, but she's saying it in a way that I am actually hearing, and that is clicking in my heart.
I'm also a childhood cancer survivor, and an amputee. I know that those two things play into my identity a lot as well, and last week, another professor who is a double amputee (due to childhood cancer) told a story in class about, after his second amputation, being afraid - not of dying, but of living. That really hit home for me, because I think I've been living in that "fear of living" for a really long time now. I've never heard anyone articulate it that way before.
So that ties into my Holy Spirit class and realizing that life in the Holy Spirit means I am free to be who I really am - fun, spunky, bubbly, nerdy, intellectual, cancer-surviving, low-carb (except for wine!) loving, and more! Losing weight is part of that, because "overweight" is no longer a physical descriptor me, it's my identity. And I don't want it to be. Sometimes I'm not really sure who "I" am - I think I've buried it for so long, and it might take a really long time to get back and find it, but I want to do that.
I know that low-carb is what works well for my body, so I've set my nutritional goals with that in mind. My other SparkBreak (?) is 10 mins of exercise/daily. I'm super busy with school, but I think I can fit that in, and it would be good for me (obviously).
Now though, it's 1 am, and I have to work at 7. So I should go to bed.
But here goes nothin'!
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