Wednesday, October 26, 2011
What is it that is often said...into evey life a little rain must fall? Yesterday must have been my day for rain, as it certainly wasn't the best I've had recently! In fact, the other evening I was at a meeting where someone did meditations using the book "Alexander and the Horrible, Terrible, No Good, Very Bad Day" and my day was sort of like that!!
I had some wonderful and thoughtful comments on yesterday's blog where I described my angst with the Monster that resides deep inside, and to those who wrote, I can only say loudly THANK YOU! It is so awesome to have support and help a few finger-clicks away.
Here are a couple things that you said in your comments, some came from my thoughts during my morning walk, and some from the Healthy Reflections here on SP and from my Friend Feed.
1. Sometimes our journeys take some wrong turns, and when that happens we have to stop, regroup, figure out where we are going and how to get there. Then we return to our planned route and keep heading in the right direction.
2. Life is a journey that doesn't come with a road map--we have to decide for ourselves what and how we are going to get where we're going.
3. The mind is a powerful thing...it can sink us into the deepest of despair. But, if we can get into those dark places with our thoughts, we can surely get out of those places, as well.
4. Today's SP Healthy Reflection: Do not let what you cannot do interfere with what you can do. John Wooden
5. We can put these kinds of slip-ups behind us and learn from it and move on rather than throwing in the towel completely! As we learn to deal with them they will happen less often and further and further apart!
6. Just saw this in an email from a dear friend: Life may not be the party we hoped for, but while we're here we might as well dance!
Thank you dear friends! This is what makes SP so special! And...I will continue to dance!
Tuesday, October 25, 2011
I've mentioned before about coming and going on SP for over 4 years. I never totally left, but I often didn't do anything for many months at a time. For some reason, last May a Spark was lit within me and I have been sailing along pretty well since then. In my very first blog I wrote about my previous weight loss efforts and how I've lost and gained hundreds of pounds over the years. I also confessed my dirty little secret about being addicted to food—certain foods, that is. (Is anyone ever addicted to apples?)
Recently a Spark friend wrote a blog titled “I blew it” with her story about making poor choices one day in her journey. The real message, though, I think is that she mentioned that in the past she has lost weight and then gotten to a point where all that stops and nothing more happens, and in fact, the weight creeps back on (in my case, there is no creeping...it jumps back on by leaps and bounds). Her comments got me to thinking about myself and has brought me to acknowledge something I've not been willing to deal with—at least not until now.
I've managed to shed a bit more than 40 pounds since May of this year. As I mentioned, I've lost lots of weight before. I'm so grateful and thrilled I've come this far this time. But, always in the deep dark recesses of my mind, there remains this nagging feeling that it is only a matter of time before I let go and give up and slink back into that dark place where I'm doing nothing to become healthier. My fear of failure is sometimes strong, and possibly it is what has motivated me to a certain extent. My thinking is sometimes skewed (well, maybe lots of the time...LOL) and I wonder how long it will be before I screw it up royally and regain all the weight--again.
So today I had to stop at the grocery store to pick up a few things. On the way past the canned vegetables, my eye caught the display for “French Fried Onions” (with the emphasis on fried, of course). You know the ones I'm talking about—you use them in green bean casseroles. I absolutely love those things! Crunchy, greasy, salty and oniony—totally disgusting to most of you, I'm sure. A package jumped off the shelf and into my cart (with a little help, I'm afraid). After I got home I ate the whole bit...3 oz of junk that figures out at 480 calories, 240 of which are fat calories! Now the self-disgust and beating myself up has started and I am so totally scared that I've set off the Monster within me! That's my real fear...I can sort the rest out as as far as the calories and understanding that one mistake does not have to set the tone for the rest of the journey. I just don't know if I can fend off The Monster and unfortunately, the fear of my failure is looming large right now.
I'm curious to know if those folks who have been so successful at losing so many pounds, including a hundred or more in many cases, have these thoughts, questions and fears? I can understand a fear of gaining it back after reaching our goals, but I'm a long way from being at my goal. Am I the only one who struggles with this? If nothing else, at least I can vent about this in what I consider to be a safe place among understanding and supportive friends.
Sunday, October 23, 2011
Earlier today I mentioned that we were planning to go to the potato bar for lunch today. The youth group at church sponsored it as a fundraiser. Several of you have asked what it is and I thought I'd just tell you!!
No...you don't go to a bar and ask for a potato! No fries or chips allowed! Maybe if I'd called it a baked potato bar it would have made more sense. Basically, baked potatoes are served with all kinds of different toppings...everything you can imagine, and of course, it varies according to choice. Today they had the following: chili, taco meat, green onions, black olives, bacon bits (real bacon, not the bitty things from a package), salsa, shredded cheese, broccoli, cheese sauce, shredded lettuce, chopped tomatoes, sour cream and butter. Mine was quite healthy, as I chose the broccoli, about a tablespoon each of black olives and bacon, a very small amount of the shredded cheese (maybe a tablespoon), and a couple tablespoons of the taco meat. I added several spoonsful of salsa, put some shredded lettuce on the side with a little chopped tomato and light dressing. So, very yummy!
It's always a free will offering, but the kids do it as a fundraiser to use the money for the holiday projects--the Salvation Army angel tree, shopping for some less fortunate kids at the local schools, etc. I saw several $20 bills in the basket and we were some of the first through the line.
Oh yes...I must confess...I did have a small piece of apple desert that was wonderful and probably not low fat. I aways have trouble trying to track that kind of thing. I finally went with apple pie, even though that isn't what it was.
We've had potato bars for fun evenings with other couples, too. We bake the potatoes and our friends bring the toppings. Lots of fun! So...there you have the potato bar!
Thursday, October 20, 2011
Okay...I guess we all know that I have bones lurking somewhere inside all this fatty insulation I carry around with me. But, in the last week or so, I've noticed something amazing—to me, at least. I have collar bones I can see in the mirror! And, besides that, I have knee bones that knock together when I turn on my side when I go to bed. It's actually a little uncomfortable unless I put something between my knees! Who knew I could get so excited about something so weird??
Speaking of bones, I know that weight bearing is helpful for building stronger bones, and walking is one of the best exercises for weight bearing. I sort of always justified carrying all my excess weight around as a weight bearing exercise, but now that I'm thinking more clearly, I'm pretty sure that's not what the experts had in mind. I guess I'll have to build stronger bones by taking the excess weight off them and doing it the right way—walking and exercising (gasp...I said the E word) and getting to be a slimmer, trimmer woman, and not put so much stress on my poor old bones.
I didn't realize that taking off almost 40 pounds could also help me to think more clearly!!
Thursday, October 13, 2011
Being the good Sparkers that we all are, we know how important water is to our good health! It's all about hydration and all the wonderful things water does for us. What I didn't realize until recently is that it is also good for exercise!!
Yep...drink your water and lots of it, and you, too, will be able to exercise like a pro! It has to do with its flushing system qualities! Drink quarts and quarts of water and what happens? Your system is quickly flushed...and you have to move, move, move to emply the holding tank...sometimes quite quickly! So, not only is your internal system flushed, so is the external. Goodness...why don't they tout the exercise qualtities of drinking water, too?
Hope everyone is having a wonderful, flushable day!!
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