Monday, May 26, 2014
Did you ever wonder "why me?" I've fallen into that trap so many times it isn't funny. Why am I the fat one who can't say no to that extra serving of the yummy dessert? Why do I have to be the one who has to shop in the plus size section of the stores? What did I ever do to deserve all these obesity related issues?
Uh oh...I think I fell into my own trap!!! What did I do to deserve plus sized clothing and obesity issues, among other things? Hmmm...did I treat myself to way too many of those desserts because I was "good" all week and I deserved a treat? Does it have anything to do with all those years when I sat on my fanny way too many times and thought I'd get some really good exercise later? Or, might it have been all those evenings when I ate myself into oblivion because I'd had a rough day at work or a serious family problem to solve? And, in the process of doing all these things, might it be why I developed an addiction to certain kinds of foods?
So really, in retrospect, I have to ask why not me? What is so special about me that I would or should be any different from others who have similar issues? Why should it be any easier for me to conquer these challenges? Isn't there a saying somewhere that what doesn't kill you will make you stronger? I'm thinking that I, along with all my very Special Spark Sisters and Friends, must be about the strongest people on the planet. We are forging ahead...not always quickly, not always efficiently, but we're doing it, aren't we? One way or another, we're doing it!! And that, my friends, is all I can ask for today!!
Wishing the very best of "me" days for each of you!!
Sunday, May 25, 2014
Okay...maybe I can get into this blogging stuff. No promises...the jury is still out on that one. But, for today I think I'll write about my personal nemesis: evening eating. It might be really brief. Not much to say that hasn't already been said, either by me or others.
I do great all day long. Healthy, happy breakfast and lunches. Often I have a little mid-afternoon snack. Again, it is almost always a healthy choice. Dinner rolls around and since I almost always have it planned ahead and it fits into my day's calorie count...no problem. Then the real challenge begins, and that is staying out of the kitchen and eating after dinner.
I know that cows graze, not people (thank you, Ramona). I know I won't starve to death before breakfast rolls around. I even know I'm not hungry. I know that if I plan a snack, it also leads to more eating. (Actually, I've come to hate that word "snack." It sounds weird to me...like "snack attack" and conjures up images of a sneak attack on me. But, I digress.)
In the past, I've been successful at taming my monster nemesis. I clean and shut the kitchen after dinner. I go to the other room. I work at diverting my attention. I don't have diabetes and don't need to eat to control my blood sugar. I do all the things I've ever heard suggested, but still thoughts turn to that SNACK. A tablespoon of peanut butter turns into 5 or 6. Those leftovers in the fridge turn into a nibble the size of another meal. Ice cream in the freezer? Forget it!!
Okay, it's out in the open. So today...just for today, I have a goal of getting out and staying out of the kitchen and not eating after dinner. I will NOT starve. I will NOT graze. I WILL be successful! And then, tomorrow morning, I will feel good about myself and move on to another day.
Merriam Webster defines "nemesis" as an opponent or enemy that is very difficult to defeat. It does NOT define it as impossible to defeat!
Saturday, May 24, 2014
Do I have to? Why? Why? Why? It's part of the Spring 5% Challenge I've been in. This is the final week. I haven't done so well weight wise. And now, the last "living the good life" challenge is to blog daily. Drats...I was hoping we'd get away without this being one of the LTGL challenges.
The truth is (as you can already see), I don't really care to do much blogging. I always think I have to be really clever. Or, I have to have something profound that everyone is just waiting to read. Or, heaven forbid, I bare my soul and tell everyone what I'm really thinking. None of those things is really my style.
Thought I'd think a bit about why these last 7 weeks (the time I've been in the Spring 5% challenge) haven't been all that productive. It's been a hectic spring, with moving to a new home in a new location, having trouble with some sciatica, becoming a great-grandma for the first time (that was the fun part, but helping out with the baby has made it a little more busy), and dealing with my Mom and Sis in the nursing home. Those are all excuses for why I've been less than successful.
I think I've run out of excuses. I've used them all up. It is likely that I'll use some of them again, and I can truly say that I continue to learn from my missteps and choices, for even not making a choice really is making a choice, after all. However, I can continue to take those baby steps and continue on this very, very slow journey.
Haven't I read somewhere that the journey may be the destination? I don't even know what that means, but seems like the destination might be getting longer each day!!
Have a great weekend!!
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