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So much better day!!!

Wednesday, October 26, 2011

What is it that is often said...into evey life a little rain must fall? Yesterday must have been my day for rain, as it certainly wasn't the best I've had recently! In fact, the other evening I was at a meeting where someone did meditations using the book "Alexander and the Horrible, Terrible, No Good, Very Bad Day" and my day was sort of like that!!

I had some wonderful and thoughtful comments on yesterday's blog where I described my angst with the Monster that resides deep inside, and to those who wrote, I can only say loudly THANK YOU! It is so awesome to have support and help a few finger-clicks away.

Here are a couple things that you said in your comments, some came from my thoughts during my morning walk, and some from the Healthy Reflections here on SP and from my Friend Feed.

1. Sometimes our journeys take some wrong turns, and when that happens we have to stop, regroup, figure out where we are going and how to get there. Then we return to our planned route and keep heading in the right direction.

2. Life is a journey that doesn't come with a road map--we have to decide for ourselves what and how we are going to get where we're going.

3. The mind is a powerful thing...it can sink us into the deepest of despair. But, if we can get into those dark places with our thoughts, we can surely get out of those places, as well.

4. Today's SP Healthy Reflection: Do not let what you cannot do interfere with what you can do. John Wooden

5. We can put these kinds of slip-ups behind us and learn from it and move on rather than throwing in the towel completely! As we learn to deal with them they will happen less often and further and further apart!

6. Just saw this in an email from a dear friend: Life may not be the party we hoped for, but while we're here we might as well dance!

Thank you dear friends! This is what makes SP so special! And...I will continue to dance!

  
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LILBITWANNABE 10/30/2011 12:12PM

    Woohoo! I should have read this one before I commented on the last one lol...So glad today is better! Yay:)

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JILL313 10/26/2011 10:37PM

    I love all your wonderful thoughts and the reflections. I'm so glad you're back on Track--I knew that's what you'd do!! I see you're now under 230#s and I'd be happy dancing if it was me. I agree with how important and awesome all the support we get from Spark friends--they are the best. Let's both continue to move forward and show ourselves and others we can do this and get healthier. Lots of Hugs.

Love,

Jill

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MADKAPKID 10/26/2011 7:23PM

    Spark friends are amazing....I agree. I am glad you are having a better day today. WOO HOO! Have a joy filled evening and tomorrow, Karen

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French Fried Onions and The Monster Within

Tuesday, October 25, 2011

I've mentioned before about coming and going on SP for over 4 years. I never totally left, but I often didn't do anything for many months at a time. For some reason, last May a Spark was lit within me and I have been sailing along pretty well since then. In my very first blog I wrote about my previous weight loss efforts and how I've lost and gained hundreds of pounds over the years. I also confessed my dirty little secret about being addicted to food—certain foods, that is. (Is anyone ever addicted to apples?)

Recently a Spark friend wrote a blog titled “I blew it” with her story about making poor choices one day in her journey. The real message, though, I think is that she mentioned that in the past she has lost weight and then gotten to a point where all that stops and nothing more happens, and in fact, the weight creeps back on (in my case, there is no creeping...it jumps back on by leaps and bounds). Her comments got me to thinking about myself and has brought me to acknowledge something I've not been willing to deal with—at least not until now.

I've managed to shed a bit more than 40 pounds since May of this year. As I mentioned, I've lost lots of weight before. I'm so grateful and thrilled I've come this far this time. But, always in the deep dark recesses of my mind, there remains this nagging feeling that it is only a matter of time before I let go and give up and slink back into that dark place where I'm doing nothing to become healthier. My fear of failure is sometimes strong, and possibly it is what has motivated me to a certain extent. My thinking is sometimes skewed (well, maybe lots of the time...LOL) and I wonder how long it will be before I screw it up royally and regain all the weight--again.

So today I had to stop at the grocery store to pick up a few things. On the way past the canned vegetables, my eye caught the display for “French Fried Onions” (with the emphasis on fried, of course). You know the ones I'm talking about—you use them in green bean casseroles. I absolutely love those things! Crunchy, greasy, salty and oniony—totally disgusting to most of you, I'm sure. A package jumped off the shelf and into my cart (with a little help, I'm afraid). After I got home I ate the whole bit...3 oz of junk that figures out at 480 calories, 240 of which are fat calories! Now the self-disgust and beating myself up has started and I am so totally scared that I've set off the Monster within me! That's my real fear...I can sort the rest out as as far as the calories and understanding that one mistake does not have to set the tone for the rest of the journey. I just don't know if I can fend off The Monster and unfortunately, the fear of my failure is looming large right now.

I'm curious to know if those folks who have been so successful at losing so many pounds, including a hundred or more in many cases, have these thoughts, questions and fears? I can understand a fear of gaining it back after reaching our goals, but I'm a long way from being at my goal. Am I the only one who struggles with this? If nothing else, at least I can vent about this in what I consider to be a safe place among understanding and supportive friends.

  
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LILBITWANNABE 10/30/2011 12:11PM

    I've only lost 30 lbs and it's taken me a long time to do it, but I understand the monster! There are a # of foods that I can't seem to enjoy(stop) in small portions, then sets off many more bad decisions. So, no advice here really, but maybe by venting here you've taken a step in the right direction:)

But keep in mind, a slip up isn't a disaster and today is a new day. If today doesn't quite go as planned, tomorrow will be a new day too:) Don't be too hard on yourself, you're doing great!

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DARLENECASEY 10/26/2011 2:05PM

    Ah Jeannie, I know what you are going through, it happened to me yesterday evening when I got home. I fixed me a healty choice dinner because it was kind of late and I didn't want to cook. My dear Mom had FRIED a big skillet of potatoes, I tried not to look at them but it was hopeless.Before I knew it I walked by again and my arm of it's own accord reached out a got a nice crispy slice and into my mouth it went.My problem is when I eat one I can't seem to stop, it's like a demon has possesed me. The point is everyone of us has a devil perched on their shoulder and it is really hard to say no (especially if it's my mom's fried potatoes). You hang in there YOU CAN DO IT

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VTMAID 10/26/2011 1:48PM

    I understand that Monster as well. I rejoined SP actively in May, and have lost 23 pounds. It is a daily struggle. Recently I have had some issues and I believe in large part it is because of emotional eating due to some outside pressures in my life right now.
But, in the end, I can make all the excuses I want. There still isn't a magic wand which will make me healthy and be able to stuff my face with anything I want and not gain weight. That is impossible for me as it is for you, Jeannie. That doesn't mean we give up on the whole weight loss thing, though. We can't--that is unacceptable. (btw, my thing I cannot have in the house is crackers and VT cheddar). And I hate to say this, my darned DH IS addicted to apples. He must eat four of the buggers every day! I can barely choke down one.
So.......Jeannie? Let's keep in this together--all of us together. WE are smart, strong women and we can get this done!
Hugs,
Karen

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MASTERPIECE8 10/26/2011 12:47PM

    I have definitely not lost tons of weight. That is, of course, UNLESS you want to count all of the pounds I've lost over the years. It's all back on this old bod and then some.

I completely understand your fear of The Monster. Consider it a 'short detour' along the way, on your journey. You are doing great. 40# tossed, and more tossing in the making. You can and will do it. I'm excited to be on this journey with you, my Spark Friend.

Barb

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LAURIETAIT 10/25/2011 11:26PM

    You called your quest for good health and a normal weight a journey. Like any journey you may take the occasional wrong turn. It doesn't mean you will never reach your destination. You may have to pull off the road, regroup and look at your map again but you will eventually find your way. Don't be too hard on yourself. Those fried onion things can be very hard to resist! Keep referring to your map and getting lost will be a thing of the past.

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MADKAPKID 10/25/2011 7:40PM

    Jeannie , I can really relate to this. I have NOT lost tons of weight...but battling these thoughts seems to be a constant battle. Some times I am more successful in blocking them than others. I bet if people were really honest many would say the same thing happens with them. I think its part of being human. All we can do is to put it in the past and try really hard to have the little slip up events happen farther and farther apart.

So put a beautiful smile on your pretty face and put the " French Fried Onion" caper in the past where it belongs. Lets both try to be more aware of those LURKING MONSTERS out there waiting to TEMPT our Taste bud into falling off the healthy eating wagon. Have a joy filled day.....Karen



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ESILBO 10/25/2011 7:20PM

    OMG JEANNIE,
I DID NOT LOSE MUCH, BUT ALREADY THE MONSTER COMES HERE TOO....AND TOO OFTEN FOR MY TASTE, BUT WITH SP, I THINK WHATS MAKES IT DIFFERENT IS THAT I DON T BEAT MYSELF TOO LONG, LIKE BEFORE AND THEN QUIT, I SPRING BACK UP FAST AND CONTINUE...ITS LIKE, NOW I KNOW I HAVE FRIENDS WHO CARE AND I CAN TALK TO...AND THEY WILL UNDERSTAND..

I AM SAD FOR YOU MY FRIEND, PLEASE KEEP TALKING, GET THESE MONSTERS OUT ONE DAY AT THE TIME.
LOVE YOU AND I AM HERE TOO, IF YOU NEED, ANYTIME
LOVE YOU DEARLY
LISE

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JILL313 10/25/2011 6:34PM

    Jeannie, I can really relate to your blog as I keep thinking I'm going to slip back into my old eating style--huge portions and lost of fried foods & sweets. Occassionally I do slip up but get right back on track the next meal. You haven't actually done any damage to your body just your mindset. And, just from reading Maggierosebowl's blogs who has lost a whooping 180+ pounds she lives in constant fear of re-gaining the weight. I think it's always in the back of most successful losers mind maybe with the exception of TUBLADY who never seems to have a problem. I know you can do it and it's just a little slip up. . .It could have been far worse. I have faith in you and you have to believe in yourself too. It's good to vent with friends and get support from others like me who have felt just like you do. So don't "beat" yourself up just learn from this and move forward. Just let me know if you want to talk further. I really do care and I know you feel bad right now but it's just a slip up not really a disaster. We all have them occassionally, Maggierosebowl included--maybe even Tisha! Love You.

Hugs,

Jill

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The Potato Bar

Sunday, October 23, 2011

Earlier today I mentioned that we were planning to go to the potato bar for lunch today. The youth group at church sponsored it as a fundraiser. Several of you have asked what it is and I thought I'd just tell you!!

No...you don't go to a bar and ask for a potato! No fries or chips allowed! Maybe if I'd called it a baked potato bar it would have made more sense. Basically, baked potatoes are served with all kinds of different toppings...everything you can imagine, and of course, it varies according to choice. Today they had the following: chili, taco meat, green onions, black olives, bacon bits (real bacon, not the bitty things from a package), salsa, shredded cheese, broccoli, cheese sauce, shredded lettuce, chopped tomatoes, sour cream and butter. Mine was quite healthy, as I chose the broccoli, about a tablespoon each of black olives and bacon, a very small amount of the shredded cheese (maybe a tablespoon), and a couple tablespoons of the taco meat. I added several spoonsful of salsa, put some shredded lettuce on the side with a little chopped tomato and light dressing. So, very yummy!

It's always a free will offering, but the kids do it as a fundraiser to use the money for the holiday projects--the Salvation Army angel tree, shopping for some less fortunate kids at the local schools, etc. I saw several $20 bills in the basket and we were some of the first through the line.

Oh yes...I must confess...I did have a small piece of apple desert that was wonderful and probably not low fat. I aways have trouble trying to track that kind of thing. I finally went with apple pie, even though that isn't what it was.

We've had potato bars for fun evenings with other couples, too. We bake the potatoes and our friends bring the toppings. Lots of fun! So...there you have the potato bar!

  
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MASTERPIECE8 10/26/2011 12:53PM

    It sounds delicious, fun, and it can be healthy. I'd like to do this for my family sometime. They'd enjoy it.

Years ago we had a Wendy's here in town and they had a 'potato bar' and you could add what you wanted. It's been so long ago though. I think the 'additions' were all part of the 'salad' bar. They don't have that anymore. We have a new Wendy's. They have some good french fries!! I am learning to make my own 'french fries' in the oven - sweet potato fries. Delicious. Spray the pan with olive oil or canola oil. Spray some on the fries. Add herbs if you like, sea salt. Bake them for about 15 mins. Delicious.

emoticon I wanted you to see my 'french fries.' These are really the healthy ones.

Barb

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SPEEDY143 10/24/2011 9:45PM

    Oh YuM... baked potatoes are comfort food for me but totally allowed... I use to fix two gigantic ones for DH and I as a side but since Sparkpeople I cook a medium size one and we split it... I skip the butter and use lots of salsa and a little cheese now emoticonor tons of veggies with a splash of Italian dressing *drool* and its a meal in itself emoticon

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VTMAID 10/24/2011 2:21PM

    That sounds like a neat fundraiser, but I know I would get into trouble there. To me a potato is an excuse to have sour cream. Or, to be more truthful, what I really like is an order of sour cream with just a little baked potato as a garnish!
Hugs,
Karen

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LILBITWANNABE 10/24/2011 10:23AM

    Sounds yummy! And for a great cause!!:)

Someone else gave me this idea on tracking food we don't know...On our tracker, click on 'enter food not listed' and add an 'extra food' or 'extra meal'. I have one set for 400 calories and 10 g fat(you make up the #s) for times I indulge, but don't really know how much. Comes in handy when I just don't have the time to search or can't find what I'm looking for:)

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TXMEMAW6 10/24/2011 9:33AM

    The youth group at my church is having something similar next weekend, but they are serving a barbecue plate with it. (Yum!) Nothing better than barbecue and baked potatoes. I'll try to be as good as you were, but don't know if I'll be able to. Congrats on your healthy choices! I know you had a lot of fun and helped raise money for a very worthwhile cause. Hugz.....Sharon

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KARENE10 10/24/2011 8:52AM

    Sounds delish:) And for a good cause too!

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JILL313 10/24/2011 1:21AM

    Here I thought it was potato soup with all the extra toppings--that would be good also. I love potatoes just a little too much and even though they are healthy they are pretty high in calories. I once worked with a temp who was on a very tight budget and she ate at least one potato a day usually for Lunch. . .I've never forgotten that about her. I hope you had a good time and you did choose wisely with good toppings and I'd also have to have a small slice of that apple dessert--it all sounds so yummy. I love your idea about your fixing the potatoes and friends bring the toppings that sounds like fun and an easy way of furnishing dinner. Do you usually have anything else with that? Love You.

Hugs,

Jill

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MADKAPKID 10/24/2011 12:22AM

    what a great idea......thanks....have a joy filled day, Karen

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LINOVER 10/23/2011 9:26PM

    I agree with the others - a potato bar is a great idea! Sounds like you took a healthy approach to your selections. The apple dessert sounds pretty good too!

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GRANPATTIE 10/23/2011 8:09PM

    What a great idea! Yours sounds VERY good! I'll keep this idea in mind!

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ESILBO 10/23/2011 6:09PM

    THANKS..IT SOUNDS GOOD AND ITS A GREAT IDEA
LISE
LOVE

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I Have Bones!!

Thursday, October 20, 2011

Okay...I guess we all know that I have bones lurking somewhere inside all this fatty insulation I carry around with me. But, in the last week or so, I've noticed something amazing—to me, at least. I have collar bones I can see in the mirror! And, besides that, I have knee bones that knock together when I turn on my side when I go to bed. It's actually a little uncomfortable unless I put something between my knees! Who knew I could get so excited about something so weird??

Speaking of bones, I know that weight bearing is helpful for building stronger bones, and walking is one of the best exercises for weight bearing. I sort of always justified carrying all my excess weight around as a weight bearing exercise, but now that I'm thinking more clearly, I'm pretty sure that's not what the experts had in mind. I guess I'll have to build stronger bones by taking the excess weight off them and doing it the right way—walking and exercising (gasp...I said the E word) and getting to be a slimmer, trimmer woman, and not put so much stress on my poor old bones.

I didn't realize that taking off almost 40 pounds could also help me to think more clearly!!

  
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LILBITWANNABE 10/24/2011 10:29AM

    It's so exciting to actually see a difference, Congrats!!:)

I've read that we actually build muscle by carrying all of this extra weight, but as you lose the fat you'll actually be able to SEE the muscles! That sounds exciting to me too:)
Of course we can't use that as an excuse to not strength train LOL

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COMPUCATHY 10/23/2011 9:57AM

    Amazing what getting that extra weight off will do for you, huh?! I think the E word is going to become one of your best friends in the times to come. Now, that you've discovered your bones, I think they are going to want to move more and more. Keep up the good work! Thanks for the encouragement! Spark on! emoticon

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ESILBO 10/21/2011 7:51AM

    AND YOU SAID I WAS AHEAD OF YOU IN EXERCISES MINUTES...LOL...LOOK WHO IS AHEAD ON LOSING...MY FRIEND JEANNIE...LOL...I AM SO PROUD OF YOU, I WISH YOU WOULD LET US SEE AND SHARE WITH YOU...LOL
CONGRATS, LOVE YOU
LISE

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SPEEDY143 10/21/2011 2:29AM

    Oh, dem bones... dem bones!!!! I know exactly what you mean Jeannie emoticonwhen I put my hands on my hips and felt my hip bones I thought something was wrong with me... I was sure I had some kind of growths and asked my DH to feel there and tell me what he thought. He said, "Those are your hips skinny!!" heheheh he called me skinny emoticon

emoticonon the 40 pound loss... you've worked very hard and deserved dem bones emoticon

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JAMER123 10/21/2011 12:36AM

    Great going Jeannie! You did a fantastic job at writing your blog! Thank you and keep up the super job of learning a HEALTHY LIFESTYLE!! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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TUBLADY 10/20/2011 10:38PM

    Had to read your blog, the title intrigued me.
Congratulations on the 40 lbs loss. Way to go.
Yes it does seem that once we lose weight bones seem to appear,
I always hurt when I was fat, but as I lost weight my bones began to feel better. So there is something to less weight, less pain.
If you are seeing bones, you can only guess at the bones I am seeing at 139. But it's all a good sight, at least so far.
Congratulations Jeannie, I wish you all the best in your continuing journey.
Always Tisha. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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VTMAID 10/20/2011 9:00PM

    Way to go, Jeannie! I am not sure I will ever find my knees, but I have found wrists and the hint of an ankle. Collarbones I have had right along. I am not too odd looking from the waist up, but from the waist down I am built like a barn!
Thanks for sharing the blog--I loved it!
Hugs
Karen

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JILL313 10/20/2011 8:00PM

    If seeing my bones for the first time in many years is a thrill well let me join the club soon! You are ahead of me in pounds you've lost and I am so proud of you. I need to do more strength training than I do as I have osteoporsis and who would have thought it as I've read it's more common in thin women. I'm not to the stage where I need the pillow yet and I just hope the need arises soon. You've made great strides and I want to emulate your success==You're a Foxy Grandma Jeannie--WOO HOO!

Love & Hugs,

Jill

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GRANPATTIE 10/20/2011 7:29PM

    Jeannie, WooHoo for YOU!!! You are certainly doing it right. Tomorrow, after my test, I think I'm going to try a small walk. If my knees don't rebel toooo much, maybe I can try more of it. Wow...nearly 40 pounds! I'm so proud of you!!!

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MADKAPKID 10/20/2011 5:30PM

    WOO HOO! Jeannie...You have really been doing well and are now seeing the fruits of your hard work. I am happy dancing for you! In fact, YOU deserve another WOO HOO! Have a joy filled day, Karen emoticon

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COMPASS_ROSE 10/20/2011 5:21PM

    I can remember saying the exact same thing to my Dtr Jamie. She said, you're weird mom--everyone has bones. Pffft. DUH. She's a skinny little heifer without an ounce of fat on her -- what does she know anyway--but I love her! :)

I also have to sleep with a pillow between my knees for the same reason and to keep my hips aligned.

Congratulations!
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HOTPINKCAMARO49 10/20/2011 4:36PM

  emoticon You go, girl! You are doing emoticon emoticon

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Water-Water-Water!!

Thursday, October 13, 2011

Being the good Sparkers that we all are, we know how important water is to our good health! It's all about hydration and all the wonderful things water does for us. What I didn't realize until recently is that it is also good for exercise!!

Yep...drink your water and lots of it, and you, too, will be able to exercise like a pro! It has to do with its flushing system qualities! Drink quarts and quarts of water and what happens? Your system is quickly flushed...and you have to move, move, move to emply the holding tank...sometimes quite quickly! So, not only is your internal system flushed, so is the external. Goodness...why don't they tout the exercise qualtities of drinking water, too?

Hope everyone is having a wonderful, flushable day!!

  
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JILL313 10/13/2011 10:27PM

    Very interesting Jeannie. I do like cold water but with sitting in a chair quite truthfully I don't even sweat or get thirsty. I do drink water throughout the day and like Karen and Lise I usually have to make a late night visit to the Loo.

I haven't felt too good today and tomorrow I'm going to make an appt. with the Specialist to have my cellulitis checked out. I've put it off long enough. What a great Procrastinator I am.

Hugs,

Jill

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VTMAID 10/13/2011 9:38PM

    There might be something to that! I just wish I didn't always wake up at 2am to go!
Then again, I guess it is better that I DO wake up!
Hugs
Karen

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ESILBO 10/13/2011 3:56PM

    LOL....THIS IS WHY THE POUNDS COME OFF, ITS ALL THESE TRIPS TO THE BATHROOM...LOL
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